Days had passed since Kris was admitted at the city Hospital.  It was a miracle that he survived the gun shot

and the lost of blood, but still he is in state of comatose and no one can tell about the estimated date that 

he might break from his current state.  But on the further scan from his body, it was diagnosed that he is

from a end stage Heart Failure.

'Ms. Jiyeon this may be hard for you to hear but... Kris.. his days are already count.

Heedless from what Jiyeon heard, this caused her mood to get dumped and get to ask what is this Doctor is talking

about.

'Sorry doctor, but what do you mean?

'I'm very sorry to break this to you but Kris has already reached his limit, He's having a heart failure in a end stage case..

it means any moment, any time his heart can stop and never wake up again...

Teary eyed from what she just heard-- 'Wha-WHAT?! how is this possible? please tell me that there's a way

to save Kris.-- she said with a shaky confused voice

'Well there is, a Heart Transplant can save his life. -Hearing this, Jyeon felt ease on her heart, as if a locked chain is

loosen from her.. 'BUT, the doctor said 'We don't have a available heart that can work as his, I'm sorry Ms. Jiyeon but

we can't do nothing but wait till a availabe heart is accessible.  Jiyeon fell silent as she falls to her knees crying

thinking how useless she is....'Why?? Why is this happening to us?- Tears continued to stream down to her

face that day.

4 days passed since Kris was comatosed, days passed with only Jiyeon  who is watching over Kirs day by day

over her side, waiting for him to make a response or any signs of waking up.  

Ever since the night of the Jaejoong incident, Jiyeon never had a night where she isn't haunted by her memories

of that night and ending waking up screaming -'NO LJOE DON'T!

'Jiyeon....

'KRIS! YOU'RE AWAKE! Jiyeon then straightaway ran screaming, calling  for any doctor or nurse to look out for 

Kris.

"Thank God, Kris is awake.

While the doctor and nurses are  looking  into Kris's condition, Jiyeon is waiting patiently outside the

room, confused on how she should feel... happy because Kris finaly wakes up from his coma or get frighten

to hear the details of her questions directly from him.

Moments passed till the doctor came out-'He's looking for you.

Slowly coming in, what front her was Kris's pale cold,disapointed look of his, despite of this, Jiyeon tries to show him

a face full of life to inspire him but then Kris continues to give out a cold look till he breaks his words to her--

'Jiyeon what happened? he started slowly, keeping his gaze to Jiyeon.

'After Jaejoong---'I don't mean that,. Kris cut her off with his cold words 'What am I doing here? I was ready Jiyeon,

I was ready to die that night, why did you even bother bringing me here when I told you to just let me wither there.-he quibbled.

'How much longer do I have to hurt?

'Kris why are you being like this to me? Why? how can I let you suffer like that? Kris I love you! how can I just leave you

behind like that. Jiyeon replied with a voice filled with pain while weeping in her tears.

'I'm suffering because of you! It's because of your love that I'm suffering like this!-he growled.

'No matter what you do, No matter what you say, I can't love you the way you're loving me.

'Why Kris? Is it because of her? Jiyeon then suddenly pulled out a photo from her pocket showing it blankly to Kris.

'Why Kris? Is she the reason why you're being like this?

Kris then snapped the picture out ofJiyeon's hand- 'Jiyeon please, just leave me here... he stated calmly.

Jiyeon growled-'Kris who is she really? What happened to her? Jaejoong.. he wanted to kill you to take revenge for killing her,

Kris please tell me who she really is...

For a moment Kris fell silent with his hands holding into Bora's photo with a face full of dispair.

'Since you're already involve to this, you deserve to know.

Bora was my girlfriend back then, she works at a cafe with his brother Jaejoong and one day I accidentally got to know her.

Our relationship was almost good to be true, Jaejoong and I got along together very well, he even helps me out everytime

I prepare for a surprise dinner or date with Bora.  I was almost part of their family, Bora, Jaejoong and I.  Well unfortunately Bora and

Jaejoong were orphaned when both of their parents signed for a divorce paper and left them for a another family.  Ever since that

day Jaejoong took responsibility of raising Bora, he loved Bora more than anyone else, there was an event when her girlfriend got

jealous of Bora and ended them breaking up. With Jaejoong being  okay with me, everything was in place not even once dream

can match our relationship, till one day everything changed.  It was the night when I kneeled down infront of Bora pulling out a ring,

proposing to be her man for the rest of our life, with Jaejoong as witness. We didn't care about our age, we didn't care if we were

to young, what we cared about was our growing love with each other. But with that same night, the moment that Bora let me tucked the

ring into her finger, I collapsed and rushed down to the hospital.  And when I woke up, Bora was not around.. I was only with Jaejoong

glaring at me with his tears streaming down to his face.  I was very clueless about what happened to me I didn't even know why I collapsed.

The moment I was about to call for Jaejoong, he stood up and left me without a single word. Ever since that day, he never came back

for a visit, not even Bora is coming to see me.  I figured I was operated and got a heart transplant because my heart suddenly stopped from

beating for.. I am having this end stage heart failure, and me being unaware of this. Weeks passed till I finally got discharged out of

the hospital, I ran, ran even though I know that I can't stress my newly heart and myself just yet, but what can I do? I miss Bora and 

I ran heading to her place. When I got to their house what front me was a coffin with Bora's picture on top of it. I almost broke my mind seeing this.

I cried to my knees, I cried, I don't know what to think then till Jaejoong came and picked me up looking furious for the first time.

Jaejoong I said what happened to Bora? He then punched me that almost dragged my senses out of me, he pulled me to my collar up and

said 'You killed her, You killed Bora. even with this day I can still remember how he spoke this words to me. How eager his look

was to put me out of my breath.

I did nothing but to cry and cry then.. my mind wasn't straight back then... I asked him how.. 'Please Jaejoong tell me I said while I was holding into

his sleves looking pathethic with my face covered with tears. Then he stated it to me, I collapsed because of my heart which is beating slowly that 

night, the doctor said that it was to late for me to survive, that I won't last another day If I don't get a heart transplant right away, unfortunately

there wasn't a available heart that my body would accept.  What Bora did was, she volunteered to have a heart transplant with me, at first the

doctor was against it specially Jaejoong, but no matter what I say, I almost dragged her out of the hospital just to stop her but she just won't

listen to me, Jaejoong said.  She did even came up lying to the doctor that Jaejoong and her aren't siblings just to push through with the 

surgery. 'Please stay by Kris's side-- this was the last words that Bora spoke to me. 'I had no choice but to watch her die instead of

you Jaejoong said. After hearing that, I almost end up stabbing my self but.. Jaejoong stopped me, not because he wanted me to live but

for me to suffer more. Since then I lived out my life of a cold ignorant guy carrying the title of a murderer, the man who killed Bora. Since then

I always get to pick a fight with the street gangs hoping that they can somehow end me up, but with every fight I do, the pain of living just get worsen

everytime I get to survive their blows. I even attempted to kill myself, but even how deep my wounds are, it just won't le me die. One time I even

tried stabbing her heart but it just won't work. Now this is the reason why I can't give you my heart... I can't give you this heart that Bora gave to me.

It's dark all around me, t's dangerous. I say I need to forget but I can't.. how much longer do I have to hurt like this.

'Kris.. Bora, How can you call yourself her killer? when all she wanted was for you to live your life... Jiyeon tried to lock down her tears as she stood

out infornt of Kris giving him a stong impression. But as soon as Jiyeon tried to reach him, he cutted her off with his Blunt glaze and said-

'Jiyeon cut it out, don't you get it? No matter what you do, I wont love you the way that you're thinking. So please Jiyeon... just leave me alone.

I can't live any longer, so just act as if you didn't get to know me at all.

She nodded down as she slowly picked her stuff and made her way to the door, as she opens the door she looked up smiling

'Okay Kris I'll get going, see you first thing in the morning and one more thing... I will be your light... I won't give up Kris never.. I'll be

your sun and light your life once again. The moment she gone out, what behinds her bright smile was her tears that she hid from Kris.

'How can I be so dumb? All along I acted as if I know and understand him... She walks her way out sobbing and weeping her tears

silently. It was her first night where her tears does not simple slides to her cheecks but as well it leaves out a trace of scar deep inside of her.

to be continued....