Oh hi there! I'm Park Sandara by the way and that little fantasy back there was just a part of my perfect life back then but right now don't expect an oh-so-perfect life from me. I just can't do it  anymore after what he had done.

I already surrendered trying to bring my old happy self back, even my mom surrendered already, but to be completely honest I want to come back as the old happy Dara again and leave the new sloppy, serious, cold Dara. This is just so not me but I can't blame myself completely because the reason why I'm like this is Jiyong.

"Sweetie! Dinner's ready!" my mom called from the kitchen.

I just came down without saying a word. I'm just make me feel sick whenever I open my mouth, I'm afraid I might say the wrong things again and suffer.

"Sweetie are you okay?" my mom asked worriedly and I just replied with a nod.

Our daily conversations were always like this just exchanging nods and small talks. I know they are already used to it because I am.

After finishing my meal, I quickly go to my room and took a bath and prepared myself for work.

Yes, I'm on graveyard shift. I know it's weird but I'm more comfortable at working when it's night because my mind thinks that time works faster during night. I'm a head publisher/main manager of the biggest publishing company in Korea. We mainly publish magazines but what I love most is publishing books especially romance books. When I read those romance books, it feels like I'm the main character in it and it makes me feel I'm capable of loving.

As I arrive at the doors of the building, The employees started greeting me with cheerful smiles and energetic waves but all they got from me are dull stares and light waves.

"Good Evening Ms. Park oops I mean Noona!" Taemin, my secretary, beamed and I just pat his shoulders in response.

I entered my office and as usual I plop to my comfy seat and scan the bunch of papers resting on my long table.

"Oh Oh Oh NOONA!" Taemin exclaimed as he entered my office without any notice.

"For God's sake Taemin how many times should I tell to knock before entering my office and puh-lease stop acting like a 5 year old kid" I scoffed.

"I'm sorry noona I just got a littl