Everyone asks me what it’s like.  How does it feel?  How is it being the one with the most face time, the one with the most teasers, SM management’s favorite?  Fans ask with wonder, excitement, and general curiosity.  My group mates ask it with poorly disguised disgust and jealousy.

There’s nothing to be jealous of, boys.  It’s not as nice as you think.

I have to keep up my image.  The pressure is the heaviest load my shoulders have ever had to bear.  The pressure of the public eye, of the expectations of peers and superiors, and of the fans themselves, it’s more weight than I ever thought I could handle.  And yet here I am, holding it up, though I tremble, I sweat, I ache.

Why?  Because I can’t let them down.  They want me to be the best, so I’ll do my best.  Although I’m tired, I won’t show weakness.  Although I’ve injured myself, I can’t let it show.  I’ll dance along through it, struggling to hide my expression.  I can’t let them down.

I can’t show the pain.  I can’t let them see.

It’s my responsibility to be the best I can be, and I’m going to do just that, no matter what it takes.

A/N - Something a little different for you. :)  An EXO drabble!  I got this idea when Paz linked me this and mentioned she thought Kai injured himself, because it looked like he was in intense pain.  I don't know if that's true, I just thought he looked concentrated, but there was one particular part toward the end where he did look like he was grimacing in pain. D:  And, well, this came out of it. ^^;
I hope Kai isn't actually injured. T^T