The Beginning of the End

I slam the door behind me as I ran to my bed and cry. Thinking and wonder to myself why things are like this. Wondering why this is happening to me. It’s always one thing after another. First my parents left me all alone in this world, then this; spending the rest of my life with someone I haven’t even seen or met before?

This world has turned against me and so has everyone else. Especially God, the only person I trusted after my parents left me. He had taken them away from me. Now He is trying to take my life too. Maybe He might not have taken away my body but my soul is gone. Now I’m left with nothing, nothing to call my own---nothing. Just nothing!

Dream~
Bam! Something happened and I can’t see the light anymore. It’s so dark.

‘Mommy.... Daddy.... Why.... Why leave me here all alone? No one care about me. I’m so lost without you. Why didn’t you take me with you? Why did You take them and not me?’

This pain I have inside me, it hurts too much. I can’t bare it anymore. I just want to curl up in a ball and never wake up again. It’s just too much pain to bare it all by myself.

Things started to flash before my eyes...pictures. Cars were piling up one after another. I was running and the harder I tried the farther the scene had disappeared before my eyes.

I can hear people screaming for help, and then standing there I saw my parents. Lying there, just staring at me as blood leaked out of their opened wound.

‘Mommy...daddy...’ I cried out...tears running down my cheeks. ‘Mommy...daddy...please come back...’

End of dream~

“Ahh!” I woke up screaming and crying as tear flow down my already wet cheeks from earlier that night.

It’s so cold and so dark. I’m so alone. Too much pain. I can’t deal with it anymore. Sitting up and pulling my knees up to my chest, I hugged myself and rocked myself. Trying to make myself feel better as tears still flowing down my cheeks. As I was crying alone in the dark, I held on to myself not wanting to let go....I can’t take this anymore...checking my watch to see what time it was...only 10:00... Ishouldgo for a little walk to cool myself down before I go back to sleep...

I got up from my bed and changed into some sweats and jogging shoes and headed out the door...

Kim Kang-woo’s Pov:
After a long day of work, I need a hot shower. Right when I walked into my house the phone started ringing.
“Ugh!”As I ran towards the phone after closing the door behind me. “I haven’t even got inside and the phone already start ringing.”
“Hello?”I said into the receiver as I picked up the phone.

“Hi honey...just got home from work?”Coming from the other end was my mother’s voice.

“Yes mom, I just got home. What do you want?”I said tiredly and careless what she wanted. She only called whenever she wants something.

As I was waiting for her to ask me to do something for her; I sat down on my sofa and took off my shoes and socks. Kicking back on the sofa and trying to relax. Right when I was nice and comfy I was soon interrupted by her voice.

“Kim Kang-woo...”Oh, oh, this isn’t good. She never say my full name unless it’s something serious or something that isn’t good. “Son, I want you to get married. Now, don’t go off and try to get out of it.”

This is even worse than I thought. Getting married? I’m not even ready for it yet. Not now, not anytime soon.

“Mom, I don’t want to get married. It’s too soon.”I whined to her but I knew it wasn’t going to work. Whenever she gets her mind set on something no matter what you do you can’t changed her mind.

“Like I said before you start saying all that stuff, listen to me. I already have the girl picked out for you and your wedding is in two months. No matter what you do or say won’t changed my mind. I’m getting old and I want at least one grand kid before I go off.”

This is the worse night ever! A long day at work and now I come home to this. “In two months? Why so soon? I don’t even know her...and I haven’t even seen her. Why if we don’t like each other or why if we can’t stand each other? What then mom?”
“We’ll talk about it tomorrow. We’re going to have dinner with the girl’s family tomorrow at Vue De Monde. Be there at 6:30. Love you and good night.”

She hung up before I could object or say anything to her. She wouldn’t even let me say good night.

What a night! Thought that I could come home and take a nice hot shower and go to sleep, but this had just ruined everything.

I went into my room and changed into my sweats and jogging shoes. I headed out the door going for a jogged to cool myself before I go take that shower I’ve been dying for since I’ve been out of work.