02/03/15

Dear Diary,

I broke my promise today. Let me explain myself: 

I was watching some old videos of us, BIGBANG. I broke my promise while watching this one clip of Seungri on some Taxi show. He was calling all the members..

We were so..rude to him..

I know we were just bullying our maknae and all, but.. I basically said on live television

"Seungri isn't an important part of the group." 

I wonder, even if he knew I was joking..did I hurt his feelings?

I couldn't help but cry over how mean we were to him. I just wish I could see him one last time, so I could tell him that he is a huge part of the group, and we all love and care for him. I wish I could take back all that I said..

I need to take a shower and think, I'm sorry Diary.

I broke a promise today..

~Smiling Angel D-LITE ^-^ <3

03/03/15

Dear Diary,

Seunghyun spoke to me today.

Well..kind of..it was more of random syllables than words..

It kind of sounded like he was gargling and - you know what it doesn't really matter how inhumane it was.

Seunghyun MADE A SOUND TODAY.

More proof he's coming back! I'm so happy~! 

~Smiling Angel D-LITE ^-^ <3

04/03/15

Dear Diary,

I want to tell him so bad..

I don't care if he didn't recover fully yet I need to tell him TT-TT!

Aish, no Daesung! Be a patient boy! 

I still haven't even thought about what I want to say, I guess I'll know when the time comes? ^^"

Jiyong brought take out today, it was absolutely delicious! I was so used to bland hospital food, the onigiri was so full of flavor~! Jiyong is such a great hyung :) 

I can't help but think..

BIGBANG will never eat a meal toge

I can never cook mountains of pancakes for Se

How happy I will be, cooking for the hyungs again.

~Smiling Angel D-LITE ^-^ <3