This chapter will be all about the past .It will be full of flashbacks and they will be narrated by Ahra ,so MOST of that's written is from Ahra's POV & the way that she witnessed Kyu's past .

- Who's is she ?? who is Victoria?? and PLEASE … PLEASE don't tell me that she's his friend … just tell me …. The truth – Ryeowook pleaded crying his guts out.

Everything for him has been a complete hell. He felt nothing but pain. A HORRIBLE kind of pain that would bring the strongest men to their knees. He struggled to breath … as everything just started to somehow make sense to him in a weird ,painful way.

- Just calm down … please … calm down & I swear to tell you everything … - Ahra finally said after being speechless for the past few minutes. Ryeowook raised his head slowly ,looking at her eyes.

When it came to reading face expressions ,Ryeowook was really good . He never knew where he got that talent from ,but it was just something special that he had. He could read everyone's reactions really well .Well … ALMOST  everyone … because most of the times … he was never able to read Kyuhyun's reactions at all ,but he never really questioned why ,he just felt that it was his love for Kyu was too strong that it made him oblivious sometimes.

Ryeowook looked at Ahra with his red ,swollen eyes. And he saw nothing but deep concern. She was scared … or better say … kinda freaked out !

- Just … just wash your face & come back … I will tell you whatever you want to know .. arasso ? –Ahra said with a low voice ,and without a full control on his body … Ryeowook nodded.

He got on his weak feel ,walking heavy steps to the bathroom ,he washed his soaked face ,then got out of the bathroom ,and just when he did .. Ahra turned her head immediately & looked at him.

Ryeowook broke the eye contact with her quickly then sat on the same chair he was sitting on.

For some reason ,he felt mad at her . He didn't have the right to ,but he was.

He tried to convince himself that she has nothing to do with this as she didn't even knew that him and Kyuhyun were already in a relationship  ,but his mind wouldn't be very convinced.

- Tell me … I don't mind if the story takes all night … just tell me – Ryeowook saidcoldly ,and he could hear Ahra's sigh.

Ahra took a deep breath ,closing her eyes …

Ryeowook's heart skipped a beat when she opened to talk .He was just as nervous as she was ,if not more.

- What do you want to know ? – Ahra asked with a steady voice.

- Who is she ?

- Victoria is a Chinese girl ,she came alone from China when she was only 16 to continue her high school study & get to university here .That's how she & Kyu met ..

- And … ? TELL ME !! I wanna know everything .. – Ryeowook said when Ahra stopped talking ,she sighed before continuing.

** Ahra's Flashbacks **  

"Everything happened when Victoria moved to Kyu's class. She was different from any other girl Kyuhyun knew at school or anywhere else.

Very proud o talk to anyone ,she would ignore the other guys laughing at her or imitating her broken-Korean kind of talking. She would stay alone when the breaks happens & never talked to anyone.

Kyuhyun came home really angry that day ,I got confused but I didn't wanna insist on him to talk ,knowing that if he needed anything he would tell me anyway … indeed … few minutes later ,Kyu was standing in front of me. I looked at hi confused & he said :

-Noona ? am I really that ugly ??!!

I laughed really hard at the question ,but shook my head no.

                    -Then why can't I impress her ??! - Kyuhyun asked me really annoyed & I shocked.

Yes ,Kyuhyun was one of the most popular kids at high school because of our family's name ,and that fact made Kyuhyun really famous … besides the fact that all the teachers liked him as he was always a model for the perfect student.

But … despite all that … Kyuhyun has NEVER actually loved ,or even LIKED a girl before !

He was always surrounded by the girls that did almost everything to impress him ,but he never cared much. All he focused on was his studying … nothing more.

So .. to see him this confused & desperate over a 'GIRL' was a first. But I didn't wanna jump to any conclusion ,since I didn't even know who was she … maybe he was talking about his teacher ?!

-Who is she ?- I asked curious & he sighed deeply … he really looked frustrated.

- Her name is Victoria ,a new Chinese girl that came to my class one month ago ,and I REEEEALLY like her … the problem is that she never talks to anyone ,and when I try to talk to her she tries her best to avoid any conversation-  Kyu explained annoyed ,but I couldn't help but laugh.

-NOONA !!! WHY ARE YOU LAUGHING AT ME ?!!- He asked really angry & I just smiled.

- It's the first time you really seem interested in a girl that's all –I replied smiling & he let out a sigh while lowering his head ,he knew I was right.

- It's weird ,and it's confusing me … she's really unique ,she doesn't care what others might say about her .She never listen to the dump jokes the kids make up about her nationality or broken accent. All she cares about is classes ,she's so hard-working !- Kyuhyun explained ,and I couldn't get more surprised .That look I his eyes wasn't any kinda look.

He fell for the girl.

Few days passed after that thing Kyuhyun told me … and a week later ,he entered the house as quick as a tornado ,breaking into my room without even bothering knocking the door ,I death-gazed him at the action & he laughing dumbly.

- Sorry ! but you'll forgive when you hear why I'm excited !! – Kyuhyun said & I forgot my mad state for a second. I gave him a questioning look & his smile grew bigger.

-Me & Victoria were working on the science project today ,and I asked her out on a date !! and she AGREED !!!! SHE AGREED GOING OUT WITH ME !!!

** END OF FLASHBACKS **

Ryeowook was listening with great attention ,and he let out a sigh when Ahra stopped. He wasn't crying ,and he was calmer than before ,but the pain in his heart never faded.

- His high school sweetheart  –Ryeowook said bitterly ,but Ahra shook her head ,making him confused.

- That was only the beginning of Kyuhyun's first love … and the one that destroyed him the most – Ahra added & Wook gasped at the word 'destroyed'

-W- what do you mean ,please continue … - Wook said as he was really DYING to know the whole story , Ahra sighed.

- Kyuhyun & Victoria started dating since that day ,but I was the only one who knew ,and of course I covered up for Kyuhyun

- Why would you cover up for him going on a date ?!! he was a high school kid … who doesn't date in high school … it's normal ! –Wook said confused.

- Not for my parents … they were deadly strict about these kinda things ,they didn't even allow me to go on dates ,and they forced my boyfriend to break up with me when I was a senior in high school & that broke my heart ,so I always covered for Kyu because I never wanted him to go through what I went through – Ahra said & Wook looked at her shocked.

- Why were they like that ?!! I mean your parents?!

- They thought that these were childish things that would only lead us to fail in school .Taking an 'A' in school was worse than taking an 'F' ,if you don't get that 'A+' … you're DEAD !

- So … what happened next ?!!

- Victoria accepted going on that date with him ,and hey did …

** Flashbacks **

Kyuhyun told my mother that he would to study with Siwon ,and I saw him calling Siwon telling him to cover up for him in case that our mom called to ask for him.

He was really nervous ,something that was totally opposite to his personality which was confident most of the time ,but this time … Kyu seemed freaked out more than nervous !

He spent a lot of time sitting in front of the big closet ,looking at the millions outfits that he had in his closet ,but still confused & not knowing what to wear.

He glanced up when he heard my footsteps beside his is room door ,and smiled widely before getting on his feet & running towards me. He grabbed my wrist & pulled me in.

-Nona ! save me ~ ! I don't know what to wear ?!! what should I wear ?!! I don't wanna seem too sophisticated ,but at the same time I wanna be impressive ,what should I wear ?!! –Kyu asked me pouting & I started laughing hard ,I never thought in a million years that I would see me cold brother freaking out like that over an 'outfit' !!

He looked at me confused when I started laughing ,before he frowned angrily & crossed his hand on his chest.

-Ah forget it ! I should've expected that you'll laugh at me – Kyuhyun said to me angrily ,but I couldn't help but let out another laugh as I gently ruffled his hair.

- Here … wear these .. and the blue & white sneakers …. You would look perfect ! – I said to him as I chose an outfit from his closet & gave it to him ,he tried to pretend that he was still angry ,but I could catch a warm smile on his lips.

- You really like her this much ?!! I never saw you this anxious before in my life ,EVER ! –I asked & he raised turned his head to look at me.

- Yes noona .. I never liked any girl before ,but she's special … unlike any other … she doesn't care about what anybody else think about her … and that's … special ,for a girl !- Kyuhyun said looking down ,and in that moment I was sure.

My little brother was far into love with that girl without even noticing ,he thought that he just liked her ,but I could've sworn that he was crazy about her .Still … I didn't wanna embarrass him ,so I silently left the room so he could prepare for his first date.

Few weeks passed ,and Kyuhyun was falling in love with her more and more every day.

Every day after school ,he would tell mom that he's going to study either at Siwon's house ,or at HyukJae's. Surprisingly … my mother never asked him for any details like she would usually do ,and that made ME suspicious.

Me & Kyuhyun thought that everything was going just fine , until that afternoon.

It was a Saturday morning ,and Kyuhyun was planning on spending the entire day with his soon-to-be-girlfriend. I heard him talking about his plans for days ,how he was going to take her to the amusement park , and show her everything in Seoul.

He was talking with Victoria on the phone in the library ,and I was just sitting there reading a book.

"I can't wait to see you … I … umm .. really m-missed … m-missed y-you" Kyuhyun stuttered nervously ,and I smiled at how cute he looked ,but immediately … my smile vanished ,when I spotted our mother standing at the door frame.

I turned my head immediately & looked at Kyuhyun ,who was just as pale as I was ,if not more.

He hung up the phone unconsciously and put it in his pocket. My mom started approaching him calmly as he slowly walked backwards.

- Who was that you was talking to & can't wait to see ?! –My mom asked firmly ,and although her voice was calm … we both knew that she was not calm … AT ALL.

- S-Siwon …. I … I was talking to S-Siwon !! –Kyuhyun stuttered and I slapped him in my head ,he should've been more calmed.

- WOW ! and you really can't wait to see Siwon ? ! Weren't you with him yesterday ?! –My mom asked as she stood in front of Kyuhyun ,who I could hear him panting nervously.

I was about to jump into the situation ,because I really hated to see Kyuhyun in that state ,but as I approached them ,my mom said something unpredictable.

- Why don' you invite that girl to dinner tonight ?- My mom asked smiling ,while me & Kyu looked at her with eyes opened wide … not actually believing whatever we both just heard.

- WHAT ? w-what do you …. – Kyu tried to ask.

- Kyuna … baby … the mother knows when her son is lying to her ,just invite her to dinner tonight … I'm curious to meet that 'friend' .. arasso ? – Our mom said smiling ,and Kyu nodded dumbly at her as she nodded as well before leaving the library.

I approached Kyuhyun slowly ,and we both had shocked expressions on our faces.

- What the hell was that ?! – I asked Kyu who just looked at me & shook his head.

- Don't ask … what should I do now ? do I really invite her here ?!

- Well ,if you don't invite her ,then this time she will be really angry Kyu !- I said ,obviously talking about mom.

Indeed .. that night our family was joined by Victoria on dinner.

It was the first time that I meet her ,and I understood clearly why Kyu liked her.

She was tall , with an athletic body ,long ,brown hair ,big stunning eyes ,and really cute features … she really ad everything a guy could ask for in the girl's appearance.

She joined the dinner table , and by the way she handled my mother's direct questions ,I KNEW why Kyuhyun liked her.

I could tell that my mother wanted to intimidate her with some personal questions that would make any girl feel uncomfortable ,but instead .. Victoria answered my mother smiling ! she looked so relaxed & comfortable as she ate the dinner without a hint of discomfort.

I was amazed by her confidence. To be honest ,me and Kyuhyun were more nervous that she was !

She left the house shortly after the dinner ,and Kyuhyun walked her out. I don't know what they talked about .But I remember that when he came back inside the house , he looked more relived & relaxed than before.

And just like that … Victoria became like a 5^th member of our family !

Surprisingly ,my mother liked her ! And she (the mother) told me once that she feels sorry for Victoria ,because she's all alone in Korea. That's why my mom let Kyu hang out with Victoria with no problem.

She thought that Kyu & Victoria were just friends , and she thought that Kyu was only hanging out with her because he felt pity for her being all alone.

And so … Kyuhyun spent the first 2 years of high school dating Victoria secretly. Telling my mother that he is going with Victoria to study ,but instead they would hang out together & go on dates.

My mother wasn't very suspicious ,or at least that what we thought.

Kyuhyun's marks were as high as usual ,and he wasn't affected by Victoria in a bad way at all ,I think that's why mom never bothered Kyu about her.

Kyuhyun was happy with her ,he helped her a lot .. and Victoria helped him too through everything he needed.

It was one day of the first week in the senior year … and I remember that Kyu came home late after school ,with an ENORMOUS smile on his face.

-What's the matter with the enormous smile Kyu ?!! –I asked him laughing as he ran to my direction.

- LOOK ! it was an AWESOME day !! – Kyuhyun said excitedly ,as he took some pictures out of his pocket. He gave them to me ,and I knew that he must've taken them at an amusement park .

I thought that they looked perfect together ,they were smiling like two happy kids ,and the colors of the photos were something that would make a person smile !

It was cheesy ,and kinda childish … but since Kyuhyun has never dated someone before her … the pictures were special ,and precious.

The smile I saw on his face that day was a smile that I never saw on Kyu's face before. He was just .. HAPPY !

** End of Flashback**

Ahra took a deep breath ,as she was looking down , then she raised her head ,just to see Ryeowook crying again.

She sighed sadly ,knowing that her words weren't exactly giving Ryeowook any kind of relief or comfort.

- I think it's enough … you need to rest ,I'll tell you the rest la-

- NO … no please go on … tell me what happened ,tell me everything about her –Wook interrupted as he tried to take deep breaths to calm himself down ,leaving Ahra no other choice but nodding .

** Flashbacks **

Kyuhyun & Victoria kept dating during the years of high school. Sometimes he sneaked out of house to see her in the times he was supposed to be studying in, and obiously I was was in charge of covering up for him.

Sometimes ,I felt like what I'm doing is wrong , in a way that I started to have similar fears as my mom about Kyuhyun ,the fears of him falling behind in school because of this relationship. But then .. when the results of exams comes up & see that this relationship wasn't affecting him badly ,I think again ,and realize that Victoria was a reason for Kyuhyun to work harder ,and so I was determined to help Kyu in this no matter what.

The years passed ,Kyuhyun & Victoria both studied business management. They stayed together through the years. Their relationship was the strongest one I've ever seen.

Until one day ,Kyuhyun came home with Victoria , saying that wants to talk my father about something important.

(A/N: This is the same scene that Kyuhyun remembered in the previous chapter ,but this is more detailed & it's from Ahra's POV)  

He went inside dad's office. Me & mom were sitting in the living room ,and the next thing we know .. that there was loud screaming & a sound of some glass breaking coming out of the office.

We were panicked ,so we ran to the office immediately. Victoria walked out crying ,but Kyuhyun stayed inside.

My father's screams were only getting louder & louder ,and despite all my mother's attempts to break into the office ,the door was locked so all we could do was to wait outside anxiously.

Few minutes of screaming & shouting passed ,and suddenly … the door of the office slammed open … the voice of the loud bang that echoed on the wall made us flinch in fear of what had happened.

- Kyuna ,what happened ?? – I asked frightened as I ran to Kyuhyun immediately ,but he pushed me out of his way.

He walked immediately to Victoria ,who was standing there silently with the mixture of fear & anticipation on her face , but he seemed to ignore her freaked out state as he took her arm by the wrist & started walking fast.

- Where are you going ?!!! you can't just leave like that !! – Victoria said that frightened when Kyuhyun started to drag her out of the house ,and he just told her to keep quite.

I was running behind them ,but they were faster ,and the moment I got out of the house ,they were already sitting in Kyuhyun's car. The car took of fast , I tried to follow them ,but there was no use.

That day was a huge day in our family's life. It was the first time for dad to ever be that angry at Kyuhyun ,or at anyone at all !

I went inside the house when my mind realized that maybe he was still screaming ,but there was no loud sounds at all. However ,as I got closer to his office ,I could hear him talking to my mother ,and I could also hear my mom trying to calm him down.

- I swear that if he goes on with this … I will disown him as my son forever !- My father said that in the most angry tune ever .. one that made me shiver in fear at the thought of him actually disowning Kyuhyun ,no matter what Kyuhyun might did !

My mom spent the next hour trying to calm my father down ,,while I just kept sitting in the living room ,my head spinning in chaos after what I heard my father saying an hour ago about Kyu. I was still dazed …. When my phone started ringing.

Half-heartedly I took it out of my pocket ,and looked at the screen. And in that moment ,it was the first time in my life to actually HATE seeing Kyuhyun's name on my phone !

I didn't wanna hear his voice at all ,thinking that if anything happened in our family … it would be his fault alone. I was so mad … but for some reason ,I unconsciously pressed the 'answer' button. I think there was a feeling in my heart that sensed the need to answer.

- Yeoboseyeo ? – I said ,but for few seconds … there was no answer at all –Yeoboseyeo ? Kyuhyun … is that you ? – I asked again ,and this time … I could hear a low voice ,that was closer to a heavy breathing sound –Kyuna … answer me ! is that you ?!! –this time … I was really starting to freak out.

Another minute passed ,and my tears were already starting to fill my eyes ,because I knew … I just knew that something bad was going on.

- N- noon …noona ~ - I tired voice finally said from the other line .. and my heart skipped a beat when I realized that it was Kyuhyun's

- YAH ! WHERE ARE YOU ??! WHAT HAPPENED ?!! WHAT'S TAKING YOU TOO LONG TO ANSWER ?!

-N- noona … I … th-think … killed … I killed her ….

My eyes widened in shock when hearing those words coming from my dongseng ,I was barely breathing .. and my hand were shaking.

- W-what are y-you talking about !?!

- Victoria ~ ….

** End of Flashback**

- So … so y-you're saying that …. – Ryeowook tried to ask ,he wasn't crying anymore ,but due to the mixture of feelings that rushed through him ,he was shivering & stuttering.

- Yes Ryeowook …. Kyuhyun was the one that got Victoria in that accident ..

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Hey guys !

Another lame , and LATE update -____- go ahead and say it … I'm the worst !

So yeah , you all know now why Vic is so important to Kyu .He feels guilty for what happened to her.

I was shocked when I read your comments on the previous chapter & realized how much you guys hate Kyu XDD !!!!

PLEASE DON'T HATE HIM :"( everything will be explained later

The next chapter or two will also have more flashbacks from Kyu's POV ^^ !

Thanks for all the new subscribers ^^ and for all those who never gave up on me & this story :"") <3 I LOVE you guys