TRUE LOVE

RATING: PG

CHARACTERS: MYUNGSOO AND ANNABEL HSU

I am here to tell you a story. A story that will torture your thoughts by day and poison your dreams by night. And while I do my best thinking of the words that can be written or brushed on canvas that can describe the stark of the day Myungsoo died.

Annabel, a simple yet caring girlfriend, loved her boyfriend so dearly, she would give up everything to keep and be right for him. Nothing else mattered that much t her and without him, she feels worthless. Myungsoo, a handsome, loving boyfriend, who never looked at others and smiled ever so sweet that it is sweeter than candy. The sun radiates behind him like an angel, so bright, so glorious, so perfect. He loved her so much, so much more than his own life.

Myungsoo and I have been dating for seven years now, and we pretty enjoy how our relationship is going. It's Fall, our favorite season, here in Los Angeles, California. With this season, we always go to the park and stroll using rental bikes. Today, Myungsoo, planned a special adventure whick makes it really exciting. We saw each other at seven in the morning and went to our favorite diner.  Scrambled eggs, two strips of bacon, and bread. What a perfect way to start a day.  As we were eating, I caught him staring at me and wasn't really touching his food. "hey, stop staring and eat" I said as I stuffed a piece of egg in my mouth. He chuckled, " I'm sorry. I'll just miss staring at you like this" he said. "hush now, it's not like I'm going to disappear tommorrow" I joked. He laughed softly and started eating.

After eating, we went to the nearest arcade and bought a lot of tokens. We first went to his favorite game, the guitar freak, it's a game where you get to complete the song with a guitar. He is very good at playing the guitar and he always gets a perfect score. He insisted for me to play and I obliged which resulted into a broken record. "I told you, I'm not good at music" I scowled. He pinched my cheeks, "it's okay at least you had fun" he said. When he got tired of having perfect scores, he pulled me towards my favorite game, basketball. I'm not bragging or anything but I was a part of our school's girls' basketball team. I beamed as I saw the net and asked him to have a one on one competition with me. "Do you know why I didn't join the team?" he asked. "because you can't shoot?" I said teasingly as I dropped two tokens in the holes. "now that's just insulting, but no it's because I don't want you to go head over heels for me" he said as he cracked his knuckles, obviously playing along. I scoffed, "who said I'll fall head over heels for you? Get ready!" I pushed the game button and the duel started. As expected, I am leading the scoreboard. I peeked to my side and saw him struggling to keep up and sweat forming on his neck. I unconsciously my lower lip as I continue shooting when I heard him, "too hot for you, I see?" I gaped at him, how did he even saw that? I turned my game face on as the time goes down to 10. "I won!" I beamed. He wiped his sweat and smiled. "how can I beat the school's star player? " "y-yah! I told you not to say that." I frowned. He knows how I get uneasy when people tell me that. "hey, I'm just playing." he said as he pulled me by the waist and placed a soft kiss on my forehead.]

We also went to a karaoke hub and sang our hearts out loud. We weren't even serious about it, he even cracked his voice which made me laugh out loud. People outside would occasionally stop and stare at us. We probably look like retards. As we get exhausted using our voices, we went out the hub and searched for another game. He suggested for us to play bowling when a crying boy caught my attention. I walked near to him and squat to meet his height.”why are you crying?” I asked in a child’s tone. Myungsoo followed behind me, looking around. “I want to play” the kid sniffed and pointed at a claw machine filled with candies and plushies. I can’t leave the kid crying so I took all the tokens we have left and gave it to him. “here baby, go and play” I smiled and watched as he ran towards the machine and play. A few moments after, his mom came towards him and got mad of how he got the tokens. We approached and told her what exactly happened. “I’ll pay for it” the woman said. “oh no! It’s okay. I wanted to give it tohim anyway” I said and we bid goodbye. “you really have a soft spot for kids” he said and gave me an amused smile. “ they’re angles it’s hard to say no.” I smiled back.

We had lunch at the infamous McDonalds and brought two pieces of chicken plus extra rice. “remember when we first met?” he suddenly asked as we sat and started eating. “well yeah! You were a transfer student from korea and was about to introduce yourself when I came barging in late.” I chuckled as the moment popped in my head. “ you were like, ‘I’m sorry I’m late Ms. Roose!’ “ he mimic my voice and I stopped myself from laughing. “How about the time, when we had P.E. and the boys took your uniform for fun from the locker room-” “-and the coach had to get me out of the shower room, yes, I remember that thank you very much” he said while smiling. We talked about all of our happy memories together and laughed at our funniest moments. We couldn’t care less of the people staring at us, just laughing and talking and eating all over again.

Then came a long silence. Not the awkward I-can’t-think-of-any-topic-awkward. It was just the type of silence you’ll love. Just seeing him eating in front of you makes everything perfect.  “what if one of us leaves?” he suddenly asked. “huh? Why are you asking such a thing?” I asked as I wiped my oily mouth with a tissue napkin. “oh nothing, just realized we have such wonderful things to think of everyday and we’re still making new ones. What if one of us leaves?” he explained.  “ah, I see.  Well first of all, I don’t think someone’s actually even leaving. We are happy, aren’t we? Why leave? Second if that happens, I would still cherish everything we’ve had and I will never forget about you because you opened my eyes into something magical.” I said. He smiled and reached out to caress my cheek, “I love you Annabel” he said. I touched his other hand and replied, “ I love you more Myungsoo”. He retract his hands with an evil grin forming at his face. I  touched my cheek and felt oil on my face. “yah!” and we both laughed.

Insensitive.  For seven years, Myungsoo and I have been dating for seven years. I should have known he was sick. I should have known he was hiding something from me. How could I be so insensitive? He was never like that to me. Even my slightest pout gives him the urge to ask if there’s a problem. Do I really know him? I wiped the tears slowly forming in my eyes and sighed. Leukaemia, stage 3 and I haven’t got the slightest clue. His parents said he never told them anything about it and obviously, he hadn’t take any medication. Why him? Why does it have to him? He was a great son to his parents, A great brother, A great friend, boyfriend and such a great person. There’s a lot of people who don’t deserve to live why him? I sat on the table facing the window and stared helplessly at the tree. It’s been two days since Myungsoo’s death. The leaves of the tree in front of my window are falling, one by one, each of it slowly dying. I hugged myself as I tried my best not to cry and to not remember everything we’ve had, every moment we’ve shared, every problem we’ve solved, everything.  His soft kisses still lingers on my lips as if we’ve shared one a few moments ago. The minty scent of his body, as I lean on his shoulders, still floats in the air. His shaky laughter, as nice as the music I love, still booms in my ears. How could I accept everything? I looked to the side and saw the letter he left for me. I feel myself trembling as I reached for it. I remembered when his parents called me saying he left something for me. As I came, they hugged me tight. We all know that this will be the last day we’ll see each other without crying. I opened the letter.

To my dearest Annabel,

If you’re reading this right now, I’m probably dead. I want to say a lot of things to you but first things first, I’m sorry for not telling you anything about my disease. I know I should have but I was afraid you’d pity me. You would never see me the same way and I don’t want that to hold you back. I’m sorry that when I feel that my disease in attacking me, I push you away. I know you’ll say that what I’ve said is wrong and you understand because I know you too well baby, but I want you to know that I never wanted to hurt you. I just thought it was for the best.

I remember the first time we met, you look so haggard and sweat were forming at the tip of your nose. You were gasping for air as you explained to the strict teacher why you were late, oblivious to the fact that I was staring at you like a fool totally drooling at how dazzling you are in such a simple way. My heart flipped when she appointed me to sit beside you and I got happier when you gave me a wrinkled note with a happy face drawn in it.  After class, you officially said hi and introduced yourself. If only you knew how your name kept on repeating in my head like a last song syndrome. People don’t normally interest me but you piqued my interest. I don’t know... maybe because I’m not used to seeing girls in big shirts and jeggings, a baby faced creature without any make up on. As we got closer, I realized it wasn’t just those things that I notice that attracts me to you, I realized it was just you, and I’m falling for you, fast and hard. After my confession, I couldn’t believe what I heard. I can’t believe you actually liked me too. Having you as my girlfriend was the best thing that happened to me. I will forever cherish that.

I want to share a secret with you since I’m dead anyway. If I weren’t sick, this exact day, I’d be proposing to you. I don’t know if you’re ready for that and all but I wanted to show you that I’m really serious about you. I know I wasn’t really the perfect boyfriend but I really love you and there’s no one else in the world I want to share my love,happiness, sorrow and babies  but you. I know we’ve had our misunderstandings and such but I’m really happy that before I die, I had the most beautiful day with the most beautiful creature I’ve ever set my eyes on. As much as I want to leave you alone, I have to. I don’t know where I’ll be after everything but you know I don’t break promises right? Remember this, even if you can’t see me, I’ll be always by your side, not in a creepy way, but I’ll keep my eye on you. I don’t want my precious Annabel to be in  the hands of jerks. I love you and you know that, which is why I’m asking you to let go and move on. It will be hard at first but I know how strong you are, how good your will is and I know how much you think it hurts but eventually, you’ll find someone much better than I was. You deserve nothing but the best Annabel and I won’t get on its way. I’m happy if you’re happy. I just hope that when the time comes you meet the guy, at the back of your mind and a small fraction of your heart, I will remain. As much as I want you to keep this letter as a form of my last gift for you, I want you to burn it. Not because I want you to forget about me but because I can’t bear to see you cry every time you see this.

From the boy who loved you with all his heart,

Myungsoo.

I burst out crying and not long when I started coughing. My mom hurried inside my room holding a water and my medication. “don’t cry that much honey, it’s bad for your health” she said and pat my back before leaving the room. “Looks like I won’t see that guy myself Myungsoo” I mumbled to myself.

I  drank the water and threw the medication out the window. He wasn’t the only one hiding something. I have Tuberculosis, and it’s getting worse. Just wait for me my love, I’ll be right by your side... SOON.

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