Days passed, and Janice’s unease kept growing as Kris’s final day approached. how many times had she wished that he had been a normal boy that she could date freely. But right now, it would be hard to let him go. In her heart, she knew he wouldn’t stay forever, and that he had a life, his life, to lead on. Many fans were counting on him, supporting him, while she would be in the shadows, watching from afar when he proves to the world what he is worth, which in her eyes, is stupid because to her, he has already proved much more. Her heart clenched at the mere thought of saying goodbye, and she tried to brush it out of her mind in hopes that maybe he would stay a little bit longer.

Kris noticed her reticence, her more than usual daydreams, and the constant flickering looks she gave him; like a puppy that had just got beaten by it’s master and was waiting for him to acknowledge her. Guilt surpassed all his other feelings, and if it weren’t for that damn concert in Hongkong they were bound to have, he would have stayed for a little while more. However, as much as he wanted to stay by her side, he had a duty to all those fans who were eagerly waiting for him, the ones who supported him and loved him even though they don’t even know him. He was thankful, and grateful for their neverending love.

He had stopped by her bedroom door once, and had cocked his ear, listening softly. She was crying, sobbing softly so as not to make any noise, and by the muffles she was making, he knew that she had been putting her blanket over her face.

With a guilty sigh, he opened the door and didn’t ask for her permission before climbing on her bed, where her back had been facing him. She had turned with a surprised expression before he shushed her, laying next to her and giving her a warm backhug. Her scent was forever imprinted in his brain, and yet, it seemed to get stronger and stronger everyday, so strong that he couldn’t go a day without it.

She moved and looked over her shoulder at the boy “W-what are you d-doing?!” A panicked tone was set in her voice, but Kris turned her back and squeezed her tightly, comforting words smoothing out of his mouth like lullabies.

“You aren’t supposed to be here Kris “ She had murmured, her voice muffled because of her clogged-up nose.

 Finally, the day had arrived. Kris had already packed his things and was carrying it down the stairs when Janice was about to go up. Her eyes widened and she bit her lip to stop it from trembling. * I can’t cry in front of him. I’m not a baby anymore* she had completely forgotten that it was today, and she retracted her steps to let him pass in haste.

“hey, don’t run away” He called out when she turned to go into her room as quickly as possible. She turned reluctantly. Saying goodbye was never one of her fortes.

Kris grinned “it’s still morning. I’m going at 5hoo in the afternoon, so that leaves us enough time to go out somewhere”

“Okay’ she pressed her lips together.

He came back and entwined his fingers with hers, a slow smile spreading across his face when he noticed that they fitted together perfectly. “come on” He tugged her out of the door and made her enter the car, driving off.

“Where are we going?” Janice couldn’t help but inquire.

“You’ll see” He grinned, staring at her from the corner of his eye while focusing on the road. * Damn, it’s hard to multi-task*

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“Seriously?”

Kris shrugged innocently “What?”

Janice rolled her eyes at the absurdity, crossing her arms over her chest “You brought me to La Ronde?”

“That’s what it says on the poster” Kris pointed to the door entrance. She rolled her eyes again, *Why is he always so cocky? *

they walked in together and her eyes rounded in surprise at the first shop she saw. “Candy floss!” dropped open; she had a thing for sweet things, very very sweet things. It was like a dream to her.

Kris raised a brow “Weren’t you the one complaining about coming here a minute ago?”

“I’m making the best of what I have okay?” She stuck out her tongue at him and ran to the stand, her eyes sparkling with excitement as she received the cotton pink cloud matched on a twirly stick. Taking a pinch of the fluffy cloud, she was about to put it in when Kris put it in his, leaning back with a satisfied look on his face and a mischievious glint in his eyes.

She was beyond shocked for words “Hey! That was mine!” She huffed.

“Too late” He his lips while restraining the bubble of laughter that was threatening to fall off his lips. “I don’t see what’s so special with that thing though”

Janice raised a brow tauntingly “Are you jealous of a candy floss?”

“Why would I be jealous?”

“Cause it gets to stick with me” She pulled out her tongue jokingly at him while he stared at her incredulously. * Seriously? What the hell Janice, you’re one of the weirdest person’s I’ve ever met *He shook his head and knocked hers, murmuring “Pabo”

“I told you to stop it with those Chinese Words!” She cried, annoyed.

“And I told you to pay attention, it’s Korean not chinese, Pabo” He chuckled at her embarrassed face.

She covered it up quickly with her natural poker face and turned away harshly, walking as quickly as her feet would take her. He caught up with her easily though, and tugged on her hand so that she fell against him, his shoulder brushing hers. His fingers found his way around hers, and he held her hand clasped tightly as if he would never let go.

She blinked up at him, blinking confusedly as he sent her a grin “What?” He asked innocently.

“I thought you hated skinship” He almost face-palmed himself at her arrogant comment *She had to spoil the romantic moment, did she?*

“fine then “ He shrugged and tried pulling away, but got restrained as her fingers squeezed his gently, her gaze fixing something else as she held onto his hand tightly, her cheeks with a tint of rose. He softened, squeezing her hand back * Gosh, since when have I been so mushy? *

he had no idea how, he had no idea why, he just knew that he wanted to stay as he was, with her, forever.

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“Omo! Isn’t that EXO’s Kris?!”

“Ehh?? Where?!”

“Omygod he’s with a girl! She’s so small, she couldn’t be his girlfriend right?!”

“But they’re holding hands!”

“Relax guys she could be his sister!”

“Omo gotta record this!”

Those comments attained Kris’s ears, and with a swift movement, he pulled Janice close to his side and started running, his legs pumping fast as adrenaline ran through his veins. Janice followed close behind, their hands the only thing not separating them in this crowd during this hot summer day. He arrived to a small corner at the end of the toilets and hid there, pulling her along with him and removing a small cap from his pocket, shielding his face from fans.

Janice was panting beside him, breathing hard. “What was that about?”

“Fans trying to get snapshots of me and my life” Kris raked a hand through his hair.

“Aren’t you annoyed sometimes, that they like to dig in your private life?” She had to blurt this out, she wanted to know his real feelings about the whole thing.

He shrugged “Well, I guess that’s the downpull of being an idol. Even though it shocked me at first how much information they got, I wasn’t really annoyed because in a way, I guess it’s their way of showing their love for me. If it weren’t for them, I wouldn’t have become as popular as I am today. That’s why I don’t push fans away when they come to me” He grinned crookedly, her favorite smile that sent her legs to jelly.

She nodded slowly, seeing for the first time, his wise side that seemed to make her feel all the more childish and immature. “So why are you hiding then?”

“Because I don’t want them to see me with you, and bash on you” He softened his gaze.

She was touched at his heartfelt comment, and had no words to say. That made her all the sadder about him leaving. * So he does care about me *

He looked out, and motioned for her “Let’s go, they’re not here anymore”

She nodded silently and followed his lead, not trusting her voice for fear that it might crack up and squeak. She hated feeling like this, feeling like she owed him something and feeling useless against the emotions that were making her go overboard. * I hate how he makes me feel this way, I loathe it * She thought miserably, trying to calm down her racing heart.

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it was already half past three when they arrived back home, Janice’s heart wilting ever so slightly when the thought of Kris leaving soon striking her as she got a glimpse of his luggage in the car trunk. Kris had gone and taken a quick shower so that he would be fresh for the trip, and she sat on the living room couch, twisting her fingers together like she wanted to wrung out the stress building inside her out of her hands.

*Will he break up with me? We weren’t really ‘going out’ in the first place right? So he doesn’t really owe me anything* That dampened her thoughts though, and lowering her head, she hoped that he would be back soon and won’t forget about her existence.

Kris emerged from the bathroom, wet hair slicked back as small trickles of fresh water were spotted on his face. He caught sight of Janice curled up in a ball at the side of the couch, and moved over slowly. Without making a sound, he crept up behind her and suddenly sprang from the back, catching her offguard.

“BOO!”

“EEEEEEEK!” She fell off the couch in shock while he reached out to grab her waist, snatching her over and smashing his lips onto hers. He couldn’t help but smile into the kiss as she slowly melted and responded back to him. After a while, she pushed him away reluctantly and covered her face in mortification, cheeks fire engine red.

“You should stop kissing me randomly like that!” She cried, annoyed.

Kris pried her hands off her cute face, his a mask of arrogance and mischief. He gently pressed a kiss, making her blink in surprise. “What was that for?!”

“For being so irresistibly cute” he murmured while drawing her back to him and kissing her deeply, passionately like his life depended on it. She kissed him back with such force that he was astounded. Her kiss was longing, desperate for him, sending a silent plea to him. Don’t go.

He pulled away and gazed into her eyes, which were now filled with glittering tears. “I have to go” he whispered softly. She nodded and silently, moved away, biting her lip to stop the sobs that were coming up .

He got out and checked his luggage, trying not to think if how he was going to say goodbye as the girl trailed behind him, her hands clasped tight together to stop them fingers from shaking uncontrollably. * I love you, don’t go. Please, don’t *.

“Well” he turned back and looked at her already miserable face, guilt churning in his heart. He took a deep breath and opened his arms as she jumped to him, hugging him tightly while clutching his jacket with her nimble fingers, scared that he would disappear at any moment. Her nose was buried in his chest, taking in his wonderful sandalwood scent that made him all the more special. He in turn, buried his nose in her hair, loving the shampoo aroma that lifted up his nostrils as he sighed into the embrace. * I’ll come back for you, I promise*

She was crying when she released him, knowing full well that he had to go and that she couldn’t accompany him to the airport because of his fans, and yet, her heart was as twice as heavy as this morning. She simply couldn’t budge. She tried looking away so that he wouldn’t get a view of her tears, but with a strong grip, he brought her face up to his, wiping the teardrops that were falling down her cheeks.

“no-don’t. “ She pushed him away, turning and sniffling.

He blinked “Don’t what?”

“Don’t-don’t look at me. I’m hideous” she rubbed her face against her jacket sleeve, and pushed her hands into her pockets, trying to maintain her composure and being a mature person for once.

Strong arms enveloped her from behind and Kris ily whispered in her ear “Babe, don’t ever say that”

The word ‘babe’ made her head spin, and it took all her energy not to faint in his embrace right there and then.

Kris smiled softly and kissed her cheek “You’re beautiful.” He pecked her nose, giving her an eskimo kiss “You’re cute” He nibbled her earlobe – all the while, Janice was blushing madly, though she couldn’t do anything- “You’re irresistible” And finally, he kissed her deeply, murmuring all the while with his lips hovering over hers “You’re mine”

After a long moment of kissing and whispering, he drew back and bit his lip “I have to go” He murmured, the words shooting another bullet into Janice’s heart. But she nodded, and tried to make a wriggly smile appear on her face as he got into the car.

He rolled down his window and she smiled slightly, waving. He smiled back and was about to turn on the engine when she ran up to him and called out his name. he turned his head quickly and widened his eyes when she suddenly kissed him hard on the lips, drawing back and returning to the house at a lightning speed.

A small smile was hovering over his mouth “Ke ai. Saranghae Jan, I’ll miss you”

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another update c: hope you guys like it, lots of fluff! 

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