TAO's POV:

i didn't know why .. but i just can't help myself.. everytime saeri says that she is ashamed of me my heart just shatters to pieces over and over again.. i may not show it but i just am. you know that feeling when you love someone but she just can't accept you for who you are? i am stupid aren't i? for years..everytime she would have her boyfriend while i am courting her.. it just hurts me.. how could she answer some guy when i am the one here for her? i am the one cathcing her everytime she falls.. yet, she doesn't notice me.. i am always an option... i know i am supposed to forget her or something because of what she does to me.. but.. people have their own versions of being stupid right?

i was walking absent mindedly i don't even know where i am about o go.. just when i noticed i was at the MAC. there were still alot of people and the group performing was BAP. i took a bottle of tequila and was about to seat on the black sofa but i saw soojae. i turned around and was about to go. why would i sit with her? she won't even help me. and besides.... we are on a fight.. but i didn't know what came into me and i spunned around again and went to where she is.

'' hey.. soojae.. ''    ''what are you doing here? '' she looked at me blanky   '' i am not here just to tease or to make you irritated ok ? do you want to drink with me? nothing will be gone.. so please just drink with me.. '' then i joined her who is sitting alone in the black sofa.. and i placed the drinks on the table...   '' why did you suddenly became nice? it was one miracle... tch... it was like... awhile ago.. you were so angry at me.. psss... huang zi tao.. you are really bipolar?? waeyo? did something happen? '' i want to ask her to please just stop asking. iknow i am bad but please just please....

'' nothing.. just want to drink.. so shut up and drink with me... '' i said blanky but i was  hurt i wish it would not be obvious on the way i act.. i was about to pour the tequila in the shot glass when she suddenly stopped me.   '' i don't feel like drinking.. don't drink stupid. ''    '' tch. then don't i would drink it by myself.. '' i scoffed at her. then without any word.she held my wrist and pulled me towards the exit. this girl is strong. very strong. i tried to pull my hand but she gripped on it tighter.   '' don't pull of and just follow me while i am being nice! '' she glared at me. since i was not in the mood to fight back and i am too tired.. so be it..  we arrived at the parking lot after running. the scenes that just happened between me and saeri just kept running in my mind like it was on rewind.   '' YAH! HUANG ZI TAO'' soo jae called that just woke me up to reality. i looked at her not knowing what to do. '' pssss..'' she frowned and took my carkeys swiftly that was just hanging on my pants then she opened the door on the passenger seat and pushed me in.   '' yah.. what the- ''   '' just go in! '' she hissed and pushed me inside. what else can i do ? then she went on the other side and went to the driver's seat. is she gonna drive?   '' are you going to drive? '' i asked i was shocked. this girl knows how to drive?   '' yah.. i know how to drive.. don't worry arasseo? i won't destroy your car.'' she smiled. it kinda made me calm. she started the car and drove. it was quiet. when she reached out of the school's parking lot and now we were on the raod, she seemed to notice how awkward it is so she turned the radio on.   the song butterfly was played   ►CLICK≈ this was the song.   then she too sang with the song   ~You’re cute, so sweet

These are the words I always mumble at my lips
Whenever you turn your back to me and walk far away

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