MINHYUNS POV

It was 11 o’clock in the morning by the time we had all woken up. The concert we had the previous night had left us all shattered and we needed our sleep. I could hear Aron stumble down the hallway knocking at each of the member’s doors calling their names. To not get on the wrong side of Aron I flipped off my bed sheets and made my way out of the door and into the hallway to be met by JR leaning against the wall still half asleep. I wonder if he knows how hot he looks with bed hair?

‘Hey guys you want to skip breakfast and get lunch in town?’ called Aron from his room with a sleepy voice breaking my gaze from the still half asleep JR. ‘Yeah whatever’ replied Baekho walking out of his room and into Aron’s. I got dressed quickly in my room swapping my cosy pyjamas for jeans and a t-shirt and waited in the living room. Soon I was accompanied by Ren who instantly hugged me when he saw me. Ren was definitely a hugger whilst I wasn’t. I think he hugs me on purpose to annoy me but I let him do it anyway. We stood in the living room in silence waiting for the others to get ready.  Aron and Baekho walked in, hand in hand not even trying to hide the fact that they are together. ‘You will have to watch out you guys, people might start talking about you two,’ JR said jokingly pushing in-between the couple breaking up their linking hands.

It was bright outside and the warm sun woke us up ready for the walk down to town. As usual Ren was being his overly attached cute self around JR laughing at everything he says whilst Aron and Baekho talked in hushed voices probably about who’s room they are going to sleep in tonight, something that I didn’t want to hear. What is Ren doing? He has been acting strange around JR ever since Aron and Baekho got together. I couldn’t help but laugh at the things Ren does to impress people but this was different. It wasn’t like he was being friends; it was more like he wanted JR.  OMG he has a crush on JR. To be honest I don’t blame him. JR has that effect on people; he saw all the good things in people and was not afraid to point it out.

Ren’s cringe worthy flirting continued throughout lunch and soon JR started to join in. What was JR doing?

‘Wow what’s wrong with you Minhyun, you haven’t said a word since we left the dorms,’ Baekho commented whilst I was glaring at JR’s and Ren’s constant flirting. ‘Is someone jealous?’ Baekho continued letting out a small laugh afterwards resulting in Aron elbowing him in the ribs.

I turned to face Baekho, ‘What are you talking about?’ I replied trying to act like nothing had happened.

‘Never mind Minhyun, Baekho is just joking,’ Aron replied quickly, giving Baekho an evil look. Was I actually jealous of Ren? Is it that noticeable that I have feelings for JR?  Throughout the rest of the lunch I tried to join in with their flirting resulting in some funny looks from JR. It was a bit weird, I don’t know how Ren does it. Just before leaving, Ren left to go to the bathroom. JR moved seats to sit next to me. Even though I am so used to being with JR I couldn’t help but feel my heart beating faster as he sat next to me. Aron and Baekho both left to pay leaving just us two alone at the table.

JR leaned slowly towards my ear making sure nobody would see. I could feel his breath on my bare neck causing shivers to run up my spine. ‘When we get back to the dorms I need to talk to you,’ JR whispered into my ear. I turned my head towards him, centimetres apart, our eyes locking for a few seconds. I didn’t know what to say so just slowly nodded still looking into JR’s glistening eyes. What could it be about? Was he going to tell me he loved me?

Once Ren got back we left to go back to the dorms. I was happier now that JR wanted to talk to me later but couldn’t help but think what might happen. The journey back seemed to take ages. Normally I would take my time to get back but today I needed to know what JR wanted to say to me. JR had stopped the flirting with Ren and was occasionally smiling at me, making my face turn red and heart jump a little.

Once reaching the dorm I walked in and slowly made my way to my room. My breathing had become slightly shallow and my hands where starting to go sweaty as I waited patiently for JR to come and talk to me. It felt like an eternity by the time JR walked into my room and dragged me my arm and into his room on the opposite side of the hallway.

‘Whoa what are you doing?’ I questioned JR as he shut the door behind me.

‘Just shut up, I need to talk to you,’ he replied looking slightly panicked. He reached over and grabbed my arm again bringing me towards his bed. ‘You might want to sit down before I tell you this,’ he said before also taking a seat. Well this is it I thought to myself, the last few minutes of being single. ‘As you know, we have been friends since our trainee years and I really trust you.’ I sat there motionless trying not to get too excited. ‘And I find that you can keep secrets and give good advice occasionally.’ Hurry up JR and just say that you love me I thought to myself feeling my face slowly turning red with every compliment. ‘I need to tell you something,’ he continued making his voice quieter with each word. He slowly reached out towards my hands and took mine in his causing my heart to beat even faster just like today at lunch. ‘You have to promise you won’t say anything,’ he said looking straight into my eyes. Just hurry up and say it JR I kept thinking. Forgetting that I hadn’t answered him yet I just nodded really quickly giving him a smile. ‘Well here goes nothing,’ just hurry up and tell me I was shouting inside my head ‘I am in love with Ren.’ WHAT! I could feel my heart sink as I heard what he had just said. I sat there motionless unable to say anything. Why did it have to be Ren and not me?

Minutes passed and I still hadn’t said anything to JR. I could see his face drop as I pulled my hands out of his. He repeated himself just as the door opened and Aron walked in. ‘Yeah Ren likes you too’ Aron said nodding as JR looked devastated that Aron had just found out without wanting him to know. ‘Please don’t tell him’ JR begged Aron as he stood up and grabbed him by his shoulders. ‘Your secret is safe with me’ Aron replied as he was pulled in for a hug from JR. Aron left the room leaving JR and me alone once more. Putting on a happy face I asked him ‘what do you need help with?’