I'm tired...there's nothing special in my life.

My mother doesn't care for me. When she calls for my brother and I to eat, she never calls my name, she always calls my brother's name....it makes me feel so unwanted.

Last night we had a fight. She said that if we were in Korea, she would've beaten the hell out of me. If we were in Korea, I wouldn't be at ing home, I'd be outside exploring. She kept saying and I kept replying to her in my head, if I said anything, she would hit me more and wouldn't stop complaining. I swear, someday I am going to explode. 

I look in the mirror. I see a fat, ugly, mad looking girl. I give up. Why can't I be happy? Is that too much to ask for?
I can't wait to go to college and leave me past and live my own life.

Sometimes I feel like throwing everything away and becoming a e...I'm just so sick of my life.

Another day of school. I go through the day not saying a single word. I sit on the end of a filled table, always eating and staring into space, never talking. I wanted to become friends with them  on the first day of high school and now, I could care less. There is a guy I like but he never looks at me. Whatever. I don't need boys, women are strong on their own. I've become the feminist I am because of my patriarchal mother, men are better than women, you , you're less than trash.

I walk home today, walking makes me feel a little better about myself.

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