“You . MOVE AWAY!” I moved away. As order was said.

“Yoseob.”

I turned around. It was JunHyung. Shame on me. How couldn’t I recognize his voice? He was the only one I was able to hang out with.

“You scared me.” My voice was shaking like I was crying. His laugh calmed me down.

“I was looking for you everywhere ~ I need you to help me with chemistry.”

He was such a jokerman. Looking for me everywhere?

“Sure… How can I help?” I’d rather go home to my dog, Tichi, and go for a walk with him, I thought. He understands what I want.

“I have a test tomorrow and I don’t know anything.” His hand grabbed my neck and pulled me into the empty classroom.

‘You really can’t read people faces?’

I just wanted to say that out loud. Why didn’t I? I don’t know. After 3 hours he finally understood why  we need chemistry in life. I was sitting there for 15 min more after he left.

He had a date. A real date. With a girl. Why can’t I have a date? Why don’t I find girls attractive? I was ‘in love’ once… yeah.. but it was a boy. That’s not normal right? I know, that’s why I’m not mentaly stable. I start crying when someone touches me (if it’s not JunHyung), I hate it if someone stares at me for more than 5 min. I hate sports because I have to change my clothes right next to all my schoolmates. I hate when someone calls me ‘gay’. I hate my life because it . I hate many things. I live only for my Tichi and.. well I guess for JunHyung too.

 “Yoseob, what are you still doing here?” my thoughts on my life broke down. I looked at the doors.

“Hwaye… I-I’m just leaving.” I didn’t like her. I wasn’t even allowed to. She broke JunHyung’s heart once, and he doesn´t allow me to come close to her. He’s afraid I would be brokenhearted too.

I walked out off the class without even looking at her. I felt her stare on me. I tried to ignore it.

“I have something to ask you…” I stopped, but I didn’t turn around.

“You know there´s a new student coming to school tomorrow. I should take care of him but I’m too busy.”  With your friends right?, I thought.

“Could you take care of him? I’ll pay you.” … did she just asked me that?

“I don’t have time”,I said…Is she putting jokes on me again? I don’t want to scare the new student.

“Please! I’ll pay you!” if this is a joke… I’ll kill myself tomorrow.

“Ok. I don’t need money.”.. Can’t believe I just said that. My steps turned in a really fast running. I came home that fast as I didn’t for a long time.

“Tichi~ I’m home!” He was already jumping on my legs, all happy because he saw me. I was happy too. He walked me to my room and jumped on my bed. I sat by the window and looked up in the sky. It was night already. So many stars were shining around big, full moon. Light wind messed up my brown hair. It was pretty long. Maybe I should cut it.

I remembered back in time… a year ago? Yeah… I was right by this window. It was around midnight. I came home from school. My body was all wet, shaking from the cold. I felt every single bone of my body. My head was about to explode. I still see that man’s face full of joy and madness. I still hear his voice, loud. I still feel his heavy body on mine.

I shaked my head to forget about that. I went towards my bed. Tears were all over my face.

Again I was crying in the dark night like every night before. Nobody saw or heard me. Just Tichi. But he understood. I wiped tears in my shirt and took it off. I looked at my thin body. So weak… even though I had muscles. I lied down and covered myself with warm blanked over my head. Tichi my face and cuddled to me.

“Good night Tichi.”

I had one of most beautiful dreams that night.

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