Stay or Go?



Everyone at the studio were anxiously waiting, fidgeting here and there, pacing back and forth.

Three 2NE1 members,

six 2PM members.

And four Big Bang members.

Their eyes were all locked to the door separating them from the outside.

All were anticipating for their two friends to enter the studio. All ware painfully waiting for the return of the two MIAs.

Minji gasped when she heard the door open suddenly.

“OMO!” She cried out.

As if on cue, twelve heads jerked towards the door, all holding their breaths.

“Wow! Thank you guys for the attention but that surely creeps me out.”

The group sighed as they saw Teddy entered the room.

“Haha! It was just Teddy-hyung!” Big Bang’s maknae, Seungri, laughed aloud. The others laughed as well as Teddy looked at them, confused at their little private moment.

“Ya! What’s the commotion?”

Immediately, everyone froze as the sound of his voice.

“Eh? What’s with the silence?”

Then, as if on cue, everyone rushed to him.

“YA, JIYONG!!!!!”









Jiyong looked at the group gathered around him with confusion.

Why are they surrounding me? What’s with the sudden affection?

“Ya! Stop surrounding me! I have been gone only for a day and yet you’re all so affectionate towards me? Hayyyyssst!”

I heard a loud smack from behind me and I instinctively massaged my head as I winced in pain.

“Aigoo, noona! Why did you have to smack me?” I pouted.

Bom noona was not amused by my cute face.

“Where’s Dara?” She asked me, her voice was loud and firm. I almost whimper at the scary vibe she was giving me.

One by one, everyone started asking me questions. I couldn’t stop to look at them as theyw ere now starting to crowd me.

“What did you do to her, Jiyong?” That was Junsu.

“Ya! Where did you take her, oppa?!” CL.

“How could you, hyung???” Ok, that was Seungri with his little whining again.

“Tell us already please?!” That was Nichkhun. Ha! I laughed triumphantly to myself.

“Why are you not saying anything oppa?” She blinked then widened her eyes. “OMO! Unnie’s not hurt, right??” That would be the ever anxious Little Minji.

“Ya! I’ll kill you if something bad happened to Dara noona!” I snickered at Wooyoung’s statement.

Hayssst! The fanboy’s acting all tough, huh?

“How could you let Dara noona hurt?” Easy, that was Seung Hyun. “You know that she has a frail-looking body and that she’s so clumsy at times that she~“

“Ya! Who are you calling clumsy huh, Tabi??”

We all turned around when we heard her voice.

“Dara-sshi!” I called out to her, aware that a goofy grin was pasted all over my face.

Ha! Who cares if I look stupid now? No one can ruin my day for me!

“Hi Jiyong-sshi.” She smiled shyly at me. I couldn’t help but touch the back of my head and smile shyly at her too.

Haysssst, Dara-sshi! Why must you be so pretty so early this morning?

I suddenly heard a loud coughing sound.

Err, did someone forget to take a lot of vitamin C?

When I saw that it was Bom noona, I immediately straightened up, afraid of what noona has in store for us.

“So…” She paused and looked at me first, then at Dara. “Would any of you care to explain why it only now that the two of you showed up?”

Do you really want to know, noona? Kkkkk.

I saw Bom noona shot me a deadly look and I immediately looked away, afraid of her wrath.

“Arasso.” She said after awhile. “Seems like our great Kwon Leadah here has lost his tongue.” She glared at me. I avaoided her gaze no matter what. Sheeeesh! She’s giving me the creeps!

I turned to Dara who looked calm and collected. That’s it, baby girl!

“Relax, unnie!” She said while flashing that lethal smile of hers. Hayssst, Dara… I thought dreamily.

“Relax? RELAX??” Bom noona widened her eyes with what I just said. “You didn’t come home last night and rely now and you want us to RELAX???”

I cringed at the sound of her voice.

Dara, on the other hand, thought that what Bom noona said was so amusing she had to laugh out loud.

I quickly cower, afraid that Dara-sshi would experience his noona’s merciless wrath.

Aigoo, Dara-sshi… you’ll be dead any minute now. Any minute now.

But Dara continued on, still trembling from laughing out loud.

“I came home last night, unnie!” She tousled Bom noona’s hair. The older girl looked at her, annoyed.

“Ya! Why didn’t you wake us up then?” I can tell she was not buying what Dara had told her.

“Well, you all looked tired after a grueling rehearsal so I didn’t want to wake you up.” She smiled sweetly.

Hayssst that smile again! <3

CL stepped forward and pulled Dara to a hug.

“Aww, Dara unnie is the sweetest.” CL said while still hugging her.

At that moment, I wanted to be CL so badly.

“Unnie, we were just worreid about, ok? We don’t want to lose you, you know…” Little Minji came close to her and hugged her as well.

“Ya! We’re not yet done!” The three girls were still hugging. 

Ya! Now I want to be Little Minji.

I witnessed how Dara gently caressed her head and holding her like she was her daughter.

I sighed.

Yes, little Minji. She’s your omma.

And I’m your appa.

Kkkkkk.

I couldn’t help but giggle silently, controlling my shoulders which were starting to tremble a bit.

Bom noona shot me another deadly look and I sighed.

Haysssst! How come she always notices when I’m getting giddy or something. Is she a psychic? Can she read minds??

“It’s because you’re too predictable, Kwon Jiyong.” Her voice loomed, eerily. EH?? I almost collapsed.

Dara’s head turned towards us after hearing that statement. I looked at her, giving her the best smile I could. She smiled the same way and winked at me, mouthing off her moral support to me.

Kwon Jiyong, hwaiting!

I smiled genuinely. For a moment, it was as if the whole world stopped and all that mattered was her eyes locking with mine…

“Ya, Ssantoki! We’re not done yet.” Hayysst! That voice again! I was on the verge of putting corn in to stop her from talking.

“Why didn’t we see you early this morning?” She put both hands to her waist and I noticed Seung Hyun gulped a little, looking at her curves.

“Well, I was so hungry earlier that I decided to cook. But surprise, surprise! We didn’t have any so I decided to buy in the grocery.” She explained. 

“When I came back to the apartment, you guys were no longer there and I remembered we will be practising here.” She finished.

The three girls nodded in understanding. 

I heaved a sigh of relief.

“Ya! But what about you, hyung? Why were you not in the hotel this morning?” Our annoying maknae, Seungri, asked me while raising an eyebrow.

“I was out jogging as usual and when I returned to the hotel, you guys left already.” I answered him calmly.

The group finally heaved a sigh of relief.

Dara laughed and motioned for Bom noona to come join her and the two other girls who were still wrapped in her embrace. Bom noona giggled and joined them, wrapping her arms around Dara-sshi as if she was her mother. Dara on the other hand, welcomed the three girls in her arms, as if they were her own.

Hayyyyst, Dara! You will really make a good mother someday… I thought dreamily.

I felt a gentle tap on my shoulder. I turned to see my best friend smiling at me with his chinky eyes.

“Care to tell us how your date ended, Ji?” He asked.

“You really wanna know, YB?” I asked him, my eyes twinkling with mischief. I know full well his answer but I couldn’t help but tease the guy. I took one last look at Dara and the rest of 2NE1 before motioning for our group, Big Bang to huddle away from the others.

I saw 2NE1 still chatting away while 2PM were all looking at us, suspicion visible in their eyes.

After settling in a place, four set of eyes all watched me, anticipating the words that will soon be coming out of my mouth.

“Well…” I started to say.




It was a beautiful night.

I felt the night wind gently whispering in my ears before it fully enveloped me.

I shivered involuntarily, feeling the coldness suddenly wrapping itself around my body.

My arms suddenly tightened its hold around her frail body, feeling her shudder as the night wind brushed through her skin.

I felt her turned to though my eyes were closed.

Sandara Park.

I was humming a familiar tune, one that my heart knew too well.

'Mwol haedo ippeun..' 

(Pretty no matter what she does..)

I continued singing softly, my eyes remained closed as I drifted into own secret world.

'Mommaedo ippeun..'

(A pretty body, too..)

I leaned my head to the back of her neck, inhaling her scent and noting that it was the same intoxicating scent I have always craved for each and everyday.

'Baby, I need you…'

I opened my eyes and looked at her radiant face as she stared at the moon above us, illuminating the night sky. Countless stars were surrounding it, as if flirting with its captivating beauty.

'Girl you need me too…'

I gently whispered to her ear, meaning ever word I have said. I saw her looking afar, as if remembering something.

I gave her time to do so and took that time for me to fully appreciate the beauty I was holding in my arms.

I watched her face intently. She still hasn’t changed. Her face was still full of innocence, pure and unaffected by the harsh world surrounding her. 

I suppresed a giggle when I saw her twitching her nose. Too cute. I thought amusely.

My eyes continued to wander around her face. Her skin was still unbelievable clear, just like a baby. Her face were void of acne as well. It was as if she had drunk the whole fountain of youth.

And you’re wondering why it’s hard to call you, noona, huh?

My eyes settled on her pink, luscious lips, staring up at me as if inviting me to have a taste.

I turned her around when I thought I couldn’t take it anymore. I was about to place my lips on hers when I noticed her smiling dreamily.

“Ya! What’s that dreamy smile for?” I asked her. She smiled even more and I blush a little.

“That song… I remembered the first time I ever heard you singing that song… to me.” She smiled, shyly which made my heart dance a little.

“Was it a good memory, then?” I asked her. Please please say yes!

“Neh…” She answered, as if shy all of a sudden.

“Good.” I smiled, satisfied with her answer while I closed my eyes.

“Jiyongie…” I looked at her immediately.

Our eyes locked again.

“I want to say something to you.” She said softly. 

I held her hand, motioning for her to continue.

“I have thought a lot about what you said. About the two of us getting together.”

I felt my heart stopped for a moment.

“I have decided…”




“Decided what, hyung?” Seungri asked, his panda eyes widening as he shoved a mouthful of french fries to his mouth.

Around him, all four members watched him in anticipation, as if he was an actor on a series.



“I understand, Dara-sshi.” I told her, my eyes were starting to well up in tears but I shallowed that fact, knowing full well she would be unhappy seeing my tears.

She slowly closed her eyes and gently whispered to the sky.

“You’re special to me, Jiyong oppa. It’s just that too many things were happening so very fast. I was starting to just completely heal and I am not sure I can wholeheartedly fall in love again.”

I understood her perfectly. I even knew how hard my request was to be granted.

All I wanted was a chance, a chance to prove to her my worth.

A chance to love her again.

Even if it means, taking her time before deciding to love me again, I would gladly accept.

“I’m not rushing you, Dara-sshi.” I spoke to her gently, caressing her face and looking tenderly into her eyes.

“Just let me love you and prove to you that I am still worth loving.”

I leaned my head against hers, staring intently into her eyes.

“I will court you everyday. Even if I return to Korea, I will make sure that you will feel my love for you.”

I felt her taking a deep breath.

“I will do everything you would ask me too. Just let me be a part of your life again.”

I looked at her eyes, pleading with all my heart and soul.

“Please…” 

“Just let me stay by your side, ok?”

I waited for her to reply. She closed her eyes, as if feeling every word I have said.

The agony of waiting was much too much for me.

Finally, she opened her eyes and smiled at me, that smiled that made my heart go crazy every time.

“Please stay by my side, Jiyongie.”



I finished my story and looked around me. The four set of eyes were still glued to me, their expressions were unreadable.

After a few seconds…

“Waaa, hyung! You are so cheesy!” Seungri exclaimed, putting on a disgusting face.

“What the fu~” I started running towards Seungri who hid behind Young Bae.

“Hayssst! I wonder how Dara noona can fall for something as cliché as that…” Seung Hyun wondered loudly while touching his chin.

“YA! What did you mean clich~”

“Well, we all know that noona can be densed sometimes so…”

“Yeah but that means they suit each other very well, right? One is densed while the other is just plain clueless…”

“YA! STOP TALKING AS IF I AM NOT HERE!!!!” I turned to Daesung who was hiding his scared eyes in his bangs in order for me to not see the fear in them.

All at once, Big Bang laughed at their childishness.




Just a few feet away, Nichkhun had heard everything that Jiyong have shared with his groupmate.

Dara seemed to have found her happiness again now that Jiyong is out to take her back.

I should be happy for her right? After all, she had suffered enough. It’s about time to give the girl her happiness, right?

I shook my head.

Why do I feel hundreds of daggers stabbing through my chest knowing that he had wrapped his arms around her all night while watching the sky?

I knew I had fallen in love with her. 

It’s just that I didn’t know how deep enough.

I didn’t know until I heard about her night with him.

And now, I can feel myself sinking slowly, afraid that no hand will pull me up in time.

Afraid that the only hand I would want to pull me up will be taken away from me by its rightful owner.

Should I just give up knowing that I am already into deep?

Or should I fight for her and let her know that she can still find happiness in me?

What will you do, Nichkhun?