Donghae’s P.O.V

I had a few wonderful days, I had Eunhyuk back as my best friend, I didn’t hear a thing about Jessica anymore, and I really thought everything was over and that he was done with her.  One night Jason asked me to hang out with him again, it was the last time we could hang out for a while because he was going to visit America for a year, so I wouldn’t see him back, so we had a good bye party just the two of us, and it was really nice, and I had some drinks, and then it was time to go home, and I really went home with a good mood, I was really happy, because Eunhyuk promised we would watch some movies together, so I was really looking forward to it, because every other member wasn’t home, and no it wasn’t dirty thinking, but it was nice to have no one to annoy you. I took a step inside the dorm, I got a bit confused because it was really dark, I tiptoe towards the room of Eunhyuk, and when I heard nothing I snickers softly, I really thought he was making fun of me, he know I hate the dark, I took a deep breath, preparing for what was coming next, but I could never prepare myself with what happened behind that door, I slowly lift the doorknob down and peek inside, I saw nothing, and I giggles softly, I felt so exciting, and then I screamed well flipping the light on. ´´Got you.´´ When I opened my eyes to see Eunhyuk, I felt my heart literally breaking into million pieces, and my eyes were filling with tears, my worst nightmare was nothing compared to what I saw right now, it hasn’t been as cruel as the scene right before my eyes, I felt something wet on my cheeks, and I opened my mouth to say something, but the scene right now was just so heartbreaking, and I felt myself dying slowly and painful dying inside. Jessica lying half under Eunhyuk his torso was too, their legs tangled around each other, and his tongue stick into , I felt my eyes burn, and then Eunhyuk look up at me, he whispers softly my name. ´´Donghae.´´ And that was the drop, I had to go away from here, I rush out his room, I heard him screaming my name behind me, but I just didn´t care, I had to get away, away from him, from the scene, I just had to go away, I rush towards the door, and I bump into someone, but I just didn´t care, I heard also that person saying my name, but this time it was filled with confusing and worry, but nothing could stop me now, I felt more drops landing on my cheeks, but I just let it stream I don’t care everyone would see it.

I rush outside, I rush towards my car and got inside, I started the car without looking back, I just had to go, I drove without knowing where to go, and every time the scene got played before my eyes, if I closed my eyes I saw them, and every time my heart got ripped out my chest over and over again, I suddenly heard someone honk, and it brought me back into the reality, I look around me, no idea where I was, I just drove, and when I thought I was save, a car came rushing my way, with a speed what wasn´t human, and it crash into my car, and I felt myself flying forward, with the crying and all, I felt myself getting throw through the window, I felt the windows cutting into my flesh, but everything was happened to my body wasn´t as painful and my heart was feeling at the moment, I welcomed the pain, it distract me for a moment, I heard people scream, and then I got dizzy, and the blackness was coming my way, I felt it, and at the moment I welcomed the blackness, I wanted to feel nothing, just nothing, only blackness, it was so nice, I felt nothing, I heard nothing, I thought nothing, and then the blackness over won over my body and soul, and then I was gone, gone and I welcomed it with open arms, I felt myself float. And I felt myself free, free of pain, free of hurt, free of a breaking heart, free of life. And at that moment I asked myself did I die?