yoochan pov:

is all ready been a week since that day,............ i was hurt when i woke up that morning, i was hurt to see hyung eyes, he must have cried pretty much because his eyes were red, i feel hurt and lonly everytime i see him like this .........................

i want him to feel the same for me, so that morning i decidet that i will not come to his house until he ask me to come but.........................i*m here again ..............................because hyung didn*t ask me to come, we talk on the phone but this is not enough for me, i want to see him as well, so there,  i*m here again, at his dor.....................i ring the bell and hyung answer  

jae: oh yoochan (he jump in my arms and kiss my lips, he looks happy)

yoo:why are you so happy (i say as i kiss him back)

jae:i*m just happy ...................

yoo:tel me(i say as we get inside, he got a smile that i didn*t seen in a while.......................he must not know but he is so pretty with that smile...............so pretty everyone would fall for him, a smile that he shoud show more)

yoo:really,............................... tell me why are you so happy(i say while hyung just drag me in his livingroom)

jae:there............look there

yoo:you are watching moonlight prince?(this doesn*t seem ok, is not like hyung to watch this kind of tv show and be happy just with this)

yoo:so now you are happy just to see his face?(i don*t know much about this show, but i can see changmin)

jae:is not like this.............(his eyes are shining, so cute)

jae:is not just this (so cute right now he is making my heart beat so fast)

jae:changmin(he blush).....................he talked about his first kiss(he is blushing so hard right now, i fell like dying, so cute,.............................. but i must stay calm)

yoo: and......................why are you happy............you know that he is forced to talk about this kind of think...........

jae: i know,(he looks a bit upset, even cuter) but this is not like this, is the way he talk................i know him better then anyone, right now he miss me,  he doesn*t hate me

yoo:.......................

i see that smile, you can only make for him, you can only become cute for him, i know now.................i know  why my heart is beating so fast as well................is just like in the first day we meet, it was my first day in the company, i think it was changmin first day as well, because he didn*t talk with annyone, he was just siting and watching others .................................i was talking with junsu and yunho,.............. while  changin was siting in a corner all by himself, and you....................................you came in, that was the first time i have seen someone so pretty, but you looked so sad and tired, so liveless that it hurt.................but then changmin came closer to you and smiled while saying anyohaseyo hyung,...............................and  you become so much more pretty you were smiling and your face was blushind and shining just like now..........................that time we didn*t know, but that time we................the three of as fell in love for the first time....................it must have been love at first sight................................

i see now,.................... i get it...................i never wanted to have you, at last not like this, i wanted you to love me.....................i wanted to be changmin,................. to make you smile like that, make your eyes shine, your heart rice, and your face blush,...................................i see,................. now,................ i*m the one that got everythink, i have you, i have money, and i*m more big that changmin will ever become,.............. but in the end, i got nothink,..........................  you..........................i got your body but i will never have your heart, so i always tought that i should just be happy with what i have.................... but there is somethink i never know............ i do love you,............ but...............but that time i fell in love with your love,.........................all that time i tought that i must have you to be happy, but i never know that i can be happy just saying you,..........................just seeing you loving him,................... back then,............... i was happy to see you talking with him on the phone for hours,........................................................ i was with junsu back then but i never know what can you talk with changmin, the whole day just because you got diferent schedule, but i never know that i was happy to see you two like this,i was happy to pick on you two because you where so cute,...................... i was happy to be with junsu, and i was happy to see your love for eachother, a love that keep growing every day ............................i wonder you.....................if i haven*t taken hyung with me, would you still be happy, would hyung be happy ................... even if you worked for almoust nothink....................would you stil be happy,..........................i was happy to see the two of you love eachother, changmin will you forgive me that i steal jaejoong from you,.................. right now are you happy, i*m happy to see hyung happy,............................................... but i*m not happy to have hyung beacause i know he is not happy,.........................................but even like this.......................even now that i know that i love your love can i let him go.........................i do love your love, and i want hyung to be happy.......................but changmin can*t i take your place, because  i*m not sure i can let him go.....................................sorry changmin, i know i*m bad but i can*t let him go...........................so i will keep him with me, at last for a while.........................sorry i promise to let him go, when you will come after him, ......................... but for now..................................for now let me be happy with him, i love your love, but i want to love him i want him just for me, so for a while even though i know i will hurt many persons please let me have him, ................................................ up until you came after him, i will try to make him happy so you don*t have to hurry,........................i will love him up until you come to get him, and i will love him even after that, you know changmin the three of us got a really srange fate, .............................but i will try to be happy with him

jae: yoochan will you stay for the dinner

yoo:of course .....................i will spend the night in here(i see him blush a bit...............i don*t care anymore i just want to be happy so i will take advantege of any opportunity...........................for now, up until i will lose you, i want to be happy with you)

jae:ok then, is there somethink you want to eat

yoo: anythink ...................i like anythink you cook