Dear Journal,

 July 11th, 2021

It’s now 3:30 A.M. And TOP is next to me, holding me tightly and warmly in his strong arms. I woke up because I felt him squeeze me. I smiled, and he reassured me that everything would be alright. I fell back asleep.
Okay, now it’s 11 A.M. and I was sitting in TOP’s bed with him, eating breakfast. He was getting better but he still couldn’t be let out. He couldn’t walk either. Why would Taeyang hurt TOP so badly? Did he do something wrong? Him and the other members were friends, but maybe, just maybe, Taeyang and the others had been picking on him the day TOP left? Or, when they found out he was with me, they couldn’t accept him anymore. I went on just talking about the whole thing to Seunghyun, and he gave me more details than I thought I knew about the situation already. His eyes welled up in thought. I had to cry along with him. Yup. Two grown men crying with eachother on a bed. Aish, if only I could travel back in time.