Jessica's POV

"Don't!" I tried to stop her as I ran across the road and pushed her out of the way.

I got knocked by the car instead.

She ran to my side. 

"Fool. Why did you have to take the hit for me?" everything became blurry.

Why do I keep having this same dream?

Who's that girl? Why is she so blurry that I can't see her face?

Why do I feel like I know her?

Aish! This is plain annoying.

This girl...

Better check the attic to see if there's any clues.

Was she maybe part of my lost memory?

***

Yuri's POV

I miss her.

Will she ever remember me?

When will I find the courage to tell her that I'm the one? I'm the girl in her dreams.

She doesn't have a lot of friends.

She just tells me about those weird dreams she's been having.

She can't see the face.

If I can, I would tell her straight away that I'm the one.

But I can't. I just feel weird.

I want her to fall in love with me again but... without knowing.

I want to see if she feels something towards me without knowing.

Today you told me about your weird dream again.

"Yul, I had that same weird dream again. That girl looks so familiar. But I just can't put my finger on it."

"Well, you might be able to find out soon."

"Hmm. I don't know really. Who could I have loved so much that I would've risked my life for them?"

Me. You risked your life for me.

Of course, you can't remember.

"Maybe you should just find someone else? For all you know, that girl might be far away from you."

"Or very very near." she ended.

Yup. She's very very near. Right in front of you, in fact.

"Well, anyway, I think that Donghae from our class is kinda hot."

Donghae uh? Not me.

Why did you have to save me?

Why couldn't it have been me in the car accident?

Forget it... I'll never be with you ever again.

"I... need to go to back to class. Forgot to do some homework. Maybe you could talk to Donghae?"

Bitter. So Bitter.

Instead of going back to class, I ran home and asked my parents to write a letter saying I fell sick.

They knew how much I hurt because of Sica, so they did what I asked.

I went to my room and lie down on my bed.

My heart hurts so much... its unbearable.

The only way is to fight fire with fire.

Pain with Pain.

I took out my penknife and cut myself.

Blood. 

Blood was dripping from my arm.

I don't care.

I've experienced the worst pain I can ever experience.

I went to sleep...

***

I woke up.

I don't feel like going to school.

Nah. I'm not going.

I continued sleeping at home.

Around evening, I was awakened by the sound of the doorbell.

I walked out and opened the door.

"Yul! Are you okay? What happened? Did you catch a flu?" Sica asked me.

"I'm fine... Totally fine..."

She held my hand.

"YAH! Your hand is cold!"

"Huh? Oh... nothing to worry about. Just cold from the aircon in my room..."

She held my hand even tighter, and I flinched.

"WHAT? How come you have a cut on your hand?"

"U-uhh... a stray cat scratched me because I provoked it?"

"Aish, you fool! Don't provoke a cat no matter what!"

"I didn't know..."

She dragged me to my room and looked around.

"Kwon Yuri, where did you get hurt by the cat?"

"Just an alley nearby..."

"Oh okay... that explains it. WOW, I guess it scratched you pretty bad uh? There are tissues soaked with blood." she raised one eyebrow up.

"Hehe, Yeah... so anyway. How's Donghae?"

She smiled, "Still very hot. And cute. And handsome."

"Great..."

"OMG! I didn't tell you! I saw his abs! During his basketball practice, he was sooo hot that he fanned himself using his shirt and I caught a glimpse of his abs!"

"Totally good day for you uh?"

"Everything was totally awesome! Except that you didn't come to school..."

At least she thinks it isn't totally awesome without me.

"Anything else interesting today in school?"

"Not really... OH WAIT! You know that school idol, Taeyeon?"

"Yeah..."

"And that biggest nerd, Tiffany?"

"Yeah... Why?"

"Taeyeon asked Tiffany out."

"WOW. A nerd and an idol. Taeyeon's fans must be freaking out. For all you know, we'll see everyone become nerds..."

"Totally!"

I'll freak out... if I find out that you were taken away from me.

I can't lose you...

"Uhh... Sica... won't your parents be worried that you didn't go home yet?"

"Huh? Oh right! Krystal would kill me."

She ran home.

I sighed.

When will you find out?

Donghae? No... you never did like him.

Now you think he's hot?

Jung Sooyeon... I really really miss you.

I went out to have dinner and went online to check on stuff.

Then I slept...

***

I stretched as I woke up.

Oh right... gotta go to school.

AHH! I'm late. 

It's 8 and I'm supposed to reach school by 8.15.

Even a car won't be able to make it in time.

My dad drove me to school and I dashed in.

Miss Kim looked at me and scolded me, before asking me to sit down.

I sat beside Sica, who seemed overjoyed.

During lunch break, she approached me.

"YUL! HE ASKED ME OUT! Donghae asked me out!!!"

My heart dropped... not literally... almost literally though.

I tried to smile. No one ever sees through this smile.

Even if I'm hurting, they can't see it.

They just can't.

Only one person used to be able to see it.

Now even she can't. Because she forgot.

She forgot all about it.

She forgot our love.

She forgot how she saved me.

She forgot our relationship.

"Great... You're really happy eh?"

"YEAH!"

I faked a cough.

"I think my flu is coming back... I think I should go home..."

Weeks later, they were officially together.

There was one particular day, one that I can never forget.

Our anniversary.

It should be me.

I should be the one being with you on that day.

But I'm not.

I skipped school.

So I won't have to see them.

I went to the beach instead.

I wrote on the sand:

Jessica Jung Sooyeon.

"Am I that popular? Do you miss me that much?" I heard Sica.

I turned around and saw her.

She grinned, "Blame yourself for not coming to school."

"I... need to go..." I covered the words I wrote and ran away.

***

Jessica's POV

Why does she keep running?!

I looked at the sand.

A diary?

Yuri's diary?

I opened the first page:

7th May, 2009

Just met the cutest girl in our school ever. Icy... but hot.

How cute is that?

AHH... she's so cute, I could spazz all over her now.

I don't really know how to write diary entries so I guess I'll just write my feelings right?

Bye,

Kwon Yuri.

Two years ago?!

I skipped all the way to the middle.

25th December, 2009

OMG. I just asked her to date and... she said YES.

YEAH! I got my girl.

The cutest, iciest, hottest girlfriend in the world.

Dang this is embarrassing.

The super elated girl,

Kwon Yuri.

One date particularly caught my eye.

13th August, 2010

Why... Why?

Why did she have to take the hit for me?

Why wasn't I the one who got hit?

Why wasn't I the one who lost my memories?

Why does it have to be her?

Why must it be us?

Heartbroken, 

Emo Yuri.

13th August? Wasn't that the day...?

Someone took a hit for Yul?

Could it be... NO WAY.

I flipped to the last page.

In big letters,

"I give up. She'll never be mine. Not ever again. Donghae won. I lost."

Why does this have anything to do with Donghae?

Then I noticed a small print at the bottom.

"Still loving Jessica Jung."

Yuri? She was the one I sacrificed myself for?

The one I loved so much?

She... why couldn't she tell me?

I called her.

Kwon Yuri, pick up your phone...  pick it up...

"Yes, Sica? What's the problem?"

"I'm coming over. NOW." I put down the phone and went to Yuri's house.

***

Yuri's POV

WOW. What the hell happened?

Anyway... where the hell did I put that stupid diary?

Sica then opened the door, in her hands was my diary.

"God... don't tell me you read it."

"I DID. You have a lot of explaining to do, Kwon Yuri."

"I have nothing to say." I calmly said.

"YAH! KWON YURI! COULDN'T YOU TELL ME? THAT YOU WERE THE ONE?!"

"Why did I have to? It doesn't matter. You're with Lee Donghae. You fell in love with him. Not me. Not anymore."

"What makes you think that? What makes you think I don't love you?"

"Stop it... Sica. You're just saying that because you once loved me. You just feel pitiful for me."

"NO. KWON YURI. If I didn't love you, will I do this?" she kissed me.

"I-I..."

It's been a long time since I tasted those lips.

A LONG LONG TIME.

"What about Donghae?" I managed to say.

"I never liked him really. Just thought it'd be fun to play with him. Girls all said he was a playboy."

"Sica..."

"Hush, Seobang."

"Seobang?"

"I remember everything now. My Kwon Seobang. That kiss..." she smiled.

So she remembered?

I smiled... 

***

And they lived happily ever after.