Another day, another year, another round of fighting my feelings.

I'm tired of this. Why can't I find the courage to confess to her?

My heart has broken so many times, why am I even afraid it'll happen again?

It'll eventually heal anyway.

Everyone thinks my life in perfect. A rich family, popular, atheletic, smart and has a lot of friends.

No one really knows me except her and my little danshin friend.

Why am I fighting my feelings? 

Can't I come clean and tell her?

I grabbed my bag as I exited the house.

Even this early in the morning, cars are still trafficking.

I looked at my watch.

I'm still early. I can go to the canteen and eat something before everyone comes... before she comes.

Walking to my locker, dumping all the books needed into my bag and walking to the canteen.

I saw a familiar back and smiled.

No, I didn't recognize her back because I'm a Byuntae. I recognized her back because I love her.

I stood behind her in the queue and chuckled.

She turned around and saw me.

"Taeyeon! Why're you here so early?" she asked me, with an eyesmile.

"You were here earlier than I am, so shouldn't I be asking you instead, Hwang Miyoung?"

"Yah! I told you not to call me that!" she hit my arm playfully.

The store owner smiled, "You two are such a loving couple."

The both of us looked at each other and blushed.

We're not a couple, as much as I wished we were.

After buying our food, we went to the table and ate in silence.

Until she said something.

"Taetae..."

"Hmm?"

"Have you ever wondered who your best friend likes?"

"Which? You or Sunny?"

"Me and Sunny."

"I didn't wonder about Sunny, since she told me. It's yours I wonder about."

I say that, but it's quite obvious. You look at Choi Siwon everyday with dreamy eyes. 

Isn't it him?

"Oh? You want to know?"

"Okay..."

"On one condition! You have to tell me who you like after I tell you mine."

"Then nevermind..."

"Why? Why do you seem to keep it a secret? Is it that surprising?"

"I'm sure it is, Fany..."

"Nevermind, I'll give you hints anyway."

"Okay..."

"Me and the person I like have been mistaken as a couple many many times."

"Hmm? Okay..."

Fany and I... were mistaken as a couple a few times... but she said many times...

"That person is with me almost 24/7."

I'm with her most of the time...

"That person is in our class and..."

And?

"That person is sitting right in front of me now."

I looked around then pointed to myself.

"Me?"

"Yeah... I like you, Taetae... I know you're shocked at this... but... nevermind." she looked down. 

But I just hugged her.

"Fany, I like you too..."

"Taetae? Really?"

"Mmm. I've been trying to fight my feelings since last year."

She hugged me back.

"It's not Choi Siwon you like? You look at him with dreamy eyes everyday..."

"Aniya! He's my cousin. I just find him so dreamy because he plays basketball very well..."

"Ah!"

The bell rang.

The students were coming in already.

After three months of dating, one day... a new student came.

"Annyeonghaseyo, Jessica imnida."

After class,

"Remember to submit your forms about whether you're moving in to the dorms tomorrow!" the teacher said.

I saw Tiffany go to Jessica. I followed her.

"Annyeong, I'm Tiffany. This is Taeyeon." she introduced me.

Then they started speaking in english. I felt so left out... and jealous.

Out of jealousy, I walked away.

But Tiffany ran after me.

"Taetae, what's wrong?"

"Nothing..." I lied.

"Taetae, don't lie to me."

"I told you, nothing."

Days passed and they got closer... while I got more jealous.

What's worst, is that we live just next door to Sunny and Jessica.

Tiffany was so close to Jessica that it seemed as if the both of them were a couple instead of me and Tiffany.

Whenever they were together, I walked away. 

Tiffany didn't even notice, being too busy talking to Jessica.

Until another day, she finally noticed me.

She ran after me again.

"Taetae, why did you go?"

"So you finally notice..."

"Hmm?"

"Nothing... just tired."

I walked back to the dorm.

Lying down and drowning myself in sleep.

Of course, things just had to get worst.

One night...

Tiffany came into my room.

"Let's break up..."

"What?"

It's not like I didn't expect it... but so soon?

Fany, do you know how much you're killing me?

"I'm sorry, Taetae. I love Jessica..."

"No, it's not your fault, Tiffany."

"Taetae..."

"I can let go, don't worry, Fany. I won't get in the way of the both of you's love."

Tears were forming in my eyes. No, don't show Tiffany that you're very affected by the break up. She loves Jessica, with Jessica she would be happier...

"You better go and tell Sica the good news..."

Go, just go. Before my tears drop...

She went out of the room while I cried a river.

Just because of another girl... I lost Tiffany...

Why? I confessed first. Instead Tiffany chose Jessica. I don't blame either of them. But wasn't Jessica dating a girl called Yuri?

Argh! Why must life be so hard? 

I called Sunny, even though she was just next door.

"Yesh, Taengoo?"

"Tennis downstairs?"

"What happened?"

"I'll tell you later."

Yes, my nickname from Sunny is Taengoo and I play tennis whenever I'm down.

I went down with my racket.

Sunny saw me downstairs.

"Taengoo, you cried?" 

She asked, looking at my red and puffy eyes.

"Yeah..."

"What happened exactly? I haven't seen you cried like this ever since Wooyoung broke up with you."

"Tiffany broke up with me..."

"WHAT?!"

"She loves Jessica..."

"Sorry, Taeyeon."

"No. I'm used to this. Falling in love, dating, the person I love falling in love with another person and get heartbroken. You of all people would know."

I served the ball weakly.

Sunny beat me 7-4, expected. Since this was the result I usually got when I felt down.

After the game, I went back. 

Tiffany isn't back yet...

I went into my room and closed the door.

I plugged my earpiece into my radio and turned it on to the loudest.

Music was another thing that made me cool down... usually anyway.

But God wasn't nice to me today.

All the songs were about breakups.

I've had enough drama in my life!

I tried going to sleep, it was hard but eventually I did.

Tiffany's POV

Are you seriously okay with our breakup, Taetae?

I'm happy but... it seemed so unreal. You not going off at me like a volcano. Instead, telling me that you don't mind letting go of me.

Without shedding tears at all.

I finally reached home.

Opening the door of Taetae's room.

I saw a sleeping princess.

Only after going closer, that I realized you weren't okay with me leaving you.

Your eyes, all red and puffy.

I was about to go back to my own room, but stopped when I heard what you said.

"Fany, please have a happy time with Jessica. I'm sure she'll give you more than I ever could."

Sorry, Taetae.

You were even thinking of me in your sleep.

End POV

The next day, I went to class alone, not able to face you.

I'm afraid I can't control myself if I see you.

I sat right at the back of the class, and decided to drown myself in music again.

It helped... until I saw Tiffany and Jessica sitting in front, all intimate.

I couldn't control myself. 

Luckily I was sitting behind. 

When the bell rang, I went straight back to the dorm, wanting to avoid the both of them.

Tiffany came back at night... with Jessica.

"Hello, Taetae..." she said.

"Hey..." I said as I went back into my room.

Trying to avoid them was hard, since Tiffany and I live in the same dorm.

Oh yeah, I left my jacket in Tiffany's room last time.

Forget it. It'll just remind me of her.

But it's freezing in here...

Okay, just go in and get it... ignore them.

I went out of my room and went into Tiffany's room, only to see them kissing.

I was trying so hard to resist my tears again.

"Sorry for intruding... I forgot my jacket..."

I went to get my jacket and walked back to my room, crying once again.

I ran to the tennis court again, but this time, alone.

It was late at night. I didn't want to bother Sunny.

I went to the machines and start hitting balls.

Suddenly, the doors opened.

"Yah, isn't it lonely to be training alone after being so heartbroken?"

"Sunny? Why're you here?"

"Heard from Sica that she and Fany kissed and you walked in on them. Thought maybe you'd be heartbroken again. And here you are."

"What a joke. My life is a joke."

"Taeyeon, you still love her don't you?"

I looked at the stars in the star and smiled.

"So what if I do? She's with Sica isn't she?"

Tiffany's POV

My kiss with Jessi... it felt different from Taetae.

I felt more warmth with Taetae.

I felt more love with Taetae.

I felt more protected with Taetae.

She made me happy.

I thought I was in love with Jessi. But I don't know now.

It's so complicating.

Did I make a mistake?

End POV

I went back to the dorm again. Tiffany was watching the television, but I ignored her.

"Taetae..."

"Save it, I'm tired. You know how grumpy I can be when I'm tired..."

An excuse to avoid her, but it was true. I am grumpy when I'm tired. Not tired literally. Tired of life. Tired of this cycle of getting heartbroken.

I went into my room and slept with music.

God was on my side today. The cool songs, Gee, Run Devil Run, Hoot, Genie, Day by Day and Beginning.

I slept peacefully.

Tiffany's POV

I went into her room again.

I wonder why I'm doing this.

Is it because I'm guilty? Is it because I still love her?

This girl... did I hurt her that much?

Playing tennis with Sunny two days in a row and listening to music two days in a row.

I took out her earphones and smiled at the sleeping angel in front of me.

Her eyes were red and puffy again.

Another line about me... do you dream of me all the time?

"Tiffany, I still love you regardless of how much you hurt me."

I couldn't resist anymore. I wanted her back. I wanted Taetae back.

Tears were rolling down my cheeks. 

I ended sleeping on the floor in Taetae's room that night. I didn't mind, tomorrow was a break day for us.

"Fany? Are you okay? Why are you sleeping on the floor? It could hurt your health you know!"

I opened my eyes to that familiar voice.

The voice I've been longing to hear. I missed her voice. I missed her worrying about me.

"Taetae..."

"Yah, Fany? Are you okay? Aish, you fool." 

She brought me back to sleep on my bed.

"Taetae... why do you still care about me so much when I broke your heart?"

She looked surprised.

End POV

What kind of a question is that?

It's obvious isn't it? 

Because I still love you, Fany.

"Well... because..."

"Taetae, I miss you."

What?

"I miss you, Taetae. I miss you worrying about me. I miss you talking to me in your lovely voice."

I gulped.

"Taetae, it was a mistake. I love you."

"Fany, stop... you shouldn't hurt Jessica like that."

"No. The both of us agreed. We made a mistake. That is to break up with our love. We thought we were in love with each other. And ended up breaking you and Yuri's hearts."

"Fany..."

"Please, I regret what I did. I understand that you might not ever forgive me... but... I just neede--"

I stopped her by kissing her.

"I missed you too, Fany. I still love you."

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Author's Note:

So how was it? 

My first time trying one-shots.