"Tiff, im going out"

"JUNG JESSICA!"
"STAY RIGHT THERE!"

Tiffany screamed as she stormed out of the kitchen with a spatula in her right hand,
left chucked to her waist.

Jessica chuckled.

"JUNG JESSICA!"
"How many times have i said you are not supposed to head out until i've certified that you're able to?!"

Tiffany scolded with a frustrated expression.

"I really have somewhere important to go"
"Plus, i've recovered already!"

"Recovered?!"
"You are still having a fever!"

"Thats a low grade one"
"And it wont affect anything, Tiff!"

"To me, it will!"

"Tiff, i really have to go"
"Im running late for the date"

"I don't care!"
"You're not leaving!"

Tiffany insisted with a pout as she stared at her spatula and chuckled a little.

"Or do you want me to spank you with this spatula?!"

Tiffany chuckled dorkily as she examined the spatula with a playful grin.
Jessica laughed and gave Tiffany a kiss on the cheeks.

"Do whatever you want with me when im back"
"Not now, gotta run"
"And Tiff, something's burning in the back!"

Jessica chimed with a giggle before running out of the house while Tiffany mentally cursed as she ran back to the kitchen.

You're gonna get it from me when you return back home, Jessi!
JUST YOU WAIT.

Tiffany continued with her cooking for awhile more after Jessica left before her phone rang.
Picking it up, Tiffany gasped.

It was her manager.

"Where are you now?"
"You know you've exceeded the date that you should be back in LA!"
"Im coming over to bring you back now, Tiffany!"

"Ohmygod"
"Oppa, mianeh!"
"Something cropped up and i've totally forgotten about it"
"Plus i fell sick recently"

"You fell sick?"
"Are you better now?"

Tiffany nodded to her phone while she continued.

"Im better already"
"Can you give me a few more days?"
"I'll settle everything and return"

"Okay, i will"
"Tiffany, you should be more responsible than this"
"You know that right?"

Tiffany sighed.

"I know"
"Its my fault this time round"
"Don't worry oppa, i'll answer to the company when i get back"
"In fact, i think im going to leave the company"

"LEAVE?!"
"WHAT WHY?!"

"Because.."
"Personal reasons, oppa"
"Just don't probe any further"
"I'll be back in a few more days"

"Tiff-"

Tiffany then ended the call just like that as she sat down on a stool at the kitchen as she ruffled her hair in annoyance.

"Am i even doing something right..?"
"But im doing all these for Jessi.."
"I want to be with her, she sacrificed so much for me already.."
"This is the least i can do for her, isn't it?"

Tiffany muttered to herself in distress.

Jessica on the other hand, was seated by the outdoor seat of a cafe at the downtown of Seoul, 
seems to be waiting for someone or something.

Sipping onto her coffee, a familiar figure came up.

"Hey, you're here"

Jessica said with a smile as she stood up and welcomed the familiar figure down on the seat.

"Why did you call me out?"

The person asked coldly.

"Yuri, listen"
"I need your help"

"Help?"

Yuri mocked as she rolled her eyes in disgust.

"Now that Tiffany hates me thanks to you"
"You need my help?"
"What are you trying to do?"

Jessica sighed as she put down her cup of coffee.

"Look, im sorry for Tiff's actions towards you"
"I can't help it"
"But i just want to keep her safe for now"
"Can you bring her back to LA tomorrow morning?"
"Here are her passport and plane tickets, including yours and Taeyeon's"
"Her student"

"What are you trying to do?"

"Yuri"
"Look, have you heard of the recent murder case?"

"So?"

"They are coming after me"
"Im fine with it but not Tiff"
"I want Tiff to be safe, can't you protect her?"

Yuri pondered over it for a short moment before nodding her head with a slight of dissatisfied look.

"Fine"
"I'll go home and prepare now"
"But what makes you so sure she'll follow?"

"For her safety"
"I'll go all out, to make her compromise to my requests"
"Even if its breaking up, i'll do it"

Jessica replied with a firm and determined look.

"If thats what you want"
"I'll see her at the airport tomorrow morning"
"With Taeyeon"

Yuri replied with a nod as she stood up from her seat,
was abou to leave when Jessica stopped her.

"No"
"Today, two hours later"
"Wait for her right outside my apartment building with Taeyeon"

"Today?!"
"Two hours later?!"
"Are you outta your mind?!"

Yuri exclaimed in shock.

"Im not"
"You can't make it?"

"I can"
"But i really don't see the rush"

"You don't"
"But i do"
'The killer gave me three days"
"And today is the third"
"I've to get her out and off, as soon as possible!"

"Is it even necessary..?"

Yuri mumbled softly, her eyes on the ground.

"Yuri, it is"
"This is extremely serious"
"But please, please cheer her up"
"I know, you'll see her extremely heartbroken later on"
"Just try your best, to cheer her up"

"Are you.."

Yuri paused for a moment before looking up at Jessica with an awkward expression.

"Break up"

Jessica replied, her heart sank a little at those two words.
Yuri then nodded.

"Although i really love Tiffany"
"I know i've hurt her once and she will never ever accept me"
"But i will try my best, together with Taeyeon to make her happy"
"Don't worry"

Jessica's lips then slowly curved into a small smile.

"Yuri.."
"Thanks.."
"I don't know how to really thank you, but really"
"Thanks for helping me out"

Yuri then turned her body around and walked off,
giving Jessica a cool wave.

Protecting Tiffany was everyone's top priority.
Yuri, being a person who thinks more logically will of course,
agree with Jessica's way of handling matters like this.

While walking back home, Jessica's tears were flowing.

Tiff..
This is the only way, the only way that i can ensure your safety.
No other way.
Staying with me is far too dangerous.

Im sorry..

Heading back home, Jessica took a huge route around the neighbourhood before turning back to her house.
Standing outside her apartment, she took a deep breath, wiped her tears dry before entering it.

"Im back, Tiff"

Rushed footsteps were heard.
And within seconds, Tiffany was standing right infront of Jessica with a smile.

"You're finally back!"
"I said you were not supposed to go out and you ran out!"

Tiffany blamed with a pout.

"And i see that my dinner is still not ready"

Jessica replied with a chuckle as she walked over and wrap her arms around Tiffany's waist.

"Im hungry Tiff"

Jessica whined with a cute pout.

"That is not going to push the punishment away Jessi"
"You disobeyed me"

Tiffany replied with an upset look.

"Awww"
"But im sure you can't bear to hit me right?"
"Besides, im still a patient, ain't it?"
"Feel it!"

Jessica said with a laugh as she pulled Tiffany's hands up to feel for her temperature.

"Still warm, right?"

Tiffany sighed and pulled Jessica onto the sofa.

"Jessi"
"Listen, im not being mad at you for nothing"
"Im worried"
"Im worried so can you stop making all these jokes?"

"I know Tiff"
"But im perfectly fine, ain't i?"
"I know you're worried"
"I am worried for you too"

"For me?"
"Whatever for?"

Jessica sighed and pulled Tiffany closer to her,
trying to change the subject.

"Tiff, you still have to return to LA right?"
"You're here for far too long, isn't it?"

"You're chasing me back now?"

"Tiff.."
"You know, it's better for you to be back in LA"
"You shouldn't even have returned to Korea.."

"What are you talking about?!"

Jessica held back her tears and continued.

"You shouldn't even have returned here"
"You shouldn't even have returned back to me.."
"You shouldn't.."

"Why shouldn't i?"
"Didn't you miss me so much like i did?"
"Why are you saying things like this?!"

Im sorry Tiff..
Please, i don't expect your forgiveness after what im going to say next.
But all i know now, is to keep you safe and nothing else.
Till the day the killer been apprended, i'll take the first flight to LA.
To apologise to you.

Accepting me back or not, i'll not complain nor whine at the results.

Jessica took a deep breath, expression turned hard.
She turned to Tiffany with a cold expression.

"Maybe i didn't really miss you that much"
"Two years Tiff"
"You think for these two years, feelings will remain intact?"
"Feelings wouldn't change?"
"There are so many wonderful candidates infront of me every single day"
"Those on the streets too"
"And i told you i still loved you, missed you"
"I was so amazed that you believed it like that"

Tiffany's eyes widened in shock.
She didn't expect those words to come out of Jessica's mouth.
Those hurtful words and the cold expression.

Tears started welling in Tiffany's eyes.
And within seconds, they were flowing down like there's no tomorrow.
Tiffany picked up Jessica's hands, putting it onto her cheeks.

"Jessi.."
"Tell me.."
"Those words.. they aren't really.."
"They aren't any heartfelt words right..?"

Tiffany asked in between sobs, with pleading eyes.

"Tell me.."
"Tell me everything's a joke.."

Jessica let out a cold chuckle.

"Joke?"
"Alright, our love for this whole period of time was a joke!"

Jessica laughed as she yanked Tiffany's hands away.
Deep inside Jessica's heart, it broke into pieces and pieces.
Just like the cell division we learnt back then when we were younger.
The cells divide and divide, getting more and more.

That's how Jessica's heart was like.
It broke, and broke like there's no stop.
Her heart was bleeding from those words and the tears of Tiffany's too.
She never wanted to see Tiffany's tears.

Much less to say, she was the cause behind Tiffany's tears.

Im sorry Tiff..
I didn't mean it..

Trust me, trust me i've never wanted to see your tears.
I've never wanted to be the reason behind your tears.

If there's a must for tears,
i would want to be the rason behind your tears, for being touched.
Happy tears, and not the sad ones.

"No.."
"This can't..-"

"Shut up!"

Jessica snapped coldly as she went into her room,
fumbling the things in the room and came out 10 minutes later with Tiffany's belongings.

"Now get out of my sight!"
"Stop crying!"
"It won't at all, salvage this situation!"
"If you knew this would happen someday, you shouldn't have treated me like that in the past!"

Jessica scolded as she pulled Tiffany up from the sofa roughly and pushed her out of the apartment,
straight into the lift without taking a moment to hesitate.
Throwing the luggage into the lift roughly, Jessica pressed for the level 1 button and the door started closing together.
Only to see Tiffany's tears filled face yet with a dazed look.

Im sorry Tiff..
I know sorry is nothing to this hurt i've left you.
Im nothing but a burden, trouble and nightmare to you.

Farewell now, Tiff.
Till the chance when we will meet again.

Jessica then let her tears run lose and she ran back to her apartment in tears.
Slumping against her door after shutting it, Jessica started crying like there's no tomorrow.

Yuri and Taeyeon was pacing about the lobby of Jessica's apartment building when the lift door slid open.
In the lift, stood a listless looking Tiffany with tears flowing down her face.

"Fanyfany!"

Taeyeon shouted as she ran towards Tiffany.
Taeyeon too, started tearing up because she hate to see Tiffany cry.
Taeyeon loves Tiffany a lot.

"Fanyfany uljima!"

Taeyeon whined as she hugged Tiffany tightly yet Tiffany didn't show any response.

"Fany?"
"Are you okay?"

Yuri asked with worry as she picked Tiffany's luggage up, walked towards her car while Taeyeon dragged Tiffany along.
Yuri sighed as she load all the luggage in the back of her car.

"Fany, it useless to cry over such a person"
"Trust me, we'll fly to LA tomorrow"
"And you'll live a happy and new life there"

"..."

"Fanyfany!"
"Please talk to us!!"

Taeyeon whined as she shook Tiffany's arms in tears.
With an angry glare, Tiffany yanked Taeyeon's grasp off.
Taken aback by that sudden action from Tiffany, Taeyeon couldn't get hold of her balance and fell hard onto the ground with a thud.
Scraping her elbows against the concrete cement ground.

Taeyeon let out a winced as she looked at Tiffany with a shocked expression,
as if she didnt expect Tiffany to have pushed her so hard.

What have you done, Tiffany?!

Why did you even push Taeyeon?!
She's not Jessi! She didn't hurt you, she didn't lie to you!
Neither did she push you away!

She held you closer despite the condition you're in Tiffany!

Yuri rushed over to Taeyeon's side and helped her up,
examining her wound before turning to Tiffany.

"Taeyeon meant no harm, fany"
"You couldn't, or shouldn't even have pushed her"
"She's innocent"

Tiffany stared at her with a blank expression before she running away from Yuri and Taeyeon.
The two latter was at a loss and started running after Tiffany.

I've to be away from you two.
I have to..

I don't want to be hurting another innocent soul.
I can't control myself, im sorry

I just want to run away from everything.
Everything hurts too badly now, it's beyond what i've ever experienced and imagine.

Losing Jessi, hearing the words i've thought i would never have to hear it in my life is far too much for me to hold and bear.

They ran for a good 15 minutes yet couldn't catch up to Tiffany.

Before they could catch up to Tiffany, she fell onto the ground with a loud thud.
Not moving a single inch.

"FANY!"

"FANYFANY!"

The two yelled as she ran over to Tiffany with worry.
Yuri quickly pulled Tiffany up but was shocked to see Tiffany had lost her consciousness.

Quickly placing Tiffany over Yuri's back, the two ran back to the car and place her nicely in the car seat,
with Taeyeon taking care of her.

"What happened to fanyfany?"

Taeyeon asked with worry as she wiped the perspiration off Tiffany's forehead while Yuri shrugged.

"I don't know"
"I'll call for the doctor"

Yuri replied as she quickly picked up the phone and tapped on it for a few times.

"Doctor, how is she?"

Yuri asked worriedly while Taeyeon knelt by Tiffany's bedside,
holding onto her hands, carressing it gently.

"Don't worry Yul"
"She is fine, just that she must have be too shocked"
"And couldn't take the blow that's why she out"
"Just let her rest more and she will be as good as new"

The doctor replied with a smile.

"Is there anything we can do for her?"

"I've given her a jab to calm her down"
"Don't worry too much, just give her what she need when she wakes up"
"Don't stress her too much, that should be all"

"What happens if she is?"

"If she gets overly stressed, there might be other problems"
"Overly stressed will cause one to get gastric problems, but that would totally be due to stress"
"Or in a more serious case, depression"
"But it also depends on what is the reason behind her stress too"
"Some might just keep to herself, and bury herself in sorrow"
"While others would just act as if she's all happy but inside her"
"It's full of agony"

Yuri sighed as she took a quick look at Tiffany before turning back to the doctor.

"What can we do for her then?"

"Just pay extra attention to her"
"Look after her needs, and help nurse her sadness away"
"If things really gets out of hand, you might have to seek help from a psychologist"
"Or a counsellor first"

"Okay, thanks doctor"
"I'll show you the way out"

Yuri said with a smile as she led the doctor out of her house.
Back inside the room, Taeyeon was watching Tiffany in worry.

Even unconsciously, Tiffany's tears never stopped flowing.
Together with the soft mumurings, it broke Taeyeon's heart.

Taeyeon then got to her feet and brought a soft toy over,
putting it beside Tiffany with a cute smile.

"Fanyfany"
"This is taetae's favourite toy"
"Taetae is never afraid or sad of anything whenever totoro is with me"
"Now i'll gift totoro to you, and it will officially be taetoro instead okay?"

Taeyeon said with a smile as she wiped the tears off Tiffany's flawless face.

"Taetae never once wanted to watch this beautiful face wet with sad tears"

After Yuri sent the doctor out, she returned back to the room with a sad expression.

"How is she Taeyeon?"

Taeyeon shook her head sadly.

"Not awake yet"
"She's still crying"

"Crying in her sleep?"

Taeyeon nodded as she wiped the tears off her face.
Yuri then sighed as she motioned for Taeyeon to follow her.
Pulling Taeyeon down onto the living room sofa, Yuri brought a first aid kit out.

"Taeyeon, sit here okay?"
"You abrasion haven't been cleaned up yet"

Taeyeon stared at her bloody elbow and immediately ran away from Yuri.

"NONONO!"
"It is going to hurt super duper badly!"
"NONONO!"

Taeyeon whined as she covered her elbow away from Yuri, keeping a safe distance from Yuri.

"Taeyeon-ah"
"Im really tired, but if you don't want to have the wounds cleaned"
"There will be complications if it gets infected or something"
"We have a flight to catch tomorrow, remember?"

Yuri persuaded Taeyeon tiredly, motioning Taeyeon to go over to her.
Despite the fact that Taeyeon was just a few years younger.

Is that Taeyeon..?
And Yuri..?

Tiffany thought as she flipped the blanket away and crept out of her room,
listening to the two's conversation.

"No!"
"I don't want to!"
"It is going to hurt so badly with those!"

Yuri sighed as she put the antiseptic solution down onto the glass coffee table.

"Taeyeon, im already extremely worried for Fany inside the room"
"Can you not make me worry for you?"
"I've promised your parents to take good care of you and to make you come back from LA as someone promising"

Are they talking about the wound..?
It was my fault..

I've pushed her down..
Sorry, Taeyeon..

Even if im sad, it's not at all their fault.
I can't be this selfish.
Maybe i should take responsiblity.

Tiffany then took a deep breath and stepped out of her hiding corner,
stood infront of Taeyeon and Yuri with an apologetic expression.

"Fany?"
"Are you feeling better now?"

Yuri said, almost immediately as she dashed towards Tiffany with concern.
Taeyeon too, joined Yuri by the side of Tiffany.

"Are you still sick, fanyfany?"

Tiffany forced a smile.
But everyone knows the sadness inside her.
Looking at this, Yuri realised something immediately.
The words the doctor had just told her.

//--"While others would just act as if she's all happy but inside her"--//
//--"It's full of agony"--//

"Thanks"
"Im fine"

Tiffany replied monotonously as she stared at Taeyeon's bleeding arms.

"Im sorry, Taeyeon"
"I didn't mean to push you away earlier on.."

Tiffany apologised, eyes not taking off Taeyeon's injured arms.

"It's okay fanyfany!"
"Taetae understands!"

Tiffany then pulled Taeyeon back onto the sofa, taking over Yuri's position.
Picking up the antiseptic solution, Tiffany poured a little onto the cotton wool before dabbing onto Taeyeon's wound gently while blowing onto it.

Taeyeon winced in pain at every dab, but her eyes never once left Tiffany.

"You're so pretty"

Taeyeon whispered cutely.

"..."

Taeyeon frowned at Tiffany's cold response but nevertheless continued.

"Fanyfany, have you see taetoro?"

"Taetoro?"

Tiffany replied, with her eyes fixed on Taeyeon's wound, trying not to hurt her while cleaning it.

"The soft toy that was sleeping with you!"

Soft toy..?

"Uh-huh"
"What's with that then?"

Yuri stood by the side and watch the two converse, feeling a little relaxed at Tiffany's condition.

"That's my totoro!"
"And now, it's yours!"
"Its now named taetoro!"
"My omma gave it to me!"

"Omma?"

"My omma died when one year ago.."

Taeyeon explained with a tint bit of sadness inside her voice.

"Im sorry"

"No it doesn't matter!" 
"Taetae always believed that omma will always be watching me!"

"..."

"Omma gave taetoro to me when i was sick"
"I was severely ill two years ago, i had a bad virus infection and realised it pretty late"
"My fever went too high and then, i became like this"
"A little kiddy, taetae didn't want to be like this too!"
"Taetae wants to be mature too but taetae can't!"
"No longer!"
"Appa started hating taetae for this.."

Yuri stood there in shock.
She didn't know, didn't know Taeyeon had such a past like this.
Now, knowing Taeyeon's past, Yuri finally understood Taeyeon's childish way of speaking and actions.

"Am i considered the luckiest person on earth?"

Yuri whispered to herself softly.

"I've my parents and oppa's love even though they are not with me.."

Tiffany then put on a bandage over Taeyeon's arms and looked at Taeyeon.

"It's okay"
"You don't have to be sad because i don't have my parents' love too"
"And i lived pass my life till now"

Tiffany explained as she packed the first aid kit back together.

"Yes!"
"I know fanyfany is going through a hard time now"
"But omma once told taetae that taetoro will help you through whatever hardships you have!"
"It helped taetae through!"
"That's why with taetoro here, taetae's not afraid!"
"Fanyfany too!"

Taeyeon cheered happily as she pulled Tiffany in a sudden hug, which shocked Tiffany,
leaving her in a daze for a few seconds before she broke the hug.

"Thank you"

"No, thank you to fanyfany for bandaging taetae's arm!"

Taeyeon replied with a huge grin over her face.

That night, after Taeyeon and Yuri went back to bed,
Tiffany laid back in her bed while tears started welling up in her eyes again.

Jessi..
Do you really hate me that much that made you play with my feelings?
I've always believed that you love me..

But why now?
Why did things turn out this way?
Im sorry, i didn't mean to treat you that way in the past.
Im really sorry Jessi..

Thinking about their pasts, Tiffany silently cried herself to sleep.

The next morning, while the three boarded the plane back to LA,
Tiffany was fumbling through her handbag while searching for her phone.
Hoping to receive at least, just one miss call from Jessica.

But it was pure disappointment.
However, she came across an envelope that she hadn't seen it in her handbag before.

Opening it up, it was those familiar handwriting.
From the one she loved.

Tiff, 

Or should i write Tiffany-sshi?

Im sorry that i've have lied to you.
Whichever lies you deemed it to be as a lie, it's all up to you.
But i've never ever broke any promises.

Promised to tell you about my past.
Remember?

Well, maybe, take it as a farewell gift.
Here is it.

Believeing it or not, is another thing.

Driving..
You've asked about it once, right?

Well, i've gotten into an accident right after i broke up with you.
Yes, you wouldn't want to know how i went through the two years.
I've almost killed a young, innocent life thanks to my reckless.

I wanted to end my life after the breakup.
I drove like a racer, but without any direction.
I've caused the girl, to not being able to get up on her feets again.

She was only 10.
10, can you imagine it?

Yet her heart was filled with gold.
She didn't want to even get me into the jail.
Instead, she just requested for me to pay for her medical expenses because her parents couldn't afford.

But then, i had a shock.
I actually almost killed a young innocent girl.
Ever since then, i've never wanted to drive again.
I've never wanted to even touch the steering wheel of a car nor the acceration pedal of the car.

Seems like a made up story?

Well, how about this?

My parents, the parents that i've always been saying wasn't even my biological ones.
My biological ones were killed in an accident while they were on their way to pick me up from school,
with my only 6 years old sister.

Yet the case was closed despite the fact that the killer wasn't even known.
Bodies of my family members did not even turn up.

Can you imagine how broken i was?
You mended my heart up, you brought me back to life.
But two years ago, you had me broken all over again.
This time, much more worser than this.

Thanks Tiffany-sshi for all these.
Farewell.

May you find your prince charming.

*PS: The star gazer is in your luggage.
I've returned what is originally yours.
Thanks for all these memories.

Tiffany then leaned her head against the cool glass window of the plane, as tears started streaming down her face again.
She was guilty for what she had done.
But neither did she realise that everything was so planned out nicely.
With Yuri and Taeyeon picking her up and etc, everything was so organised.

Because sinking herself in the whirlpool of sadness, Tiffany missed out all these loopholes.

Im sorry Jessi..
I didn't know, didn't you had such a past.
Didn't know i was such a pest.

I didn't know i've hurt you this much..
Im sorry Jessi..

If breaking up with me, makes you happier, able to forget all these.
I'll gladly accept it if i know you're happy without me somewhere.

I love you.
Ever and always.

A/N: Conversations are in BLUE, flashbacks conversations are in TURQUOISE while the conversations being overheard will be in LIGHT BLUE.
PINK words are Tiffany's thoughts.
GOLD words are Jessica's thoughts.

Ohmygawd.
Im so stressed up with you people for not updating!!
HAHA, please be patient!

Using desktop to update and lack of writing ideas is not helping this situation at all!!

Anyways, this might be a boring chapter.
Although i secretly hoped its not one!
So..
Please bear with me.
And like promised, Jessica's past has been revealed.

I've finally gotten my laptop back today and that explains this update people!
IM SO SORRY!

I wanted to released an update for you on my birthday but i failed.
Im starting to hate to update using desktop!

And people, you know the drill.
SUBSCRIBE, COMMENT and WAIT.

ONCE AGAIN, ULTIMATE APOLOGY TO THIS DELAYED UPDATE! )':