Insecurities Eating Me Alive

The Almighty King's Watch

 

*Start of Park Yunhee’s POV*

Two days had passed and G-Dragon had finally recovered from his cold. Upon recovering, he immediately asked me out for dinner to thank me for taking care of him. A day before their comeback concert, G-Dragon picked me up at my house with his white Bentley around dinner time and we headed to a nice restaurant for a meal. All the while, he was really attentive and did what gentlemen were supposed to do like opening the door for me. On-lookers who saw us kept staring and I couldn’t help but feel proud of whom I’m eating dinner with.

“You really don’t have to treat me,”I smiled.

“I have to. You’ve been taking such great care of me,”he smiled back.

“You are too nice, you know that?”I laughed a little as the food came.

“I’ll take that as a compliment,”he simply smiled as he began eating.

We started trying our food in silence before he spoke.

“Yunhee, tell me about yourself. We’ve been working for a few weeks and I know nothing about you while you probably know everything about me already,”G-Dragon looked up from his food.

“What do you want to know?”I asked him as I laughed a little.

“Well, about where you studied and everything. Just talk. I’ll listen,”he gave me a charming smile.

“Hmm…let’s see,”I nodded my head.

I began talking about where I studied and how many siblings I have while he asked questions in different intervals. As I continued talking, I grew fonder of G-Dragon. He was so sweet and nice to me. Was he using repaying me for my kindness an excuse to ask me out? I had been wondering for quite a few days.

“What about guys? You probably dated some, right?”he asked with a teasing tone.

“Well, yeah. But of course, it didn’t work out,”I shrugged.

“Why not? What’s there not to like about you? You’re such a nice girl,”he asked, with his eyes so wide.

I couldn’t help but smile. I guess I could confirm that he may like me, after all. Only guys who are interested would ask about a girl’s past right? So, I told him about my past relationships. I only had about two ex-boyfriends but those didn’t matter to me anymore.

“That’s a lousy excuse to break up, isn’t it?”he scrunched up his face.

“Yeah. What about you? Have you been in a relationship?”I asked, knowing that he had.

“Of course but I bet you know all about it. I’ve talked about it on shows,”G-Dragon chuckled.

“So, it’s true? I always thought it was scripted,”I commented.

“Nah, it’s all true. So, do you like anybody now? Or any celebrities? I could help matchmake you,”he grinned.

I was taken aback and didn’t know how to respond. How am I supposed to tell him who I like?

“Well? There is, right? Who is it?”he asked.

“No…t-there isn’t,”I stuttered.

“OHHHHH! There definitely is. Who is it? Tell me. Is it Youngbae? You two get along rather well, right?”he asked.

I thought about my interactions with him. Although we did chat, there just wasn’t that special feeling.

“There isn’t. Let’s go off now. You have a concert tomorrow,”I quickly stood up.

“Avoiding the topic. Fine. I’ll just wait till you tell me,”he chuckled.

*End of Park Yunhee’s POV*

*Start of Min Shinae’s POV*

Just like that, Big Bang’s comeback concert was over and I had been there for all three days. On the opening night, I was sitting amongst the audience and Jiyong had purposely come to my side to rap more. Time to time, he would lock eyes with me and I smile to acknowledge him. For the next two days, I was backstage, monitoring the whole concert on the television. As I watched them bow to the fans, I couldn’t help but feel proud of the boys. They had worked so hard just to get to where they are today. I stood up and grabbed all bouquet of flowers with the help of Namguk oppa and stood outside the changing room.

“CONGRATULATIONS!”

“YOU’VE WORKED HARD!”

Everyone was shouting at intervals at the boys as they walked along the corridor towards their changing room.

“Congratulations!”Shinae clapped along with the other staff as she smiled at Youngbae.

“You’ve worked hard!”Youngbae smiled back with his eye smile.

“Oh, noona!”Seungri saw me first.

“Congratulations, Seungri ah!”I gave him his bouquet and a hug.

I did the same to all the boys and when it came to Jiyong, he came to me with only a smile on his face. As I looked at him in his stage costume, I couldn’t help but feel so proud of my best friend who had realised his dream. I lost the ability to speak and simply passed the bouquet to him and he pulled me into a hug.

“You’ve worked hard, Jiyong ah,”I mumbled in his ear.

“Thank you,”he said in a soft voice as he let me go.

“Hyung, hurry up. Let’s go party!”Daesung came out of the changing room to call him.

“Give me a minute. We’ll go party after I change. You’re coming, right?”he asked as he surveyed what I was wearing.

“Yes. I brought clothes along,”I smiled.

Jiyong gave me a thumb up and I went off to change. Although I hated crowded places, I know Big Bang was always fond of clubbing after their concerts and for the sake of Jiyong, I went along to celebrate the end of their concert. After I was done changing, I bumped into Yunhee who was all dressed up as well. Like me, she was wearing a dress and heels but she had a leather jacket over her dress.

“You’re going to the club too?”she asked me.

“Yeah. Though I don’t really like it,”I frowned a little.

“Why not? Those places are really good to destress,”she smiled.

“I’m not too fond of crowded places,”I admitted.

“Woah, you’re really different from G-Dragon. How can you two stay best friends for so long?”she asked, amused.

“It just…happened, I guess,”I laughed a little.

“Does he really like clubbing a lot?”she asked.

“He loves it,”I nodded my head.

The door to the changing room opened and the boys came out, making a lot of noise. We got into the company van and headed to a club nearby. Even before I stepped in, I wanted to turn back and go home. But I restrained myself and walked in after Youngbae opened the door for me. The loud music was enough to give me a headache.

“Why are you wearing so little? Aren’t you cold?”

A jacket was then draped on me as I looked up to find Jiyong talking to me.

“I’m fine. You can have it back,”I took it off, knowing that Jiyong had always planned his outfits carefully and every piece of accessory was important to him.

“Just wear it. I don’t want you exposing your shoulders like that,”he said firmly.

I merely chuckled as I let him drape it on me once again.

“What’s so funny?”he asked.

“You,”I simply replied as we made our way to the VIP floor.

“Why am I funny?”he asked.

“Cause you’re so paranoid over everything,”I shook my head in amusement.

“I’m only paranoid if it involves you,”he said as he locked eyes with me.

I looked elsewhere immediately, refusing to look at him. I found it hard to believe that he actually likes me back. It has been years since I found out that he likes me back but there was always this nagging thought that his feelings will fade one day. I was so unlike the type of girls he used to date. Moreover, I have liked him for so long and to have him finally reciprocate my feelings, it was a little unbelievable. Furthermore, there was Park Yunhee. Jiyong had told me that he went out to dinner with her for taking care of him and I was dead sure that she likes him. And Jiyong is so oblivious to it. I wondered if his feelings would sway if she continued to show her affection to him. I had been feeling a little insecure recently and hadn’t been showing much concern for him. And I think he noticed my odd behavior.

At the corner of my eye, I watched as he opened his mouth, ready to talk.

“Youngbae ah! Let’s play our drinking game,”I hurriedly walk over to him to avoid any conversation.

Youngbae glanced a little at Jiyong then at me. He nodded his head as he prepared the drinks and I sat down next to him.

“What happened to Jiyong and you?”he asked as he set the bottle down on the table.

I widened my eyes in shock.

“You wouldn’t just walk away from Jiyong in a club. Everybody knows that you would be beside him just so he can protect you. What’s up?”he asked.

I looked away to avoid his stare and contemplated on whether to tell him about my insecurities.

“It’s the same old problem?”he asked softly.

I nodded. Youngbae had always known about my problematic relationship with Jiyong. There were times when I was dead sure that Jiyong and I were meant to be and that we would love each other till death do we part. But there were times when I would be haunted by our past. I was reminded of the times that he was attached. The bright eyes that I had to come face to face with as he talked about his girlfriends to me. The aching pain in my heart that I had to endure and hide from him. The tears that I had to swallow. The smiles I had to fake so he wouldn’t realize.

“I don’t want to talk about this now, though. Let’s just have fun tonight, shall we?”I asked with a smile.

Youngbae merely looked me straight in the eye before nodding in agreement.

“Just to let you know, Jiyong wouldn’t be too happy about it,”he said as he sat up straighter to play our game.

“I know. I’ll...talk to him later,”I replied.

“Okay then. Ready?”Youngbae asked with a smile.

*End of Shinae’s POV*

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Meowmu #1
Great story! I am so happy that Shinae ended up with Jiyong. I was worried Younhee was goin to steal him away, but putting her with Tae was a great idea! Loved the creativity and I liked the whole watch idea. I was hooked from the intro. Thanks for the great story! Seriously, GD x OC fics need so much more love and support! Awesome job author xoxo =^__^=
GDraseob #2
Chapter 29: Thank you so much for this beautiful fanfic!! It was one of my favorite and I like it a lot... I enjoy it and you've got talent for writing... :)
KKyungMi
#3
Chapter 29: OMG you made my day today. I can't believe it's over now, i'm gonna miss this fic so badly!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH for writing this, i really have a great time reading!
JiYong_JaGi #4
Chapter 29: Awwww~ sooo sweet of them~ nice story!!
Ssjoker0 #5
Chapter 29: Wow , now it ends =) thank you authornim for such a great story ^^ i love every piece of it =) cant wait for your upcoming stories. Fighting!!
michily #6
Chapter 29: woah, all well ends welll.....
JiYong_JaGi #7
Chapter 28: This story is nice~ don't worry author I love your story~ it's ok with this story~ not a short fanfic for me I think~ but I can't wait to read your next story of jiyong again~ ^^
KKyungMi
#8
Chapter 28: I just...can't... wait... omg i need to know what did they talked about back in the kitchen!... i need to know what's gonna happen with Yunhee
michily #9
Chapter 28: oh Youngbae thought Yunhee doesnt love him so much. no worry Youngbae she loves you so much arasso
JiYong_JaGi #10
Chapter 27: So sweet and lovely~ cute and lovely couple~ ^^