"Feels like a living hell"
"Stand By Me"
A few days had passed by there was still some issues to be resolved.
Preferably referring to the trust issues with Rickjoe, the sleeping problem with N.A.P and the
thoughts of Chunji with Changjo.
It was all weird.
On their way back from a concert.
In the back sat, C.A.P., Niel, and Chunji in that order.
In the front sat, Ljoe, Changjo and Ricky.
Suddenly, C.A.P's eyes, began to flutter.
His head felt light.
He wasn't looking so good.
Chunji was texting the same girl.
Changjo was listening to music.
Ricky and Ljoe were looking out the window.
Niel, was completely silent. Staring blankly in space.
Ljoe, would pull glances at Ricky without him noticing, as Ricky did to him.
It has been hell for Ljoe.
Ricky could tell he has been crying.
As Ljoe could tell Ricky has been too.
It seems mostly all the members have shed tears.
Except the one singer in the back who was texting away.
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When they all got home.
Chunji went to the bathroom.
Ljoe to the bedroom.
Ricky to the other bedroom, as Changjo to the kitchen.
Niel was making his way to the bedroom Ricky was heading to, but C.A.P struggled behind
him.
C.A.P's eyes were full of bags, hidden behind his shades.
He was worn out, and tired.
From what?
He staggered against the wall.
The rapper outstretched his arm with all of the energy he had left and managed to grab a hold of Niel's sleeve.
"Wait..." C.A.P managed to say.
Niel huffed with a great amount of attitude and sharply turned around.
"What." Niel said.
He felt disgusting, he hated being mean to C.A.P but, he was so furious with him.
"Please...just---"
"Save it!"
C.A.P.'s head was getting a headache.
"Niel!" C.A.P. yelled. He tried to pull Niel in closer, but Niel broke away. The rapper then, summoned up all of his strength to push him up against the wall.
"Listen to me Niel! At least hear me out! It feels like without you! Do you know what it's like having you like this towards me? I can't even----" Suddenly C.A.P collapsed.
Chunji had just finished, coming out from the bathroom.
As soon as he saw that C.A.P. had fainted.
"C.A.P!" He cried. Chunji ran over to him. "What happened!" Chunji asked Niel.
"I don't know! He was talking to me and then---" Niel was in a panic. He was very scared.
", I told him not to!" Chunji said.
"What?" Niel asked.
"I told him not to stay up! He hasn't slept for days since you guys separated."
Niel slumped down the wall.
"It's ...my fault?" Niel thought.
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Ljoe was on the bed, lying on the side he usually sleeps on.
He hugged the pillow, that Ricky had thrown at him, like a stuff animal.
He missed him, and it felt like a living hell not being able to hold him again.
But Ljoe couldn't take it anymore.
He got up and stormed his way out of the room and to the other room.
"Ric---" Ljoe was about to open the door, but heard Ricky crying from the other side.
"Minho! What should I do! I'm so stupid. I was so out of line. I just wanted him to trust me, like I trust him!
But, I miss him so much! It's been days, and I just...."
Ljoe trembled at Ricky's painful cries, but was so relieved to hear that
Ricky misses him as well.
It eased all the pain inside of him.
"Oh thank god." Ljoe sobbed.
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