The morning sky was dark and gray, something that was pretty normal in the earlier months of the year

When I was woken up from the sound of thunder, i noticed that i was still caressing the blue journal

I looked around the dark room, no one was in sight. Just me and Myungsoo alone in this room

I heard myungsoo let out a painful cough and heaved deeply

I jumped to my feet, throwing my jacket and everything on my lap to the floor

"Myungsoo! Myungsoo does it hurt anywhere?! something bothering you?"

Myungsoo opened his eyes slowly then smiled at me

It hurt so bad to watch him...he was trying so hard to pretend that nothing was wrong

"It doesnt hurt. What are you doing here?" he whispered

I ran my fingers across his cheek, which led me notice that he was alot thinner now

His lips were pale and it seemed as the color was out his face

He was no longer the glowing, energetic Myungsoo i knew

"I was passing by you were lying on the floor and...Is there something wrong with you?" I asked him

"I-"

I moved closer to him to hear him better

Instead myungsoo tried to remove his oxygen mask

I placed my hand over his and tried to stop him, but he pulled his hand away then moved the mask to the side

"nothings wrong. I've been tired."

I said nothing

how could he lie right to my face?

"you can leave i'll be fine"

Tears rolled down my cheeks without warning "You liar! you arent fine!"

I fell back into my chair and swiped away the tears from my eyes

Myungsoo's expression didnt change

"I told you i'm fine. Go away"

"Was this your plan the whole time? Why? We were so happy together!"

"THATS WHY! i couldnt stand to watch you cry" Myungsoo forced the words out

"what?" i sniffed

Myungsoo calmed down and caught his breath "if we were over. Your tears wouldnt fall when i'm gone"

"You're so stupid!" I screamed without a second thought

I stormed out of the room and continued to shove past everyone in my way

But when I walked through the front doors of the hospital

A gust of gentle wind whirled by, comforting me and my anger 

I felt drops of rain suddenly hit my face

After a minute of being pounded on by the rain i decided that i should go back

what was i thinking? why did i even storm out of there?

I already knew he was lieing..it was all in the journal

"Excuse me! MISS!! MOVE!!" A nurse yelled at me

i twitched and moved aside so she could pass

I watched as she rushed down the hallway and made a sharp right turn into a room

w-wait 

Wasnt that Myungsoo's room?!

"Oppa!" My feet immediately took off by themselves and i rushed into the room

"Oppa! Myungsoo Oppa!" 

"Excuse me miss please stay out we have to tend to the patient" the nurse said coldly

"you'll save my oppa right?! Oppa!" 

I pushed the nurse's arm away so i could at least take a peek at him

He was weak...he was reaching out his hand with all the strength he had left then he looked at me

i wanted to grab a hold of his hand to tell him i was here for him...I wanted to..so badly

I was already sobbing "You have to save him!" 

"We have to do our job!" she said before shoving me out the doorway

I sat myself down on the wooden bench in the hallway

It wasnt even ten minutes and the doctors began to exit the room

"Doctor!"

The doctor turned around and looked at me

"how is he? He's fine now right?" i asked with the least bit of hope i had left

"He was under cardiac arrest, the internal bleeding is finally getting to him. I have already told you that there isnt much we can do for him now"

"Doctor" i choked "please...dont give on him. Please" I begged

I'm not ready to let him go...not yet

He shook his head then walked away

My arms still frozen in the position i last had it when i was begging 

It took a while for me to gather myself together

This time solemly i entered his room

Myungsoo was resting and i sat back in my chair beside the bed

By instinct, My hand reached for his

I never wanted to let go of his hand

"I will never let you go"

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A/N: wahhh another sad cliche chapter

the next one..sighh i really dont want him to die 

anyway Comments will be LOVED! 

Btw for those who were confused from earlier chapters: Myungsoo never cheated. It was an act so she would break up with him :'(