I know. You're all thinking: "FINALLY SHE UPDATED"

Hee, confession. I actually wrote this chapter couple of days ago. I just decided to keep you guys on your feet, making you guys wonder what was going to happen next (:

Enjoy! :D

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Yuri’s POV

I waited anxiously at the park for Mir the next evening. Will he even show up? I hope he does. There are a lot of things we need to talk about. We can’t keep avoiding each other forever. Okay, more like I can’t keep avoiding him forever.

I sat on the bench after getting tired from pacing around nervously. I tapped my legs impatiently on the cool ground.

Where is he?

All around me, there were families enjoying the evening together. An old couple were sitting on another bench, just smiling at each other. I felt my heart filled with heavy pangs of pain.

Will that ever be Mir and I?

A little further, I saw two little kids, a boy and a girl, laughing and running around while their parents watched them from a picnic mat. The parents smiled at each other and gave one another a tender kiss. Then their kids came running toward them, crashing into their parents’ arms. They hugged and kissed, and I could hear their parents’ laughter along with their little squeals of delight.

If only Mir and I could be like that.

Where is he?

A shadow cast over me and I looked up to find Mir looking down on me. He had a strange look on his face when he did so.

He sat down next to me, not offering a smile.

“Hi, Mir,” I said softly.

“Hi.” It was short and brusque.

“Congratulations on your debut,” I sad awkwardly.

“Tell BEAST we congratulate them too.” His voice was harsh and cold.

I looked down. “Mir, I can explain.” I looked up at him, pleading for him to give me a chance.

He looked at me.

“After school,” I said, “I was going to come and see you guys when Appa came to personally pick me and told me that since he was going away to Japan for two months for some business trip, and since Joon had debuted and would be very busy, he said I was going to go live with BEAST. I wanted to at least come see you but he drove me straight to where they were debuting. Then, well, you saw me on television, right? I had to go down and see them. It just so happened that I was caught on air. Even I didn’t know that until my brother called me to yell at me.

“But you have to believe that I didn’t do this on purpose or that I support BEAST more than MBLAQ. You should know that I would support MBLAQ way more than I would ever support BEAST.”

He raised an eyebrow.

I looked defiantly at him. “You’re doubting me?” I sighed. “Mir, I would support MBLAQ totally because you are in that band. And my brother too. Plus, I am so much closer to all of you than I am with BEAST. I’ve only met the other members once and I may be close to my god-brother but with Kikwang, I only hang out with him because I’m forced to hang out with him. Given a choice, I wouldn’t because every time I’m with him, I wish I was with you.”

“Why couldn’t your father had made you live with us? BEAST would be just as busy.”

I shrugged. “You know how my dad wished that I could get closer to Kikwang,” I replied. “He hopes that the two of us would be closer before the wedding.” I rolled my eyes. “But I doubt it would work.

He frowned at me. “You know something? I have to admit, that was quite a story. A good one. I almost believed it. Almost.”

Almost?It was my turn to frown. “Story?” I repeated. “What do you mean? How is that a story? It’s the truth, Mir! The truth!”

Mir scoffed at me.

“Oppa —”

He glared at me with such venom that I faltered and had to look away from his intense gaze. “Do not call me Oppa ever again,” he snapped harshly and I flinched. “Look, thanks for trying to be in our good books but I think it’s better if you just stop pretending.”

I was confused. “Mir . . .”

He stood up, shaking his head. “Yuri, don’t you realize how painful it was to see you there instead of being with us? Just admit it, you prefer being with BEAST over MBLAQ. We get it. You didn’t have —”

Tears fell down my face. Every word Mir said was like a slap and a punch. How could he say this? The one person who I thought would understand, believed in the lies Joon chose to believe.

I looked down. “Do you honestly believe that?”

“You bet I do.”

I recoiled, blinking back tears.

He shook his head, glaring at me with disdain. “Crying will not make me give you my pity,” he said coldly, moving away as if I was infected with germs. That little gesture really hurt me.

I stood up, fazing him even though he was taller. “Oppa, do you seriously think I’m such a ? That I would favor people I don’t know over people who took care of me countless times? You know what Joon is like! You know how he overreacts without thinking!”

“I saw you!” he yelled. “I saw you there! Joon wasn’t the only one! We all saw you!”

“Why didn’t you ask me about it first instead of jumping into conclusions?” I argued. “You always asked people for an explanation before thinking the wrong way, so why is it so different now?”

Mir had nothing to say.

I shook my head disbelievingly. “I can’t believe you did that.”

“Yuri, I —” He paused, then shook his head. “Oh. I get it. I get what this is now.” He pursed his lips into a thin line. “It all makes sense now. I should have seen this coming from the start.”

I frowned, perplexed. “What made sense?” I asked. “Should have seen what was coming from the start?” What is he trying to say?

He shook his head again. “I am not falling for it.”

Now I’m really confused. “Falling for what?” I asked him.

He narrowed his eyes at me. “You’re just saying all this because you just wanted to divert all the blame from you so I will feel bad for judging. This is just a cover up. Were you thinking about it when you called me yesterday? So you could come up here and feed me more lies?”

I stared at him incredulously. How did I even fell for him in the first place? Why is he even saying all this? It hurts. “Do you even hear yourself, Mir? You sound like an idiot!” I snapped harshly at him.

He rolled his eyes. “Yeah, I’m an idiot — for falling for you,” he retorted.

His words, loaded with malice, cut right deep inside of my heart.

I cringed inwardly but I’m not going to let him get to me that easily. “I ask myself why I bothered with you every day. Why I even went out with you,” I sniped back at him sarcastically.

He was shaking with fury now, his dark eyes flickering over to me to regard me. I stared him down. “I’m glad we broke up,” he spat out contemptuously. “You know what? I only went out with you so I could get into your pants. Now that I’ve got it? I don’t need you. In fact, when you told me you were getting engaged, I was overjoyed because this saves me the trouble from breaking up with you.”

“I can’t believe you had to resort to this,” I said in dismay. “You changed a lot, Mir.”

“Yeah, well, get this, Yuri: I never loved you. You were just a way for me to pass time. I never liked you,” he replied coolly. He said it so convincingly I nearly believed him. He glowered at me. “You sicken me. Every time I touched you, when you touched me, I wanted to throw up. You repulsed me.”

Someone, take a knife and kill me now. I refuse to believe that what he says is true. No way. He’s just angry, that’s all.

He doesn’t mean them.

“What?” he yelled in my face. “Understand when I say I never loved you! I hated you! You disgusted me so much. You were so pathetic, fawning over me, completely getting wrapped up into me. I wanted to laugh. I only put up with you because of Joon! And now that I’m famous? I can get any girl I want — better girls than you.”

I’m dying with each word. Please, no. everything he says . . . it can’t be true.

I won’t let it.

Mir glared at me with so much hatred. “You might as well go running to Kikwang because I’m done with you, Lee Yuri. It’s over.”

I looked at him, not believing I fell for him. “You know something, Mir?”

“What?” he asked curtly.

“I hung out with Kikwang all the time because we were trying to find out why our dads were done this,” I told him. “We thought that they couldn’t have just wanted us to get married without any proper reasons other than just for the sake of us getting married and us being good for one another. There was another motive. So we decided to find out. I thought that if I was able to find out the reason, maybe I can figure out a way to compromise with my dad — and break the marriage off so I could be with you instead,” I told him, a little bite in my voice.

He gaped at me.

“I did this for you, Mir,” I went on. “For you. But I guess this was a big mistake, huh?”

“Why didn’t you tell me?” he asked in a whisper. “Why did you keep it a secret?”

“Because I didn’t want you to get false hope. What if we never found the real reason?”

“Yuri . . .”

My tears fell. He reached out to me but I took a step back from him. “I really thought you love me,” I whispered. “I was wrong. I can’t believe you’re like this. I fell for you. I was such an idiot.” I bit my lip, swallowing hard. “I thought you were different from all those other guys, Mir.”

“Yuri, I —”

“But you know what,” I said, looking up high toward him. I was not going to let him break me. “You’re right. I should go to Kikwang. Because whether or not I find out the reason why, I might as well go to him. There is no point in continuing my search when you feel this way. I give up. I’ll marry him, live with him, have a family with him. I won’t get that from you, even if I do find out the reason why they’re doing this. I give up.”

Mir was speechless. He just stared at me, not knowing what to say.

“Thanks, Mir, for giving me a great time. I don’t know what it meant to you, but it meant a lot to me. I love you, Mir.”

My heart hurt a lot. I couldn’t think straight. Suddenly I felt dazed, with a slight headache. My vision blurred from my tears that were falling down like a waterfall. I turned and ran away from the boy who broke my heart a thousand times more than anyone else could ever have.

He hates me. He always had.

Mir’s POV

She did it for me. I don’t believe believe this. I only said all those things because I was angry and I wanted her to feel guilty. But . . . I never thought it’d come to this.

.

I broke out of my self-pity and ran after her. I need to tell her I’m sorry, that I didn’t mean what I said, that what I said was not true.

“Yuri!” I called to her running figure. Damn, she had a head start. “Yuri, I’m sorry!”

She was crying. I could see that she was. She walked out to the empty road, wanting to go over to the shops across the road.

“Yu —”

There was a loud screeching sound of car tires trying to break, followed by a bloodcurdling scream from Yuri.

Like what seemed to be in slow motion, I watched as a car zoomed by, the same time Yuri stepped out to cross the road.

No.

NO!

I watched, frozen at my spot, as the car banged into Yuri, the girl I love even though I told her I hated her, and watched as she flew at least five feet away from where she was originally standing.

NOT MY YURI!

I ran over to where she was on the road as the man who banged into her stepped out. Her lifeless body laid there, with blood and scratches all over her body.

“YURI!”

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Errrrr....... *runs away and hide from all of you* >.<