Yuri’s POV

I went to use the bathroom. I splashed water in my face, letting the cool water trickle down my face, all refreshing and energizing. I smiled to myself as I touched my lips, where he kissed me.

Where my fiancé kissed me.

Gosh, it sounded nice, thinking of Kikwang when I think of the word ‘fiancé’.

I loved the word too. Now I was actually looking forward to the wedding.

I could still feel his soft, gentle and tender lips grazing on mine lightly, the way his lips against mine, the way his tongue slipped into my wet cavern, exploring and roaming, dancing smoothly. It sent this nice, tingling feeling down my spine and throughout my whole body.

I knew I’d made the right decision when I chose Kikwang. He was really sweet, he was caring, and I know that I can count on him to be there for me. I know that Mir and I have a deep connection but with Kikwang, I don’t know. I know that both boys really love me, that they want to make me happy and be there for me. They were similar in a way, but they were also different.

Mir was usually playful, and he was sometimes always being a skinship devil. He’d joke around and doesn’t really take things seriously. He’d be there when I need him but at times when I needed to be alone, he’d keep trying to know why and keep getting in my way until I told him to get lost. Then I’d feel guilty and come back and I’d go to him and then I’ll explain to him why I was down. He’d smile and hug me and tell me that everything will be okay.

Kikwang, on the other hand, was sometimes too serious but he respected my personal space and if I didn’t want to talk about my problem, he’d leave me alone and wait for me to tell him myself. If I decided I didn’t want to tell him at all, he’d still leave me alone. And when I do tell him, he would help me and try figure out a way to solve my problems and he’d get frustrated when he couldn’t.

Mir was a sweet-talker and he was so corny and he was always able to make me blush. I liked that about him, that he always managed to find a way to make me smile. Kikwang was a little awkward on his words but sometimes he would say something without knowing that would flatter me.

I love Mir, I really do. If I was given a choice to marry him, I would marry him. But when I was with him, I was never sure of where he was heading, he was always so full of surprise. It keeps the passion in our relationship burning, I guess, but it made me sometimes wonder what he was up to.

He was quite predictable.

But Kikwang gives me this . . . feeling . . . of ease and of comfort. He was always comforting me, making sure that I was happy and all. He was safe and he would always tell me what we were going to do. Well, he’ll try to make surprises. So he would tell me where we’re going, but he wouldn’t tell me exactly what we were doing.

Whereas Mir wouldn’t tell me anything, not what to wear and not where we’re going. Sometimes he’ll be wild and he’ll drive me crazy whenever he tries to get me to do something I don’t want. I end up doing it, anyway, and I have fun. So it was cool.

Mir was fun . . . Kikwang was safe.

I realized that I had spent too much time in the bathroom so I decided to come out. I looked at the guys. They were all playing video games. I smiled I decided to go into my own room. I saw it was cleaned up and my heart ached to see that it was bare. The only thing that was left as my possession was my photo frames of pictures with BEAST.

“Hey.”

I turned to see Hyunseung standing by the doorway with a grin on his face. I smiled back at him as he stepped inside the room. “Hi,” I greeted.

He looked around the room. “It was quiet without you here,” he murmured. “When you were gone, the whole place was too . . . silent.”

I looked up to him. “I didn’t know,” I murmured.

He looked at me with an unreadable expression. “You made the dorm lively with your presence. Things were so much happier with you around.”

“Really?” I asked shyly.

He nodded. I looked down, shuffling. “Hey, are you happy with him?” he asked me all of a sudden. “Like, does he make you happy?”

I looked back up, surprised. I realized he was talking about Kikwang. I nodded. “I am definitely sure,” I replied. “I’m happy with him.” I smiled, thinking back. “Kikwang makes me happy.”

He shrugged, shoving his hand into his jeans pocket. “I don’t know.” He took a hand to scratch the back of his neck. “Don’t you ever get the feeling that maybe you deserve better?” he wondered.

I shook my head. “I’ll admit, I used to think that with Mir, but I’m not regretting this. I know that it’s Kikwang that I want to be with.”

Hyunseung opened his mouth and looked as though he was about to say something else when we were interrupted by Junhyung who came up to us. He looked at me. “Kikwang is looking for you,” he said.

Junhyung’s POV

Yuri nodded, excusing herself and walked out of the room to Kikwang. I saw that Hyunseung was going to follow her out of the room but I blocked his path by stepping in front of the doorway, completely making sure that he had no way to go out.

“Hey!” he protested.

I glared firmly at him. “She’s engaged, hyung,” I told him, hoping he would get the message.

He shrugged as though he didn’t know what I was talking about. “I don’t get what you mean,” he said but I can tell that he was lying.

He’s done this before.

“Hyung, do not destroy their relationship. They look so happy together!” I pleaded. “Why do you always try to get every girl Kikwang has? You’re lucky that guy is dense not to notice it was you who took them all away from him so he doesn’t hate you.”

He scoffed, folding his arms across his chest. “Look, I did not make those girls come to me. I just invited them. they had every right to decline. It’s not my fault I’m better than Kikwang.”

I shook my head. “And once you were done with them, you throw them out like they’re empty coke cans.”

Hyunseung smirked. “You’d know what it’s like to throw those empty coke cans, huh?”

I clenched my fist. “This isn’t funny,” I snapped. “Yuri is not a toy where you can just toss her around like you did with the other girls.”

Hyunseung rolled his eyes and brushed past me, shoving me to the side so he could walk out of the room. But then he turned, glancing over his shoulder. “What if I say that I’m not going to play with her?”

I frowned, turning to him. “What do you mean?”

He turned to me seriously. “What if I tell you that I like her the way L.Joe and Mir does?”

I gaped at him. He can’t be serious.

He shrugged again. “We can’t have her, yet it doesn’t stop us from liking her. The only difference between them and me is that they gave up on her too easily. They let her go just like that.” He shook his head. “I’m not. I don’t care if she is in love with him. I’m going to show her what she’s missing out on.”

“If you like her like you said, you wouldn’t want to hurt her, right?” I asked.

“As long as she realized that I can make her happier than Kikwang could, I would still do it,” he said. “I’ll do whatever it takes.” He walked off.

I could only stare after his back in utter disbelief. He can’t be serious.

I walked out to see Yuri and Kikwang sitting together on the couch, talking to Doo Joon. They looked so happy. And I saw Hyunseung sitting next to her. He tugged on a strand of her hair playfully and she smiled. He smiled back. Kikwang and Doo Joon didn’t seem to notice.

I watched Hyunseung for a bit. He looked really different, somehow. Like, I’ve seen the way he looked at the girls he had messed with. But the way he looked at Yuri, I don’t know. I see determination. And when his eyes flickered over to Kikwang, I see resentment.

I don’t know why Hyunseung was jealous of Kikwang for. He was just as talented as Kikwang was. Okay, so Kikwang was better at dancing, but Hyunseung has charisma and he has a good voice.

Everyone seemed to be falling for Yuri.

Mir’s POV

As I was driving home, I thought about Yuri and I thought about Kikwang. The moment she called me, I knew that she had decided. And from the tone of her voice, I knew that she had chosen Kikwang. When she told me she wanted me, I knew she really did. I know she loves me.

But she chose Kikwang.

I sighed, pulling the car to a stop. I couldn’t keep driving like this. I needed to take a break. And the moment I stopped my car, I cried.

Even though I knew she was going to choose him, I had hoped that I was wrong. I hoped that she was going to choose me. Yet, she didn’t.

She chose him.

She didn’t choose me.

I took out my phone and I began to text a message to a person who I felt I could count on at this moment.

L.Joe’s POV

I glanced at the calendar. “Only two more days and then I can spend the New Year holiday with Yuri,” I murmured.

Chunji came in the room. “What are you going to do?” he asked me and I looked up. He leaned against the door. “I mean, you should at least take advantage of this great opportunity you’ve got. Kikwang and Mir won’t be there.”

 “I’m not going to confuse her.”

He rolled his eyes. “I’m not asking you to confess to her. I’m saying that you should just be grateful that at least you get to be close to her. I noticed you two haven’t been hanging around together that much lately.”

“Well, MBLEAST didn’t really encourage it because of my feelings for her,” I said. I frowned. “But I see no reason why I had to follow.” I facepalmed. “I can’t believe I fell for their paranoia.”

He shrugged. “I thought the same thing,” he replied with a smirk. “But I guess love makes everyone stupid.”

“You’d know,” I laughed and he threw a pen at me, which I easily dodged.

Key’s POV

I opened the door to the living room and found Onew lazing about on the couch. Jonghyun was next to him, reading a magazine. I walked over to the both of them.

“Hey, what are you thinking about?” Before they could say a word, I got a text message. It was from Mir. “Oh.” I frowned.

Jonghyun looked up. “What?”

I shrugged. “It looks like Yuri chose Kikwang,” I told them and Onew looked up. I stood up. “I’m sorry. I should probably go and check up on him. He would be upset. He’s my best friend, after all.” I looked at Onew. He shrugged.

I looked at Jonghyun who mouthed, “Anti-fans.”

I sighed. We checked the internet news about SHINee recently because we were curious to know what people think about us and we read that there were some people who hated us and as the leader, I guess Onew was really upset about it.

I stood up. “Anyway, I shouldn’t be out so late. Have fun and don’t forget to feed Taemin!”

 “Kibum.”

I turned around to see Onew looking troubled. I looked at Jonghyun who just shrugged. I turned back to Onew. “Hyung, don’t care about what those anti-fans said about —” I started to say.

“I think I’ve fallen for Yuri,” Onew blurted out.