Finally the day is come, Kwonnie is busy helping me with my stuffs. I feel so nervous it’s my first time standing as solo singer with my own album okay! First full solo album. And not that too he taking care Princess needs, I haven’t talking about my concerns with him since both of us really busy but he allows Princess to go watching me on my stage, but with one condition he said, he won’t give Princess to anyone like my unnies, my dancers or our friends. So I think that’s okay. He drive me to my first schedule today is on the radio doing for interviews, thankfully he ask his manager to emptying his schedule well he said for a week. I doubt it since I know he have his own schedule, but it makes me happy he trying his best to supporting me. I doing my interview with husband and my babies playing outside the studio, the peoples like watching him and Princess playing together, I caught the radio DJ seems not paying attention with the scripts, they always glance if Princess is laughing. Next schedule is my first performance. I really nervous, with my unnies watching me plus my little family makes me have do my performance well, no flawless. Without any mistakes. Many times I take a deep breath, inhales exhales… inhales exhales just to tossed my nervousness still it always coming

“You gonna doing great yeobo” I turn my head feeling his breath on my ear, he whisper on my ear just to comfort me, although it’s just simple words but it makes my heart warmer.

“Yah, do it later… aishhh seriously you two” JeA unnie shouts us; gosh I forget we’re at my waiting room. We just smiles sheepishly to her remarks. Kwonnie walks with me until the edge of the stage, he squeeze my hand I just can smile replying him. Then I do my performance, its live performance.

After I ended my performance I see my unnies smiling widely with Princess on Narsha unnie hands and Kwonnie quickly hug me, while my unnies clearing their throats, loud enough I know that’s my cue to broke the hug. Along the hallway lots people congratulate me and we watch the performance on the waiting room, just when we ended watching my performance and my unnies going to criticizes me the door is open, Kyung Sun unnnie walking with some Medias, they going to interviewing me. We doing the interview as Kwonnie and Princess on the room, they ask usual question and then something caught me and my unnies, they ask about Princess pictures on the CF, I instantly turn my head to Kwonnie, there he goes he have his sight again. my instinct tell me that he don’t like that, I politely change the topic but the medias insist, I just can chuckles with their questions. And finally they left the waiting room

“GaIn-ah, why you don’t answering their questions huh?” Miryo unnie whisper to me as we walking the medias to the door, I just shook my head and I going back looking to Kwonnie and Princess, he still got his face, I think he really don’t like the questions.

Along my album promotion Kwonnie always walking me sometimes we will bring Princess to my schedule and yes like he said he accompanying me for the whole week, he really don’t have schedule. And still, I can’t find good time to ask him about my concern toward him and something I notice, every time medias asking me about Princess pictures he always his face, his sight that I know he doesn’t like it but he never tell me after the interviews end, and I really don’t want to talks about it too coz I know it just going to make him mad. And me, afraid if Jo Kwon mad, yeah who knows he got to be so scary if he mad.

“Kwon-ah so you will have your schedule starts from today again?” I ask him as I prepare the breakfast, he playing with Princess on the sofa

“Yes, yeobo sorry I can’t go with you again” he shouted

“C’mon breakfast ready” I shout him and he brings Princess sit on her stroller, by the way my Princess going big now, she can talks, a little and she always hitting her spoon if both of us feeding her and that’s both of us doesn’t like it. Every time we have some little time like this I want to ask Kwonnie about my concern but seeing his face, his happy face I think I rather seeing him like this than his serious side. I really have to find good time to talks about something that keep bugging on my head.

“Why you don’t eating huh?” owh he caught me

“I… I… I’m eating” I quickly tuck my breakfast, he just shook his head as feeding Princess

 I’m waiting him come home, I playing with Princess, teaching her some words and some numbering well she have to learn something like this since I want her to be clever than me and her father but my little Princess guess prefer playing than studying, what can I do since she just a baby, I just wait couple years again. She keep saying “Appa… appa… appa” over and over again, I already tell her that her father still on the way home. She won’t hear me so she crying now. Just when I want to make her milk I hear an opened door sound, guess it’s Kwonnie

“Yeobo” I shout him as I carry Princess

“No, GaIn-ah its me Seul Ong” I turn my head once I heard that, Seul Ong rush to me, behind him I see his manager

“Give Princess to me” Seul Ong said

“Why you come here?” I ask him

“Hurry pack Kwonnie clothes” Seul Ong said, he sounds so much worried

“He’s at hospital” his manager said, I shocked listening at his words

“He fainted at his schedule” my body stiff, I just stay on my side, likes a big nail pressed my feet to the ground, my mind back once Seul Ong shakes me and takes Princess from my hands

“Hurry GaIn-ah” Seul Ong pat my back then I quickly goes to my room pack Kwonnie clothes. Along