If you are well in home

And many friends yours to be

Throw a party, have some fun

You know you are better off than me.

Take the day as a gift;

Know that your time is good.

Pray that you'll never be like me

Just safe and understood.

For I? I have nothing

But rude remarks

And cooing harks

Disgust which sparks

Company I never have, you enjoy.

Conversations I never have, you speak.

Food I never taste, you eat.

Aches and pains you never have, I reak.

Bruises on my self esteem

My soul lost to soulless beasts

Memories a pain to me

My mind where the devil feasts

Yet today is ruined by tomorrow

By knowing it will be no better

And today is marred by the past

Just as I, the constant fretter

I lie here now, locked in my mind

Eyes absently trailing across heaven's bliss

Surely, God above, in all the stars

There is a better place than this?

No mercy, no sheild nor love

For those with a heart

First pure as the dove,

Now shattered apart.

Eyes, obrazed by scenes of battle

Touch scorned by the dealing of death;

Ears ripped by scream and rattle

Life ends in one last stuttering breath

Open your eyes

See no light in the dark

Only wail of weapons to hark

The pain of such lies-

Yet in truth is my death

Not feared in my breath