Taeyeon's POV 

 

"isn't winter supposed to join us?" napabuntong hininga ako matapos kong ilagay yung cake na dala ni Sica sa refrigerator.

 

 

 

"yeah, supposedly. but she's not picking up I've been calling her simula pa kanina." sagot ko. I invited jessica for a dinner with winter because I heard karina insisted na iatras ang kaso sa kaibigan ni kai for the attempted case. 

 

 

 

"let me try." sabi ni jessica at sinubukan niyang tawagan ang kapatid ko. tiningnan ko naman yung niluluto ko, i prepared this for winter but seems like she ditched us. 

 

 

 

"can't reach her phone." sica said. see? kanina lang nagriring pa ngayon di na mareach. napailing ako. 

 

 

 

"for sure she won't come, winter will just turn off her phone if she doesn't want to talk to anyone." sabi ko. "then it'll just be us?" tanong niya. 

 

 

 

"obviously, sica." inirapan ko siya, napaka obvious ng sagot sa tanong niya parang tanga talaga. 

 

 

 

"is this like a date?" muntik ko ng mabitawan yung hawak kong bowl sa sinabi niya. "kidding." dagdag niya. 

 

 

 

"dinner, jessica. dinner." sabi ko sa kanya. 

 

 

 

 

I must say Jessica and I became close again after what happened to Karina kasi halos lagi kaming magkasama when it comes to karina's case na until now wala pa ring lead. Of course, kasama ang kapatid ko rito I'll make sure to catch that jerk. We've been working on it together plus may nadagdag pang project ang company namin sa arcadis. 

 

 

 

Narinig ko siyang tumawa. 

 

 

 

Inilapag ko yung bowl na may soup sa table, technically pinagsisilbihan ko siya. "let me help you." tumayo siya at kumuha ng mga plates at spoon and fork. siya na rin ang kumuha ng glasses. 

 

 

 

I took a bottle of wine, and wine glasses din. Umupo na ako sa upuan ko so as Jessica. "kumain na tayo." sabi ko. 

 

 

 

Kumuha ako ng maliit na bowl at naglagay ng soup doon tapos ibinigay ko kay Jessica she was surprised because of what I did kahit ako rin, force of habit I guess. 

 

 

 

"thank you." she smiled at me. 

 

 

 

"so..did karina tell you the reason kung bakit iniatras yung kaso?" tanong ko habang nakain kami. 

 

 

 

"ayaw pa sana sabihin ni karina, but as usual she can't lie in front of me." napatingin ako sa kanya. "kai told her na iatras yung kaso." 

 

 

 

"what? is he insane? muntik ng marape si karina tapos sinabi niya yon?" ang kapal talaga ng mukha ng lalaking yon. 

 

 

 

"insane right? i don't really feel good about that guy. i think he's not being sincere with karina." napabuntong hininga si sica. "i heard with our maids din na nagkainitan si kai at winter sa bahay." 

 

 

 

she looked at me. "nag walk out daw si winter sa bahay, seems like karina defended kai in front of her." dagdag niya. 

 

 

 

"he's getting out of hand. i'm gonna talk to minjeong again, she needs to tell her the truth." kumuha ako ng wine at nilagyan ang dalawang glasses sa harap ko atsaka ibinigay yung isa kay Jessica. 

 

 

"nasasaktan ako for minjeong. it seems like karina's having hard time remembering everything." she drank her wine in one go. 

 

 

after namin kumain, we continued our wine session. "you think she'll remember her before it's too late?" tanong ko. 

 

 

"too late?" 

 

 

"i don't know winter is really impatient but..i saw how she changed for Karina it's just that you know lahat tayo may limit." sagot ko. 

 

 

"everything you love is more likely to be lost, but in the end, love will return in a different way." napatingin ako sa kanya because of what she said. "if they are meant for each other i'm sure they'll find their way back again." she added. 

 

 

silence. 

 

 

"just like..us." she whispered but I heard it. "taeyeon, i know ever since i told you everything we haven't talked about it again. we focused on our work and sa mga kapatid natin. until now, right at this very moment iniisip kong hindi mo pa rin ako pinapatawad." 

 

 

i don't know if i'm ready for this but jessica was right. we haven't talked about it again because of everything that has happened. 

 

 

"honestly, i don't think about it anymore. siguro nga nakakagalit yung ginawa mo but hindi man kapani paniwala winter told me to put myself sa position mo back then so i could understand you." ininom ko yung natitirang wine sa glass ko. "hindi ko talaga maintindihin nung umpisa. you could just have tell me the truth but you chose to runaway." i looked at her. "then i realized.. how hard it must be for you. losing your mom tapos i can't be there for you pa dahil sa sobrang busy ko." 

 

 

"hindi lang naman ikaw yung may mali kundi pati ako so i want to apologize sa mga pagkukulang ko noon." 

 

 

she chuckled. "never kong inisip na nagkulang ka. you always think about me back then and for me you were really the best." inilapag niya yung glass sa may table. "are we finally..or are you finally forgiving me?" 

 

 

"yeah maybe?" 

 

 

"you're not sure eh? sige maghihintay ako ulit." 

 

 

"siraulo." natawa ako sa sinabi niya. "and sabi mo you were really the best? want to tell you that i am still the best until now." pagyayabang ko sa kanya. 

 

 

"i know, no one can reach the level of a Kim Taeyeon." parang tanga di ko alam kung nangbobola lang tong babaeng to or what e. 

 

 

we sat there in silence habang nakatingin sa empty glasses namin. "taeyeon." napatingin ako sa kanya. "hm?" 

 

 

"honestly, i missed you." pakiramdam ko umakyat lahat ng dugo ko sa mukha ko sa sinabi niya. 

 

 

"magkasama lang tayo sica." sagot ko, sabay iwas ng tingin. 

 

 

"i know but that's not what i meant."

 

 

"tinamaan ka ba sa wine?" she just laughed at me. i'm sorry, hindi ako marupok. hindi mo ko madadaan sa ganyan, no not tonight pero baka bukas. 

 

 

"hindi naman mataas alcohol level nito." sagot niya sa akin. 

 

 

 

 

 

Karina's POV 

 

It's been two days since the last time I saw Winter, since that night hindi ko na siya nakita ulit nor hindi na ulit siya nagparamdam. I was thinking busy siya sa acads, it's not that I really care..well yeah i really care because of what she told me. 

 

 

 

Hindi ko binanggit sa mga kaibigan ko yung nangyari about winter and I. Di ko rin alam bakit kasi parang natatakot ako? Hindi ko alam kung ayaw ko lang ba talaga malaman yung totoo or what naguguluhan na ako sa totoo lang. 

 

 

 

"karina? you're spacing out. ayos ka lang?" yeji snapped her fingers in front of me. they visited me pala since it's weekend, all four of them. 

 

 

 

"yeah, i'm fine." sagot ko, nagkekwentuhan kasi kami about sa school. i told them na baka pumasok na ko next week despite the fact na i can't still remember some things dahil sobrang nabobored na ako sa bahay. 

 

 

 

"are you sure? parang kanina ka pa tulala?" tanong ni Lia. "are you really okay?" tumango lang ulit ako. 

 

 

 

"gusto niyo pa ng snacks?" tanong ko to change the topic. "you can't lie, rina. what's bothering you?" ning sat beside me. "you know you can always tell us right?" 

 

 

"well.." lahat sila nakatingin na sa akin. "nafufrustrate lang ako sa sarili ko." sagot ko. "kasi i still can't remember anything, pakiramdam ko may kulang." lumapit silang apat sa akin at niyakap ako. 

 

 

 

"we know, mahirap talaga at nakakafrustrate." yuna said habang hinahaplos ang buhok ko. "but sooner or later, maaalala mo rin lahat just don't close your eyes, and make sure to open your heart." dagdag niya. 

 

 

 

open my heart? 

 

 

 

"hoy saan mo nakuha yang linya na yan that's not very you, yuna." asar ni lia sa kanya. 

 

 

 

"duh kita ko lang sa twitter." nagtawanan sila. "but she has a point." depensa ni yeji sa kanya. 

 

 

 

"i believe heart won't lie, heart will never forget." she looked at me. 

 

 

 

should i asked them? about what winter told me? what if she's really telling the truth because..i somehow felt it inside me. 

 

 

 

how about kai? he said we are in a relationship and that was the last thing I remembered. I'm in love with him. 

 

 

 

"about winter.." napayuko ako. "can you tell me..ano bang meron talaga sa amin?" i don't know kung tama ba tong ginagawa ko. 

 

 

 

"wait..why are you asking..? may naaalala ka na ba?" tanong ni Ning. 

 

 

Umiling ako. "wala pa..i just want to know kung ano bang meron sa amin." nagkatinginan naman sila. 

 

 

"i don't think nasa posisyon kami to tell you that. bakit hindi na lang si winter mismo ang tanungin mo?" suggest ni Yeji. 

 

 

 

Kung sasabihin ko bang Winter told me something magsasalita sila? Am I doing the right thing? it seems like i'm doubting kai. 

 

 

 

"don't mind me. i'm..i'm just thinking too much." palusot ko. 

 

 

 

"don't hesitate to tell us if you already remember anything, karina." i just nodded at Lia. 

 

 

 

"but..what do you think about winter as a person?" tanong ko. 

 

 

"well, she's..full of surprises i guess?" sagot ni yuna. "she's a nice person, karina. though we are not really fond of her nung umpisa." dagdag ni ning. 

 

 

"she changed for the better and she's really sincere." sabi naman ni yeji. 

 

 

 

lahat ng sinasabi nila, opposite ng mga sinabi ni kai sa akin about her. i don't see any reason for my friends na magsinungaling sa akin to defend winter and nakita ko naman kay winter yung mga sinasabi nila. 

 

 

"speaking of winter pala, i heard from aeri na two days na siyang hindi pumapasok." napatingin ako kay ning. 

 

 

"you're getting close with aeri huh?" asar ni Lia. 

 

 

"bakit daw?" tanong ko. 

 

 

"she didn't tell me eh. mamaya makikichika ako sa kanya." 

 

 

napayuko ako. what if she was really telling the truth but I pushed her away? damn. I need to do something I need to remember things as soon as possible. 

 

 

 

 

 

Pagkaalis ng mga kaibigan ko agad akong nagbukas ng laptop. Ang crazy but I did search sa google kung paano ko pwedeng maalala lahat i can't just rely with my therapy. 

 

 

 

"hypnosis? what?" napailing ako as i continue my search. "photographs..?" i did that already, they showed me some pictures but i didn't remember anything. "music..?" huh how? should I listen to music? "food?" how does food even help? 

 

 

 

after an hour of scrolling, i gave up. none of these can help. binuksan ko ang spotify ko at nagplay ng music, it's not that i believe music can help but i just want to listen to something.

 

 

 

Humiga ako sa kama ko, kinuha ko yung bear na binigay ni Kai sa akin at tiningnan ito. "kung may buhay ka lang sana ikaw na lang nagsasabi sa akin ng lahat ngayon." nababaliw na ba ako? kinakausap ko yung stuff toy. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Aeri's POV 

 

 

I was busy doing our business proposal since kakabigay lang sa akin ni Ryujin ng part niya. Yep, magkakagrupo kami Winter, Chaeryeong and Ryujin. 

 

 

Actually, last part na lang naman gagawin ko since tapos na sila sa part nila. Sino nagsabi wag makikipag group sa mga kaibigan when it comes to thesis or proposals dahil nakakasira daw ng friendship? well, not us. lahat kami may ambag and sobrang minimal lang ng revision na ginagawa ko sa paper namin. 

 

 

 

Ubos na pala yung coffee na iniinom ko dahil, mag all nighter na naman ako for sure though it's saturday naman. Ayoko lang na may gagawin pa bukas. 

 

 

 

Kinuha ko ang phone ko chineck ko kung may open pa na sb so i can order sa grab or any coffee will do na. 

 

 

 

As I expected wala ng bukas since it's almost 10 pm na. I guess I'm gonna make myself a coffee then. Lumabas ako sa kwarto ko at dumiretso sa kusina para mag