NINGNING POV

We started promoting the song forever and went to many radios and our popularity increased as well as the popularity of Karina unnie and Winter Unnie as a couple. Everyone was talking about them, even the radio announcer, and even in front of the cameras, Winter Unnie was calling Karina unnie her baby, which made my heart break even more. The more they acted so affectionately in front of the cameras while my heart was hurting

" Why can't I just forget why I have to suffer I sighed tight as I was on my way to the company to train When I arrived I went to the training room I was training in when I first came to the company 

 I miss those times and I realized once again to not to cling to things and people Because they will leave and they  leave me alone as happened before as I was the only one left among all the trainees who were with me at that time "

After I finished training I went back to our dorm I went in to find Winter Unnie just there while Karina Unnie and Giselle Unnie were out

I looked at Winter Unnie who was looking straying and I went over to her to stand up and look at me

 "Hey Unnie, what are you doing?"

 " nothing "

" Has anything happened "

" no Nothing happened "

She was going but I held her hand

"unnie,tell me what's worng?"

She pulled my hand away and said angrily, "I said nothing, don't you understand?"

"Is this about Karina unnie?"

she looked at me Quietly before she spoke

"And what does Karina unnie have to do with the matter?"

I sighed and i said, "karina unnie is the one you like, isn't she?"

She looked at me in Surprised before returning to her calm expression, "that not of your business."

I said angrily "what's the matter did she reject you or are you jealous? Because Giselle Unnie said she likes Karina unnie on the radio

"I told you it's none of your business," she said angrily.

I got so angry because she doesn't see my feelings Am I invisible to her Why are she so angry about something like this What about me Why don't you see me

I said angrily, "You know, Unnie, I pity you because you're like an idiot running after someone who only sees you as a little sister to her....

And before I could even finish, I could feel my cheek burning.

 Winter Unnie just slapped me while she was crying

She said while crying: I hate you. Now I understand why that person doesn't love you because you really don't deserve that person. You are really without feelings and only care about yourself. I hate you.

After saying those words, she came out of the house while standing there frozen and in pain because of her words, I sighed in pain and decided to get out too and went to the Han River and sat there while I was trying to hold my tears

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It's been 5 hours and I'm sitting there so I decided to go back to our dorm When I walked in I found Giselle Unnie and Karina Unnie Winter unnie there waiting for me with the manager and after I sat next to Karina Unnie the manager told us we had a week off Everyone was happy Everyone is going home to rest but I can't Back to my home because of Corona

 Karina unnie took my hand to look at her

She said, "Ning-uh come with me to our house, my mom loves you and we'll have a good time."

 i smiled, "Thank you, Unnie, but I'd rather stay in the dorm. Don't worry, I'll be fine."

Giselle Unnie and Karina Unnie looked at me with worried face

Giselle Unnie said, "Are you going to be okay by yourself ningie? I'm worried. Come on, ning-ah, come with me."

"Don't worry, Unnie," I said. "It's not like I'm going to burn down the house in your absence."

I got up because I knew they wouldn't stop and said goodbye to them because they were leaving tomorrow morning and I went to my room and after a short while Winter Unnie came in  and started packing her things and her clothes without saying a word to me and after that she went to her bed and fell asleep while I was looking at her and lay down and fell a sleep I also

The next morning I woke up to see that Winter Unnie had left without saying goodbye.

She hated me now. I sighed tightly and walked out of the room to find Karina Unnie and Giselle Unnie preparing to leave.

 Giselle Unnie and Karina Unnie hugged me tightly, while Karina Unnie seemed to give me her lectures and smiled at her. She looked like my mom and she told me to call her every day

while Giselle Unnie was telling her I'd be fine They looked like a couple while I was their daughter

 After I said goodbye and they left I sighed and went to the shower and then got dressed and went out and ate some meat that Karina unnie had left for me

 I was sad because Winter Unnie didn't say goodbye to me I didn't know what to do when she came back Now she hates me so much

I put my hand on the cheek that she hit me in and the tears started to flow like a waterfall I didn't know that love would hurt me

I went to my room and took my diary that I had hid well and started writing

Title: You and MeTitle: You and Me

I’m always thinking about you.. and I keep myself from talking to you

And I remember your face, I haven’t forgotten about you

Even though you’re far away.. your love is getting deeper

You’re within me, but I cannot find you

I can’t forget you, I can’t go on without you

It’s my fate, to tell our story but can’t live it with you

I can’t forget you, I can’t go on without you

It’s my fate, to tell our story but can’t live it with you

I sighed, and I closed my notes, hid them again, and lay down on my bed and fell asleep again.

I woke up again to the sound of my phone ringing and I looked to see who was calling to find it was Karina unnie

I said, "Hey Karina Unni."

She said, "Ning, why didn't you answer me quickly?"

"I'm sorry I was asleep"

"Oh, I'm sorry to wake you up. Have you eaten?"

I said, "It's okay, I still haven't eaten."

She said, "I brought you some food in the fridge, it's ready, just heat it up."

I said, "Thank you, Unnie."

"Ning-ah did... did something happen between you and Winter?"

I didn't know what to say to her, should I tell her that we quarreled, but she would be worried

I said quiet, "No, we're fine."

"Really, ning-ah, you can tell me anything," she said in disbelief.

I said, "I know, don't worry."

She said, "Okay I'll go now, don't forget to eat your food and take care of yourself, I'll call you again."

i smiled, "Okay, thank you. Please take care of yourself."

After I hung up the phone I sighed and looked at the room and then I walked out of the room and sat in the kitchen

 Really the house without the members looks lonely and sad I've always hated the feeling of being alone It's been one day but to me it feels like a month I miss them so much

 I grabbed my phone and tried to call winter Unnie but what am I going to tell her I hung up again and got out of the kitchen I couldn't eat because of all these thoughts I went to my room and lay on her bed and smelled her pillow that She was carrying her scent, then i looked at the ceiling and fell back into a deep sleep

 " I have always been lonely since my childhood and I used to hate this feeling but after meeting Karina Unnie and Giselle Unnie and Winter Unnie they changed me to someone else I felt so happy whenever I was with them even though I don't show my feelings but I really feel blessed to have the members by my side "

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I'm sorry I'm so late but I was actually thinking I was going to finish this story or not but I'll try to finish it if you like it
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