Winter POV

I woke up this morning to find that Ningning is not here, she must have gone to the company, she is really a hardworking child

I went to the shower and then got dressed after I finished taking a shower and walked out of the room to go to the unnie's room I slowly opened the door to see Karina unnie close to Gisele unnie face who was sleeping and then my heart broke when I saw Karina unnie kissing Giselle unnie

I couldn't stand it so I decided walked away and closed the door slowly so that she wouldn't know I was there. I decided to go back to my room and lay on my bed. I didn't want to cry because I knew she would come to me any minute.

I wanted to confess to her but she loved Giselle Unnie how did I not know Is that why Karina unnie was so shy when Giselle unnie confessed on the radio that she likes Karina unnie I feel like an idiot Suddenly

I went to my room and was drowning in my thoughts until I felt the presence of Karina Unnie in my room

i turns around to see karina unnie telling me she's going out with Gisele unnie she asked me to come With them, but I refused, so she came to me and arranged my hair before she went out of my room , I sighed tightly, then I left the room and went to sit on the sofa, and the confused thoughts were in my head.

"Hey Unnie, what are you doing?"

I turned to any. ningning standing in front of me

 " nothing "

She said, "Did something happen?"

I really didn't want to talk because I was tired of thinking

" Nothing happened "

I got up to go because I knew I was going to say something I might regret later but she held my hand

" unnie, what's up?"

I was angry, so i pulled her hands away and said angrily, "I said nothing, don't you understand?"

"Is this about Karina unnie?"

' How did you know if I was clear and if I was clear why didn't Karina unnie see me'

I looked at her calmly before I spoke "And what is Karina unnie's involvement in the matter?"

She sighed and said, "karina unnie is the one you like, isn't she?"

I looked at her in astonishment before returning to my calm expression, "None of your business."

She smiled sarcastically, "So she is... did she reject you or are you just jealous because Giselle Unnie said on the radio that she likes karina unnie?"

' Now she's playing with my nerves'

"I told you it's none of your business," I said angrily.

She said angrily, "You know, Unnie, I pity you because you're like a fool running after someone who only sees you as a little sister to her....

I couldn't stand her words and i didn't know how she did it but I slapped her with anger while tears were falling from my eyes

I said while crying: I hate you. Now I understand why that person doesn't love you because you really don't deserve him. You really have no feelings and only care about yourself. I hate you.

I went out of the house and went to a park that was close to our house

I hated myself because I loved Karina Unnie and because I didn't know Giselle Unnie's feelings

and I hated myself even more because I hit ningning because of something stupid why did I say those words to her I sighed tightly and looked at the sky

I don't know how many The time I sat there until my phone rang it was Karina Unnie who was calling and told me to come home because the manager wanted to talk to us

 When I got to our dorm I just saw Karina unnie and Giselle unnie sitting with the manager while Ningning wasn't there I sat next to Giselle unnie without saying a word

and after a short while Ningning came and sat next to Karina unnie The manager told us we had a week off I was glad I could Going home, but I remembered that ningning can't come back to china because of Corona.

"Ning-ah come with me to our house mom loves you and we'll have a good time," Karina unnie said.

  "Thank you, Unnie, but I'd rather stay in the dorm, don't worry, I'll be fine," Ningning said.

Giselle unnie and Karina unnie looked at her anxiously while I was just listening to them

Giselle Unnie said, "Are you going to be okay by yourself? I'm worried. Come on, Ningning, come with me."

"Don't worry, Unnie," she said. "It's not like I'm going to burn down the house in your absence."

I saw her getting up and saying goodbye to them, then she entered our room

i sighed and said goodbye to Karina Unnie and Gisele Unnie, then I went in and started packing my things and my clothes without saying a word to her because I was angry with myself and then I went to my bed and pretended to sleep and when I felt that she fell asleep I opened my eyes and I looked at her, looked at her face, and then fell asleep while I was looking at her

The next morning I woke up while Ningning was sleeping

" i am sorry ....goodbye "

I looked at her for the last time before I went out and said goodbye to the unise and I left

my dad came to take me for the whole trip I was looking in the window and thinking about Ningning Will she be okay alone? What should I do to make peace with her? I shouldn't have hit her or told her that

I sighed and closed my eyes and slept the whole trip

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It was four days in that period, I was thinking about Ningning a lot and I couldn't rest, especially today I felt a strange feeling that was suffocating me so I decided to go back to our drom and although my parents asked me to stay because I still have three days to come back but I refused and told them that I have training so I'm back

When I got to our dorm I went in and looked around but I didn't see Ningning so I decided to go to our room and as soon as I opened it I found Ningning in front of me with a tired expression

"Ning-ah, what's the matter, why are you like this?" I said worriedly.

She couldn't even answer me and collapsed on my lap while I grabbed her tight and carried her to my bed and put her in it I touched her forehead to feel it burning I was worried about her and wanted to call the manager and the members but I realized it was late so I decided to get her the doctor but she held my hand

So I said, "Ning-ah, I'm going to get the doctor."

"Stay with me, don't go," she said in a tired voice.

"But Ning-ah...

And even before I could finish my words, she pulled me to the bed and made me sleep next to her. I was really amazed at what she did

She said, "I don't want anyone but you, stay with me and I'll heal soon just....stay with me please."

I suddenly felt ashamed of her words, so I decided to get up because I didn't want her to see me ashamed of her, but she was strong

"If you get away from me, I'll kiss you."

I suddenly stopped because of her words but I know she was just delirious so I tried again but suddenly she grabbed my face and kissed me and then she separated the kiss and put my head on her neck

"Unnie, I really want to kiss you more, but I'm afraid to pass the disease on to you, so just hug me, I miss you so much."

I was still in shock because of what Ningning did,

my senses came back when she said that....what do she mean by kissing me more Do you really want to kiss me And while I was in my distracted thoughts all of a sudden she put her forehead on mine and said very softly

"I really love her but she always doesn't see me I don't know what to do to feel my feelings, that unnie are really dangerous to my heart every time I see her I want to kiss her and sleep next to her and touch her but she never sees me and that hurt me a lot"

I looked at her and she fell into a deep sleep after she said those words

I sighed thinking about that person She said 'unnie ' that means she's older than ningning but who

i sighed again while I looked at her and then slept on her pretty face

The next morning I woke up to touch Ningning pulling out my hair I looked at her and quickly removed her hand I kept looking at her thinking about what happened yesterday....Does she remember any of what happened

 I saw her trying to get up

"Stay laying," I said softly, "I'll make something for you to eat."

" oh…..Okay "

I walked out of the room and sighed, thinking about yesterday's scene.

I touched my lips. Ningning's lips were so soft and tender... I shook my head

'what I was thinking'

I sighed again and made the soup and then came back to the room and put the hot soup on the table and grabbed her to sit on my bed Then I grabbed the soup in my hand and started to cool it

"It will help you heal," I said softly. "Open your mouth."

She said, "I can do it myself."

I looked at her quietly before I grabbed the spoon and brought it closer to

I said "open your mouth"

I fed her very quietly and when I finished the soup I put it on the table and looked at her

I said "what happened to you"

"I was outside and it was raining, but I didn't take my umbrella so I caught a cold," she said quietly.

"Why didn't you call the manager, why didn't you call us, were you going to stay like this?" I said angrily.

She lowered her head, "I'm sorry … but everyone was enjoying the holiday and I didn't want to worry you all, I'm sorry."

I sighed as I got up and grabbed her face and put my forehead on hers, apparently confused by what I did.

She said, "unnie , what... what are you doing?"

I said calmly, "I saw if your temperature went down or not."

We stayed for a while before I walked away and told her to lie down again and then I grabbed the plate and looked at her

I said, "Sleep a little, I'll wash the plate and go to the pharmacy to buy you medicine and come back."

She nodded to me and left the room,

I grabbed my jacket and went to the pharmacy and bought the medicine. Then I came back to see her sleeping. I smiled at her and watched her sweet face.

I looked into her eyes, then her nose, then her lips. I remembered the accident yesterday. I shook my head, then put my hand on her forehead to check her temperature to see her open her eyes. I smiled at her

"Sorry, did I wake you up?"

She smiled, "No, it's okay."

I grabbed the medicine and made her sit down to eat and then sat down in front of the bed and looked at me

I said, "Are you feeling better now?"

She said, "I'm better now."

 "that good …but Why were you sleeping on my bed?"

Suddenly I saw her blushing and lowering her head

She said hesitantly: I... I... I just missed you

I looked at her in astonishment before changing my expression

I said "I'm sorry"

she looked at me confused

She said, "Why are you sorry?"

I said, "I'm sorry I hit you that day. I shouldn't have. I was...just angry at myself. I shouldn't have been angry at you."

she smiled and held my hand to look at her

She said, "Don't apologize, I was wrong too. I shouldn't have told you that."

I looked at her and then put my hand on her cheek and said, "Did it hurt you so much?"

She said, "No, it didn't hurt."

I kept looking at her silently

' she's always like this, even when she's in pain, she says she's fine'

' why don't you tell the truth '

 I sighed before I decided to take my hand on her cheek and made her lie in my bed and then cover her and tidy her hair and then get up

I said, "Good now, sleep well."

And she said, "Okay, but unnie, why did you go back to the dorm?"

I remained silent now, what should I say to her? Then she looked at me

I said softly, "Mom and Dad are going on a trip, so I decided to go back."

I lied to her because I couldn't tell her I came because I was worried about her

She said, "I understand."

I turned off the lights, laid down on her bed and closed my eyes

"Good night, Ning-ah," I said softly.

She said, "Good night, Unnie."

I opened my eyes after feeling that she had fallen asleep and I kept looking at her

' Ning ah why do you lie why do you say you're fine when you're not then who are these unnie that you love so much' 

I sighed deeply, then fell asleep