Shuhua POV

i'm so tired goddamn, pretending is not fun at all but sometimes it makes you happy at the same time does it make sense? lmao, Were at the van now miyeon unnie next to me and Soojin at the front of us texting someone for god who knows probably her sister

"shu" i looked at the person who is poking my cheeks and so close i can literally feel her breath on my cheek, 

"hm?" i whispered back at yuqi who is showing her phone at me, i raised my eyebrown confused.

"i found a copy of the episode, you wanna watch?" i suddenly feel the excitement all over my body, Letting myself feel comfortable i fixed my blanket on my lap and leaned my head on yuqi's shoulder.

"play it come on" Yuqi smiled which made me confused, yuqi is acting extremely strange right now, what in the world happened to her. Usually when were on our way back home she either play with soyeon, tease me or shout at no reason at all.

"are you yuqi?" i sat up and just stared at her, she massaged her temples and facepalmed.

"what the? are you sick?" i laughed at her face she looks so annoyed right now so funny.

"i should be the one asking you that " I chuckled and she just-- gasped and her expression turned into anger 

"you should be grateful that i'm being like this" She rolled her eyes at me, what the? the nerve giraffe. 

"i mean your acting nice and--" I was about to finish my sentence when she quickly interrupted me. "so your saying that i'm bad?" did she just-

"your so dumb. just tell me already" i whined but loud enough to yuqi to hear, i don't want to be smacked again from soojin. it frikin hurts

"tell you what? just wait till we get home" Yuqi finally calms down, wtf that's so sudden, God i pray bring our yuqi back

"i know your curious but calm your down and don't pray for me" I burst into laughter because her face tho-- i can't

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"shuhua? wake up, were home" i slowly opened my eyes after hearing that beautiful and soft voice, i saw jinjin staring at me and was about to poke my cheek but stopped when she saw me wide awake. of course i tried to hide my blush but god says no.

"okay i'm up, just don't poke my cheeks again" i chuckled and she just helps me stand up "u don't like it?" I laughed what is she thinking.

"it's not that i don't like it it's just--" Someone suddenly yells my name, i rolled my eyes, your ruining our moment miyeon unnie damn it! i heard jinjin chuckled, probably noticing my annoyed expression on my face.

"whattt?" i groaned and just let myself being drag by miyeon unnie leading us to inside to the livingroom.

"Mom just texted me, she needs to return haku and mata back tomorrow" I nod feeling excited, i'm gonna see my babies again uwu

"thank god i miss them so much" i said smiling and let my body down on the sofa, i'm so effin exhausted physically and mentally.

"okay change your clothes now and rest i'm gonna order some food" I nod at soyeon unnie's order, i lift up and was about to step on the stairs.

"i'm not coming to dinner! i will eat with my sister" Soojin shouts and did not wait for captain's response. she just slammed the door. Why do i have a bad feeling about this? and suddenly i can't move my feet is glued on the floor.

"are you going up or not?" Yuqi gently placed her hand on my shoulder making me go back in reality.

"oh yeah sorry" i played it off by laughing she just sighed and whispered something, but i can't heat it properly

opening the door, i slammed my body on my bed and stared at the ceiling, thinking again this is becoming my routine now, go home lay on the bed and stare at the ceiling. Shaking my head i stand up and made my way to my closet to get some clothes and change.

i grabbed my favorite pajamas with the puppy prints on it and just weared a tshirt with cherry prints on it. Actually it's from soojin unnie, goddamn thinking about her is making me flushed, her scent is on the shirt making me miss her, she's been hanging out with her sister lately which i understand but something seems off, or i'm just being delusional or something

I turned the ac on and just played among us, not planning on going down with the girls, i'm tired for sure they will understand. right?.

3rd Person POV

The four girls is now sitting on the floor and playing a board game while waiting for the food to arrive.

"Aha! you lose" Yuqi sticked her tounge out on miyeon who is now with a annoyed look on her face, they are playing jenga and yuqi is just teasing the older.

"You cheated! you kept teasing me i can't focus" Miyeon whines which made minnie and soyeon burst into laughter.

"well it's not my fault your distracted oldie" Miyeon gasped at yuqi's response and so so close at exploding.

Before everything ends up on a war, Minnie decided to stop the two and just changed the topic.

"ANYWAYS! the host earlier is so funny" Minnie said with a smile. the rest agreed on her.

"a sooshu shipper and neverland" They burst into laughter at soyeon who is rubbing yuqi's back up and down like a baby

"Speaking about those two. are they okay?" Minnie worriedly asked she is noticing the strange behaviour the two is doing.

"i know, Soojin is always out to the point where she literally does it everyday and shuhua is just so quiet" Soyeon sighed and layed her head on yuqi's shoulder.

"it's suspicious actually. Soojin said she's been hanging out with her sister everyday? like they have school and her hometown is so far away from here" Miyeon said curiousity obvious on her tone,

"i'm starting to think that she's seeing someone again" Miyeon adds and yuqi is just silent, not bothering to spead and doesn't want to speak

"And shuhua is unusually so quiet and different" Minnie said with a hint of sadness on her tone, and worried

"we never know what's happening so let's just hope that it's nothing serious" Soyeon smiled trying to make the atmosphere in the modd

Yuqi suddenly stands up making the rest look at her confused,

"where are you going?" soyeon asked making yuqi chuckled sarcastically

"i'm going to hell" Yuqi said with sarcasm making all of them facepalm and just let her go up

She remembered that she needs to talk to the younger she sighed while going up on her way to shuhua's room

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Shuhua POV

i am peacefully playing until someone knocks gently on my door, oh it's probably soyeon unnie or miyeon. i stood up and opened the door, oh its yuqi

"can i come in?" Yuqi asked me with a gentle voice, shes back at it again, Too tired to talk i just nod and made her way to come in. She comfortably sat in the side on my bed. and gestured me to sit too

"did something happen?" i said to the giraffe who is hugging my dog plushie. She shakes her head and clears .

"How are you?" I chuckled, i mean we literally see each other faces 24/7 "i'm great what kind if question is that?" I smiled.

"i know your not, shu i know you, i can read you like a book" i stared at her and decided to let her continue.

"did you really think that i didn't noticed the pretending and fake smiles you've doing this past few days?" i looked down and just stayed quiet. yuqi is right

"is it about soojin unnie?" i looked up and nods my eyes starts to tear up, i can't cry.

"it's just everything is so complicated, i love her she doesn't yet she's acting like she liked me then suddenly back to being a tsundere" i gently said with a crack on my voice

"i'm so tired yuqi, not only with jinjin, i'm tired of everything" i sadly said. The social media is literally ing with me, with all of the criticism and the hate, but thankfully im able to hide and pretend all of it of course i'll succed im a great actress after all

"come here" Yuqi opened her arms which i quickly accept, i hugged her like it's the end og the world, finally im able to let it all out, The pain

"i'm here shu, i'm not leaving you" Yuqi gently massaged my head and my tears slowly falls down on both of my cheeks.

1 Hour later (3rd Person POV)

"How is she?" Miyeon immediatly asked yuqi who is now decided to leave shuhua since she's sleeping and check the girls on the living room.

"she's fine" Yuqi smiled and helped soyeon prepare the food on the plates. "is she doing something? tell her we need to eat now" Yuqi sighed at soyeon "She's sleeping, let's just save some for her?" Soyeon nods and the atmosphere is now quiet and awkward.

Suddenly someone opened the door making all of them jump on their places seeing soojin with a messy hair and panting like she just joined a marathon.

"what the? are you okay?" Miyeon asked the younger making her shake her head. 

"w-we got caught by dispatch" She shakily said and starts to play with her fingers. 

"what do you mean? don't tell me" Yuqi is now shocked at the realization and just don't know what to say

"i'm sorry" at that moment soojin breaks

A/N

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