Twelve years ago when I was in my first year at senior high school, my classmates usually avoid me as I was very cold to them, that makes me a loner, but there was this girl who kept saying she wanted to know me better, she was the only one who bold enough to talk things to me, she always waits in front of our class door and greet me, and follows behind as I walk to my desk. 

Honestly speaking it was very nice to have someone wanted to befriend me despite my dark personality, I was arrogant, always thought I was the smartest and everyone else could never understand me cause they're stupid. And that girl, she knocked me some senses, not everyone else is stupid, at least she was not. She was smart enough to break the fictional wall I created to distance myself from unnecessary friendship or relationship. I eventually acknowledge her as a friend,

but she shocked me with something else instead...

She wanted to be my girlfriend...

Back then, that was something I'd never thought, I was friendless, any kind of relationship to me was a burden. Usually, I would tell anybody that I didn't want to had that kind of a relationship, but to her, it was difficult.

"You can call me whatever you want, you can treat me as your girlfriend, but to me you are nothing."

Yeah...

I let her, but I also could not surrender my pride, some people might think my words were harsh, but that was the most polite words I could think of.

So... I was her girlfriend, but not a second I thought her as mine.

She was very kind, a very cheerful girl with pretty eyes, and I'm not exaggerated when I said she was kind...

I lived alone, my parent lived abroad, they were very busy and still are, I also refuse their idea to hire a maid to take care of my daily necessity, so... no one to prepare a lunchbox for me and I was too lazy to cook, to make it worse the crowdy cafeteria at school make me lose my appetite, I'd rather stayed alone at the class while everyone else eats their lunch, in conclusion, nobody ever saw me eating. Maybe she noticed that, and sometimes she brought an extra lunchbox or share hers.

She was the one who made me realize that having others around you actually not a bad idea.

Long story short, I've become her girlfriend for almost the whole my first year, although I was passive, I can't help but notice a few things about her, a small mole in the right side of her neck, her relatively small feet, maybe 225mm - 235mm, she had a bad eyesight and occasionally wore her glasses in the class but she also always wore a normal colour lenses, which was strange to wear two different things with a similar function at the same time.

One day for the first time she forgot to wore her lenses and kept trying to hide her left eye with her hair, that was when I noticed she had heterochromia iridium, the reason she wore lenses, not because her eyesight, she tried to hide her unmatch eye colour. She was ambidextrous, she eats and writes with her right hand, but she does everything else with her left, even her phone fingerprint lock is only her left index finger. I can't help but to notice a lot of unnecessary things, I've been like that since I was a kid.

The funny thing is, I knew a lot of silly things about her, but I didn't know anything about her life, her home, her phone number, common things anybody should know about, especially the fact that I was her girlfriend.

Why???

I didn't ask...

even if she told me a lot of things about her private life, I didn't remember. I had no interest.

Does it bother me? know nothing about her?

At first, it doesn't.

Not until she suddenly did not show up to the school...

Anymore...

Last time she attended school, she looks gloomy, not as cheerful as usual. At the end of our school