its just a small thing chenle notices. 

can't help it really, when he leans into jaemins side during a video filming for their channel and nctzen. watches how jisung finds the two, but never looks directly. just from the side. blinks a couple times. puffs his cheeks up when chenle rests his face in jaemins shoulder. 

"you jealous?" chenle teases when they stand in a group for pictures, expecting jisung to deny it. 

to tell him otherwise. 

but he doesn't. 

only throws a glance chenles way before moving to stand beside jeno and stay that way the rest of the shoot. 

it makes him confused. 

"why would he be jealous?" chenle asks mark who gives him a look, like, you really wanna ask why?

so chenle asks him why. 

"no reason." jisung lies, lifts his head from his book where he's been cornered by chenle on the sofa in their dorm. 

"but you did a thing."

"what thing?" jisung asks now, stares at chenle who makes a contorted sort of face as an attempt to show him, like he's in pain or something while puffing his cheeks out. jisung finds it endearing. all sorts of feelings threatening to bubble up and flow out of him. adoration, affection, love. 

"i did?"

chenle makes a little humming sound, somewhat offended like jisung didn't believe it but he knows. its true. he'd rather be distracted and look away then watch chenle get close to someone that just.. isn't him. 

"look at me, hyung." jisung says, placing his book off to his side to reach out for chenle and pull the lavender headed boy close to him. "only me." 

"that's a little selfish, jisung-ah." 

"is it?" the brown haired boy feigns, laying on chenles stomach when he scolds the younger boy for being that way, running his hands through jisung's hair when he picks his book back up. he'll admit, sometimes he's selfish about jisung too. and he's so light, so warm laying against his stomach, close close close. he likes this. 

"yeah. but i don't mind it." he whispers quietly, knowing jisung can hear him. 

wants to be the only one to. 

"good."