It's raining cats and dogs outside her apartment. She can hear the rain falling in big drops violently on the balcony railing. How weird, it was all sunny and bright before.

She wonders whose soul being drowned in a sea of grief for rain to be invited over. With teeth being grit, she feels her heart clenches.

Indeed rain can be associated with sadness.

Because that is exactly what she is feeling right now.

The pain from longing.

And she hates it a little bit too much.

It .

Chaewon tries to forget whatever emotions trying to succumb to heart by switching her sleep position in the bed. She can't help but to shiver in her fluffy mint-colored blanket.

Her arms folded across her chest as she envelops herself in a hug.

Eyes wandering, searching for the clock.

11 P.M.

Already late at night.

The window, trickles with rain drops, is almost fully covered with a deep maroon curtain, making her room pitch black.

She close her droopy eyes in an attempt to sleep.

After a few more struggling and sighing here and there, she eventually gave up.

Her mind won't let her free.

Again.

It is like a routine before she let herself to sleep like a baby everyday. Well, her brain almost doesn't permit her to rest, but as long as she does the ritual, then it's perfectly fine.

There are days when she felt exhausted from too much work though - her active brain would slowed down and allowed her to rest automatically without any force.

But today is just like the usual, normal days.

So might as well make herself comfortable.

With her blanket covering her face, leaving only a tiny space for air to creep in, her hands roaming outside the blanket, searching for her favorite stuffed animals on her left side.