I went to our practice room,dancing always helped me to release my stress ,our dance wasn't as hard as I wanted so I danced to an American song that I like and just freely danced because it made me forget my thoughts People think that idol's life is just so cool&amazing but they dont know what we are going through everyday, we get blackmailed, stalked, and get criticized all the time. I have been going through a lot lately, no matter how hard i work people just criticize and tell me that i have became who i am only because of my face and no talent.. As i danced My stomach started to hurt more but I didn't care and just continued on my dance until my vision became blurry, And then i didn't know whatever was going on.. _ I woke up in a white room which was hospital, I looked around the room and it was empty, no one was here cause it was midnight. I looked at the table beside me and gladly my phone was there I was bored so I just picked it up.. I wanted to call chorong or eunji unnie but i didnt want to bother them so i just went to my gallery file and looked at my pictures. I had a lot of photos from Taemin oppa and me, if you look at the photos you will think we were a real couple I smiled at the memories..yet my eyes became watery when I remembered the song he sang for me his voice was like heaven for me. {Could you remember only this? That I lived by your side for a while I may see you on streets sometimes So I try to tidy up my shabby look on a mirror Are you not sick? I am concerned about you a lot.. You must be happy but I'll pray for you Remember even if you meet another man That I lived by your side for a while...} Tears dropped down my cheeks. Suddenly I got a call I looked at the dialer and it was Myungsoo I picked it up. "did you woke up?" he asked worriedly. "hello first sir and yeah oppa I just woke up."I smiled .we became close since we were goin