A/N: Hello again! So I decided to add more chapters to this story. Hope you will like it! And by the way, majority of you are confused of what happened, but, that was really the goal when I wrote that chapter. Because that was also what the characters feel during that time. Adios!

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Three months later after the break-up...

Third POV

BREAKING NEWS 01/01/19

CONFIRMED: BLACKPINK’S JENNIE DATING EXO’S MAIN DANCER KAI

“Oh my God.”

Jisoo was gaping at her phone while standing in the middle of the messy living room, where she and the other two members ate a lot of unhealthy foods and drunk several bottles of alcoholic drink to celebrate the New Year’s Eve last night. She was the first one to woke up among the other members despite the slight headache that she was feeling at the moment. She and Chaeyoung chose to stay by Lisa’s side and get drunk with her because they knew the condition that the youngest member was in. Even though she did drink, her hangover was not that bad because of her high alcohol tolerance that she still managed to tuck the wasted maknaes on their beds after changing their clothes last night. 

While the three of them decided to celebrate together, Jennie celebrated the New Year’s Eve with her family, another reason why the oldest member chose to stay at their dorm because she knew that it was the time when Lisa will need her the most, and boy, she was damn right about that. Last night was filled with tears and self pity from the youngest member, and the only thing that she and Chaeyoung could do was to listen to Lisa and wipe her tears from time to time. Even though their heart aches while hearing Lisa’s constant blabber of apologies to Jennie and series of “I hate myself” mantra, the other two members knew deep inside that Lisa made a wrong decision, letting Jennie go and giving up even though she knew, heck they all know, that they still love each other a lot.

The break up really messed the lives of the two persons involved. However, it also messed up the normal vibe in the dorm that they live in, in the studio where they practice and record their songs, heck, you can point the awkwardness in the air whenever Jennie and Lisa were in the same room. But most of all, it messed up the normal bond that the four members have. It was never the same anymore.

The months after the break up were really bad for the relationship of the team. And Jisoo and Chaeyoung could do nothing about it. Even though a day after the break up, when Jennie broke down again at Chaeyoung’s room and when the younger member barged into the youngest‘s room who was being wrapped in Jisoo’s arms and shouted at her, letting her raging chipmunk transformed into a beast and asking Lisa what she’s doing and telling her that she’s so stupid and almost punching her if  it was not for the oldest member’s glare that made her stop what she was doing and stamped out of the room and just consoled the other crying woman. That day was very exhausting and also painful for the two best friends to see their other best friends who really loved each other, breaking down. But at the end of the day, they couldn’t do anything but be there for them. They switched places after that, Jisoo tucking the crying Jennie in her room and Chipmunk apologizing to her twin with tears in her eyes and taking back her words, but playfully telling Lisa that she’s really stupid that made the dork chuckle a little before they hugged each other to sleep.

So yes, the lovers were very thankful for their best friends and felt really sorry for the mess that they made that affected the group, especially Lisa who always say sorry whenever she can to the other two members. And maybe that was also the reason why it was really obvious that she was still grieving and was still in the process of moving on by being dull and not in the mood all the time, while Jennie acted like nothing bad really happened and was still cheerful during their schedules and in the dorm, except that she did not, even once, acknowledge Lisa’s presence whenever they were in the same room. She was acting like Lisa does not exist, and it hurts the latter the most.

That’s why reading this news of Jennie’s dating another person really shocked the oldest member. She knew that Jennie still loves Lisa, even though she appeared to be just fine after the break up, she knows the brunette too well to identify by just looking at her eyes that she’s breaking inside being in the same room with the one she loves and for not being able to touch her and tell her that.

Jisoo put away the bottles that she was holding and scrolled down further on the article that she was reading. She was trying to decipher the words and the pictures into her head, trying to get her thoughts together about this news. She remembered one of the pictures that the article claimed to be a proof of JenKai’s relationship was the photo of Jennie being on Paris, in front of the Eiffel Tower and Kai’s IG photo which was also taken in Paris which was coincidentally posted at the same day and month as Jennie’s post. Jisoo couldn’t actually ponder further about the other photos because the only thing that came into her mind after she finished reading the article was—

*CLASSSSH*

“Lisa!”

Jisoo immediately ran into the youngest room and opened her door, only to find the blonde kneeling on the floor, surrounded with broken pieces of her phone. She was staring blankly at the wall, no tears visible in her eyes, and that scared the older member the most. 

This is bad. Really bad. Jisoo thought.

“Lisa-ya.” She took a step forward but was  stopped when she heard Lisa’s voice filled with coldness that sent shivers into her spines.

“Don’t.” Jisoo sighed and closed her eyes for a moment, trying to think what to do, but came up to nothing. And so, she didn’t do anything but granted the command of the youngest.

“Okay Lis.” She was about to stepped out of the room when Rosè, who was holding her head, appeared.

“What happened unnie? I he- OH MY GOD! WHAT HAP-“

“Come on Chaeng.” Jisoo forcefully dragged the younger member who was about to resist and go to Lisa when she saw the state that she was in. But she automatically obeyed the oldest when she heard the tone of her voice, so she decided to just kept mum and looked over her shoulder with concern at the youngest who was still immobile. 

The moment that Jisoo closed the door, they heard a very painful scream from the room that broke their already shattered hearts. They looked at each other with teary eyes and walked into the living room, letting Lisa grieved on her own, privately. They chose to silently clean their dorm after Jisoo showed Rosè the article which involved Jennie, and the younger member couldn’t help but to let her tears fall, feeling the pain that her best friend inside the room was already feeling. Despite the painful screams, and numerous things being thrown at the wall inside the room, the two members didn’t do anything to stop it, they just let their broken sister mourn.

———

It was already late in the evening when Jennie arrived at the dorm. She saw her other two members at the living room eating pizza’s while watching TV. She sighed when the two looked at her for a moment and quickly averted their eyes at the front, they did not even take the time to greet her or acknowledge her arrival. She knows that its her fault too, she already assumed that this will happen even before she was scolded by Yang Hyun Suk. Lying to the girls was a very huge mistake to make especially that they promised that they should not keep any secrets from each other and that this news will also affect their group image. But what choice did she have? She couldn’t tell her members that she’s dating because one of them, was her ex, that she still love very much.

She took a deep breath before walking towards the two.

“Look guys, let me explain.”

“Explain what Jen? It was already clear to us. The media made it really clear.” Jisoo retorted while emphasizing the word media, making Jennie feel even guiltier. 

“You don’t understand guys. I have to keep it a secret. Because I don’t want you guys to be involved. I already put you guys in too much stuff. I don’t want to add more things in to your plate to worry about.”

The two members kept mum and let Jennie explain her side. They know that they couldn’t blame Jennie for keeping a secret, but they still feel betrayed and hurt by what she did. Jennie continued.

“I am deeply sorry for lying to you. But what do you think I should do? After the break up, you two were the only ones who were there for us. And I saw how much trouble that the break up brought into this group, into our relationship as a team. It was also the reason why I have to keep my relationship with Kai as a secret.”

A scoff. 

The two who were sitting on the couch gasps while the one who was talking bit her lip and closed her eyes. She knew that the one who let out a scoff heard her, and it was bad. Real bad for her, for them. She turned around and saw the new person in the room, clad in a black oversized hoodie and ripped jeans, her eyes are red and very puffy, and those same orbs were looking at her with no emotions at all that made her shiver.

“You should’ve just told me that I was a hindrance to you. I should’ve just left this dorm and went out of your sight so you don’t have to act that I don’t exist. So that you can around with other boys without me getting on the way.”

Lisa spitted venom which turned the room temperature even lower than the usual winter coldness. The silence was so painful that the other two couldn’t help but looked down, even though they were surprised by the youngest presence and sudden outburst,  in order not to witness another painful moment between the two. But what shocked them the most was when there was a loud slap that echoed in the room.

Jennie slapped Lisa, so hard.

“How dare you.” The older of the two muttered while clenching her fists, and staring at the youngest with the tears streaming down her face.

“You were the one who gave up on us. You were the one who treated me so coldly that I even have to doubt myself and increase my insecurity. You were the one who broke my heart into pieces. Tell me, what do you expect from me? Do you think it is not difficult for me to act like you don’t exist? Do you think it is easy for me to move on? What do you want me to do Lisa?! Tell me!”

Silence. Heavy breathing. Silent sobs. Heavy footsteps.

*BANG*

And Lisa left, again, but this time, without a word.

———

“Do you even love him, Jen?” The older slightly shorter brunette asked the feline woman. While Chaeyoung ran after Lisa, the older members were left inside the dorm and were now sitting on Jennie’s room after the painful encounter of the ex-lovers. 

“I do. I like him a lot.”

“But?”

“But its not the same.”

“Why?”

“Because I’m still in love with Lisa, unnie.”

Jisoo sighed and held the now crying woman.

“I don’t know what to do with the two of you. It is clear that you still love each other. Why does it have to be this way? Why did you choose to experience this type of pain?”

“I don’t know, unnie. I wish I know the answer.” Sobs.

———

“Lis, stop that.”

“No Chaeng-ah. Let me.” The younger of the two snatched back the bottle of beer that was stolen from her by the other girl. Chaeyoung sighed defeatedly and let Lisa drink her 4th bottle of beer and watched her member sadly. The blonde was in a really bad state. Her hair was messy, her eyes are still red and puffy, and her cheeks are filled with dried tears. She also reeked of alcohol. It was a good thing that they were in a VIP club that was owned by one of their friends who was also an idol, they don’t need to worry about the press or K-media that might take a picture of them drinking in the club. Today is also Tuesday, which means that the club is closed for the public, but is open to the celebrities, exclusively.

“Hey.” A soft velvety voice greeted the two Blackpink members who were sitting in a corner table in the room.

“Oh. Hey, Irene-unnie.” The sober of the two girls greeted the older woman back who smiled at her and looked at Lisa who did not even bother to greet her back. She looked at Chaeyoung with a furrowed brows, asking silently if Lisa’s okay, which was only replied with a sigh and a head shake from the younger one.

“Hey Lisa. Can I sit here?” Irene attempted again to catch the blonde’s attention, and this time, she did not fail.

Lisa looked up from staring into her beer bottle to the older woman. She put on a fake smile, trying to be polite, and nodded her head before she finished drinking her 4th bottle of beer.

The Red Velvet’s leader, who was also one of the Blackpink members close friends, took a sit beside Lisa and gave her the untouched bottle that she was holding. “Here. I’ll just get another after you finished that one.” The younger girl happily took the drink and slurred a small thank you before taking a sip of the bitter liquid.

Chaeyoung looked at Irene, confused.

“It’s okay Rosè. I got it.”

“Thanks, unnie. Can you please watch her for a moment? I just need to go to the comfort room.”

“Sure. No problem.” 

Irene watched Chaeyoung get into the toilet before looking back at the blonde beside her.

“Don’t say it.” Lisa muttered under her breath. It was already her 5th bottle, and even though she was already tipsy, she’s still conscious and very aware of her surrounding.

“You’re pathetic.” The older woman muttered back while caressing Lisa’s back. The younger woman flinched at the touch but did not show any resistance from the action of the shorter girl.

“I know.”

“I already told you that it will hurt so bad. Why did you even let her go? Now, you completely lost her.”

Lisa closed her eyes and put down the bottle that she was holding on the table. She sighed and opened her eyes to look at the soft and lovely eyes of her current companion. She can feel the same comforting warmth from the touch of the older girl, the same warmth that comforted her for weeks after the break up. 

“Is it still available?” She asked while looking hopelessly to the beautiful brown orbs of the shorter girl. 

“Lisa. Just say it, and I’m willing to do it.” Irene put her hand on the younger girl’s free hand that was on the table. The blonde took a deep breath and put her hand that was gripping the cold glass on top of the older girl’s hand.

“Help me.” Irene smiled lovingly at Lisa after hearing those words. The words that she has been dying to hear since the day she offered her help, but Lisa was the one who refused. She was waiting for this moment, to have her turn, her chance, on the blonde’s heart. And Lisa already knows it. She was very aware of it. And tonight, she allowed herself to be saved by someone from this mess that she created. She wanted to forget. She wanted to feel loved again. Maybe, not the same as Jennie’s love, but still, she wanted to feel it, even just for tonight.

The two were so lost in their conversation that they did not even notice Chaeyoung who was looking at them. Bewildered, she knew that something was up between the two. But she did not dare to ask or interrupt them. She saw them got up and left the club, they did not even bother to wait for her, it was obvious that she was already forgotten. Despite the confusion, she just took a deep breath and cleared her head, she was already exhausted, and even if she knew that her best friend was in good hands because Irene is also their close and very trustworthy friend and unnie, she’s still a little worried. 

She was snapped out of her thoughts when her phone vibrated and read Lisa’s text.

From: Limario

Go home Chaeng-ah. Don’t worry, i’m with Joohyun-unnie. I’ll stay with her for tonight. Thanks. Rest well. Love you. xo

Rosè heaved another sigh and left the club.

———

Jisoo was waiting at the living room for the other two members to arrive because she couldn’t sleep despite the clock showing that it’s already 2 o’clock in the morning. She was worried about her dongsaengs and her head still hurts while thinking about how to solve the conflict between Jennie and Lisa, which right now, seems to be impossible. Her attention was caught by the closing of their front door and she saw Rosè entering the dorm, which causes her brows to furrow.

“Hey unnie.”

“Hey. Where’s Lisa, Chaeng?”

The younger of the two sat beside the older girl and took a deep breath, exhaustion was clearly visible on her face. She opened Lisa’s last text message and gave her phone to the older girl.

“You already know what it means by that.”

Jisoo nodded and muttered a soft agreement while staring into Rosè’s phone. They knew what this means. Even though Lisa didn’t tell them anything about her and Irene, they have their own suspicions months ago when they noticed that the two were hanging out a lot after the break up. They knew that their meetings before were only friendly-based, but it was obvious when they suddenly stopped hanging out after a month of meeting each other often that something really happened between them. And tonight, knowing Lisa’s state and emotional turmoil, for her to hang out with Irene alone again, it proved the other two members assumptions.

Jisoo sighed and returned Chaeyoung’s phone. The two became silent for a moment, both were so lost in their own thoughts. The light haired one put her head on the brunette’s shoulder and let out a deep sigh.

“What should we do, unnie?”

“I don’t know, Chaeng-ah. It’s clear that they still love each other, but they are also hurting each other, a lot.”

Jisoo sighed again and patted the younger one’s thigh before telling her to get up.

“Let’s just rest for a while and worry about it tomorrow. This day is so exhausting. And Lisa’s safe with Irene. So let’s not worry about her.” 

Chaeyoung nodded and followed the older one. The two members went in their respective bedrooms without saying anything, not noticing that there was still a certain brunette who was not sleeping, who was worried sick about the youngest whereabouts and has been listening to the other two’s conversation the whole time. Jennie let out a deep sigh and went back into her bed. She was confused of what she heard. 

“Lisa’s with... Irene-unnie?”