Words and actions are not enough to show how much I love him.

Meeting him was probably the best thing that ever happened to me.

But I am me.

I would never be enough to someone, specially him.

He deserves the world and I am just one of the waste of it. 

However, he refused to have the world.

He refused the things he really deserve and wanted to spend his life with someone who's broken and ugly. 

I couldn't allow that. I'm sorry.

ー Lalisa M.

5 years later

I don't know if fate had really something against me but I saw you again after years of running away. I was trying to fix my life, preparing myself to be better than what I am but it was no used. I always go back to those ugly habits. 

How can you smile at me so fondly like I am not some broken glass? Your smiles were always sincere and laughs genuinely. You treat me like I am no different with the other even if I knew myself I am one. 

How can you loved someone like me? When I don't even have the slightest urge to love myself. 

But tha