Cap 10

he screams as if something  breaks his bones, I feel how he squeezes my hand with all his out

-MOM!!! MAMA COME PLEASE- I shout from the room - please resist a little - I put my hand on his forehead and it is frozen, Kim enters the room and goes to Yuta so she runs to where we are.

-Taeyong please move away- she asks me but I doubt it for a moment -it will be fine- she talks again so I separate from Yuta, I feel the cold that he leaves on my arm and I watch him writhe in pain, I leave the room, to leave Kim alone and I sit on the floor next to the door, hugging my legs with my arms and put my head in them, I feel it has been an eternity but only half an hour has passed, I enter the room and see Kim passing her hands over Yuta's body, and he looks terrible

his skin looks almost transparent and runs almost black lines all over his body, his eyes are closed and his lips are dry and his hands are closed, I met him recently and now he is like that, I feel that I have destroyed him.

-is he okay? - I ask my mom, she is very focused and at her side, she has a book of healing

-he will be, at least he doesn’t scream, poor thing- she is quite optimistic

-What happened? - I ask trying to touch his hand but Kim stops me -do not touch him, I don’t know what happened but now there is a great magic presence and apparently the magic was consuming him, so it is Good that you don’t touch it, your magic can make it worse- she explains to me while she puts a blanket on yuta's body

-we have to let him rest tonight- she gives me a kiss on the forehead and leaves. I put a chair in front of the bed and I sit there, I just look at him and without knowing it I fall asleep.

Yuta

I feel my eyes heavy and I feel a tingling in my whole body, I want to move my hands but they hurt me, I open my eyes and see some red curtains and white walls, there is a table with a golden jug and some glasses when I turn my head I see Taeyong sitting in a chair asleep, what happened? and I remember it, I remember seeing an arrow piercing my abdomen and taeyong running towards me; I try to sit down even though every part of my body hurts, Taeyong is wearing a white gym pants and a blue sweatshirt, he is barefoot, I take the blanket that I have on top of me and I take it to place it on him.

-taeyong- I whisper in his ear and he wakes up, he stares at me for a moment and I smile widely at him, I’m very happy to see him

-yuta? – he asks me, he is watching me like I am some kind of weird bug -is it a dream? – he  Asks again and squinting his eyes

-ujum- I say, taeyong jumps on me and hugs me so strong that I feel his heart beating against my chest, he smells like taeyong I don’t know how to describe his smell, but it's his essence, his embrace hurts me literally

-it .. h-hurts me- I say grimacing

-I'm sorry- he turns away from me and looks at me -are you okay? - asks sitting down next to me, I feel strange, as if my hands were not mine as if my legs were not my legs -I feel a lot of pain and I do not remember very well what happened - I tell him and he doesn’t seem to be listening to me, he just looks at me

-yuta I ...- starts to say but the sentence doesn’t end

Taeyong slowly approaches me and puts his lips against mine, it hurts, it hurts a lot but the sensation of his lips cause me not to focus on the pain I feel, his lips feel warmer than I remember, his breathing it is accelerated he moves his lips with sweetness over mine, it is awkward but it is perfect, when he moves away from me I see his red cheeks and his bright eyes he turns his head so that I can not see him in the eyes, why is he acting like this?

-I ...- He starts saying and coughs -I'll miss you a lot- he says, when he sees that I do not answer him, he keeps talking -It's been many days since the ceiling accident happened, I thought you would die and that it would be my fault, and I thought about how badly you've been since you met me - he pauses and looks at me examining my body, I know I look bad really bad - this hurts me, what I feel- he points to his chest - it's a different pain, sometimes I feel guilty for feeling it I don’t know what it is and what I don’t know why but I’m always thinking of you, and when you are by my side I feel a strange sensation in my stomach, it's driving me crazy, I can only compare what I feel with Jaehyun and it's different, with him I feel like he was my equal, another half of my body I loved him as a brother as if he were my blood but with you I do not feel that, I feel that you are inside of me that I can not leave you I know since the day I saw you I tried, believe me I tried but I can’t ... I don’t know what is happening to me, I do not know what you are doing with me, I hate the feeling when you are away is just insufferable, tell me what is this- he finishes talking and I don’t know what can I answer, I don’t know what to say, I did not know he felt that way, he looks so confused but so relieved.

I don’t know but I feel the tears in my eyes

-taeyong I ...- when I want to start talking Kim enters the room

-yuta !!!, what excitement- she runs to hug me and I release a small cry of pain -I feel it, was the emotion- she says turning away from me and touches my hair, I smile at her; she realizes that taeyong is there and has not said anything

-ops, you two were having a conversation- she looks at both of us -yongie I'm sorry, I'll do some tea- she walks away somewhat uncomfortable because of the situation

-are you okay? - Taeyong asks me

-I am, basically, all my bones hurt but I'm fine ... thanks to you- I say speaking in a lower voice, he looks at me -I feel the same as you- I say finally and hug him ignoring the fact that I feel pain, that I look like I died,  he puts his head on my shoulder - does it hurt a lot? he asks me -it's okay, it's worth it- I answer him.

I started coughing hard, taeyong moved away from me and looked at me with concern, I tighten the shirt I'm wearing, I know it's taeyong.

-I can breathe- I say with difficulty, I feel as if my lungs have collapsed, my body is very light, it hurts a lot.

taeyong

yuta leans forward, he looks at me and his eyes are injected by the blood it relives a lot because of the pale color of his skin

-I will help you- I say as I touch his back, I did not know if he was compatible with my magic but I should try something, I take his hands on mine -look at me, everything will be fine- I said to give him encouragement but my hands tremble a little and my heart beats faster. I begin to concentrate the magic in our hands, I must expand it by his body just to give him some energy, when I see the amount of magic that has accumulated I bring his hands to my lips and slowly I blow the magic as if it were dust, I am afraid that his body rejects it but when my magic touches his skin for a moment I can see his rosy cheeks again

the cough begins to subside and he begins to feel better

-that’s it - I say with great relief, he looks at me and smiles at me, it's incredible that he smiled in his condition -as I  thought you are completely amazing- he said, his eyes looked so happy to see me and I was sitting there in front of him like a fool without saying anything

-the sun gives life that’s like one  values of my magic, is nothing, I’m glad I helped you- I touch his hair, we both look like we wanted to say something but we just look at each other, I jump out of the bed and yuta gives me a little laugh

-What happened here !? - Kim demanded entering the room

-I think his body is not enduring the magic very well- I tell her making an obvious gesture of how yuta looks  -I'm sorry- he says trying to get out of bed to go to Kim

-its nothing dear, it is one of the good uses of magic- she says laughing as she snaps her fingers and disappears the blood that had come out of yuta’s mouth

-What can I do to stop seeing myself so bad? - Yuta takes some steps but I can see his gesture of pain

-Well, you can start using your magic a little, that could make your body feel that is yours- Kim takes him by his hand to help him and smiles at him I think she started to love him since yuta is in our house a lot of days -try to imagine that your magic is something, water, dust, whatever, and think you put it in your hands- kim shows him how to put the hands and yuta does the same

-You can ask Taeyong for help, some basic principles of magic are the same for all creatures, plus I know he will be very happy to help you- she gives him a wink and yuta laughs shyly

-mama I think something in the kitchen needs your attention- I say pointing the door

- well, is fine- she says raising her hands -I leave you both alone-

yuta

Taeyong helped me for a few hours, the only thing I got was to feel more tired, this was too much for me

-This is not working, I say to taeyong

-Do not worry, it's not easy for anyone besides your body never used magic is logical that is not synchronized with your mind and your power- taeyong always tells me things in a very clear way but it gives me encouragement at the same time.

-taeyong! - I say almost screaming he looks at me with panic, as soon as I think about it, how could I have been so stupid and inconsiderate?

-my mom and my sister,I haven’t seen them in almost a month? I need to see them! - I get out of bed and I want to run but my legs don’t respond and I fall on the floor

-wait yuta, easy- Taeyong tells me helping to get up -your mother and sister are fine- he seems very calm

-how? - I ask

-mama told them that we went on a school trip to canada, and I used some magic to create memories that match that story, we could not tell them that we didn’t know if one day you would wake up ...- he ends the sentence and I can see how his muscles tense up, the memory of it is too much for him.

-I see...-