I start my tutoring session with yuju,  and honestly I'm having a hard time teaching her

Why??? 

Because this girl wasn't taking me seriously.. 

She kept fooling around and sometimes flirting with me just to interrupt our lesson .

Actually yuna is nice , she always smile and treat me well, too well that one can mistaken it as flirting... 

"So all you need to find in this equation is X " I said while showing her the equation 

"Ughhh can we take a breake,  I think my brain will going to explode " she whined burying her face at her arm that is resting at the table... 

"This would be the last I promise...  Come on what is x ?"

She looks at me before smiling shipishly "X is called an X because it's an EXample of what you shouldn't have again in the future -aww !" She groaned when I hit her head 

"Can't you take it seriously?  ' start finding the X " i said in warning tone 

"I found it already " she smiled at me 

"Show me " she points her head and wiggled her eyebrows

"In my head " i frowned at what she said .. she's messing again tsk tsk

"Your in my head , im thinking of you , and its .....

X- rated " she laugh maniacaly and i smack her head 

"AWW !!! ARGHHH im sorry ok can we just continue this tommorow ? Im really tired , i cant focus " 

Shes hopeless 

I shakes my head before closing the books and notebook that we used 

"Yayy ! Thank you sinb-yah ! " she yells before placing a peck on my cheeks 

When we're done putting back all the books and tools at their right places , we lay on her bed to take some rest ...

We talked about random things , getting to know each other more ...

I get comfortable with her as the time goes by ...

She's  fun..  She has a lot of stories about her and her cousins 

I feel how she treasures her cousins , how her eyes sparks when shes telling me about their funny moments, how she smile while describing them... 

She really loves them... 
And I can feel it '
I thought Her cousins is so lucky to have a family like her but she's  the one who's unlucky to have yerin as one of her cousins tsk tsk 

But she proves me wrong because when

I once commented what is on my mind I said 'YOU REALLY LOVE THEM HUH THEIR ARE REALLY LUCKY TO HAVE YOU'

she just smiled at me and shakes her head while saying ' YEAH BUT THEY LOVE ME MORE, MY LIFE IS NOT ENOUGH TO REPAY ALL THE THINGS THEY DID FOR ME AND ALL THE LOVED THEY GAVE ME , MY LOVE FOR THEM IS NOT EVEN HALF OF THEIR LOVE FOR ME, I AM THE ONE WHOS LUCKY TO HAVE THEM ,I DONT KNOW WHERE AND WHAT AM I NOW WITHOUT THEM '

Maybe I'm wrong ' maybe all of them loves each other, I don't know their back story but base on how yuna tells me that , I can say that maybe their bond is stronger than anything..even Despite of their differences 

Our conversation  goes on ' and after half an hour or less our conversation end up to love topic

"So your telling me that your single ,why dont you try look for someone that you can take in seriously " i suggest

She just shrugged " honestly i already found that one person, that person that i am willing to give all my life just to be with her.. Its just that ' that person cant love me back " she said and this is the first time i see her serious face ...

"Why "i am curious , 

"She's in love with someone else " there's a hint of sadness in her voice 

Looks like she's really serious about this girl... 

"Does she know that your in love with her? " 

She shakes her head 

"Why don't you tell her?  Who knows ' maybe she can give you a chance " I nudge her trying to lift up the atmosphere  

"I can't...  I know this love won't go anywhere ' we can't  be together  and she's already in love with someone else so the chances are so small and in fact making her happy Is all I want it doesn't  matter if she loves me back or not " she smiled while looking at me intently 

A sad smile.... 

"Just try " I smiled back at her and pat her shoulder to encourage  her 

"Yeah but not now " and her aura instantly changed from serious and sad to happy and excited

Ughh a weird kid... 

"How about you, you said you have an  ex lover that you kept avoiding why? " 

I look at her contemplating if I should open up to her.. 

I sigh before answering her question

maybe opening up to someone aside from eunha Wont hurt... 

"Because I don't still know what to do when that time comes,  I don't know what to say to her " 

" do you still have feelings for her " she asked and I try to feel myself.. 

Do I still have feelings for her??? 

I keep asking myself that one question  and the only answer I got is..... 

"Silence means yes...  What if she still love y