It was already 7pm when they reached their hotel. Like the other night, they spent dinner together with the staffs.

They were seated far from each with Jungkook on the other end of the long table. They didn’t even talk to each other this day---well except all those smiles they showed on camera and those small conversation which didn’t even go on for like a minute in each location they had a shoot at just so the staffs would not notice anything suspicious or strange.

The dinner went quick as everybody was tired.

“I won’t ask if you’re okay because you’re seriously not” Seojung told her the moment she closed the door of their room. She has told her what happened yesterday. That Jungkook just shut her out before she could even explain.

“Cry it out” Seojung continued when she didn’t respond. Yeri is facing the window. Her back’s only Seojung can view. She was about to sit beside Yeri to comfort her when the latter started sobbing.

“Just cry it out” she did her best to comfort her.

When she regained her voice from too much crying, she faced her unnie.

“I want to stay”

“Stay?”

“Here”

“For the meantime. I want to find peace” she paused. “…in this place. I just…don’t want to go back yet, unnie” yes, she doesn’t want to go back yet to Seoul. As much as she loves the place, it is also that place where the reality of the world hit her. Though she was a cheerful kid, she has grown emotional during her teenage days. Getting all the hates from here and there after she debuted.

She’s aware publicity has with it criticisms and judgments but there were just too much of them for her young self to take. No matter how much she tries to be okay, enormous hates just slowly kills the beauty she thought the world still has.

She tried to be strong. Telling everyone she’s okay though she’s not. Hates keep on growing and growing, it is becoming unhealthy and unhelpful even more. JungRi is a known ship and it became more and more popular and suspicious in 2017. She tried enough to be strong from all the hates until one day she felt so much insecurities. She felt she’s not enough. Lots are telling her she’s ugly for someone like Jungkook, that she’s not enough for him.

And she thought about that a lot. Jungkook is still at the prime of his career and she doesn’t want to ruin him specially if the world finds out that they are a couple because media attacks anytime, we’re all aware of that. She’s getting dizzy from all the criticisms she doesn’t know what to do.

“Let’s break up” Yeri said all of a sudden while they were walking home from their date.

“What are you talking about, Yeri?” They stopped wa