“You know you’re wasting our time Jiu..”

 

That guy state in France, staring intensely at that black haired girl who back facing him. Standing right in front of a big window. Deep in her thoughts.

 

“You know it’s the last file you need. Every single name that have such a bad term with Kim Company in the past”

 

That guy throw the file right on the table near her. Makes her startled, forcefully getting pulled out of her thought when she can feel those arms around her waist. Pulling her closer until her back hitting against that guy body.

 

“You’re so close with your goal Jiu.. I just try to help you”

 

She can feel that guy hot breath right beside her ear. Burying his face on her hair as she start to be deep in her thoughts once again. Thinking about what that guy had just said. Questioning herself inside her mind..
Is she really get closer to her goal? Is everything gonna end once she got the last file? Is it worth?

 

“I’ll be gentle Jiu. Trust me”

 

Those words gone like a dust into Jiu’s ears. Meaningless words that can’t even bring her back to her sense. Letting that guy throw her to the bed. Be on top of her, take control over her body while she still drowned in her thoughts. Thinking if it’s the right thing to do? Thinking, is everything will turns normal after this? Is her cousins gonna be safe after this?

Are they gonna be happy without being scared once again? Or..

 

She just being desperate?

 

“WHAT THE YOU THINK YOU’RE DOING?!!!!”

 

That voice get into her ears out of sudden. Pulling her immediately out of her thought once she feel those grip on her shoulders. Pulling her back to her sense a second later, just to found that certain girl staring at her in disbelief. Shock and anger. Yet she just staring at her in confused.

 

“How come you’re he-“

 

“I’ll kill him”

 

She can heard that so clearly in her ears. She even notice those gaze that perfectly on her suddenly became dark cause of anger. Blind cause of madness.
She knows what those gaze means. She can guess what is gonna happen next when that girl turn her head to the side staring sharply towards that guy that Jiu have no idea since when he is on the floor. Grabbing his head that just hit the edge of the table near there.

 

“WHO THE ARE YOU TO INTERRUPTING ME, HUH?!!

 

That guy shout in anger. Absolutely in France while trying hard to get up from the floor with a help of small table near him. And yet, Jiu ignore him as she quickly grab that girl arm. Holding her to not going to approach that guy once she notice that girl suddenly clenched her fist so hard.

 

“Yoohyeon..”

 

“I’ll kill him. I’ll kill him. I’ll kill him”

 

That girl muttered under her breath. Harden her jaw as her gaze perfectly on that guy. Staring sharply at him full of anger, hate and the urge to kill. And Jiu absolutely notice all of these behind those strands of silver hair that fall perfectly on the latter face.

 

“What the with that gaze?! Come here you !”

 

And that guy surely doesn’t know who he messing up with. But Jiu knows better, that’s why she decided to tighten her grip on that girl arm even though that girl wants to brush her hand away. But Jiu not even planned to letting go. Cause she knows..
Something bad will happen if she let go of that girl.

 

“Let go. I’ll kill him”

 

“No. I’ll letting you go if you promise me you’ll go”

 

And Jiu sure that girl looks kinda surprised. Not expected to hearing that coming from her. The same time as those gaze once again staring at her in disbelief and somehow..

Disappointment.

 

“What the heck you say Minji?”

 

“I have a deal with him. We both agree. And this is the part of our de-“

 

“HOW THE YOU LET HIM TOUCH YOU, HUH?! WHAT THE IS THE DEAL?! WHAT THE INSIDE YOUR MIND THAT MAKES YOU AGREE WITH THAT STUPID ING GUY?!!!”

 

Jiu sure it’s the first time she see that girl become so angry yet disappointed. And yet she knows it’s the first time she see that girl let out her true feelings towards her after the latter became so vague these days. But Jiu have no time to pay attention to all of these. Even she ignore the fact that the latter calls her by her actual name awhile ago.

 

“Just go. I’ll be home soon. And I’ll explain everything to y-“

 

“I’m not going anywhere before I’ll kill hi-“

 

“Yoohyeon listen.. this is for our own good”

 

She said that softly, glancing to that guy just to signal him if she will get this by herself once she notice that guy staring at them totally in confused. Absolutely not understand a single word that coming from their lips.

 

“What?? for our own good? Are you sure, Kim Minji? How can you be so sure about that?”

 

That girl smile mockingly towards her. She also can notice those gaze seems so deep staring right into her eyes. But she ignore all of these again. Ignore how the actual name of hers, again come out so perfectly from the latter lips.

 

“He have those names that probably be a mastermind of the mess we’re in right now. So please-“

 

“Probably? Probably?? You kidding me?!”

 

That girl gritted her teeth in annoyed, turn her head to the side. Once again staring sharply right towards that guy. Definitely wants to kill him so bad right now. While Jiu who can notice that, now decided to grab that girl hand. Intertwined their fingers in hope to calm the girl down. But it seems not getting any results as that girl trying hard to brush her hands away. And yet Jiu not giving up that easily.

 

“Yoohyeon please understand me-“

 

“WHAT IS THERE TO UNDERSTAND WHEN I KNOW YOU JUST GETTING FOOLED BY HIM?!”

 

That girl risen her voice for how many times right now. Raised her hand, pointing out her index finger absolutely towards that guy while Jiu just can sigh deeply. Feels so frustrated with the unexpected situation she in.

Yet, she doesn’t know how to get out of the situation and makes Yoohyeon understand if she do this to all of them. To her cousins and her. And yet, she accidentally glance to that girl exposed wrist. Found those scars on the latter wrist. Once again trigger those images to come into her mind.

 

“I told you to wait.. and look what you done?”

 

Those voice sounds so weak, full of despair that automatically makes Jiu attention fully on that girl just to notice that girl empty, blank gaze that somehow looks so grievous in Jiu’s eyes. Staring at nowhere.

 

“Yoohyeon-“

 

“What you looking for, Minji? The one that killed your parents.. or mastermind behind all of these? I can give you the answer”

 

Jiu widened her eyes in surprise once those words escape from the latter lips. Makes her feels so confused out of sudden, thinking that girl just talking nonsense and yet.. how can that girl talk nonsense that somehow fact. Calling Jiu by her actual name again and again and now, that girl mentioning about her parents that Jiu have no idea how can those words coming out so smoothly with that straight face of that girl. It feels like that girl actually know, who Jiu truly is.
And yet, Jiu still think this all just a nonsense.

 

“Yoohyeon.. I don’t understand wh-“

 

“I give you choices..”

 

That girl cutting her words. Not even bother to glance at Jiu as her gaze still on that guy. Staring emptily at him.

 

“Come with me and I let him live or..”

 

Then, Jiu sure it’s the first time she found that strange yet weird gaze on the latter. No emotion, staring right into her eyes.

 

“I’ll kill him, and let you watch me..”

 

.. it’s really hard to choose.

 

—————

 

“How come you’re here?”

 

That girl staring emptily at the back of the other girl who still busy cooking the breakfast. Found the other already in her apartment out of nowhere.

 

“Instead of greeting me a good morning. That’s the first thing that come from you, huh? Well, I’m not surprised”

 

The other girl who has her hair in ponytail state calmly while placing the food on the plate and turn off the stove. Ignoring that girl who still standing not far from her. Watching her serve the breakfast on the dining table.

 

“How about you eat first before go to school, ———"

 

—————

 

At first.. Jiu thought Yoohyeon just playing with her. At first, Jiu thought Yoohyeon just lying to her. At first, Jiu thought every words that coming from Yoohyeon just some kind of nonsense. But no..

It’s not.

 

“Where are we?”

 

Jiu turn her head to the side. Glancing to that silver haired girl who still has her straight face, even after they leave that guy alone in the hotel awhile ago. Shout and complaining towards Jiu, meanwhile she being dragged by that silver haired girl after she choose the first one.

Just to makes sure no ones die.

 

“It’s no use to pretend towards me, Minji..”

 

That silver haired girl answered coldly while open the door beside her. Get outside the car in any second, leaving Jiu who just can watch that silver haired girl walk towards that big gate. Let Jiu eyes automatically focus on that big house but kinda abandoned inside.

Triggered those memories to entering her mind.

 

“You didn’t answer my question.. how you suddenly showed up before?”

 

“I follow the map..”

 

That silver haired girl answered vaguely. Grab on the wheel and drive the car. Entering that big house yard after opening the gate, leaving Jiu confused by that as she watching the other get outside once again. Closing the gate before get inside the car a moment later.

 

“You didn’t make any sense, Yoohyeon”

 

Jiu let out those words just after that silver haired girl get inside the car. Switching the gear and drive the car right towards that big house that looks kinda dark with just some light on. Until that silver haired girl handing her own phone to Jiu who immediately take it. Found there’s a map on the screen and that red circle that blink repeatedly. And somehow..

Jiu feels familiar with that map graphic. Also that red circle.

 

“I tracked you”

 

It coming out so smoothly, makes Jiu quickly lift her head and turn to that silver haired girl which is again..

Not even glancing at her.

 

“What? ..For what? Did Changmin told you to do that? Or maybe Yunho? That’s why you have the same program as us?”

 

Jiu said that totally in confused. Can’t even guess where’s all of this lead her to. And yet, she start to find that silver haired girl seems like hiding something from her. Something that she absolutely should know and yet it seems like she wouldn’t like to know at the same time.

 

“Actually, I was the one who made the program”

 

“What??”

 

It escaped from Jiu’s lips right after that silver haired girl statement. Meanwhile, that silver haired girl not even give her a respond right away as she slowly stop the car. Turn the engine off and get out of the car a second later, makes Jiu just can watching her before her gaze move to her side. Staring at that big house, following that silver haired girl gaze.

 

“Instead of digging about the program and how I suddenly showed up back then. I know you’re more curious about how I bring you here, right Minji?”

 

Those words immediately get into Jiu ears makes her can feel the strange air suddenly appeared between them, as she turn her head to the other side. Found that silver haired girl standing outside the car. And somehow Jiu can notice that smile on the latter face.

And somehow that smile looks so bitter..

 

“It’s been along time since you’re home, right?”

 

—————

 

“Wake up! You should eat your breakfast before going to school”

  

“Geez, tell me why you always show up every single morning”

 

“Why you ask? Of course to drag you off of your bed. Now get up!”

 

The other girl grab that girl by her arms. Pulling her off of her bed, but it seems that girl not even planned to leave her bed soon. Makes the other girl just can pout in annoyed. Start to thinking of what to do to makes that girl leave her bed. And yet there’s none. Cause that girl just being herself.

Hard to obey. Hard to control. Hard to understand.

 

“Fine. If you don’t want to have your breakfast. I’m gonna make you my breakfast”

 

And that’s how that mischievous smile appeared on her face once that girl rolled over to her. Glaring with such an annoyed gaze while she just showed that girl her innocent smile until she can heard that loud groan from her. Throw away the blanket and get down from the bed immediately.

 

“Satisfied?”

 

That girl standing right in front of the other girl. Staring down while messing up with her own hair. Totally annoyed, makes the other girl just let out a small laugh. 

Smile brightly.

 

—————

 

Jiu can’t remember how it happened. The last time she know is Yoohyeon drag her to the house. Get inside with such a mysterious way that immediately makes her wonder, and confused. And now she questioning herself how she ended up being pinned against the closing door by the younger. Kissing in such a passionate and rough way. And yet she tired to fight against that silver haired girl. Giving up after some fail effort to push that girl away.

 

“Yoohyeon..”

 

She said breathlessly. Calling that silver haired girl name. Hoping that girl will give her a response. Stop her questionable action. And explain anything that is inside her mind.

Cause Jiu wants to know. She wants to know what is bothering that silver haired girl mind that makes her turn into someone that Jiu never expect. Kissing her out of sudden, and now exploring her neck. on her skin and bite her earlobe.

 

“Yoohyeon!”

 

She gain her strength. Grab both of that silver haired girl hands. Force that girl to stop whatever she is doing right now, once those fingers hurriedly ed her shirt. Let her found that silver haired girl panting deep and heavily. Staring down right on her exposed collarbone, since that silver haired girl already ripped two upper buttons of her shirt.

But she doesn’t care.. it doesn’t matter since what matter to her at this exact moment is that silver haired girl.

 

“Yoohyeon.. what is w-“

 

“You still wear it..”

 

Those lips that kissed her awhile ago now pulling up. Curved a tiny smile while staring right on that thing that hanging perfectly on her neck. Be right on the middle of her collarbone.

 

“Yoohyeon.. I don’t understand. What are you talking about?”

 

She tighten her grip on that silver haired girl wrist, noticing those scars once again. Triggered those images come into her mind, mixing with other images of this house. The images that she doesn’t wants to remember or see in her mind. Yet she let those images entering her mind. Try to connect all the dots.

 

“I.. I-I’m sorry I-“

 

“Yoohyeon, please.. tell me what is wrong with you??”

 

She wants to holding back the urge to force that girl to reveal everything already. And yet, she can’t hold the urge to grab that silver haired girl by her cheeks. Force that girl to staring at her, while she lean closer. Let their forehead meeting each other. Breath the same air in such a inch space between them.

 

“Yoohyeon it’s okay.. look at me.. tell me what’s bothering your mind-“

 

“You will hate me if I tell you”

 

Those words coming out surprisingly so weak from that silver haired girl. Leaving her in surprise as she also can notice that voice becomes to break. Shaking.

 

“I won’t.. I-“

 

“You will leave me if I tell you. And I don’t want you to leave me, Jiu..”

 

Those voice sounds full of despair. Shaking so hard, along with those hand that start to trembling raising towards her collarbone. Grabbing that necklace.

 

“It scared me.. this feeling.. what is this feeling..”

 

She just stay quiet. Staring right at that silver haired girl that have such unreadable gaze in her eyes. Makes Jiu fail to understand her.

 

“At first.. I thought it just some kind of mark.. a mark that telling me that you’re mine. But it ended up be something else.. mine with a different meaning. Something that I know.. I suppose to do it. But I don’t. I can’t. Even after I remembered everything. Even after I know what you have done.. even after those hate towards you. I still can’t. It’s so frustrating. I don’t understand Jiu.. I don’t understand!”

 

That silver haired girl tighten her grip on the necklace. Grabbing it with both of her hand while she slowly lean closer. Place her forehead on her own fist. Gritting her teeth in annoyed and anger. Frustrated and depressed.

 

“It’s pissing me off knowing that you been touched by him. It’s pissing me off that I want to kill him so bad! It’s pissing me off knowing that he just fooling you! It’s really pissing me off! And you just hard to guess. I can’t understand you.. and why you? Why you always can prove that I am wrong?! I should kill you! And you keep making me hesitate! I should just kill you like your parents! But you keep making it hard for me! Why Jiu?! Why?!!”

 

And there’s come the moment that silver haired girl quickly regret her words. Once she screamed towards that girl in anger and frustration. Looking up, just to found that unreadable gaze perfectly on her. Staring right into her eyes.

It’s over. She know.

That black haired girl will leave her. That black haired girl will hate her now. She know that. That’s why before she getting push away by that black haired girl. She decided to steps back.

Just only to get stop by that grip on her arm.

 

—————

 

“.. what are you doing?”

 

“I’m tired! I need to recharge!”

 

That other girl whine cutely while shaking both of her arms in the air. Meanwhile that girl just can raised one of her eyebrows. Staring at the other girl for awhile before she walk away. Absolutely ignoring that other girl who immediately shout at her. Really loud from the living room.

 

—————

 

“It’s really a lot to swallow at the same time.. right?”

 

That voice shaking so hard. Sounds so heavy with a deep sigh in the end of the words. It hurts that silver haired girl just by hearing it, and yet the sight hurts more when those tears rolling down on that black haired girl cheeks. Escaping perfectly from both of her eyes.

 

“Why you stop?”

 

That voice breaking her. She doesn’t know what to do. She knows she didn’t have the right to wipe those tears away. That’s why she stop her hand midway. Let it hanging in the air even before her thumb can reach that face.

 

“If you want to do it.. just do it..”

 

That black haired girl smile bitterly. Exhale her breath sharply while grab that silver haired girl hand and bring it to her face. Wipe her tears away with the thumb of that silver haired girl.

 

—————

 

“I’ll stay the night! Hurray!!!”

 

“Yeah, whatever..”

 

“Wait! What’s with that response?? Are you not happy I’m here?!”

 

The other girl glaring at that girl who just can rolling her eyes and leave just after she took a cold drink from refrigerator. Leaving the other girl widened her eyes in disbelief, staring towards that girl.

 

“What?! Are you really not happy I’m here?!”

 

—————

 

“Well..”

 

There’s a long of silence before that word escaped from that black haired girl. Lowered her head as she staring at her hand that match perfectly with that silver haired girl. Intertwined their fingers together, while she caressing the back of that silver haired girl hand. Affectionately.

 

“Actually I was going to promise you that I wouldn’t leave you after whatever you gonna tell me.. but.. it was really unexpected. Is it?”

 

She said that weakly. Taking a deep breath, holding back the tears that seems like wants to bursting out of her eyes once again

 

“Your words.. at the hotel.. and the way you called me by Minji.. and mention about my parents.. then bring me here.. it was all so confusing to me.. But strange, I didn’t scare at all.. I just confused and wonder.. how you know my house? And about this necklace..”

 

She take a deep breath once again. Pulling her lips up as she lift her head. Staring right into those eyes that staring back at her. And what she can find in those gaze is guilty.. and scared.

 

“So it’s really you.. the one that putting this necklace on my neck that night?”

 

She let out a small laugh in the end of her words, even though she doesn’t know what she laugh of. But she just shrugged it off, once her gaze staring down at their connected hands. Noticing those scars on that silver haired girl for how many times right now.

 

“And.. you just admit that.. you are the one who kill my parents.. it’s really surprising, yet not..”

 

She smile bitterly, noticing that silver haired girl staring down at the floor. Absolutely avoiding her gaze, meanwhile she still caressing the back of the younger hand. Telling that silver haired girl, the words that’s hard to coming out of her lips right now.

The same time when her mind fly to what happened a year ago. The first time she found her parents dead body in the garage. Hanging in the air. With a rope around their neck.

 

“It’s a suicide”

 

“What?! My parents will never do that?!”

 

“But that is the fact, Ms. Kim..”

 

That policeman state calmly while staring at that red haired girl who just can staring at him in disbelief. She knows something is wrong, something is off. Her parents never gonna ended their life. Leaving her alone in such a way.

 

“H-How..”

 

 “I have no idea. But guess it’s not just a suicide like the police said. I mean.. Mr. Kim and Mr. Han also Mrs. Han-“

 

“Where’s Gahyeon??? Is she okay?? Is she fine??”

 

She immediately rush to grab that man by his arms. Pouring him with questions that she let out absolutely in panicked and worried once she got the information from that man which is her bodyguard.

 

“I’m gonna make them pay for whatever they did-“

 

“But, Bora.. you just-“

 

“Exactly! I just comeback to Korea after a few years! And this.. this is what welcomes me?? My Dad got killed right in front of my sister?! Our uncle and auntie got poison by a nurse! And your parents have a suicide!! How logic is that?? My mom not even wants to see me after she knows my dad is no longer breathing! She became unstable and I just really looks alike my dad!!”

 

That small girl let out her frustration right towards that red haired girl who just can standing there. Received those hate that absolutely not send directly to her.

 

“You know what? If you don’t want to do it. I’ll do it myself”

 

“But, Bora!”

 

She call out to that small girl, but that small girl not even bother to glance back at her and just walk away. Leaving her alone in hospital garden. Staring at that small girl that slowly approached that guy and immediately rush to his embrace. Hugging him. Until that guy bring her away, lost from that red haired girl sight.

 

“Are you sure to let Handong get involved into this? I mean she-“

  

“She deserves to makes them pay. And we need Changmin too. So yeah”

 

That small girl state calmly, while she took a sip from her coffee makes that red haired girl quickly raised one of her eyebrows. Found the sight kinda rare. But she just ignored it since there’s another question that is more bothering her than the sight beside her right now.

 

“How’s your mom?”

 

“She is fine..”

 

“Gahyeon?”

 

“I trust her.. she will be fine.. Mr. Oh and Hayoung watch over them anyway..”

 

That small girl answered almost right away for every single question that red haired girl ask to her while sipping her coffee. Meanwhile that red haired girl just can stay quiet after that, glance slightly towards that small girl knowing there’s two certain people walking to their direction.

 

“Bora-unnie? Since when you drink coffee?”

 

“I don’t know. I just want it..”

 

—————

 

“You like coffee?”

 

“Why you still here?”

 

That girl state in annoyed. Not even glance to the other girl and just walk pass her. Leaving the other girl by herself in the living room. Breathless.

 

—————

 

“Isn’t it funny that I just kissed the one who kill my parents?”

 

That black haired girl state. Chuckle in the end of her words while she still manage her breath, placing her palms on that silver haired girl cheeks who also breathless. Panting softly after that black haired girl pull her forcefully into a long and hot kiss that she doesn’t have an idea what is it for..

 

“Jiu.. this is wrong-“

 

“Why? Cause you’re the one who killed my parents? Cause you just admit that you suppose to kill me too? Or-“

 

“Jiu..”

 

That silver haired girl called her name once again. Feels so desperate as she lowered her head. Sigh heavily, try to avoiding those eyes of that black haired girl.

 

“Why you making it so hard for me? You’re not supposed to do this.. you-“

 

That black haired girl pull her in once again. Smash their lips together, moving her own lips on that silver haired girl upper lip. on it softly and gently. Delivered the words that is hard to say at this exact moment while she put her arms around that silver haired girl neck. Grab on that silver hair and pull the latter to her. Deepening their kiss.

 

“I don’t understand you Jiu..”

 

That silver haired girl said, breath heavily while her head resting on that black haired girl who just can curves a tiny smile on her face.

 

“I don’t understand me either”

 

She said softly, glancing to that silver haired girl who still not dare enough to glance at her.

 

“I also don’t understand you..”

 

She lean once again to that silver haired girl. Plant a soft kiss on the latter lips before she pull back a bit. Let her face be an inch away from the younger.

Letting their breath become one, once again.

 

“You said after you tell me I will hate you.. you said after you tell me I will leave you.. well you know, I actually should hate you and leave you after what you told me. But I don’t know why.. I found myself clinging to you like this. Feel needy towards you.. kiss you over and over. I don’t know why..”

 

She pull her lips up, pausing her own words when she found that silver haired girl slowly lift her head. Staring right into her eyes. Even though it still an unreadable gaze one.

 

“Actually, I really hate the one who killed my parents. I mean how I couldn’t?”

 

She smile bitterly towards that silver haired girl who still staring at her. But now those gaze looks so dark and empty makes her quickly pull her hand and place it on the latter cheeks. Trace her fingertips lightly on the younger face. Lifting up her chin as she not done yet with her words.

 

“I hate that person.. I mean what my parents did that makes her killed them? Took them away from me.. what they did wrong?”

 

She said weakly, feeling her eyes heating up once again. But she try to hold back as she bring her fingertips towards those lips of that silver haired girl. Brush her fingers lightly on it

 

“I really want to make her pay for my parents dead.. but I always remember the words my parents told me.. don’t let hates makes you blind.. and I think this is what they meant that time..”

 

She smile warmly. Pulling her hand away to her collarbone. Grab the necklace on her neck and staring at it with a soft gaze before her gaze back to that silver haired girl again.

 

“The one who killed my parents.. also the same one who protect me from those guys that wants to kill me these months.. I don’t know what happened. I also don’t know what she meant by mark as mine and why she gave me the necklace and told me to wait.. don’t you find her so vague?”

 

A soft laugh escape from her lips after those words. Triggered that small smile curving on that silver haired girl who feels kinda better after hearing that laugh. But still, she still not dare enough to staring at that black haired girl. Not even after those kiss and words.

And that black haired girl know that.

 

“Well, what you think? What is in her mind? Cause I don’t understand that person.. and I'm curious-“

 

“First.. she is a killer.. someone give her an order to kill your parents. Yet she doesn’t know who was sending the request and she just follow the order..”

 

“I see.. so why she protected me?”

 

“Cause she doesn’t like anyone to touch her prey..”

 

That silver haired girl said that in a low voice. Somehow feels kinda embarrassing with her words, and that black haired girl can notice that. Makes her just smile warmly. Putting her hand back around the younger neck. Pulling her closer.

 

“Well, such a protective killer over her target, right?”

 

She lean closer, just to saying those words right in front of that silver haired girl face. Let her hot breath blow on the younger skin softly. Meanwhile that silver haired girl just can nod her head as an response before she also lean closer to that black haired girl who pull a bit, letting the back of her head meeting the wooden door behind.

And yet, there’s a satisfying smile on her face.

 

“Still why she protected me? She said she supposed to kill me..”

 

“She wait for an order.. wait for the right moment.. that’s why she puts the necklace on you. To mark you as hers. Her target but-“

 

“But she said it turns out to something different. Mine with a different meaning.. what she mean by that?”

 

“She have no idea. She also confused why she put the necklace on you. But guess she is not regret it..”

 

That silver haired girl voice becomes so deep out of sudden. Be so close with that black haired girl who just can curves a smile on her face. Knowing that silver haired girl kinda turn her head a bit to the side. Just to makes their lips almost touch with a very short distance.

 

“I see, she fall for me even before she realized it, huh?”

 

That black haired girl state calmly, meanwhile that silver haired girl now is the only one who curved a smile on her face

 

“Actually, she have no idea. She can’t understand the feeling..”

 

“Oh, really? I’ll makes her understand then”

 

“How?”

 

That black haired girl chuckle a little. Lean forward, give a quick kiss on that silver haired girl lips before she move her gaze. Staring deeply into those eyes that seems so dark staring at her.

 

“Later.. I need to know more about her”

 

“What you need to know?”

 

That black haired girl just smile over those words feel those hands slowly sneaking on her waist. Be around her waist. Perfectly trapped her in that silver haired girl embrace.

 

“Why you asked me to wait for you-“

 

“Trust me. You won’t to know the reason-“

 

“I’ve met someone in Paris.. she was a thief. And worse, I know she killed but you know what I see from her?”

 

That silver haired girl slowly shaking her head. And somehow that black haired girl found it kinda cute in her eyes. Another rare sight from that silver haired girl after that invisible distance between them these days,

Take them apart.

 

“If I tell you what I see from her.. you think she would tell me why she once hate me and why she told me to wait?”

 

“She will-“

 

“Promise?”

 

That black haired girl pull her hand away from that silver haired girl neck. Just to show her pinky finger to that silver haired girl who just can let out some air out her lips and smile.

 

“Promise-“

 

“Pinky promise??”

 

That silver haired girl shake her head slowly. Not expecting to see this side of that black haired girl in such a weird situation.

Deep inside, she also confused and wonder how can their situation turns out like this. And that black haired girl personality really hard to guess.

Yet hard to understand.

 

“Pinky promise..”

 

That silver haired girl said softly. Put her pinky finger around that black haired girl pinky. Makes that black haired girl immediately smile brightly before she pull away and put her arms back around that silver haired girl neck. Found that position makes her comfortable, meanwhile that silver haired girl just smiling back. Putting her hand back on the older waist. Also found her comfortable position.

 

“Well, she looks so lost at that time.. like she was waiting for someone to save her..”

 

“Yeah. She was..”

 

That silver haired girl said weakly. Giving a response to that black haired girl who just can smile in understanding when she see that silver haired girl slowly lean closer towards her. Burying her face on the crooked of her neck. Seems so tired.

 

“Should we go to my room?”

 

“No.. I just want to be like this.. please continue”

 

That silver haired girl squeeze closer to her, makes her can’t help but smile. Brushing her fingers through that silver hair gently.

 

“Well, okay then..”

 

That black haired girl state, continue her words. Telling that silver haired girl if the former thief she met in Paris seems so lost at the first she carefully look into those eyes. It was after she knows that former thief just killed some of people. But strange, she wasn’t feeling scared at all at the first time she knows if that former thief can kill. Instead, she feel sorry for her and recruited her to be her bodyguard.
Cause she knows, there’s something off from that former thief. And she want to help her. Even though she can’t understand why.

 

“I remember she have a very lame motto.. what is it again? I just steal from the rich?”

 

That black haired girl let a soft laugh out of her lips, makes that silver haired girl squeeze more on her neck. Deepening her face there as she feel a slight embarrassment after hearing that out of the older lips. But she also found it funny, that makes her also smile on the older black hair.

 

“Actually.. it’s I just kill the selfish rich-“

 

“Seems like you want to kill the mood, huh?”

 

That voice suddenly sounds so strange makes that silver haired girl quickly lift herself up. Stare carefully at that black haired girl who seems avoiding her gaze right now. Makes her immediately feel guilty and bite her lower lip in nervous.

 

“Jiu-“

 

“Why selfish rich tho?”

 

That black haired girl staring at her, showing her a force smile one. Makes her can feel her heart sinking in her chest once she notice that. Lowered her head, feel those images start to entering her mind.

 

“It’s because of my childhood.. I was a rich. I mean my parents are rich.. but what matter to them is only money.. they didn’t even give a damn about their daughter. And I often get abused by them.. and as you can notice.. those scars on my wrist.. at first I didn’t realize that.. I was try to kill myself so many time-“

 

She paused her words out of sudden. Feeling those palms on her cheeks. Feel that black haired girl body somehow kinda tense up and trembling

 

“Yoohyeon, I-“

 

“I’m fine.. I want you to know everything about me. I want to sharing my past with you. Cause you’re important to me, Ji-“

 

“Minji..”

 

That black haired girl cut her words even before that other name can escape from her lips. Makes her slowly curved a tiny smile, remembering those scene from Paris when she keep calling the older by her true name and the older keep cutting her by saying that other name.

Funny how now it seems in reverse.

 

“Alright.. Minji.. okay..”

 

She smiling towards that black haired girl once she let those words out of her lips. Makes that black haired girl just staring at her in annoyed notice the mocking tone that she used. But it’s before that black haired girl gaze turn serious once again. Staring right into those eyes of the younger when she remembered there’s also scars she found on another part of that silver haired girl body.

 

“Does.. does the scars on your back also from your childhood?”

 

That black haired girl let out that question. Eventually, even though she feel kinda hesitate to asked. But to makes her sure, she wants to know where those scars come from, just to her curiosity.

 

“Yeah..”

 

And with that, she suddenly feel something stuck in . Feels so sorry towards that silver haired girl as she didn’t expect that kind of childhood of her.

 

“Where.. where is you parents right n-“

 

“They got killed when I was twelve”

 

It coming so smoothly from that silver haired girl lips, not even noticing how hard that black haired girl swallow on this new information. Knowing they somehow have the same thing in common.

Losing their own parents in such a same way. But different conditions.

 

“I’m sorry-“

 

“It’s okay, it’s all in the past. They were evil tho”

 

“But they still-“

 

“Now what you asked me again? Why I told you to wait.. and why I once hate you ri-“

 

“I’ve got another question..”

 

That black haired girl cutting her words. Let out a deep sigh as she notice they keep cutting each other words before. But this time it seems like that silver haired girl giving her a chance to say whatever question that come across her mind, since she decided to shut . Waiting for that black haired girl question.

An unexpected one.

 

“Are my parents was selfish that makes you killed th-“

 

“Minji.. it was an order.. I just follow the order. And I’m really really so-“

 

“Yoohyeon.. I’m not blaming you.. I just want to know.. okay?”

 

That black haired girl staring deeply into those eyes. Reassuring that silver haired girl while caressing those cheeks of hers. Speak in such a soft tone she can. But still, that silver haired girl becomes guilty once again. Sighing so heavily.

 

“Look, Yoohyeon.. let’s forget bout it for now, shall we? You still promise me to tell me why you once hate me, and why you told me to wait for you?”

 

That black haired girl try to change the topic, and she knows that silver haired girl also can notice it once their gaze meet each other. Sending those untold able words through their gaze

 

“Alright. I got it..”

 

That silver haired girl state weakly, but at least it’s enough to makes that black haired girl pull the edges of her lips up. Smiling towards that silver haired girl before she lean closer. Can’t hold the urge to feel those lips on her anymore.

But it was quick.

 

“You still have to told me all of these, Ms. Kim.. you promise”

 

She said teasingly to that silver haired girl who seems so annoyed once she pull away. Let go of those lips that somehow become her addiction in just short of time.

 

“Alright.. first I hate you cause you once seems so selfish when that kidnapped accident happened-“

 

“Wait, what?? How can you tell that I-“

 

“You was telling Siyeon to save Sua-unnie, when in fact she got amnesia”

 

That silver haired girl glaring at her in annoyed. Makes her feels kinda uncomfortable out of sudden, yet nervous to let a single words.

 

“I think I was panicked at that time-“

 

“Well, you were. It’s normal. The problem is on me..”

 

That silver haired girl lift the side of her lips, smile bitterly makes Jiu who can notice that immediately furrowed her brows. Questioning why that bitter smile suddenly appeared. But before she can do that, that silver haired girl cutting her.

 

“And the second thing you want to know.. why I told you to wait..”

 

The voice becomes so low in the end of her words. Making Jiu confused, but she also not forget that silver haired girl once said that she sure Jiu won’t to know the reason. And yet she still curious. And yet, the answer, kinda cutting her heart. Knowing that girl told her to wait just for such kind of reason..

That silver haired girl wants to be the only one who take her breath away. Not anyone else.

She told Jiu to wait. Just to makes sure Jiu stay alive until she comeback and kill her. And it’s makes her lost of words out of sudden. Let that silver haired girl notice the change of her, makes her bite her lower lip in guilt.

 

“I told you, you won’t to know-“

 

“At least you be honest with me-“

 

“But it’s better if you’re not knowing that, right?? I was a bad person- no. I still a bad person.. nothing can change the fact that I’m a killer-“

 

“Don’t say that..”

 

Jiu place her index finger on Yoohyeon lips. Telling her to stop saying anything that come into her mind as Jiu can notice the younger mind once again becomes clouded cause of guilt. And she sure she doesn’t like it, cause it just gonna makes her feel regret after what the younger told her.

Actually it’s almost impossible to not hating that silver haired girl after she knows if the younger is the one that killed her parents. But she try to shoo that hate away since she hold on her parents words. Don’t let hates makes you blind.

And yet, it’s not hate that makes her blind. But the feeling that she just realizes is there. Inside her heart. There’s special place there, with the younger name on it. And she also sure, there’s also a special place on the younger heart with her name written on it.

She sure, since she can see it through those eyes that staring at her. Full of affection.

 

“Why you’re like this, Minji?”

 

“What do you mean?”

 

“I mean.. why you’re still here with me?”

 

That silver haired girl state weakly, makes Jiu sigh deeply but decided to smile anyway. Since she knows, Yoohyeon just still hard to get what is happening right now. They switching so fast. Their mood change so fast. Faster than channels on the tv. They’re both confused with what they feel. They think they will feel the feeling that definitely should be the one they feel right now.

Hate and anger. That’s what Jiu should feel. And Yoohyeon should feel numb and heartless once she got her memories back. But there’s none of this that come to them. They feel that different feeling.

The reality hurts them. But they can’t do anything about that. And yet, Jiu know she is the only key of the situation they’re in right now. Cause Yoohyeon already giving up to the situation. Giving up to that feeling.

Letting go to all the things. And show Jiu the different side of her. Let Jiu do the last thing. Let Jiu decide whatever she wants.

And yet..

Jiu also giving up. Giving up to her ego.

 

“Cause I love you. Isn’t that obvious, Yoohyeon-ah?”

 

And finally she can feel the burden on her shoulders eventually lift up once those words rolled perfectly on her tongue. Escape from her lips, the same time like that clear crystal also escape from her eyes.

Closing her eyes slowly, when she notice the younger lean closer to her. Close the gap between them and let their lips meet each other. Soft and gently, brush on each other. Feel each other on their sense. Pressing onto each other, like there’s nothing can take them apart anymore.

Nor the cold silence. Nor the hate.

 

“Thanks to accept me, Minji..”

 

Nor the past. Nor the cruel reality.

 

—————

 

“If I said I want you to be my girlfriend? What will you say?”

 

“Get lost..”

 

That girl state coldly while turn off the tv. Ignoring the other girl who just can pouting in annoyed. But it seems she is not giving up immediately as she quickly get up from the couch. Catching her steps with that girl who just wants to enter her room. If just the other girl not blocking her way out of sudden.

 

“Move a-“

 

“Let’s make a deal! Be my girlfriend for a few months! Just till the end of the year! It just four months tho! I will make you fall for me! I’m sur-“

 

“What if you fail?”

 

And there’s a long silence once those words escape from that girl lips. Makes that girl notice if the other girl suddenly seems deep in her thought for a moment before the other girl light up. Smile brightly towards her.

 

“Well, I will get lost from your sight. That’s for sure”

 

And it’s so obvious to get unnoticed by that girl. Since the other girl been in her apartment for two months right now. Come and go. Showed up out of nowhere. Sometimes gone, and sometimes stay. And cause of those, that girl can tell.. there’s something off from the other girl. Cause the tone she used. That smile on her face. It’s fake. And that girl can tell the difference very well.

“Wake up! It’s your birthday!”

 

That girl open her eyes tiredly, glaring in annoyed to the other girl who seems so loud singing a happy birthday song to her while bringing a cake on both of her hands.

 

“How can you get in he-“

 

“Later! Now close your eyes! Make a wish and blow the candle!”

 

“I won’t do th-“

“Hurry! The candle is melting!”

 

And after hearing that. That girl can’t help but exhale her breath sharply. Feels so annoyed but decided to do it anyway. Close her eyes, pray for nothing and blow the candle. Let her bedroom becomes dark, just like before the other girl entered it.

 

“Happy birthday, ———. Now sleep, I’m sorry to disturbing you. I will leave now, I’ll put the cake in the refrigerator. Makes sure to eat it, okay?”

 

That girl can notice if that voice sounds so different. Somehow she can notice that voice kinda shaking, and she doesn’t know why. Even though she can feel the urge to ask what happened to that girl. She decided to not to.

And deep inside the other girl mind, she just can curse herself so hard. Noticing her voice breaking, makes her feels so stupid and quickly leave the room.

Close the door behind while whispering a soft good night to the air. Not even care if that girl can heard it or not. She just can’t hold the feeling that stabbing her heart so deep. Crushing her heart, breaking it into pieces. Makes her immediately hit her back against the door, closing her eyes tightly. Feel those tears rolling down on her cheeks along with that feeling that drowning her heart into pain.

It’s just a month after the deal. And she knows it’s useless.

 

“Don’t forget your coat.. it’s so cold outside..”

 

“Why you’re not worrying bout yourself first? You’re so annoying”

 

That girl state coldly. Cutting her heart immediately, as she can feel her body feels kinda weak out of sudden. Feel her heart sinking in her chest. But she keep that smile on her face. Ignoring all the feeling that slowly breaking her down. Killing her slowly.

So this how it feels? In love with someone that doesn’t love you back? So this is what her exes feels?

 

“Be careful on your way!”

 

She shout to that girl, knowing that girl almost leaving the apartment to go to school while she will stay at the apartment for awhile and gone after a few minutes once her chauffeur get her.

But today.. there’s something that she doesn’t usually miss to say. And yet she decided to not say it today.

That three words that she always says to that girl whenever she goes to school these past three months. That words that people call magical. And yet she called that curse.

Cause she knows it just a meaningless words to that girl.

 

“Miss.. you can stop now.. if it’s too hurt for you.. I suggest you to stop”

 

“But I love her, Mr. Oh! I really love her!”

"Miss.. your feeling for her isn’t real.. you just feel grateful cause she save you from those guys who wants to do something bad to you.. and don’t forget the fact that she’s not a normal person.. she is dangerous. Don’t you forget about that..”

 

That man state calmly, carefully with every single words that coming out from his lips just to makes sure none of his words makes the situation getting worse. Cause the only thing he wants is just to let that other girl who sit on the backseat understand the meaning behind his words.

Understand the situation. Understand the forbidden feeling she has to that girl. Understand if it’s not gonna lead her anywhere. But still.

 

“I can’t stop dad.. you know that..”

 

That old man staring at her with a pitiful gaze. Doesn’t know what to do once that other girl slap his hand away. Trembling so hard on her spot while grabbing that empty tiny bottle on her hand.

 

“Even drugs can’t makes me feel better anymore”

 

She said that weakly. Biting her lower lip so hard as she feel her tears start to fall down again. Feeling her body trembling so hard cause of the drugs. But strange, it doesn’t took any affect on her anymore.

She still can feel scared, panic, and unsafe. Even in her own room. With her own dad. But still she feels so scared. Scared over her hallucinations. Over her past. Terrible experience.

 

“Dad, please.. let me see her”

 

“But-“

 

“She is the one that can calm me down. Just with being close with her. I feel safe. Those nightmares no longer haunting me when I’m around her dad, please”

 

“But.. you know she just hurting you. She can’t help you.. what you feel is unreal. And you know she is dangerous-“

 

“Stop calling her dangerous! You don’t know her!”

 

She risen her voice in frustration. Hugging herself in desperate as she feel the need to be close with that girl at this exact moment. She can’t bear with that feeling, and her body won’t listen to her anymore.

 

“Sweetheart-“

 

“Dad, please just bring me to her.. I promise you just until the end of this year.. I promise you I will do it if there’s nothing change.. I promise you right??”

 

She said that. Begging to her own dad, while she fall to the floor. Trembling so hard while her dad just can staring at her. Doesn’t know what to do, even though he really want to hug her daughter so bad. But he knows it wouldn’t makes her feel better but worse. He knows if he hugged her and try to calm her down. The only thing that will he get is just her daughter push him away, staring at him in horror while keep the distance from him. Just like what she do right now. Keeping a safe distance from her own dad.

 

“What are you-“

 

And before that girl can finish her words. The other girl quickly rush onto her, wrapping her arms on that girl body, so tight. Makes that girl who just wants to push her away suddenly stop her move midway. Noticing how trembling the other girl body even with that thick coat on.

 

“What the heck inside your mind? Showing up at such a late hour. You know tonight we’re in our lowest temperatures..”

 

That girl state coldly, slight annoyed knowing that loyal guest of her show up once again after a few days absent. And somehow she can notice the other girl looks so terrible compared to the last time she saw her.

 

“Drink this.. after that. Go sleep in my room-“

 

“B-but, how about you??”

 

The other girl try so hard to let out those words out of her trembling lips. Makes that girl just can raised one of her eyebrows before she shake her head slowly after placing that hot chocolate in front of that other girl.

 

“Can you just worrying bout yourself no-“

 

“I can’t! You’re the one who said that we are in our lowest temperature! If you’re sleep on the couch you will freezing! I can’t let you-“

 

“Fine.. I’ll sleep with you, satisfied?”

 

That girl state calmly, walking out of the dining room after release those words to the air. Leaving the other girl by herself. Red as tomato..

 

“Are you sure there’s none of your clothes that smaller than this?”

 

“There’s none. Anyway stop complaining. It’s not that you will go outside with that clothes”

 

“But still-“

 

“Actually you looks cute in that clothes”

 

And with that she quickly lift her head. Found that girl not even facing her, prepared herself to sleep. Meanwhile she, still standing there. In such an oversized grey hoodie that makes her small body drown perfectly in it. Along with that long training that also kinda big on her.

 

“Good night, ———“

 

She said that in a low voice not expecting that girl will heard her. But to makes her surprise, that girl suddenly responded to her with a low hummed. Makes her stop her hand that almost reach the tiny lamp beside the bed. Just to makes sure her ears didn’t play any trick on her. And yet,

 

“What are you doing? turn the lights off and sleep”

 

That voice sounds so deep and commanding. Snapping her back from her thought. Immediately, makes her quickly click the button and let the room be totally in darkness a second later.

 

“Umm, are you sleep already?”

 

She said that hesitantly. Glancing to her side. Found that girl back facing her. Not even give a sign if she already sleep nor awake, makes the other girl just can staring at it for awhile before she exhale her breath heavily.

 

“You’re so noisy. Can’t you just sleep already?”

 

And with that she quickly rolled to that girl. Still found that girl back facing her a second later makes her just can bite her lower lip. Feel uncomfortable out of sudden.

 

“I’m sorry.. I just.. it’s kinda hard to sleep”

 

She state in a low voice. Rolling back to her side just to makes her back facing that girl’s back. Also making sure her voice is loud enough to get into that girl ears.

But even after she released those words to the air. There’s no response from that girl, makes her shut her eyes tightly. Feels herself just ruin everything, until she startled on her spot. Found there’s a hand on her waist, sneaked under her own arm before she immediately glance back. Found that girl squeeze closer to her, placing her head on the back of her shoulder.

 

“Is it enough to make you shut up?”

 

That girl state coldly in the dark, makes the other girl fail to see her face.

But also for the other, it’s enough just by hearing that girl voice. It’s already calming her, and be on that girl embrace. It’s a healing. Cause she notice her body still react normally. Not trembling, nor shaking, nor cold.

 

“Yeah..”

 

 She reply shortly. Turn her head to the front just to put her own hand on that girl hand. Sneak her fingers through that girl fingers and caressing it softly. Making sure her touch not bothering that girl. And it seems like it doesn’t since she can feel that girl soft breath in the back of her neck. Makes her slowly curved a tiny smile on her face. But later, it turns into a bitter smile.

It’s too late.

 

“How come you never celebrate a Christmas Day??”

 

“It’s not like I need it tho”

 

 That girl said calmly, take a sip from her coffee while staring coldly to the other girl who standing in front of her apartment.

Rolling her eyes as the other just can’t believe that girl not even celebrate Christmas. Makes her just can shake her head slowly, before she step inside. Pushing that girl aside just to makes sure there’s some space to her to walk inside with those bags on her hands.

 

“Lucky I bought you a little Christmas tree. It looks cute tho. And I’m sure, you’re not even eaten yet?”

 

The other girl narrowed her eyes to that girl who just entered the dining room after closed her apartment door. Still siping her coffee while shrugged her shoulders as a response to the other girl who immediately groan in annoyed, throw her coat on the dining table before rolling up her shirt. Pull out her apron from the plastic bag, along with ingredients she bought awhile ago.

Ready to cook some food to that girl who just lean on the table. Watching the other.

 

“Don’t you supposed to spend your time with your family or maybe friend?”

 

“Well, I was. You think why I’m here two hours before midnight?”

 

The other girl reply while point out the clock in the wall with her chin. Makes that girl also glance to the clock, noticing it’s ten already, in Christmas day.

 

“I’m sure the party isn’t over yet. Why you here?”

 

“What’s with that question? Of course to take care of you, I know you’re just gonna be at home on Christmas Day. So I decided to come over. It’s been a week since I didn’t come too. Geez, the deal still going tho.. you’re still my girlfriend”

 

The other girl state kinda long, slight annoyed since she knows that girl not even eaten yet. Makes her kinda irritated towards how careless that girl with her health, and somehow it makes her worry bout that girl too.

 

“After this, don’t you ever eaten late again, you hear me? You always eat late. Sometimes you even skip dinner. It’s not good for your health-“

 

“Shut up.. you’re too noisy..”

 

That girl said coldly right beside the other girl ear. Makes the other just can frozen on her spot when she found that hand on her waist, reaching out to turn off the stove makes her almost complaining to that girl cause she is not done with her cooking yet.

But even before she can let out her voice, she can feel those lips on her earlobe out of sudden. Biting and on her earlobe, eating it like it was a candy. Turn her body weak a second later under that girl sudden an unexpected touch.

 

“W-what are you doing?”

 

“I thought I’m your girlfriend.. it’s okay to do this right? Anyway, it’s Christmas. Let’s say this is a present from me”

  

That girl say that in a low and deep voice. Staring darkly at the other girl that be under her after she brought her to her room. Throw her to the bed, just to trapping her there. Along with her thigh between the other girl legs. Rubbing her sensitive spot intentionally, let the other girl biting her lower lip in nervous. Not expecting this to happen, and that girl gaze on her.

Staring at her like she is her prey tonight.

And right. She is.

 

“One word.. and I’ll take your everything”

 

She can feel her mind becomes clouded just by hearing those words, makes her can’t think straight anymore as she also really wants that girl all over her. Touch her like what she always imagined in her dirty mind.

That girl and her.. with the taste of forever. Let that girl take control over her, makes her forget with whatever she struggling with.

And above all of these, she also knows she running out of time..

 

“Yes..”

 

She breath out heavily. Letting that one word escape from her lips, triggered that girl to lifting the side of her lips.

Lean closer to her a second later. Smash their lips together, playing with her lower lip. Until she let out that sounds out of her lips, giving the chance to that girl to enter . Exploring the inside, with her tongue. Let her taste the coffee that still remains on that girl.

 

“Is it hurt?”

 

That girl stop her move inside her. Asking her such a question that makes the other girl just can staring at her with a warm smile on her face. Telling that girl to continue through her gaze, and just ignored her with tears on her cheeks.

But it seems she can find that girl looks hesitated. And almost pull her fingers out of her. But she quickly stop that girl. Grab that girl hand and bring those fingers back inside her. Earning a confused look from that girl who staring right into her eyes.

 

“Do me.. take my everything..”

 

She whisper softly, staring back right into those eyes that still coldly staring at her. She knows it’s a stupid thing to do.. let someone who doesn’t even love you to touch you. Let someone who never look at you, to feel you. Let someone who not even think you’re special to take your everything?

She knows this is stupid. But she also didn’t want to regret it. She running out of time. She will gone in a few days. She will out of that girl sight soon. And above all of these..

She will forget if this night ever exist. She will forget that girl. She and everything.

 

“I failed..”

 

She chuckled softly, lean on that iron fence with that girl beside her. Enjoying the cold breeze that blow on her face. Enjoying the last night of the year.

 

Enjoying the last night she have with that girl before she gone.

 

“Can I ask you something?”

 

She turn her head to the side, staring at that girl who doesn’t even bother to glance at her. Like usual, with that empty gaze on those eyes. And somehow tonight, there’s something off from those eyes. But she failed to see it. Cause she is too blind right now.

Her failure, her fail effort. And the fact that she will get lost soon. Out of that girl sight. The fact scared her.. cause she doesn’t want to leave that girl. She doesn’t want to go anywhere. She want to stay. But that girl doesn’t want her.

That’s what she think.

 

“Our deal will end soon. And like what I said.. I will get lost out of your sight. You will never meet me anymore, even on these road”

 

She let out a small laugh. Try to hide how her heart breaks into pieces inside. Try to hold her tears that also try so hard to burst out of her eyes. Try to not looks like a mess in the last night she is with that girl. Try to act strong even though she is not.

Well ..

It’s always hard to say goodbye.

 

“It’s almost the time, huh?”

 

She pull her lips up, staring at her vibrating phone. Showing the alarm that she intentionally set on ten minutes before midnight.

Ten minutes before the fireworks explosion that night. Ten minutes before she gone.

 

“Can I kiss you for the last time? If you don’t mind..”

 

She asked softly, turn towards that girl. Found that girl move her gaze to her. Staring right into her eyes in such a unreadable gaze that she fail to know what is it means. And yet, she is too heartbroken to notice the gaze that girl send directly to her.

And she running out of time. She have no time anymore.

 

“I love you..”

 

She whisper that words to the air, a second before her lips meet with that girl. Lock their lips together. Giving up to her feelings and let those tears rolling down to her cheeks eventually.

Let the taste of her tears mixing on their lips that moving in sync. Saying those things that hard to say. Delivered those words that is hard to let out from both of their lips. Let that kiss be a witness for their untold story.

Untold feeling.

 

“Promise me, you will open your eyes after you heard that big fireworks explosion.. but before that.. don’t you dare to open your eyes, got it?”

 

She sounds so demanding yet desperate. Begging that girl to follow her words through her shaking voice while she covering that girl eyes with her palm. Avoiding that girl to see her in that state.

A mess.

 

“I love you.. I really do”

 

She whisper weakly, pulling off her palm from that girl eyes. Seeing that girl closing her eyes, absolutely following her words. Makes her can’t help but smile, seeing how calm that girl looks with her eyes close. But still, those tears can’t stop escaping from her eyes. Makes her trying so hard gains her strength to walk away.

Stepping back while burn that girl images in her mind. Even though she knows, that girl will be no other than her forgotten memories soon. And she knows..

Everything is over. Once that big fireworks shoot to the sky. Once she is no longer on that girl sight. Once that girl no longer on her sight.

 

It’s over.

 

Hey, I know you definitely notice I put this letter into your coat..

 

It’s hurts her.. so bad. But she can’t do anything about that. Walking away. With those cheering people around her. Very contrast with what she feels right now. With tears that can’t even stop for a second to rolling down on her cheeks.

 

Well, if you read this.. it means that I’m no longer there. Like what I said.. I will get lost. Deal is a deal tho. And, you will get your peace back. Hurray!!

 

“You okay, Miss?”

 

“How can I?”

 

I know you never care about me. But just so you know, I love you with all of my heart. And I really do.. it’s not because you save me from those guys.

I was in love with you even before that happened. You maybe not realize it.. but I always watching over you.. I love how you enjoy your coffee every single morning before going to school.

Well, is it weird if I hope you can love me like you love your coffee?
Anyway, I think you should open a cafe. It will be nice since you love coffee so much!

 

“You know this is for your own good, right? You can’t lean on her forever..”

 

“I understand, Dad..”

 

She state weakly, sitting on that chair with two old man surrounding her. Somehow the sight makes her scared as those images start to entering her mind. But she try to stay calm. Closing her eyes, let those memories playing over her mind. Those memories of her and that girl that soon will be forgotten.

 

Anyway.. I know I was asking too much. But can I ask something from you? If you don’t mind tho.

And there’s no promises.

Just.. well, just so you know. I will go to Japan after this.. I don’t know when I will comeback but.. when I’m in Japan. Please don’t looking for me.. even though I’m sure you will never do that. But just to makes all the things clear.

 

“Is it gonna hurt Mr. Oh?”

 

“Well, you will forget how it hurts later tho”

 

That old man state teasingly towards her, makes her can’t help but let out a soft chuckle. Even though the sounds feels so empty.

 

“Right..”

 

But.. if you ever meet me on these road. Seeing me somewhere.

Can you please approach me? Just if you want tho. Cause you know I love you so much right?

So, when I comeback please find me, come to me. Makes me fall for you once again.. would you do that?

And please mark my words.. do it if you want.. don’t do it if you won’t. Cause I don’t wanna fight for you anymore..

 

“Mr. Oh?”

 

“Yes, Miss?”

 

“Is there a way that can makes me.. remember bout her one day?”

 

it’s hurt.. it’s really hurt you know? So just come if you want. Cause I know when you find me, I will never be the same anymore.. and you will have no idea what’s wrong with me. Cause I will be totally stranger to you..

 

“There’s a way..”

 

“What is it?”

 

“Suggestion..”

 

 I hope I can be with you.. but I also know that you don’t want me. So I give up to chase after you. But still my feeling is real. I really love you..

 

‘Well, listen my new me.. I don’t know what is gonna happen after this. But just so you know, there’s this girl I love with all my heart..’

 

And it’s really hard to leave you know? But I promise you..

 

‘You don’t need to remember her name, her face and all. Just remember those memories..’

 

And it’s really hard to say goodbye to you in person. That’s why I will say it here..

 

‘Just remember how she feels.. how you love her. Just remember all of this. And if you meet her one day.. please.. recognize her by her touch.. cause her touch.. it’s the only thing that makes you feel like you. Cause no ones can makes you feel like she makes you feel.. it’s only her.. only her’

 

I love you. I really do. Trust me.

 

‘Well, that’s all.. please be yourself again. Forget about all of these and continue your life.. and..’

 

“Goodbye..”

 

It escaped to the air.

 

It escaped from her lips. So weak as she sitting on the side of her bed. Feeling so numb with tears rolling down on her face. Along with those vague dreams that spinning inside her mind.

The dream that somehow feels so real.. and yet she can’t remember it clearly. Even though she try so hard to remember the details about those dreams. Yet, she can’t.

 

“Come on.. come on..”

 

She grab her hair in frustration, force her brain to work. Try to recall that stranger girl face in her dream or less her name.

Cause she need it. She need to know who is her. Cause she can feel something between them, something connected between them.

She needs to know. Cause she knows..

Somehow..

That girl really meant to her.

 

“Oh, you’re awake?”

 

She lift her head immediately, once she heard that voice. Found that brown haired girl lean on the frame door of her room. Sipping something from that small cup.

Probably coffee.

 

‘Coffee..’

 

She said that inside her mind out of nowhere. Not noticing how quick that girl face change once she notice those tears on her cheeks. Still rolling down from her eyes, makes that girl immediately walk to her. Place that small cup on the table beside the bed, and kneel down in front of her. Let her meeting those eyes that staring at her coldly. But somehow, she can see how worried those eyes staring at her..

Somehow..

 

“What happened? Anything hurt? Why you’re crying??”

 

That voice, those eyes. Why it seems like she really familiar with all of these.. is that dream..

Is that really real? Or it just some kind of hallucinations cause she really drunk last night? She have no idea. But one thing that makes her sure it’s real.

That feeling.

The feeling that suddenly appeared inside her. Stabbing her heart. Cutting her heart. Sinking her heart. Breaking her heart into pieces once she staring at those eyes.. it’s real.

And somehow, she can’t understand why she feel relieved.. why she feel safe.. and calm at this exact moment..

 

“Bora..”

 

And that touch.. it’s real.

 

“I don’t understand..”

 

 

 

 

 

 

To be continued...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

(T ^ T)