“Where are you going?”

 

“We don’t live here anymore..”

 

“Why??”

 

“You’ll know someday..”

 

That was.. what that lady said to her. To her ten years old self. Leaving her in front of the door, watching that lady walking away from the big house. Holding a hand of that five years old little girl. Confused with what is happening.

Just like her.

 

“Bora, how are you?”

 

“Fine. Just tired..”

 

She gave a little smile to her seat mate. And just like any other day. It just the same question, the same answer. And the same meaning. It always like that..

And it also have the same ending. Always.

 

“You wanna go already?”

 

That little girl staring at her. Begging her through those gaze. Begging her to come over, and stay the night. And just like any other day. She just be a good sister. A very good one.

 

“Fine..”

 

She smile. Grin playfully. Widely, towards that excited little girl that jump up and down. Pulling her inside the small apartment just to greet that lady who smile warmly to her. And just like any other day. She just smiling back.

Then the night comes over.. letting her mind going wild once again. Just like any other days that have passed. And there’s her, inside the bath. Staring blankly to the ceiling. With tears that have no meaning. And the unexplainable pain she feels.

 

“Great job, Bora. You’re be number one in our school once again. I wonder which high school you will choose?”

 

“Actually.. I don’t know”

 

She laugh softly. Put a smile on her face every single day. Play along, try to fit into those frame people thought for her. But it also have the same ending. Always.
When the night comes.. those demons will haunting her. Keep her awake all night, makes her exhausted for nothing. And when the morning comes.. she will fight the same demons once again. The same demons that makes her stay up all night. Just like any other day.

 

“I wanna break up with you..”

 

“But.. why?”

 

“Stop pretending, Bora! I know you have no feelings for me!”

 

“But, I..”

 

And that’s how it ended. Always the same ending. And there she is again. Watch people walking away. Leaving her alone. Questioning herself.. what she did wrong again this time? Why people always leave her behind? She always gave more than anyone. She always sacrificed more than anyone.

Why people still leave? She can’t understand.

She pretty. Has good grade. Rich. She has everything. But why there’s no one wants to stay with her? Why there’s no one wants to be with her? Why there’s no one wants to be by her side??

 

“I’ll be back in a week..”

 

“Alright, don’t forget to take care of yourself”

 

“I will”

 

That man smile widely, messing her hair while she just giggled and try to escape from his grip.

 

“Anyway, how about you ask Gahyeon to come over?”

 

“Gahyeon? Geez, no. She has exam.. and I don’t want her to keep asking me about those subjects and makes me be the one who answered all the questions just because she is too lazy. Even though she is more than smart”

 

“I see..”

 

That man laugh lightly, and once again messing her hair. But this time she doesn’t even pull away since she notice that car outside. Waiting for that man to get inside, take him to the airport.

 

“Take care, sweetheart”

 

“You too, dad”

 

And again. There she is. Be alone once again. Feel alone once again.
Let those demons come again to get her tonight. Haunting her, makes her lack of sleep. Makes her feel crazy. Staring blankly at the wall. Siting on the side of her bed. Get up from there, feeling nothing. Walking towards the wall and put her palms on it.

 

“Dad..”

 

She whisper softly. Feel the pain on her smile. Brush her fingertips on the wall.

Feels so exhausted. Feels so tired.

Tired of nothing. Tired to trying. Tired to hoping.

 

“Your little girl can’t take it anymore..”

 

She whisper desperately. Let her voice sinking in the air while she turn herself around. Bump her back to the wall and sliding down. Staring blankly at nowhere. Feel her fist aching, after it met the wall before. Many times.

But still, she feel nothing.. she wants to take a break. She wants to take rest. She hope times will stop just to let her breath. But the demons in her head wouldn’t let her. She hope she can stop thinking. She knows it will be more easier for her. But she also know she can’t. Cause the demons in her mind will getting stronger each day. Especially at night, and she knows she should getting stronger too to fight them.

But right now.. She just tired.

 

“Are you okay, Miss?”

 

“I’m fine, Mr. Oh. Just tired..”

 

She answered weakly, giving a tiny smile to her chauffeur and lean back to the window glass beside her. Let the silence drowning her. Let those unknown voices filled her mind. Just like any other day. And yet, there’s a hidden meaning behind those words. But she keep telling herself if it will be fine. Everything will be alright. Just one more day. She wants to fight one more day. Just a little bit. Give her a little time.. but those demons keep hurting her.
And there’s come the time.. when she have to choose between turning the page.. or closing the book,

Continue.. or end it.

 

“I’m done..”

 

She take a deep breath. Gaze at the darkness down there. Seems like offering a hand towards her. Offering her a help. And it seems like it convince her. Convincing her, and speak to her like.. it can take her pain away.

And she just smile at it. Let those cold breeze blow onto her face. Let her hair move along with the wind. Let her invisible wound open, and feel this cold air.

Feel nothing.. feel empty.

And she just hate to feel this way.. cause she have no idea what she feels right now.

She have no idea.. she can’t understand. It’s hard to be describe..

It feels like she is not happy. But not sad either. She feel like.. she been caught between those emotions. And she just feels so tired with everything.

Tired to hoping. Tired to trying. Tired to smiling. Tired to laughing. Tired to pretending. Tired to existing. Tired to breathing.

Tired to living.

 

“Bora.. what just..”

 

That man covered his face. Can’t believe what just happened. Can’t believe what is happening right now. And there she is, staring at him. Blankly. Feels so sick just by seeing him crying cause of her. She knows she never worth these tears. She never deserved it. She feels so sick. Done with everything. Anything in her life.
She just wants to disappear. Gone. Out of everyone sight. She thought she just need some vacation. Or maybe move to somewhere. Start a new life there. Be another her, cause she just too tired and hate herself right now.

She hate what she became right now. And even though she surrounded by people. She still feel alone, like.. there’s nothing left to her.

She doesn’t know what to do.. she wants to keep going.. step forward. But how can she step forward when she is too afraid with what she will be facing later?

She scared if it will be just the same ending like she have known.
In the end. Everyone just gonna walk away. Leaving her alone. Again. Facing those fear and horrible feeling. Unexplainable feeling.
She scared. She can’t handle it. It feels like she keep gasping for air. Screaming for help. But no ones can hear her. And yet, she is too afraid to let her voice out. Afraid if the fact will hit her so hard. Cause she knows, there’s no ones can understand her. And then.. How can she explain what she feels.. what is going on in her head.. When she, herself not even understand?
It’s so stressful. And somehow..

She feels so scared towards her own mind.

 

“Bora, listen sweetheart. Daddy will never gonna leave you-“

 

“I DON’T WANNA HEAR! I DON’T WANNA HEAR YOU!! JUST SHUT UP!!”

 

She can feel that gaze on her. Those gaze that full of pity. And she hate it. She really hate it. What does that gaze for? Why? Cause she looks so pathetic right now? So those gaze now can make an appearance and staring directly at her?

Cause she breaking down right now?? Cause she can’t take it anymore? She once unbreakable. But now she broke. She once strong. But now, she is tired. Exhausted. Having a war in her mind. Fighting over those unimaginable pain.

She once can fight it. She once so strong and unbreakable. Living her live. Suffer from those invisible pain of her invisible wound. She once can survive. Having a normal life. Faking a normal life. Be a good girl that everyone always expects. Care for her families. Be there for her friends.

But now.. she just feels so done. She wish, Mr. Oh never saves her before. She hope, he just gonna let her drowning. So she can close the book. End the pain. End her story.

But instead, she continues writing..
Get to know the pain better. Knowing the demons in her head. Try to live with it. But she also knows. It’s useless. The ending will still be the same. And she knows she slowly lost her truly self. Cause the emptiness now filled her. Overflowing. And the worst part is..

She doesn’t know what can makes her feel happy anymore.

 

“Miss, you o-“

 

“I’m fine”

 

The same lie. Just like any other day. Even though she wants to talk about what inside her mind. Yell it out. Shout it out. She knows it will be useless.
There’s a lot of words she wants to say. And yet there’s no ways to say them.

She feels tired. She wants to end all of this. She can’t take it anymore. And why it seems like people still hold onto her? Why it seems like people won’t let her go? Why it seems like they won’t let her leaving? While they can leave her whenever they want??

Why it’s always her?

Why it’s always her when it comes to sacrifice? What else she should sacrifice this time?? Her sanity? She give it all. They can take everything from her if they want. Cause now she feels like she start to lose her mind once again.

Lose some pieces of hers and yet.. she doesn’t know how to find them. Wondering how can she feels so struggling over this, while people around her doing just fine?

Is it just her? Is it just her that see those nightmares every time she close her eyes? Hearing those voices inside her head? Hopefully it will just leave her alone?

And yet, she knows everything it’s hopeless. She hope she is no longer feel those unexplainable emotions. But she is too used to being numb and blank.. She is tired. Yet confused,

What she living for?

What she struggling for?

What she stressed for? Cause right now, she doesn’t see the reason for trying.. for talking.. for breathing.. for staying.. for fighting.. for living..

She is done.

But again. That day, she ask for one more day. Thinking she will be alright. Thinking it will be her last chance to feel the emotions again. When she accidentally saw her. Found someone that somehow reflects her.

And somehow.. she can feel they struggling with the same things. The demons inside them.
She doesn’t know why. But what inside her mind that time is..

 

‘If I can’t save myself.. at least I want to save her’

 

But unfortunately she trip over her words. Over her plan. Over her feelings. Cause in the end, she is the one who being trapped among those emotions. Those strong emotions that breaking her down more. Breaking her into pieces. But still, she keep fighting even though she is exhausted. Fighting over herself. Over her mind every single day. Trapped, stuck in the hole that she fail to climb out of.

It’s hard to see a way out, isn’t it? Cause she fall for that girl.

But the question is.. will that girl catch her? She hope that girl can reply her feelings.

But reality always act cruel to her. It makes her blind. And the cruel reality kill her old self six years ago. Change her fully self. Inner side and outside. Turn her into a different person.

But still she keep looking for that someone. Her body, her mind keep craving for that girl. Even though she can’t remember her. Even though that girl got erased from her mind. But still something deep inside her still craving for that girl. Looking for the touch she miss the most. The feel she need the most.

For six years. She been looking for that girl. Looking for the taste of her. And she been out there, making out with those unknown people she can’t remember. And yet there’s no ones feels like her. Until one day she lost her mind. Giving herself to her own personal guard. And surprisingly, he almost feel like that girl she been looking for. He almost taste like her. And her sense thought he was her. He was that girl.

Until that night happened. The night when she feel numb, and stressed. Giving up to that girl that she saved that night.

Feeling her. And then..

It triggered everything. Those forgotten memories.

Rush into her mind. Letting her feel those emotions once again..

 

“Bora..”

 

It escape from that girl lips, but she doesn’t even bother to slow down or stopping what she is doing right now. With a heavy air around them, heavy breath and how hot both of them became with desire keep building inside her. Blinding her, distracted her from the pain inside her chest. Ignore how the pain also grew bigger there.

 

“Bo-“

 

She cut that girl word. Knowing what will coming next. And she know she doesn’t want to hear whatever that girl said. That’s why she quickly lean closer again, inhale a sharp breath just to lock her lips with that girl. Kissing her hungrily, feel the feelings she been craving for these past six years. Feel that girl on her sense, ignore how many times that girl try to push her away.

Until she can feel herself being throw to the side forcefully, rolling on the bed before she can feel those hands grab both of her hands. Placing it on both of her side. Locking her. Trapping her under.

 

“Bora.. please..”

 

That girl breath heavily. Staring deep into her eyes. Questioning her with those gaze. But strange, she just staring back at that girl. Emptily. Lift herself on the bed and lean in to that girl. Capture those lips once again with hers. Tilted her head from side to side, just so she can feel those lips better. on it, let her own lips moving on that girl lips. Biting the bottom hardly, let that girl let out a low hissed. Turn her on, makes her immediately get inside that girl mouth, playing her tongue there. Feel that girl as better as she can.

 

“Instead of greeting me back. That’s the first thing that came from you? I’m not surprised, Siyeon-ah..”

 

She let out a small laugh to the air. Sounds a way too bitter even in her own ears. Let her gaze still on that girl, who doesn’t even move from where she is standing. Staring down at that small letter on the floor. Looks kinda rumple and old.

Compare to the six years ago.

 

“So I guess.. you got brainwashed too.. what in the world”

 

She chuckled bitterly. Shaking her head to shrugged those memories away from her head. Those bitter memories that keep playing inside her mind. Once she entered this apartment awhile ago. And even though these memories bring too much pain to her. She still can feel how meaningful these memories are. Cause there’s that girl in, that girl that she love with all of her heart.

And now she found herself still feel the same. Even with those memories been erased, she knows she been tried to reach for that girl.

Her inner self, still looking for that girl.

 

“I’ve been unconsciously looking for you for these past six years.. looking for the feeling that I can only find from you. Funny how I throw myself to people and let them feel me.. let me feel them. Even to my own personal bodyguard..”

 

She laugh again, let her dry laugh filled the room while that girl still there. Staring at nowhere.

 

“You know what.. Nick almost feel the same like you. He feel a way too same like you..”

 

She get up from the bed. Walking towards that girl once she can sense how tense that girl be when that name escape from her lips.

 

“My mind mistaken him as you.. so I give him my everything. I stressed too much.. and my brain thought can calm me down. So I throw myself to him. Let him take control over me, again and again. Let him be inside me over and over..”

 

She state weakly. Try to reach that girl hand, but that girl pull away even before she can reach her. Makes her just can curves a tiny smile on her face before she grab the doorknob and closing the door. Trapping both of them inside the room with the key on her hand.

 

“But then.. I never be really calm. I still grow anxious.. too anxious for nothing. I can’t understand. And I keep distracted my mind on him. I don’t care, I just wanted to be calm, but there’s also something inside here”

 

She bring her clenched fist to her chest. Bump on it softly while her gaze fully on that girl. Who doesn’t even bother to gazing at her. And she doesn’t care. She knows that girl still hear her.

That’s the only matter.

 

“It screams on me.. keep telling me if it’s wrong. It’s totally wrong. But I can’t understand what was wrong? But after I kissed you yesterday.. I immediately know what it means. Why it keep aching so bad when I’m with him or someone else..”

 

Her voice breaking. Shaking so hard as she grab onto her shirt. Gritted her teeth, when she feel her eyes became hot. Try so hard to not let these tears burst out of it. Rolling down to her cheeks.

 

“Cause they’re not you.. and the only one who can calming me down funnily it’s you.. only you..”

 

She force a smile on her face. Try to bear the pain inside her. Sounds totally in desperate, but that girl still not even glance at her. Nor move from it place makes her grow impatient and sigh sharply. Rush to that girl and grab her face on her hand. Smash their lips together. Let her feel the feelings she been looking,

For this whole times.

 

“Bora, I can’t..”

 

“Why..”

 

“You’re not suppose to do this. You’re not supposed to be with me. I killed your father. I’m the one who killed your-“

 

“SO WHAT?!!”

 

She shout, cutting that girl words while she breath heavily. Staring sharply towards that girl who been receiving her rough kisses, that full of desperate.

 

“I KNOW YOU ARE A KILLER SINCE THE VERY FIRST TIME! AND I WAS STILL BE WITH YOU! I KNOW YOU WERE THE ONE WHO KILLED THOSE GUYS THAT ME! BUT I WAS STILL WITH YOU! I KNOW YOU WERE THE ONE WHO KILLED THOSE GUYS THAT KIDNAPPED ME! AND I STILL BE WITH YOU! AND THEN YOU WERE THE ONE WHO KILLED MY DAD AND I DON’T CARE!! I CAN’T CHANGE THE PAST! I WANT TO HATE YOU SO BAD BUT I CAN’T!! EVEN AFTER WHAT YOU DONE I FOUND MYSELF STILL CRAWLING BACK TO YOU! I STILL WANT TO BE WITH YOU!! I WANT TO STOP BUT I CAN’T CAUSE IT’S YOU!! IT’S YOU LEE SIYEON!!”

 

She screams towards that girl, ignored how the tears rolling down on her cheeks so freely. Ignore how trembling her body becomes and how shaking her voice once it escape from her lips.

 

“I said.. I don’t wanna fight for you anymore.. I won’t..”

 

She shake her head weakly, as those words escape from her lips. Falling down, letting her back hitting the bed. Staring at nowhere with tears streaming all over.

 

“But.. I want you to be the one who fight for me.. is it too selfish?”

 

She smile bitterly, staring at the ceiling with that girl still above her. Definitely staring at her with those painful gaze she hate the most.

 

“Bora.. please-“

 

“I’m tired Siyeon.. so tired.. I want to end myself so bad..”

 

She state, closing her eyes. Absolutely feels so tired just to keep them open at this moment. But later, she can’t help but curved a tiny smile on her face. Once she notice how tense that girl body be. Tighten the grip on her hand. Noticing that girl also scared as she is.

 

“I’ve been giving what I have.. is it too selfish if I want to be the one who received all the things this time? Is it too much for me to ask?”

 

She laugh mockingly. Knowing how pathetic she sounds. But she just so tired, she tired of giving. And like what she said, she wants to be the one who receiving this time.

 

“Bora.. don’t you dare to do anything stupid.. don’t you dare or-“

 

“OR WHAT?!”

 

She risen her voice. Stare directly into those eyes. Feels so done with the situation they’re in. Feels so exhausted, and yet she still can’t hate that girl. Even though her gaze now full of hatred. But still she knows there’s always some warmth that girl can find on her eyes.

And she hate that fact.

 

“Or what Siyeon-ah?? I told you I don’t wanna fight for you anymore! I won’t!! I told you to just come and find me! Makes me fall for you once again! Do it just if you want! Just. If you. Want!! But, WHY?!”

 

She scream again. Shut her eyes tightly. Feels her body trembling so hard under that girl grip. Feel so done with that girl touch on her skin. Feel so disgusting over herself that makes her shake that girl grip from her hand. But what she feel next is that girl tighten her grip. Causing the pain on her chest growing bigger,

 

Why people never let her go?

 

“LET GO OF ME!! I HATE YOU!! GET LOST!! WHY YOU STILL HERE?! WHAT YOU KEEP DOING THIS TO ME?! IF YOU WANT TO GO JUST GO! IF YOU DON’T LOVE ME BACK JUST GO!!!”

 

She scream in desperate. Keep trying to break free from that girl grip, even though she knows she will never can. That girl stronger than her. And she just too exhausted right now. She is tired.

 

“I’m tired.. Why people can leave whenever they want? But when is me.. Why.. WHY THEY NEVER LET ME LEAVE?! WHY YOU NEVER LET ME GO?! LEE SIYEON! WHY?! WHY YOU DOING THIS TO ME?! I TOLD YOU TO LET ME GO! SO WHY-“

 

“BECAUSE I LOVE YOU! IS THAT ENOUGH?!”

 

She startled down there. Not expecting that coming, makes her slowly move her gaze. Staring at that girl that avoiding her eyes. Lowered her head, let that dark brown haired cover her face.

 

“Six years Bora.. you’re the only one who asking me to close my eyes that night, just so you can leave.. Six years.. you are the only who asking me to not looking for you.. it was you.. IT WAS YOU! CAUSE LEAVING IS JUST WHAT YOU DO!”

 

She found that gaze on that girl. The same gaze with hers. Makes her realize if she is not the only one who been suffered this whole times. They both suffered from the same pain. They both hurting.

 

“I HOPE I CAN TURN BACK THE TIME! I HOPE I KILL YOU THAT TIME! I HOPE I NEVER MEET YOU! CAUSE YOU MEDDLE TOO MUCH IN MY LIFE! YOU ARE THE ONE WHO GET INTO MY LIFE! YOU ARE THE ONE WHO LEAVING ME!! YOU ARE THE ONE WHO CAUSED THIS!!”

 

That girl scream towards her. Let her see the new side of that girl for the first time. Found how broken that girl is right now. And yet it because of her.

 

“I wish I can say that I love you that time.. I wish I hold you that night.. but I know, I can’t.. I love you.. and I know there’s no chance.. I don’t wanna cause you trouble.. I’m a killer.. I know that better.. I don’t want you in danger just because of me.. but now.. the thing I scared the most becomes reality.. my nightmare becomes real.. you are in danger because of my ego. Because of my selfishness..”

 

And it’s the first time she see that clear tears rolling down on that girl cheek. Fall to her chin and landed perfectly on her face.

 

“I hope I never met you.. so it’s never be too hard to kill you.. so it was never hard to killed your father.. but you know.. it’s hard.. it’s really hard. Cause I met you.. and I fell for you..”

 

She can feel those grip slowly loosen. Makes that scary feeling slowly creeping inside her whole body. Makes her body trembling once again. Afraid if what she think right now will come.

 

“Why it should be you Bora? Why you should be the one that I suppose to kill? You know I never can.. Why this happened to me? Why we meet again in such a way?”

 

That girl start to avoiding her eyes. Lift herself up off her. Pulling those hands from her own hand. And yet she just watching that girl move away from her.

 

“You know how much I want to stay.. you know how much I want to be with you. But I also know that I can’t”

 

That girl smile bitterly towards her. Watching her weakly get up from the bed and sit in front of that girl. Staring into those eyes that staring back at her until she close her eyes. Feel those lips on hers. Kissing her softly. Gently.

 

“I don’t know if we will meet again after this. But I promise I’ll end this for you..”

 

‘Don’t..’

 

“I love you, Bora. Just like you.. I really do. But I can’t be with you..”

 

‘Don’t say that..’

 

“I wish I’m not what I am right now. But what can I do? Still I feel grateful to be loved by you.. I love you so much. Just so you know”

 

‘Please.. don’t.. don’t say that..’

 

“If you meet me again.. I know I won’t be the same. And you too. So can I ask you something?”

 

‘Please!’

 

“Kill me when you see me..”

 

And it’s how she feel her eyelids became heavy. Makes her should fight it so hard to keep herself awake. Grabbing that girl shirt so tight. Kiss her with the taste of their tears mixing together. Saying those words that she wants to say so bad.

But later, she feel herself became weak.

 

‘Don’t! Don’t go! Stay!’

 

“Listen.. you love him.. you love Nick. And about Lee Siyeon you hate her.. so bad..”

 

‘Don’t!! Please don’t!!! Stay!! Don’t do this!!’

 

She stare blankly towards that girl. Let that girl know if she absolutely under this control of the medicine she insert in her body awhile ago. The medicine that makes her forget everything that happened between them tonight. Putting an suggestion on her. Hypnotized her.

Let her feel the feeling that happened six years ago when her memories got erased.

 

“You hate her..”

 

‘Please don’t!’

 

“And when you see her..”

 

‘Siyeon, please!’

 

She can see that girl smile towards her. A way too bright compare to the words that will escape to the air later.

Right from that girl lips.

 

“You’ll kill her..”

 

‘Why...’

 

—————

 

“You’ll gonna go fetch Gahyeon?”

 

“Yeah.. want me to get you something?”

 

“No, thanks”

 

Sua turn her head around. Gazing towards Yunho who staring back at her. But later she just get up from the floor, get ready to exited the mansion. Placing a gun behind her leather jacket, while smile brightly towards Yunho.

 

“Okay then. See you later, oppa..”

 

She walk out of the mansion. Quickly steps towards her car, and insert the key. Start the engine and switch the gears. Drive the car out of the mansion yard to Gahyeon’s college.

 

“We will go to the cemetery after this, right?”

 

“Yeah, I bought some flowers already”

 

“That’s my sist!”

 

Gahyeon raised her fist to Sua, makes the older just can laugh towards her childishness. But in the end, she eventually raised her fist too. Bump it on Gahyeon’s. Let the younger smile brightly before they continue their lunch, talking about random things.

But strange, Sua always glance to her side. Glancing to the empty chair beside her. Feeling a weird feeling start to creeping inside. But later, she quickly shrugged the thoughts away. Found Gahyeon already finish her lunch, get up from her chair. Ready to leave.

 

“Mom! Dad! We come again today!”

 

Gahyeon said cheerfully after she stop her steps right in front of the graves. Makes Sua just can shaking her head slowly over her little sister behavior. Found her start to talking with the graves. Telling those stones some story about her life. Looks so happy, like she actually talking with her parents. Moving her hands in the air to support her stories. Looking so excited.

 

“Anyway..”

 

That word suddenly come out weak. Makes Sua who standing behind Gahyeon immediately furrowed her brows. Noticing the change of the tone her little sister used. Feel worried out of sudden.

But before she can ask what’s wrong to Gahyeon. These words, come from Gahyeon’s lips. Freezing Sua at her spot.

 

“Dad, Mom.. I know you actually watching us up there.. we doing good. It’s been two months and those guys not chasing after us anymore. At least that’s what I hope..”

 

Gahyeon let out a small laugh to the air. But somehow it sounds so bitter in Sua’s ears. Along with that weird feeling that becomes clearer inside her,

 

“But..”

 

Gahyeon pause her word. Taking a deep breath, before she sigh heavily. Lowered her head as the words feel so hard to come out of her lips. But she say it eventually. Let these words escape from her lips. Leaving Sua tense up behind.

 

“Siyeon-unnie.. I don’t know what she doing right now.. or where she is.. but I hope you watching over her too..”

 

Gahyeon lift her head up. Staring at the sky, like she knows if her parents definitely watching her right now. Listening to every single words that coming out from her lips..

 

“I hope she doing fine.. cause you know, she is actually an angel in demon form..”

 

Gahyeon curved a tiny smile on her face. Staring at the blue sky for a few seconds before she lowered her head once again. Hiding that bitter smile on her face as she turn around. Telling Sua if it’s the time for them to leave. But strange it just Gahyeon who walking away from those graves, leaving Sua standing there by herself.

With tears unknowingly rolling down from her eye.

 

—————

 

“Glad to work with you Ms. Kim”

 

“My pleasure”

 

Jiu smile warmly towards that guy who immediately get inside the black fancy car that absolutely waiting for him. Let Jiu just bow a little to him while Yoohyeon who been standing behind her bow deeply to that guy. Waiting for that car to get out of their sight, before both of them immediately lift themselves. Staring at the same spot of that car been.

 

“I don’t like how he stared at you”

 

Yoohyeon states in annoyed once they entered Jiu’s office. Let that black haired girl just can let out a small laugh to the air. Noticing a jealous tone in that silver haired girl words.

 

“Well, who can help? I’m just too captivating..”

 

Jiu smile towards Yoohyeon. Leaning on her desk while cross her arms on her chest. Staring deeply into Yoohyeon eyes that immediately know what those gaze means on her.

 

“How can you be so full of yourself?”

 

Yoohyeon state. Lean closer to Jiu who just curved a tiny smile on her face. Noticing how Yoohyeon trapping her between her arms. Putting her palms on the desk behind. Be so close with her.

 

“Well, actually..”

 

Jiu state softly. Moving her hand to reach Yoohyeon. Placing her arms around the younger neck, pulling her closer

 

“I don’t know..”

 

Jiu smile to that silver haired girl after those words. Makes Yoohyeon just can shake her head slowly before she lean more closer. Feeling their hot breath blow onto each other.

 

“You’re so weird”

 

“Look who’s talking..”

 

And with that Yoohyeon just can curves a tiny smile on her face, before she close the gap between them. Catch those lips with hers, move in sync. Try to feel every inch of those lips on hers. Until there’s a knock on the door. Makes Jiu quickly pull away, breath in..

 

“Ms. Kim.. we’re gonna start the meeting in ten minutes”

 

“Alright. I’ll be there”

 

The thing that they can hear next after those words that escape from Jiu is, those footsteps that step away. Absolutely leaving them alone by themselves. Let Jiu staring at the door for a few seconds. Makes sure the employee not standing in front of her office anymore before she move her gaze back to that certain girl. Just to let a soft laugh to the air, once she found how annoyed Yoohyeon is. Absolutely don’t like how their business got interrupted by the employee.

 

“Drop that ugly face.. you think you’re cute pouting like that?”

 

“But- she just- what a way to ruined the mood..”

 

Yoohyeon state, earn another laugh from Jiu who quickly lean closer and plant a peck on the younger lips. Smile warmly once that pout disappeared.

 

“Don’t put on that face at work. You know I can’t resist to kiss those lips if you keep pouting like that. Now, move.. we just got ten minute-“

 

“Can I get another kiss?”

 

Jiu immediately frozen on her spot. Found Yoohyeon be so close with her, as she can feel that hot breath on her face once again. Kinda turn her on, when she notice how Yoohyeon stare lustfully to her lips. Ready to feel it again on hers, but Jiu try to control herself. Pushing Yoohyeon slightly,

 

“No..”

 

“Just once..”

 

“Yoohyeon, no.. we just got-“

 

“Please..”

 

Yoohyeon beg through her gaze, whine cutely to Jiu who just can shut . Sigh heavily a second later, biting her lower lip and pull that silver haired girl closer. Giving up to herself and smash their lips together. Kiss that silver haired girl passionately, until she pull away. Breath heavily, while Yoohyeon just smirking towards her. Also manage her heavy breath..

 

“Look who just refuse to kiss earlier..”

 

“Shut up..”

 

Jiu immediately send her a dead glare, makes Yoohyeon can’t help but laugh at it. Pulling her hand off of the desk just to manage Jiu’s black hair who still staring at her in annoyed. Pouting with her arms still on Yoohyeon’s neck.

 

“Stop pouting. Or I gonna eat you up, right here. Right now. But later you should explain why you don’t show up at the meeting, again.. You choose-“

 

“Alright. Fine..”

 

Jiu state shortly. Pulling her arms from Yoohyeon neck just to makes the younger curves a tiny smile on her face. Finally done managing Jiu’s hair, and yet she start to feel the urge to kiss the older forehead. So without a lot of think, she quickly lean forward. Plant a quick peck on Jiu’s just to earn a confused look from the older.

But Yoohyeon just grin innocently, while Jiu just shake her head. Already got into her CEO mode. Walk out of her office with Yoohyeon following her behind like a lost puppy.

 

—————

 

“Dr. Lee, you have a visitor..”

 

Dami immediately raised one of her eyebrows once she heard that coming from a nurse that just approached her. Makes her quickly raised her hand to the other nurse that been talking to her and quickly tell that nurse if she will meet her later to continue their discussion.

 

“Where you going?”

 

“I have a visitor”

 

“Oh..”

 

Minkyung just can form an o shape with her lips once she heard that coming from Dami. But later, she immediately put on a smirk makes Dami who definitely notice that just glance at her. Decided to just walking away and ignore that tall friend of hers, who absolutely start to saying those nonsense, and teasing her.

 

“There your prince is..”

 

Hayoung state teasingly, while Changmin just hold his smile once Dami glaring at them. But later those eyes got softer, once it landed on that blonde haired girl who immediately walk towards her. Smile in enthusiastic.

 

“You won’t believe! I just hold a gun! And I wasn’t trembling! Yunho and Changmin even surprised by that!”

 

“Oh.. wow..”

 

Dami state shortly. Not knowing how to react as that girl seems so excited informed her. Makes her can’t help but smile warmly, feel proud of Handong who eventually get rid over her trauma. But she not show it so clearly at this exact moment and Handong just know her a way too better. Makes that blonde haired girl smiling back before she mouthing something to Dami. Let Dami just can blink her eyes for a few times. Not expecting that coming from the older.

 

“I want my reward now”

 

And that’s how Handong quickly drags Dami to her office. Slam the door closed, lock it and push Dami against it.

Lock their lips together.

 

—————

 

“You still can’t find the book?”

 

“Yeah, I think it’s out of stock here too..”

 

Gahyeon sigh heavily, running her fingers through her hair as she can’t find the book she wants to buy yet. Makes Sua who standing not far from her, just can staring at her for awhile. Until her eyes catch a coffee shop, across the road.

 

“I’ll go buy coffee. You want?”

 

“Vanilla latte..”

 

“Be back soon..”

 

Sua state, exited the book shop just to walk across the road. Entering the coffee shop, and let those memories immediately rush into her mind. But she quickly shrugged the thoughts away and get into the line. Waiting for her turn, while playing with her phone, noticing it’s almost dinner time, and she doesn’t even cooked yet.

 

“Hope they have dinner already..”

 

She muttered under her breath, ready to place the phone back inside her pocket until her eyes catch that face on her lock screen. That guy that smile widely towards the camera along with her in his arms.

They looks so happy, but strange.. she feel something clenched inside her chest. Telling her something that she doesn’t understand.

Telling her if there’s something is wrong..

 

“Bora?”

 

She feel her body tense up, once that voice enters her ears. Makes her hesitantly turn her head to the side. Found that guy standing there. Facing her.

 

“I’m truly sorry for what happened a few months ago”

 

“It’s okay. I don’t really care”

 

That guy smile bitterly towards her. But Sua doesn’t even pay attention to him and just staring at her coffee. Let her mind busy with nothing. Siting right across that guy.

 

“Do I still have a chance to fix it?”

 

Those words escape from his lips. Let Sua immediately frozen on her chair, not expecting that coming from him. And after that, she can’t remember how can they ended up making out in his car. Breath heavily, as that guy be on top of her. Exploring her skin under her shirt. And rub his thigh between her legs. Kissing her roughly and on her skin.

 

“Gosh.. you really..”

 

He hissed under his breath, feel her hands down there. Rubbing it so hard, while he on her earlobe. Letting the sounds escape from both of their lips, enjoying each other touch. But it was not for too long when that click sound suddenly echoed inside the car. Makes him immediately stop what he is doing. Just to lift himself. Found a gun place right beside his head.

 

“What the-“

 

Before he can finish his words. That loud sounds can be heard coming from the gun, release the bullet and plant right inside his head. Took his breath in a instant with blood immediately spreading all over. Letting his body collapsed to that girl who casually push the body aside. Ignoring how helpless the body laying there while she just staring at it emptily.

Find that guy phone, and quickly grab it. She found her prediction is absolutely right, when she can see there’s a notification on his phone. Saying that if there’s some people will coming soon makes her immediately move away, grab the hanger and kick the door open. Walking away from the car, still with gun on her hand. Before she raised it to the air. Aim it to the tanker of the car when she sure enough if she is in the safe zone to not get any damage from the explosion that will coming just after she let out another bullet.

Triggered that explosion, and fire that immediately burn the car down. Letting her just staring at it, emptily. Watching the fire lighten the dark alley before she decided to step away.

Knowing she just wasting the time.

 

“Where have you been?”

 

“Washroom. The line is too long”

 

Gahyeon just can shake her head over Sua’s answer when the older suddenly showed up out of nowhere. With a sheepish smile on her face, knowing Gahyeon immediately glance to her hand. Found there’s no coffee the older brought for them.

 

“Fine.. I just got a call from Minji-unnie.. she said she already make a dinner for us”

 

“Oh? Good th-“

 

“Anyway, why you didn’t answer her call? She said she been calling you, but you didn’t pick up”

 

“I put my phone in silent mode”

 

Sua state, walking beside Gahyeon who again, just shake her head over Sua’s words. Until she glancing around once she notice some people crowded on the alley near the book shop. Found there’s police and fireman busy doing their job.

 

“What happen?”

 

“Have no idea. But we better go now, or Minji will be mad”

 

“.. okay”

 

Gahyeon immediately following Sua’s steps to where the older parked her car. Even though she still wondering what happen on that dark alley.

But later, she decided to shrugged it off. Failed to notice that empty gaze on the older who glance slightly to the crowd. Staring at that burned car, with a burned body inside. Triggered that mysterious smile on her face.

 

“Geez, if you went outside till this late. At least makes sure you have your dinner already..”

 

“But, Gahyeon said you already cooked the dinner. I just appreciate you..”

 

“Well, thank you so much Ms. Kim..”

 

“My pleasure, Ms. Kim..”

 

Sua grinning after those words. Meanwhile Jiu on the other hand just can rolled her eyes. Feels slight annoyed towards her cousin, while Gahyeon who sit right beside Sua quietly swallow her dinner.

 

“Gahyeon? You done-“

 

“I’m done!”

 

Gahyeon answer it right away, even before Yoohyeon who just popped her head to the dining room can finish her words,

 

“Gahyeon, please sl-“

 

“Thanks for the dinner, unnie”

 

After gulping down her water, and place the dirty dishes on the washbasin. Gahyeon immediately sprints out of the dining room, makes Yoohyeon who standing on the door frame just can blinking her eyes. Found that small girl, surely excited to play the game with her, Changmin and Yunho. Let Jiu that been watching the scene just can sigh deeply, shake her head over Gahyeon’s behavior,

 

“Alright, I’ll go catch with her”

 

“Don’t play too much..”

 

Jiu reminds Yoohyeon who just can offer her a sweet smile, probably not sure if she can obey that black haired girl words before she excused herself to the older and also Sua who just nod her head slightly. Not even bother to glance to that silver haired girl who slowly getting used to it.

But it’s different for that black haired girl..

 

“You still act like that to her, even to Dami..”

 

Jiu state, lean on the counter. Cross her arms on her chest, while staring directly towards Sua who just raised one of her eyebrows over those words,

 

“What do you mean?”

 

Sua asked, continue her dinner without even glancing back to Jiu that just can sigh deeply. Running her fingers through her black hair.

 

“Actually.. what happened that time? Between you and Siye-“

 

“I told you.. she admitted if she was the one who killed my dad. And she wants to kill me too so-“

 

“Your memories got erased before you went to Japan. And before that, you were together. After you got your memories back, and Siyeon too.. the two of you been disappeared for a day. And then you came back by yourself.. without her..”

 

Jiu state, watching that girl carefully. Try to observing her facial expression, and read what inside her mind. But strange, Jiu can’t find any important sign from that girl. Unless that empty gaze that staring right on her a second later.

 

“What actually you want to know, Minji?”

 

“I want to know why you act like this? Even when Gahyeon told you everything.. your reaction was far from what we expected. Even when she told you if Auntie Lee already dead, your reaction just.. okay.. it’s all in the past. I can’t change it”

 

“I just being realistic.. and it’s true. I can’t change it. It’s all in the past..”

 

“But you didn’t usually act like that! Me nor Handong know that! All of us know that! You..”

 

Jiu pause her words. Feel herself start to boiling up along with the heat in her eyes. Staring desperately towards Sua who just staring back at her, emptily. Let Jiu who absolutely notice that can’t help but feel hurt, knowing the cousin that siting not far from her definitely not the cousin she been know.

 

“You change..”

 

Those words escape from Jiu’s trembling lips. Makes Sua just can raised one of her eyebrows, notice how shaking Jiu’s voice is. But later, she just shrugged it off. Get up from her chair, bring the dishes to the washbasin,

 

“I told you.. I’m not gonna choose the same path as you.. Like, how can I let her be out there? Planning something to kill us. If just she choose the same path as Yoohyeon and Dami. I probably not gonna act like this. But she didn’t, and I swear I’ll be the one to kill her..”

 

Sua state calmly, feel those gaze on her back. But she just ignored it, as she turn around. Facing that black haired girl who still staring at her with the same gaze from earlier..

 

“She should pay for whatever she done to my dad. And to Gahyeon too. Also those people that I don’t know yet. The mastermind of all of this. I’ll make them pay for what they done to me. To us.. and if you planned to get into my way.. then I tell you this, Minji..”

 

Jiu sure, it’s the first time she found that gaze on Sua. Those dark gaze that full of hate, and the urge to kill.

Full of revenge.

 

“I’m not gonna kill you. But I’m sure, I will break your legs, and hands. So you can’t meddle. And not just you.. if there’s Handong, Yunho, Changmin, and Hayoung get into my way too. I’ll do the same, even if it’s Yoohyeon or Dami. Even if it’s Gahyeon.. I’m gonna makes sure you all crawled on the floor for the rest of your life.. so..”

 

Jiu can feel how tense she be when those words escape to the air. And she can feel how frozen she is on her spot when she found Sua standing right in front of her. Gazing into her eyes, with these words coming out from her lips. Leaving Jiu just can staring at her in fear, and disbelief.

 

“Don’t you dare to stop me”

 

—————

 

“Did those pills really help you?”

 

Sua move her gaze to the side. Glancing to her little sister who just walk into the room. The same time when she just took her medicine.

 

“It did..”

 

Sua answer shortly. Let Gahyeon just can staring at her for awhile. Walking to the bed with something bothering her mind.

 

“What happened to you.. actually?”

 

Gahyeon ask carefully. Staring at the back of Sua, siting at the edge of the bed. Waiting for the older to answer her question.

 

“Let’s not talk about it, shall we?”

 

Sua smile warmly as she turn around and walk towards Gahyeon. Ruffles the younger hair affectionately. Telling Gahyeon to sleep right away, knowing the younger have a class tomorrow early.

 

“Good night, kid”

 

“Good night, unnie”

 

Gahyeon answer immediately. Makes Sua who just pull away after plant a kiss on her forehead can’t help but smile.

 

“Love you”

 

“Love you too..”

 

Sua smile widely this time, hear those words whispered by Gahyeon. Putting her chin on the younger head while wrapping her arms on her. Pulling her closer, until she can feel that soft breath on her neck. Knowing Gahyeon squeeze closer to her, wrapped her arms also on her.

Slowly diving into the dreamland..

 

—————

 

“Mom! Dad! Look! Red!”

 

That four years old little girl state cheerfully. Point out at that red liquid on the floor, dripping from the dog that laying helplessly not far from her. And yet, she is too young and innocent just to notice that horror gaze from two adults in front of her. Staring at her in fear and disbelief.

 

“Gahyeon.. what just?”

 

“He is too noisy, so I keep him quiet”

 

That little girl state innocently, grabbing a dead bird on her hand with strain of blood on her face, also her hand. Smiling brightly towards that old man who still staring at her with the same gaze.

The same gaze she fail to recognize.

 

“I’m sorry to say this.. but Gahyeon..”

 

That old man breath heavily. Massaging his temple while the other man just can staring at him absolutely in pity. Not even planned to continue his words as he caught that man turn his head to the side. Staring at that little girl that been ‘playing’ with herself.

 

“Look mom! They all sleep!”

 

She state, turn her head to the side. Found that lady force a smile on her face. And again she is too young and innocent to notice that, as she just smile in satisfied. Staring at those ants that definitely die after got pressed by her.

 

“Unnie!”

 

That little girl rush towards the older girl. Wrapped her tiny arms on the older who just can giggle while pat her head. Let her hug her tightly.

 

“Where’s Bora? Is she late to finish her class?”

 

That lady state in worry, holding hands with that little girl who just can blink her eyes hearing those words. Not knowing what to do, as she just glancing around. Catch that butterfly not far from her with her eyes.

 

“Mom, can I playing there?”

 

“Okay.. but don’t go too far. Once your sister show up, we go home immediately..”

 

“Okey dokey!”

  

She smile brightly. Entering the school yard and walk to the small garden there. Following the butterfly that fly higher than her. Makes her fasten her steps and jumps a little just to catch that butterfly with her hands.

 

“Gotcha!”

 

She smile in satisfied. Staring at her clenched hands with sparkle in her eyes. Feel that strange sensation on her hands, when she clenched her hands more tightly. Trapped that butterfly inside.

 

“I really hate Bora! Why people always like her?!”

 

“What we can do? She is pretty, and smart. She rich too-“

 

“But I’m rich too! And I’m pretty than her! But, why their attention always on her?!”

 

That stranger girl state in annoyed. Walking out of the building with some of other girls following her.

 

“Maybe you should give her some lesson?”

 

“Well, that’s what I think actually! I’m gonna makes her life like hell!”

 

That little girl can heard that so clearly in her ears. Makes her just can staring at the back of these girls with a dark gaze.

 

“Gahyeon?”

 

She quickly snapped her head to the side. Let those dark gaze disappear in any second when she found that ten years old girl walk towards her. Makes her can’t help but rush to that girl with a brightest smile she ever had.

 

“Unnie!”

 

She say excitedly. Earn a small giggle from the older who just can raised her hand. Rubbing that little girl hair,

 

“Oh, she is Choi Min. She is my classmate..”

 

“Where she sit?”

 

“Three table away on my left..”

 

The older state, seems like try to makes sure if she just told that little girl the fact. According to her memories. Meanwhile that little girl just can nod her head, smile to the older.

 

“What happened?”

 

“Someone put a dead bird, butterfly and grasshopper in Min’s drawer. It’s been a week too. But teachers still can’t find who did it..”

 

“Oh God..”

 

That lady bring her hand to covered . Feel sorry after hearing that from that ten years old girl. Meanwhile in the other hand, the little girl just can blinking her eyes. Found the older face kinda dark out of sudden. But again she is too young to notice what does it mean.

 

“Gahyeon, what are you doing here?”

 

“Giving the table owner a gift?”

 

She state innocently. Pull that dead bird out of the plastic bag with a fresh blood still dripping off. Makes that man can’t help but staring at her in horror.

 

“It’s her..”

 

That man state, earned a shock look from that old man who slowly turn his head to the side. Staring right towards that little girl who happily playing with her sister. Looks so normal, while in fact she unfortunately not.

 

“There must be a way to help her..”

 

“There is.. and the only way it’s to bring her away”

 

“But, honey.. I can’t..”

 

That old man state desperately. Rubbing his face in tired, makes that lady stop packing her the suitcase. Turn around just to facing her husband.

 

“Honey.. even though I don’t want to believe this.. this is the reality.. she is not just a little girl.. I mean she is our little girl.. but you know she is different.. the way she think, it’s different..”

 

“Why.. why she should be different? I can’t understand.. and please stay.. we can go through this together.. we can help her..”

 

That old man grabbing that lady hands. Staring right into her eyes. Pleading that lady to stay with him, through his gaze. Getting through of this together. But later, that lady just smile bitterly to him. Pull her hands away.

 

“I want to stay.. I really want. But it’s not good for you especially, Bora-“

 

“I will stop being a CEO if it means I can help Gahyeon.. please hon-“

  

“Let’s be realistic.. if you stop you can’t help Gahyeon.. and if you continue.. I will bring Gahyeon away..”

 

“Why you making things hard?”

 

“It’s not like that.. we talked about this already. As much as I want to stay.. we both know we can’t.. I don’t wanna people hurt Gahyeon just because she is different.. and I don’t wanna Gahyeon hurt them too..”

 

That lady voice start to break. Staring deeply into that man eyes, who just can staring back with the same pain visible in his own eyes.

 

“Mom.. where we go?”

 

That little girl asked the lady beside her, confused by the lady words earlier. Say that, they were no longer staying at that big house. Leaving her own dad and her sister by themselves. Surrounded by maids, and bodyguards. While she go somewhere, just with her mother.

 

“You’ll know, someday Gahyeon-ah..”

 

That lady reach for her. Pulling her into a warm hug. Leaving her confused by the situation she in, until she can feel how shaking her mother be. With tears starting to wetted her shirt.

But still, she is too young to understand.

 

“Why people call me psychopath?”

 

“Who told you that??”

 

“This stranger guy.. I just playing with a frog.. and he suddenly start to call me psychopath-“

 

“Never did it again, okay? No red. Got it?”

 

That lady grabbed her by her shoulders. Staring deeply into her eyes, while she just furrowed her brows. Confused by that lady words.

 

“But I like seeing red-“

 

“Please Gahyeon.. do it for mommy..”

 

That lady pleading to her. Bite her lower lip while still staring deep into that little girl eyes. Found there’s a strange gaze there. But she still can’t understand what does it means that time. It just a year since she away from her father, and her sister.

She still so young to understand.

 

“Gahyeon.. what happened?”

 

“He called me weird. So I showed to him what weird was..”

 

She state innocently, staring at her own mom who just can staring at her in fear. Until she found her mom collapsed to the floor, crying helplessly. Makes her just can staring at her totally in confused.

 

“Mom-“

 

“Why you’re like this, Gahyeon-ah? Mommy told you to never did it again.. but why?”

 

The voice sounds so desperate, and yet she just can furrowed her brows. Still not getting what her mom means by her words. She can’t understand why her mom crying right now. And she can’t understand why people staring at her in horror just because she plant a pencil on this boy arms.

 

“Mom.. I want to go to school!”

 

She whine to her mom, who busy preparing the lunch for both of them. Pulling the lady by her shirt.

 

“Gahyeon.. mommy still cooking-“

 

“Why I can’t go to school??! Why?! I like school! But why mommy didn’t let me?!”

 

She state in anger, pulling her mom shirt so hard, just to receive a slap on her cheek a second later. Let her frozen on her spot once she can feel that burning feeling spreading all over her face

 

“Mom..”

 

“Go to your room..”

 

That lady state coldly. Not even bother to facing her, makes her just can frowned by the sight. Confused.

 

“No.. I want to go to school-“

 

“Gahyeon.. please..”

 

That lady state weakly. Shut that little girl a second later, once she notice her mom shoulders start to shaking so hard, while back facing her. Let her just can staring at the back of that lady. The usual sight for her since then.

 

“Mom, what can I do to make you stop crying?”

 

“Gahyeon?”

 

She snapped from her deep thought immediately, once she feel that hand on her shoulder. Let her gaze meet Sua’s gaze who staring at her in confused.

 

“What happen?”

 

Sua asked, totally in concerned makes Gahyeon quickly shrugged her thoughts away and smile towards the older.

 

“Nothing.. it just, I suddenly remembered we have a quiz later”

 

“Geez, I thought there’s something wrong..”

 

Sua state in annoyed, pulling her hand off from Gahyeon who just can laugh over her words before she smile brightly towards Sua who start to get inside her car.

 

“I’ll pick you up later!”

 

Sua shout to Gahyeon who just can smile while nod her head. Waving her hand to the older who slowly drive away, getting lost from her sight. Leaving her alone in front of her college gate.

 

“It was rare to found you spacing out..”

 

“It just .. I suddenly remembered that..”

 

She state softly, putting her earphones to her ears once Sua is no longer in her sight. Makes her immediately turn around, walking towards her college building

 

“Is it because of Bora’s weird behavior? So you remembered how you born out of sudden?”

 

“Geez, don’t you sounds too cruel Kim?”

 

She state in annoyed. Earning a small laugh in her mind as she having a conversation inside her head with the other her. The true her.

 

“Okay, okay I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to..”

 

“Well, you better not..”

 

She shrugged her shoulders over her words. Tighten her grip on her strap bag as she fasten her steps to her class direction. But later, she found herself tense up once she can heard these words inside her mind..

 

“Do you think Bora is different too?”

 

“I don’t think so..”

 

“.. why?”

 

“She doesn’t looks like one..”

 

“Well, maybe she have another personality too?”

 

“You know there is no way, right?”

 

She state calmly. Entering her class with a smile on her face once her gaze meeting those gaze of her friends.

 

“I suddenly want to see Mr. Oh..”

 

“And asked him what happened?”

 

She placed her bag. Take a seat and pull her phone out of her pocket, just to staring at it. Doing nothing while waiting for the professor to come.

 

“You know he will never told us anything, right?”

 

“It’s so Mr. Oh, anyway..”

 

She pulled her earphones off. Catch the professor already walk into the room. Ready to start the class

 

“Mr. Oh.. he just too good to keep a secret”

 

She said that in a low voice. Earn no sounds in her mind, makes her slowly nod her head. Knowing the other her absolutely leaving by now. Just to let her focus on her class.

 

“I always wonder why you take a college when you already really smart..”

 

That voice coming into her mind, makes her immediately plugging her earphones to her phone. Placing the earphones on her ears a second later, just to makes people who walking around won’t think she crazy while talking with herself.

 

“Look, Kim.. I just really smart, not a genius-“

 

“Psychopath..”

 

She can hear a small chuckle in her mind after the words. Makes her can’t help but to shake her head. Raised her hand in shoulder height, waving to her friend while she walking to the gate. Ready to meet Sua..

 

“Be grateful, Kim.. you have me.. so at least you can fit into those frame of society”

 

“I hate it..”

 

She stop her steps immediately once she heard that in her mind. Feel that voice full of hatred, but later she just shrugged it off.

Continue walking..

 

“I know..”

 

She state weakly. Breath in, heavily. Feeling down out of sudden. But she just keep her straight face, until her mind fly to what happened a few months ago.

The first time, they found out who that girl actually is.

 

“You..”

 

“Should I be surprised you suddenly sneak into my apartment?”

 

Gahyeon staring at that girl in disbelief. Grabbing a rumple and old letter on her hand. Can’t believe what she just read.

 

“You.. you and Bora-“

 

“It’s all in the past..”

 

She state, cutting Gahyeon’s words in the process. Makes Gahyeon just can shut . Not knowing what to say at this exact moment.

But eventually, she realizes something.

 

“Could it be.. could it be this.. is the reason of why you let me live until now? Make a deal with you and all? It’s because..”

 

Gahyeon lowered her head. Still in disbelief, staring at the letter in her hand. And somehow her mind force her to recall those memories. The moment she saw that girl shot her own dad. The moment when the other her can’t bear the situation. The moment when her truly self showed up after such a long time just to feel the urge to kill that girl immediately. Even though she was the only one who almost died in that girl hand before.

 

“THEN WHY YOU KILLED MY DAD, HUH?! WHY?!”

 

She rush to that girl. Grab on her collar roughly. Staring at those eyes that staring back at her. No emotions.

 

“It’s my job-“

 

“IF YOU HAVE FEELING FOR BORA THEN WHY YOU TAKE SOMEONE THAT MEANS TO HER?! WHY?!!”

 

She risen her voice. Tighten her grip on that girl shirt who still staring at her with the same gaze. Very contrast with the gaze that full of hate, and pain in her own eyes.

 

“I can feel how much Bora love you.. I don’t know what happened between you two, but.. the letter written six years ago. It was before she went to Japan..”

 

She loosened up a bit. Staring right into those eyes. Noticing there’s still no emotion there, but she doesn’t care. She just can’t believe what is really happening right now. It’s hard to believe if that girl, once, really mean to her sister. The reason behind why Sua went to Japan six years ago. It’s because of that girl.

 

“Is it okay? If you want.. I can tell Hayoung to not erase your memories-“

 

“No, it’s okay..”

 

Gahyeon snapped her head to the side immediately. Staring at that girl who just leaned on the fence. Enjoying her coffee.

 

“People can kill the memories. Not the instinct”

 

—————

 

She widened her eyes. Staring at the phone on her hand. Feel anger slowly creeping into her.

 

“U-unnie??”

 

She ignored that voice. Walking towards her car in hurry. Ignoring those group of girls that just can staring at her back in confused and wonder while she quickly get into her car. Start the engine and grab the wheel. Harden her jaw as her eyes absolutely full of hatred. Staring forward, before she switching the gear and drive the car in high speed. Still grabbing that phone on her hand..

 

Gahyeon’s phone.

 

—————

 

“Enough. Just go back to Korea for now..”

 

“But.. I-“

 

“I said, it’s enough Siyeon.. you doing great..”

 

That dark brown haired girl just can shut hearing that across her phone. Staring emptily at those dead body around her, with blood spreading all over the room.

 

“Anyway, I send you something.. please check your message”

 

That voice state calmly until all she can heard is nothing, once the other hangup. Leaving her just can staring at her phone, opening the message just like what the other told before.

 

“Siyeon, let’s go..”

 

That guy beckons her. Standing at the door frame, just to found that girl suddenly frozen on her spot. Staring right on her her phone screen, makes him furrowed his brows in confused once he noticed that.

 

“Siyeon? Hey, let’s-“

 

That hot bullet immediately released to the air. Plant perfectly into that guy head, makes him stop breathing a second later. Letting that girl just staring darkly towards his dead body. Falling to the floor with a loud sounds in silence. Grabbing the phone tightly on her hand. In anger.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

To be continued..

 

 

 

 

 

 

-actually.. I don’t know what I’m writing 🤣