That night, it was a heavy rain. It almost impossible to see the road clearly. But that lady keep walking. Hugging that little baby tight in her embrace.

 

“Oh my..”

 

A sister stated, covered with her palm. Watching the priest quickly kneel down on the floor. Bring that wet little baby to his embrace. Hugging her closer, while glancing around. Try to find whoever that put the little baby in front of the church. But the rain pours too much, and the view around was too blurry.

 

“Siyeon-ah! Stop playing! It’s lunch time!”

 

“But, I-“

 

“No but, little kid. Sister Hwang will be angry if you skip your meal”

 

That little girl pout, but eventually get up from the floor a second later. Reach for the older girl hand, and walk beside her.

 

“Siyeon, let’s go..”

 

“Yes, father”

 

She replied, get up from her bed and quickly rush to that man who just can smile towards her. Seeing those tiny feet stepping to his direction.

 

“... Forgive us our debts as we forgive our debtors. Do not lead us into temptation but, deliver us from the evil one. Yours is the kingdom, the power, and the glory. Amen”

 

“Amen!”

 

She said cutely, earn a warm smile from that man who immediately turn his head to the side. Found that little girl smile while her eyes gazing to the big cross in front of them.

 

“You shouldn’t do that you know..”

 

The older girl state, kneel down in front of her while pat the dirt off of her shirt. Wiping away the tears in the edge of her eyes as she just harden her jaw.

 

“They started it first-“

 

“Remember what father said? Do not repay evil with something evil..”

 

“But-“

 

She cut her own words. Finding those gaze on her. Makes her immediately lowered her head. Gritted her teeth in annoyed.

 

“What happen, here?”

 

That man walk into the room. Found the older girl and that little girl shout to each other, before they suddenly shut their mouth once that man walk closer to them. Noticing that little girl full of bruises.

 

“Siyeon? What happened to you?”

 

“She got into fight with the other kid-“

 

“I told you they started it first! They call me pathetic! They-“

 

“And I told you to just ignore them!”

 

The older girl shout. Risen her voice more than before, leaving that little girl startled at her spot. Feel a hot feeling slowly form in the back of her eyes.

 

“I hate Chorong-unnie!!”

 

She stormed out of the room. Let the tears streaming all over her face, after she shout those words loud to the air.

 

“Why you didn’t fight back?”

 

“Is there any good if I fight back?”

 

“But-“

 

“Park Chorong!”

 

Her words getting cut by that sudden unfamiliar voice. Along with the appearance of that unfamiliar girl who seems running out of breath. Stare worriedly at the older girl.

 

“Hey little kid! What you did to Chorong-unnie, huh?!”

 

“E-eh??”

 

She stutters at her words. Feeling those hands grab her by her collar shirt. Pulling it up, makes her just can staring at that unfamiliar girl in fear.

 

“Yoon Bomi.. let go of her, she is my sister”

 

The older girl state casually. Get up from the ground just to pat the dirt off of her clothes. Letting that unfamiliar girl just can widened her eyes over the words.

 

“I’m sorry Siyeonnie.. I thought you were one of them”

 

The unfamiliar girl state, rubbed the back of her neck in nervous. Feel guilt slowly creeping inside her.

 

“Unnie know who beat Chorong-unnie?”

 

“Of course I know! I want to give them a lesson so bad! But this sister of yours not letting me! And if she found me fight them, she will turn into a monster and talking nonsense for a very long time!”

 

That unfamiliar girl gazing at the older girl in annoyed. Received a glare from the latter while that little girl just can shut , watching those girls that older than her seems like having a staring contest while she just sit between them. Enjoying her ice cream.

 

“Come on, unnie. It’s self defense..”

 

That unfamiliar girl that now becomes familiar to that little girl state. Try to convincing the older girl who just can cross her arms on her chest.

 

“You taught her bad..”

 

“I’m not.. it’s to protect herself. Come on..”

 

“Wanna bet?”

 

She snapped her head to the side. Eventually take her eyes off of the older girl and the unfamiliar girl just to face another girl who sit on the fence. Watching the two that bickering not far from them.

 

“Bet?”

 

She asked innocently. Blinking her eyes towards that another girl who just can let out a small giggle before she lean closer to that little girl. Whisper in her ears.

 

“One day.. I think there will be something between them..”

 

“Something?”

 

The another girl nod her head with a smile on her face just after she pull away from the little girl who just can staring at her. Totally in confused.

 

“Eunji..”

 

And before the another girl can explain what she meant by her words. That voice can be heard, calling the another girl name. Makes that little girl just can staring at that beautiful girl standing not far from them in awe.

 

“Naeun! How many times I should tell you to call me unnie!”

 

That another girl pout in annoyed, get down from the fence just to glaring at the beautiful girl who just glancing slightly towards her. Walking to that little girl. Handing her a small plastic bag,

 

“I bought you chocolate..”

 

That beautiful girl smile, makes that little girl can’t help but blushing before she quickly lowered her head. Received the plastic bag with a red face

 

“Just Siyeon?? What about me??”

 

That unfamiliar girl state in pain, seems like hurting while pointing out to herself. Let that beautiful girl just can rolled her eyes before she put her bag down, pull another plastic bag out of it

 

“Don’t be sulky Bomi-unnie.. you’re older than me-“

 

“Why it’s only me that you never called by unnie??”

 

That another girl whine in annoyed, receiving a lazy gaze from that beautiful girl. Meanwhile in the other hand, the older girl who just join them and standing beside the little girl can’t help but sigh. Watching the scene, while the little girl smile brightly. Enjoying her chocolate. Feel safe surrounding by those girls around her.

Feel loved..

Until that night happens..

 

“Whatever happen.. don’t get out of here, you hear me?”

 

That man seems in rush. State in nervous, fear and scare visible in his voice. But he try to act cool, brushing his fingers affectionately on those little girls hair before he startled at his spot. Hear a gunshot.

 

“I have to go..”

 

He lean closer to those girls. Plant a quick kiss on their forehead just to feel a hand on his shirt. Grabbing onto it tightly. Asking him to stay.

 

“Chorong, listen.. I’ll be back.. I promise..”

 

That man state. Smiling to the older girl that shaking in fear. Old enough to know what actually happen there. Makes her can’t help but shake her head hardly, absolutely not letting that man go anywhere

 

“Chorong, listen sweetheart.. I said I’ll be back. And I have to go now.. I should making sure those guys not hurting any congregations or sisters. I have to make it sure..”

 

And with that, that man immediately get up. Walk in rush out of the room, in the same time as those gunshots echoed outside makes the older girl between the two kids snapped her head to the side. Grab that little girl by her shoulders. Squeeze it harder.

 

“Listen, Siyeon.. when I say go.. you should run as fast as you can through the back door. You hear me?”

 

The little girl just can blinking her eyes. Feel something bad gonna happen soon, and yet the nightmares come right after she breath in. Seeing the older girl rush out of the closet even before that stranger guy can open it.

 

“SIYEON GO!!”

 

She hesitates for a second. But run eventually when she see how sharp the gaze on her. And when she glance back, the real nightmare was right behind her.

 

“You’re the victim of the incident in the church two years ago, right?”

 

That stranger, man state casually. Offering her a small smile, while she just glancing at him slightly. Wipe the blood from the edge of her lips. Leaving another man, fainted on the ground after an exhausted fight between them. Just because that another man almost stole her food. Well, she poor. She should fight just to herself. Living in this cruel world.

 

“Did you ever wonder who did it, Lee Siyeon?”

 

She almost walk away. Leaving that man far behind her. Until those words escape to the air. Letting her automatically stop her steps. Turn around just to found that wide smile on him.

 

“Two years ago.. there’s a incident in the church. All the congregations found dead, along with the priest and sisters..”

 

That man state to the air. Leaning casually on the wall while his eyes watching that little girl swinging the knife from the air. Landed perfectly on the helpless guy under her. Tied under her, screams in silence.

 

“But.. there’s someone survived. Living it life like hell.. be like an animal with hate and revenge in her heart..”

 

His smile widely from ear to ear. Watching that little girl start to cut her prey into pieces. Separate it body and put each part of body in the plastic bag before she get up slowly, turn her head around. Staring blankly at that man behind her. Whispering a weak “I’m done” to the air. Letting that man just can breath out, still with a smile on his face.

 

“Two years ago. There’s an incident that somehow.. makes a heartless.. eventually born..”

 

He standing right in front of that girl. Smile widely after his words, before he slowly raised his hand. Patting that girl head, ignoring how thick the blood covered her.

 

“Good job, Siyeon.. now you’re ready..”

 

She wait so long for that words to coming out from him. And now, the time finally come to her. The time when she can release all her hatred,

Right to the one that makes her life like hell.

 

“What the ..”

 

That man just can smile. Watching that old man who got handcuffed on his own chair. Try to break free.

 

“THE YOU ARE DOING UHM TAEWOONG?!!”

 

That old man screams to the air. Staring sharply at that man who just can widen his smile, walking closer to him.

 

“Look.. Jung.. the plan kinda change..”

  

He state casually. Act guilty why rubbing the back of his neck, smiling towards that old man who still staring sharply at him.

 

“The you are talking about..”

 

That old man hissing, still with that sharp gaze. Earning a small laugh from that man who hardly place his sole between that old man thighs.

 

“Listen, the homeless you ask me to kill.. he already dead..”

 

That man state casually, with a warm smile on his face. Letting that old man just can curled his brows over the words.

 

“Just go straight to the point, Uhm Taewoong.”

 

Those words sounds so demanding makes that man can’t help but laugh. Pull his sole off and standing back. Gazing right to that old man.

 

“He die a few months ago.. someone kill him”

 

He smile in the end of his words. Noticing the confusion in those gaze of that old man, while he just shrugged his shoulders.

 

“Well, it means your request automatically expired. And then.. someone asking me to kill you. Ironic isn’t it?”

 

He lift the side of his lips. Staring directly at that old man who start to tense up on his own chair. Makes that man let out a laugh to the air a second later just by seeing that. Until he continued his words

 

“You don’t have to worry.. I refuse it”

 

He said it casually. With a smile on his face, makes that old man who see that can’t help but breath out. Feel relieved, somehow

  

“But..”

 

He continued, smile widely while turn around. Raised his hand to call that girl that been standing not far from them. Watching the scene since a few minutes ago.

 

“Who is she?”

 

That old man state, gazing at that girl who staring blankly at him. With a dark gaze that sure full of hate and the urge to kill.

 

“Well, she is..”

 

That man hanging his words with purpose in the air. Patting that girl shoulder repeatedly before he smiling to that old man.

 

“The one who’s gonna kill you”

 

Just after those words escape to the air. That man immediately released that old man from his chair, handing him a knife and leaving him with that girl just by himself. Told him if he should kill the girl first if he wants to live. And not forget, he told him who that girl truly are. Cause that girl is also one of those people that old man been searching for and wants to kill too. And to not forget, that old man was the one who caused the incident in the church tho. So, in the other words the two of them wants to kill each other.

Well,

He just let them be..

 

“How is it feel?”

 

“.. I don’t know..”

 

That man raised his eyebrows over those words. Turn his head to the side just to staring at that girl that been staring at her own hand the time she entered the car.

 

“So.. this is the traitor?”

 

“Please forgive me! I’m so sorry-“

 

“Release them..”

 

He state coldly. Walk out the room just to let those gate open the second he walk away. Letting those hungry dogs quickly rush to that poor guy. Biting him, tear his skin and part his body in any second. Makes that girl who just can watching the scene from afar can’t help but frozen.

 

“You been doing a very good job in such a young age, Siyeon.. I can’t be more proud of you”

 

That man smile widely towards her. Closing the small luggage that full of money on his desk before he get up from his chair, handing that girl that small luggage. Ignoring how blank she staring at that, along with those another gaze that absolutely staring right at her.

 

“He got you another job..”

 

That guy walk into her room. Throw the small brown envelope on her bed. Makes her slowly move her gaze from the television to the envelope.

 

“Are you okay?”

 

That guy asked her. Stopped her move immediately as she just pull the paper out of the envelope, makes her slowly turn her head to the side. Staring right into those eyes.

 

“What do you mean, Oh Jiho?”

 

She state coldly. Almost sounds too cold and calm for that guy ears. But he just shrugged it off as he sigh deeply. Feel annoyed with the way that girl calling him.

 

“Can you at least called me by uncle??”

 

That guy state. But what he got later just that girl seems like ignoring him. Read those papers carefully before she pull the photos out of the envelope. Observing the face of an old man..

Her target.

 

“He said, you don’t need to put on a blindfold anymore..”

 

That guy state from the back of the wheel. Glancing to that girl who sit on the backseat. Almost put the black cloth to covered her eyes, along with a headphone. Until that guy snapped.

 

“Why?”

 

She asked, staring right at that guy who slowly drive the car to the big gate. Waiting a few seconds until that big gate eventually opens, showing her a beautiful view of forest and the sea far ahead. The view she doesn’t realize was there cause she always been told to covered her eyes and ears since she willing to come with that man.

 

“Well.. you can say.. you’re his favorite now”

 

That guy state, watching that girl that seems amazed by the view of nature from the window. Curved a tiny smile on her face.

 

“Where’s Oh Jiho?”

 

“He got a job..”

 

That stranger guy state casually. Not even bother to glancing back at her who just get into the car

 

“Anyway, I’m gonna be your foster father soon..”

 

That words escape to the air out of sudden. Kinda unexpected as she immediately curled her brows. Totally in confused and wonder.

 

“Foster father?”

 

“Yeah.. you know we need to socialize too. But don’t worry, you can have all the apartment by yourself, I rarely come to Korea anyway..”

 

That man said casually, still not even bother to glancing back at her who just can nod her head. Before her gaze fully on that guy once these words escape from his lips.

 

“I’m Park Yoochun, by the way..”

 

“Where’s Yoochun?”

 

“Dead..”

 

She state casually. Take her hands off of her luggage just to carried by those guys who immediately exited the room. Leaving her alone with that old man who just can raised his eyebrows over her words.

 

“Dead?”

 

“There’s foreigners mafia.. and they’re kinda good”

 

“I see..”

 

He nod his head repeatedly over those words before he suddenly gazing at that girl. Sharply staring into those eyes who just stare blankly at him. Not even bother with that strange gaze. And once he see that, he knows there’s nothing they need to talk right now.

 

“Anyway.. Nick dead..”

 

“.. Oh..”

 

That man slowly turn his head to the side. Found that straight face of that girl who just staring at nowhere.

 

“I heard you brought someone again..”

 

That man state immediately. Not even wasting a single time once that girl walk to his room. Standing right in the middle.

 

“I can say that you choose the right one to brought here, Siyeon.. Yoobin and Yoohyeon surely good..”

 

That man smile in satisfied towards that girl. Glancing to those money inside the bag. The rewards of Yoohyeon and Yoobin’s work.

 

“We are gonna get out of here?!”

 

That tall girl state in surprise, staring at the older who just lean casually on the door frame. Nod slightly.

 

“Woah, so Kim Junsu will be my foster father and Kim Jaejoong will be Yoobin’s father and Park Yoochun will be your father!”

 

That tall girl state, sounds really excited. Makes the other girl can’t help but staring at her in annoyed. Closing her book a second later.

 

“Why you’re so excited?”

 

The other girl state. Makes that tall girl immediately snapped her head to the side,

“What kind of question is that?? Yo, Lee Yoobin my friend.. We’re technically trapped inside here unless we got a job to do. This place seems like a prison and now we’re gonna get out of here and do whatever we want! Aren’t that makes you happy?”

 

The tall girl state, raised both of her hands on the air. Meanwhile the other girl just staring coldly at her,

 

“I’m not interested”

 

“You’re indeed weird..”

 

The tall girl pouting. Staring at the other girl in annoyed once she see the other start to open her book again. Reading whatever. Makes the older among them can’t help but shake her head slowly, until she turn around. Leaving the two by themselves.

 

“It seems like you disappointed towards Yoohyeon and Yoobin..”

 

That voice suddenly echoed inside her room. Makes her immediately stop her hands that packing her stuffs a second later,

 

“What do you mean Oh Jiho?”

 

She state coldly. Not even bother to glance at that guy who just can sigh heavily before he decided to walk into the room. Closing the door behind.

 

“Cut the crap. I know you’ve been pretending all this time..”

 

That guy state, loud enough to makes that girl stop her move for the second time. But this time, that girl eventually turn her head to the side. Staring at that guy in annoyed.

 

“You want to be free from him, don’t you?”

  

She harden her jaw out of sudden. Walking on the sidewalk while clenching her fist. Hearing those words still echoed inside her mind since a few months ago. The moment when she get out of that place and start to live by herself in a small apartment.

 

“You want to fight him. But you scared. Yet, you can’t put your hope into Yoohyeon nor Yoobin, cause they enjoy their life a way better than you..”

 

She gritted her teeth, lowered her head totally in annoyed. But those words keep ringing inside her head. Bothering her with the fact if that guy named Oh Jiho absolutely read her like an open book. Knowing her by her true self, not the mask she put on her face

 

“People call you heartless. But actually.. you’re not”

 

She punch the wall beside her just after those last words come into her mind. Turn her gaze dark within a second. Staring sharply at nowhere.

  

“That Oh Jiho.. really..”

 

She muttered under her breath. Lifting the side of her lips. Smiling weirdly. Feel those anger start to creeping inside her heart, until her eyes catch those guys pulling a girl into a dark alley. Letting that odd smile appeared on her face.

 


“Look, I don’t want to interrupt you guys. But I’m really bored. And I think you’re enough to shoo my boredom away”


She state casually, walking closer to those guys who exploring that stranger girl body with their dirty hands. Makes her can’t help but feel disgusted by the sight.

 

“Who you think you are girl? You think we’ll scared if you bring a knife? Well, I suddenly have a good idea in my mind.. how about you just join us? We can have fun together. Cause I think she is definitely not enough for the five of us”

 

One of the guys state. Makes her just lift the side of her lips. Spinning that new sharp knife she just bought from the convenience store earlier.

And not even planning to waste any of times, she immediately smirk widely. Rush to that guy that automatically be her first target. And not even hesitate for a second she quickly swing her knife on the air, slit that poor guy throat until she grab another guy and stab him on his abdomen. Many times, before she stab the first guy on his neck this time. Making sure he meet the dead before everything’s turn dark. And just like that. Until those guys are no longer breathing, makes her immediately turn to that girl. Just to found her almost lost her balance. If just there’s no wall behind her.

 


“Geez.. seems like you just a victim of them..”

She state deeply, lean closer to that girl as she sneak her hand on the latter waist. Put a knife on her neck. Just to notice how blank that girl expression along with those gaze that seems unfocused.

But she doesn’t care, she just wants to distract her mind from those anger inside her. That’s why she raised her knife right now. Ready to let the sharp shining thing meet that stranger girl milky skin. Ignoring that hand that slowly reach towards her. Grab on her shirt..

It was until that girl suddenly let out a small voice from her lips.

 

“Lee Siyeon..”

 

And she doesn’t know what got into her. She doesn’t know why her hand suddenly stop midway in the air just because that stranger girl suddenly say her name. With that brightest smile on her face.


 

“How..”


“Don’t pretend that you forgot what happened yesterday”

She state coldly to the that girl who just can blink her eyes blankly. Glancing around her room while she been questioning herself.

Deeply, inside her mind since last night..

‘Why I brought her home?’

 

“I don’t know where is your house.. so I brought you to my apartment”


She state casually, lean on the frame door while cross her arms on her chest. Staring at that girl that again just blink her eyes. Until that loud scream that surely can makes her deaf in instant release to the air. Makes her immediately regret to brought that girl to her apartment.

 


“I.. I’m sorry for earlier..”

 

“It’s fine..”

 


She reply shortly. Not even bother to glancing at that girl as she staring around her surroundings. Observing that big house ahead quietly.

 


“Want to come inside?”

 


“No thanks. I take my leave now..”

 


And with that, she immediately turn away. Walking from that big house with something bothering her mind. Still questioning herself with what she is doing right now. But later, she just shrugged it off. Thinking that, this day will be forgotten by her. But unfortunately, without she ever expected. This day will surprisingly be the day that change her life in the future.

Once that girl get into her life. Once that girl showed up in front of her almost everyday. Once that girl unknowingly makes her comfortable. Forgot who she actually is. Even without she realized it.

 

“One word.. and I’ll take your everything”

She doesn’t know what got into her that night. It was Christmas, and she didn’t know why. But she wants that girl. All to herself, she wants that girl really bad. Her touch.. everything about that girl. And yeah she got it that night. Got that girls everything. And strange, it just makes her wants that girl more. In her embrace. Be close with her.

She wants her.

But she knows she is not supposed to feel this.

 


“I failed..”

 

That voice breaking, get inside her ears. Makes her frozen immediately just by hearing that. She can feel the urge inside her. She can hear how loud her heart screaming that girl name. But she didn’t do anything..

 


“Can I ask you something?”

 

Lie. If she says those words not making her scare so bad. It’s a lie if she says, she doesn’t want that girl. She wants her. She wants her to stay. Be with her. Be beside her. But she doesn’t want to show it.

 


“Our deal will end soon. And like what I said.. I will get lost out of your sight. You will never meet me anymore, even on these road”

 

That laugh. She can feel how force that laugh is. She can feel how painful it sounds. And just by hearing it.. somehow it hurts her too.

 


“It’s almost the time, huh?”

 

That voice remind her. Makes her tense up on her spot and deep inside.. she hope the time to just stop right now. She hope the time to stop, so she can stuck with that girl forever. So she can be with her forever.

 

“Can I kiss you for the last time? If you don’t mind..”

 

How long that girl will makes her scared like this? Just by those words, and the last time thing..

Why it makes her so scared? Why those words somehow bring too much pain into her chest. And why the sight of that girl staring at her. Smiling like that, can hurts her? Why?

 

‘Stay..’

 

She really really scared. She wants that girl. She wants that girl to stay with her.

She wants that girl.

 

“I love you..”

 

She gritted her teeth in annoyed. She exhale her breath sharply. Grabbing onto the fence so hard with that letter between. Letting that voice echoed inside her mind. Letting those painful feeling creeping into her. Ignoring how loud the fireworks exploding in the sky

 

“I love you.. I really do”

 

She feel like a mess. She seems like a mess. And right.. she’s a mess. Cause even after that night, she still found herself wants that girl. Hoping that girl will show up out of nowhere inside her apartment. Just like that girl used to do.

She hoping.. Hoping this is just a lie.

 

“Why.. why..”

 

She whisper weakly. Smile mockingly to herself. Resting her head on the edge of the bed. Feeling numb, empty, and hopeless. And that night, it’s the first time she cry. Crying cause of that girl. Cause she missed her so much. And the pain in her chest.. it just hard to deal. It hurts, but she keep going forward. She wants to see that girl, but that girl didn’t let her. And yet, she chose to obey her. Obey every single words that girl write on the letter.

She wait, wait and waiting. Waiting for the time to bring her back to that girl. Waiting for the world to bring them together again. Hoping the time will come soon, but then.. days turn into weeks. Weeks turn into months. Months turn into years. She is hopeless, but still hoping. She wants to give up, but still keep it going..

Cause she knows, she love that girl.. too much.

 

“Siyeon, isn’t it?”

 

That voice come into her ears. Distracted her automatically from the big picture that placed on the wall. Let her gaze landed perfectly on that man that smile warmly to her. Walking inside the room. Closing the door behind.

 

“Guess.. I’m your target right now..”

 

That man state casually, walking to his desk while she just can staring at him in disbelief. Feels so confused at the same time. Slightly, scared.

 

“If you wondering how can I know your name.. well, I think that picture you’ve been staring was explained it enough”

 

He smile, letting his gaze move to that big picture near her. Letting her notice those painful gaze on that man eyes.

 

“I love them so much.. my wife, is the kindest person I ever met.. my daughters.. they are angels..”

 

She keep quiet. Letting that man having the time by himself. Smile meaningfully towards that big picture.

 

“But.. reality is cruel”

 

He said. Take a seat and lean back. Still not taking his eyes off of that big picture that showing him a picture of his whole family. Smile brightly to the camera, even though it was a formal picture one. But he still can feel the warmth from that time. The warmth that still remains, and hope it will last long. Hope the time can bring him the same warmth he missed the most.

But again, reality is cruel..

 

“Both of my daughters.. they are sick.. the kindest girls I ever know.. with demons they never deserve..”

 

He smile bitterly. Staring towards his daughters faces in the picture. Until he move his gaze, landed on her. Found her also staring at the picture that was taken before that certain girl, went to Japan.

 

“I never meant to take her away from you.. but I should-“

 

“What happened to her?”

 

She snapped, turn her head to that man. With anger, and pains visible on her eyes. She knows, from the way that man talk to her. She knows if that man know what happened between her and that girl.
His daughter.

 

“She has mental issues.. and it’s getting worse after those guys you killed did the thing to her..”

 

That man breath heavily, feels hard to say the words. Meanwhile in the other hand, she just can shut . Knowing those flashbacks suddenly rush into her mind.

 

“She has depression, anxiety, she also try to kill herself once.. and sadly, I just know it after she almost die a few years ago..”

 

Those words rolled perfectly from his lips. Leaving her speechless on her spot. Too surprised to knowing that girl worst unexpected condition.

 

“I’m very grateful she met you, Lee Siyeon.. I once feel grateful cause I know you can calm her down. You makes her keep going.. but it just before I found out who you actually are..“

 

That man state in a weak voice. Different from that girl who immediately tense up on her spot. Feels so scared over her thought. Assumed that man told that certain girl who she actually is, and yet that man confirmed her thoughts. But..

 

“She knows who you actually are.. and yet, she still went to see you.. you cured her, somehow. And when you’re not around she is not herself.. but later it became toxic. The thing you have between.. you know what I mean right?”

Than man glancing at her. Still with that smile on his face. The smile that absolutely leaving her clueless and confused. What that smile means?

And yet the answer comes right after.

 

“You suppose to kill me, right?”

 

“B-but.. sir-“

 

“You have no time..”

 

That man walk closer to her, reach for the gun on her hand. And even before she can react that man quietly grab her hand. Placing the edge of the gun on his forehead.

 

“I’m tired Siyeon..”

 

He smiling again. Staring right into her eyes. Let her see how desperate he is. How tired he is right now. How heavy the burden he have on his back. And in the other hand, she just too distracted by the footsteps outside the room. Along with the voice that keep shouting Daddy outside, until..

 

“Dadd-“

 

And before she realized what is really happening, that loud sounds suddenly echoed in the entire room. Cutting the other words. Bring her back to her sense just to found that man laying helplessly on the floor with blood spreading all over.

 

“She’s back..”

 

She frozen on her spot. Widened her eyes, staring down at that man dead body. While those words that just coming from that man earlier start to spinning inside her head.

 

“Her memories got erased, but I know you can take care of her this time..“

 

She start to feel dizzy. Her head start to spinning, and those words keep echoed inside her head until she heard a loud groan from her side. Just to found a girl that younger than her seems struggling over herself. Scream in pain while pulling her hair.

 

“..and my younger daughter too.. she has dissociative identity disorder.. but I know you can bear with her”

 

She staring at that girl. Found that sharp gaze send directly to her, makes her realize if that girl right now, isn’t what herself was once she see that girl rush to her. With the urge to kill visible on her eyes.

 

‘.. I’m a killer..’

 

“Cause I’ve been watching you this whole times. Despite of people calling you heartless.. I know, you’re not even close to it..”

 

‘But, I’m a killer..’

 

“I don’t know what you will do.. but I know you will do your best.. of course with your own way. I trust you Siyeon..”

 

‘But.. I’m a killer!!’

 

“Cause I know.. you love Bora so much. Please take care of her and my youngest daughter..”

 

She grab the back of that girl neck. Slamming her on the desk while breathing heavily, placing her gun right beside the girl head who struggled to break free. But she knows that girl start to feel exhausted just after their fight awhile ago. Even with her mind distracted by that man words. She still too good for that girl to handle.

 

“Hey kid..”

 

‘With my own way..’

 

“I give you choices..”

 

She staring down at her. Watching her tied on that chair in the room. Along with those guys that been watching over her. But once she and that old man entered the room. It suddenly feel a way too empty. Cause there’s just the three of them right now.

 

“Junsu kidnapped her yesterday.. even after what happened.. he still wanted us to kill those girls.. He surely too lazy to get his own hand dirty”

 

That old man state casually, not even earning a quick glance from her as she just staring at that girl in front of her. Quietly observing her.

 

“I have to go now, we talk later”

 

That old man pat her shoulder a few times before exiting the room. Let her be alone by herself with just that girl in the room.

 

“Where have you been?”

 

It comes from that girl. Slowly lifting her head up just to staring at her. With those empty gaze, that also meet with her own empty gaze. Once she notice the bruises and the dry blood in the edge of that girl lips.

 

“I promise.. I’ll finish thi-“

 

“What happened between you and Bora?”

 

The question cutting her words. Makes her kinda taken aback by that. But she quickly recovered even before that girl can notice it.

 

“There’s nothing happened-“

 

“LIAR!”

 

That girl suddenly shout at her. Sharply staring at her, just to makes her notice those gaze that full of pain visible in those eyes.

 

“SHE SEEMS LIKE WANTS TO KILL YOU SO BAD! WHAT’S WITH THAT?! WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO HER?!”

 

She can feel how desperate and hurting that girl just by the voice. But at this time, she is too tired to deal with her. She knows explaining things to that girl won’t make any better.

 

“Gahyeon.. I’ll finish this.. just wait a-“

 

“You love her.. right? Why you do this to her?”

 

It comes out perfectly from that girl lips. And she doesn’t know why but she found herself swallow hard over these words. Along with that slight pain that becomes more clearer to her to feel.

 

“It’s for her own good..”

 

“It’s not..”

 

That girl shaking her head, disagreeing with her. But she just stay quiet, staring at that girl who staring back at her.

 

“You can just fight for her.. like Yoohyeon-unnie and Dami-unnie.. you can stay with her.. but why?”

 

“Gahyeon, you don’t understand-“

 

“THEN EXPLAIN! MAKES ME UNDERSTAND! WHY YOU LET GO OF MY SISTER?! WHY?!”

 

That girl shout in anger. Feels so mad over that girl and her unknown reason that makes her leave her sister behind. But later, what that girl got is just she staring at her with those unreadable gaze. And before that girl can ask what those gaze means. The door behind suddenly open, revealing a man that casually walks inside. Let that girl just can widened her eyes once she notice that man face is a way too familiar to her..

 

“Dad..”

 

—————

 

“Makes sure to not getting drunk..”

 

“I won’t”

 

Sua answer weakly, playing that glass of beer on her hand with an empty gaze. Staring at nowhere, with her phone beside her ear. Just to makes her, hear that heavy sigh a second later.

 

“Be safe. And go home quickly.. I love you..”

 

She curved a tiny smile on her face when she heard that. But the smile has no meaning, along with these words

 

“Love you too Minji..”

 

She said that, a second before both of them decided to ended the call. Letting her just staring down at the liquor, while placing her own phone beside the other phone..

Gahyeon’s phone.

 

“She has dissociative identity disorder..”

 

That old man said weakly, lower his head as he feel guilty somehow. Meanwhile in the other hand, she just staring at him. Siting face to face in the dining room, with gun on her hand. Under the table.

 

“Anything else?”

 

She said coldly. Staring right into those eyes that staring back at her. And in just one glance she can notice how surprised that old man with her sudden change of behavior. But she doesn’t care. Gahyeon been missing for a week, and she nor Changmin, nor Yunho, Hayoung, Handong, Jiu, Dami or Yoohyeon have no idea where she probably is. It’s frustrating.

 

“Unnie, you said we here just to looking for the information but you-“

 

Hayoung immediately step forward, but even before she can get near to Sua and that old man. A gun suddenly aimed, directly to her. Letting her just can hold her breath once her gaze meet that empty gaze that just glance slightly at her before it landed back on that old man.

 

“Anything else, Mr. Oh?”

 

She asked one more time. Putting emphasis in every single words that come out from her lips. Staring at that old man who feels kinda threatened under those gaze.

 

“Gahyeon.. she psychopath..”

 

It comes out in such a low voice from his lips. But it’s enough to be heard by her who still put on that straight face.. While in the other hand, Hayoung just can staring at her. Wondering how can she be that calm, but later she remembered. She is not that Sua she been known.

She’s not that Bora anymore.

 

“For a butler.. and a personal doctor.. you surely know a lot..”

 

She said coldly. Get up from the chair, putting the gun back on her leather jacket. Ignoring how breathless that old man be after got shot on his shoulder. Letting Hayoung immediately rush to him, treating him as fast as she can. But still,

 

“WHAT THE YOU HAVE DONE?!”

 

Hayoung shout towards Sua. Absolutely in anger after watching Sua, shot that old man that is definitely her father, right in front of her eyes. And unfortunately, what she got later is Sua aimed her gun on her. Ready to pull off the trigger in any second just if Jiu not suddenly show up. Wrapping her arms around Hayoung and that old man. Meanwhile, Yoohyeon throw the gun off of Sua’s hand. Just to makes her realize if guns also aimed towards her. From, Changmin, Yunho, and Dami.

 

“You’ve gone too far, Bora..”

 

That voice get into her ears. But it doesn’t take any effect on her as she just bent down a bit. Grabbing that gun back on her hand. Noticing Jiu quickly grab Yoohyeon’s arm, just to ask her to back off.

 

“Bora.. I know it’s hard for you. It’s hard for me too, for us.. but this is not right..”

 

She found that gaze on her. Send directly from Jiu who staring at her with the saddest gaze she ever found on her. But still it doesn’t take any effect. Instead, she just laugh. Mockingly.

 

“It seems like you know what happened to her too, huh? Is it only me that have no idea what happened to her? ! SHE IS MY SISTER AND I’M THE LATEST PERSON TO KNOW WHAT IS REALLY HAPPENING TO HER?!”

 

She shout in anger and frustration. Raising her gun towards Jiu who quickly dragged behind by Yoohyeon. Protecting her, makes her who see that just can lift the side of her lips. Smile bitterly.

 

“ you-“

 

“Gahyeon never want you to know.. just like you, Bora..”

 

That old man state, cough in the end of his words as he lets his daughter to take out the bullet of his shoulder.

 

“She doesn’t want to makes you feel bad.. just because of her.. it’s the same as you, right? You won’t let anyone know what happened to you.. even I can tell there’s no ones know what happened to you in this room except m-“

 

“SHUT UP!”

 

She shout. Cutting that old man words, as she widened her eyes in anger. Feel the heat slowly creeping on the back of her eyes

 

“You know too much about me! You know too much about Gahyeon! And you.. you know who the mastermind behind all of this.. don’t you?”

 

She let her voice sinking, not even care with those surprised faces around her. Along with those gaze that automatically landed on that old man,

 

“You know who is it.. that’s why you-“

 

“You can’t fight him, Bora..”

 

That old man state, ignoring those gaze on him as he just staring right at Sua who absolutely staring back with the gaze that full of disappointment. But he doesn’t care.

 

“Let Siyeon handle this..”

 

That come into her mind. Makes her gritted her teeth, absolutely in annoyed once her mind suddenly fly to what happened earlier. The only reason she ended up here, drinking this liquor and ignore how spinning her head right now. Until she can notice someone existence beside her. Just to makes her move her gaze to the side, found that girl grabbing a guy’s hand that almost touched her.

 

“I’ll take you home..”

 

—————

 

Jiu siting on the couch. Staring blankly at the floor. With a television that showing some Christmas event on it. Knowing it just three days away from Christmas day. And the weather surely becomes colder each day. But beside that, her mind is too busy with what happened these days. The facts.. everything..

 

“You know who caused this??”

 

Jiu snapped her head, staring at that old man who just can sigh heavily. Siting on the chair with those people surrounding him after Sua leave. And yet, he just nod as an answer.

 

“H-how can you not tell us??”

 

“Cause there’s no use to tell you.. he is too hard for you to handle. And the only way to avoid him is just hiding..”

 

He answered the question casually, ignoring how shocked Hayoung staring at him,

 

“S-so.. this is why?? This is why you suggested them to change their name? And create a lies? To hide them from whoever the mastermind behind all of this??”

 

And after those words escape from Hayoung lips, that old man just nod his head again as an answer. Leaving his own daughter looks so frustrated a second later. Grabbing her own hair.

 

“That’s why Bora-unnie act like that.. she knows you know..”

 

Hayoung said weakly. Earning a quick glance from that old man before a heavy sigh escape from his lips.

 

“Don’t hate Bora..”

 

“I won’t.. I understand her..”

 

Hayoung reply shortly, reaching for a chair and sit. Still grabbing her own hair, meanwhile in the other hand Jiu and the others just can lowered their head. Staring at nowhere.

This.. Surely becomes too much..

 

“Minji..”

 

She startled on her seat. Snapped her head to the side just to found that silver haired girl standing not far from her,

 

“O-oh, Yoohyeon? I didn’t notice you. Why you still awake?”

 

She stutters at her words. Noticing how desperate she is sounds as she just realized that she been placing her palms on her temple. Looks so frustrated, and yet she is.

 

“You need to sleep..”

 

Yoohyeon state softly, walking towards Jiu who just lift her head. Staring up at that silver haired girl when she standing near her. Offering Yoohyeon a tiny smile.

 

“I’m waiting for Bora.. if you want to go first, then-“

 

“Siyeon will watch over her.. don’t worry..”

 

Yoohyeon cutting her words, out of sudden. Leaving her frown by those sudden words that just coming out from that silver haired girl lips. Along with those burning feeling of anger that slowly creeping into her. Once she heard that name.

 

“S-Siyeon?? How can she-“

 

“She knows what she is doing.. now you should go to sleep.. you’ve been lack of sleep these days..”

 

Yoohyeon state. Noticing the change in Jiu’s eyes once she mentioned about Siyeon. But later those gaze also change again, full of disappointment and scared.

 

“You know something.. don’t you?”

 

Jiu smile bitterly, staring right into Yoohyeon eyes that just can staring back before she sighing heavily..

 

“Minji-“

 

Yoohyeon raised her hand. Try to reach for Jiu. But even before she can lay her hand on the older, the latter quickly slapped her hand away. Makes her surprise by that, and found Jiu move away from her. Staring at her with those weird gaze.

 

“Minji-“

 

“You know something.. don’t you?”

 

Yoohyeon can notice how hard Jiu biting her lips. Trembling, try so hard to hold the tears back. And yet, Yoohyeon just stay silent until she let out another sigh. Nodding slowly. Leaving Jiu widened her eyes in disbelief a second later, feels so hurt by the sight.

 

“I.. I can’t believe this.. first, Mr. Oh.. then you-“

 

“Trust me. I never meant to hiding things from you-“

 

“BUT YOU DID!”

 

Jiu shout in anger, staring sharply at Yoohyeon who feel kinda taken aback by that. Meanwhile in the other hand, Jiu immediately surprised with herself. Realize that she just let out her frustration directly towards Yoohyeon. But later, she is too tired to apologize.

 

“Go to sleep, Yoohyeon.. please..”

 

Jiu lower her head again. Avoiding Yoohyeon’s eyes as she knows she can’t bear to looking into those eyes at this exact moment. And Yoohyeon knows that. But for sure, she won’t obey Jiu’s words this time.

 

“I can’t go now. I need to solved the code of coordinates, Siyeon gave me.. and..”

 

Yoohyeon hanging her own words in the air. Decided to take a seat beside Jiu who still avoiding her gaze, but Yoohyeon not giving up as she bravely wrapped her arms around Jiu. Placing her face deep onto Jiu’s crook of neck.

 

“I’m not gonna leave you behind, if that’s what makes you scared and act like this..”

 

Yoohyeon whisper softly. Squeeze closer to Jiu who still shut . Wondering how can Yoohyeon know her better, and read her like an open book.

 

“You said Siyeon gave you code of coordinates, what coordinates?”

 

“Still in progress..”

 

“Then..”

 

Jiu slowly turn around, facing Yoohyeon who immediately straighten herself. Loosen up, as she staring deeply into Jiu’s eyes. Knowing what the things Jiu wants to ask her.

 

“Trust Siyeon.. she is doing this for us.. for Bora-“

 

“But she leave her.. why is that?? Why she didn’t choose to stay??”

 

Jiu sounds so desperate. And Yoohyeon can notice it so clearly, even she can notice how teary Jiu’s eyes suddenly became,

 

“She can’t. If she stay. Something bad more than this.. definitely about to happen..”

 

“Then! Why you didn’t stop her?! Are you even care about her?! Why she doing this to Bora?! She can stay just like you and Dami! But why-“

 

“I tried, Minji.. We tried. We tried to stop her and ask her to stay.. But someone should finish this.. and she choose herself..”

 

The end of Yoohyeon’s words sinking to the air, makes Jiu notice how desperate Yoohyeon too at this situation,

 

“What actually happened? ..Would you tell me?”

 

Jiu raised her hands. Cupped Yoohyeon’s face on her palms, so she can staring at those eyes better than before. Noticing how frustrated and stressed the other girl, just like her. And yet, Yoohyeon just stay quiet. Letting her mind fly to the time when Siyeon asked her along with Dami to meet her. The time before she suddenly gone few months ago.

 

“What do you mean with you’ll gonna finish this by yourself?”

 

Yoohyeon staring at Siyeon. Try to makes sure if she didn’t get it wrong with what the older girl means by her words. And yet, what she got was just Siyeon glancing at her. Slightly..

 

“It meant like it means..”

 

Siyeon answer shortly, took a quick sip from her can beer meanwhile Yoohyeon still staring at her. With those unreadable gaze.

 

“But.. you know.. we can get through this together.. just stay.. you love Sua-unnie, don’t you? We can make it! We can-“

 

“Yoohyeon let’s be realistic..”

 

Yoohyeon shut immediately, just after Siyeon cutting her words and sigh. Slowly turn her head to the side just to staring at her,

 

“There should be someone to finish this.. I can’t tag you along..”

 

“But, why?!”

 

Yoohyeon shout in frustration, step towards Siyeon who just can curves a tiny smile on her face before she turn her head away. Staring at the darkness,

 

“You will die if you come with me.. not only you, but Jiu too..”

 

“We can protect them! I can protect her-“

  

“You’ve been quiet for a long time, Yoobin. You must be get it what I mean, right?”

 

Siyeon cut Yoohyeon’s words, once again. Just to letting their attention now fully on the youngest among them,

 

“Yeah.. I get it-“

 

“Wait, what?! Yoobin-“

 

“Look, Yoohyeon.. Siyeon is right. There’s should be someone to finish this. We can’t suddenly show up out of nowhere and kill them. We’ll be the one that gonna die if we do that. And among all of us.. she have the highest chance to finish this, cause Uhm Taewoong surely not gonna kill her right away. And if we come with her, Uhm Taewoong absolutely gonna kill us. Cause we’re nothing. We’re nothing for him. He don’t need us, cause he got Siyeon..”

 

Dami state, explains a whole things that Siyeon try to say. But still, Yoohyeon refuse to understand. She just doesn’t want to let the older take care of this by herself. It’s too much. Siyeon been suffering this whole time.. but..

 

“Listen, until now.. we never know where our headquarters is. But Siyeon knows. Uhm Taewoong never let us know, but he let Siyeon knows.. don’t you understand just by this?”

 

Dami sounds so desperate, and Yoohyeon notice that. She knows how much Dami wants Siyeon to stay with them, but she doesn’t want to be selfish. Cause she knows their selfishness just gonna cause trouble to the one they care the most,

 

“Still, I can’t let her take care of this by herself. We’re the part of this too!”

 

“But there’s nothing we can do!”

  

Dami shout at her. Makes her realize how much this situation caused Dami stress. And yet, Yoohyeon still being stubborn. Until Siyeon snapped,

 

“I’ll do this for you.. for us..”

 

“But, you just gonna hurt her..”

 

Siyeon smile bitterly, staring at the drugs she got from Dami who decided to look away. Tired with the situation they are in.

 

“It’s better to makes her hate me and tell her to kill me instead of let you meddle into this, and makes everyone hate me..”

 

Siyeon said weakly. While Yoohyeon just can gritted her teeth in annoyed, but later she just sigh heavily. Staring at the older with a saddest eyes she ever had.

 

“She erase Sua-unnie memories about her feelings and told her to kill her when they meet. That’s her plan. Cause if she can’t finish this at least, she knows Sua-unnie won’t just sit and do nothing. But, if she can finish this.. you know how guilty she is right?”

 

Yoohyeon lowered her head. Done telling Jiu all the reasons of why Sua act weird these past months, out of sudden.

It’s Siyeon’s plan.

 

“So.. this is because of guilt?”

 

It’s coming from Jiu’s lips, but Yoohyeon just nod her head as an answer before she decided to open . Add some other explanation..

 

“She said, if we come with her. She can’t guarantee if we will be safe. And she doesn’t want you or Dong-unnie to hate her. That’s why she decided to go alone, cause if she die.. at least it’s not gonna hurts all of us that much. But..”

 

“Bora..”

 

That name coming out so weak from Jiu’s lips, as she slowly lowered her head. Feels so exhausted, but can’t do nothing. Feels so hurt but can’t do anything and yet she wants to cry right now. Cause the cruel reality really take a toll in her cousins life. It’s like the life not gonna let her breath or just take a short break. It’s so cruel.

Why Bora can’t live happily with the one she love even just for once?

 

“So.. that’s what happened..”

 

Handong state weakly. Carefully close the door of her room after she been eavesdropping the conversation between Jiu and Yoohyeon. Letting her find the answer from the question she just asked to Dami,

 

“She take all the things to herself. By herself.. she think it’s better to let the one she love hurts instead of everyone?”

 

Her voice start to breaking. And Dami know it’s the sign for her to come near. Wrapped her arms around the older, letting her cry on her shoulder.

 

“What kind of heartless is that..”

 

—————

 

“Dad..”

 

She stare blankly at the floor. Letting her mind keep repeating that certain episode in her head. Letting her looks like a zombie, siting there with a guy standing near the door. Watching over her. But she doesn’t care.

 

“Funny how you call me dad.. but too bad, I’m not your dad”

 

That old man face come across her mind. Along with that weird smile on his face. Makes her feel her body start to tense up once she remembered how that old man laugh at her,

 

“I don’t even planned to involve you since you’re not a Kim anymore.. but guess you can be a good bait to kill those Kim’s..”

 

Her eyes start to getting dark each second. Along with her body that start to relax compare to how clouded her mind out of sudden.

 

“You want to know why I want to kill those Kim’s so bad?”

 

She can feel how empty she is right now. And yet it makes her frustrated. She doesn’t know why. But she knows, she needs to do something. And yet before she can realize what happened. She find herself just pinned that guy down. Breaks his neck between her arms.

 

“Cause..”

 

She weakly walking to the door. Put her palms on the wall as a support. But despite of how tired she is. That strange urge keep her going.

 

“Cause my twin took everything’s from me..”

 

And for sure, the face of that old man surely be the main reason she keep going.

 

—————

 

“This..”

 

Yoohyeon widened her eyes in disbelief. Slowly take off her glasses as she still can’t take her eyes off of her laptop screen. And it’s the same as Changmin, until he immediately get up from the couch. Leaving Jiu confused by that, just before Yoohyeon suddenly snapped.

 

“I found Gahyeon’s location..”

 

It needs three days to solved the code of coordinates Siyeon gave to them. It needs ten days to makes them find where Gahyeon is. And it needs ten days to fully change Gahyeon to someone else.

 

Again.

 

“I’ll take you home..”

 

That voice suddenly come across her mind. But she decided to just ignore it as she prepare herself to get going. Checking her gun and takes as much bullets as she can,

 

“You lucky..”

 

She raised her hands. Aiming her gun to herself in the mirror. Noticing how dark, empty but sharp her gaze is right now. With the urge that slowly burning inside her.

 

“I promise I’ll kill you next time..”

 

She staring at herself. With those images keep spinning in her head. Ignoring it, even though she start to feel weird once she can heard those strange voice that keep telling her if it’s wrong.

But again, she just ignored it as she pull the trigger off. Letting the bullet breaks the mirror in front of her. Letting that weird smile that full of satisfaction curved on her face..

 

“I’ll makes sure I won’t running out of bullet to kill you, Lee Siyeon..”

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

To be continued....