Wendy and JooHyun walked around the river near restaurant after their dinner, the spring air make Wendy tighten her coat. They walk quietly alongside the river, each breath they take create white haze in the air with full moon decorate the night sky. JooHyun walk to one of the bench near the river and sit there, signaling Wendy with patting the spot beside her. The young girl smile and sit beside JooHyun, they stay quiet for a few minutes to enjoy each other presence once again after many years, hoping that the time will stop moving and finally let them enjoy the feeling they keep all this time. JooHyun took a vintage camera from her pocke and with a glance Wendy know, it is the camera they used at the LP store back then. Unusual warmth suddenly creeping inside Wendy chest, remembering the kiss they shared back then, the bitter-sweet kiss that always linger inside her head.

“You still keep that thing?” Wendy asked smiling at the older girl, who still holding the camera,

“Of course, why wouldn’t I?” JooHyun asked, tilted her head. Wendy brust into laughter at JooHyun cuteness,  even though the older girl already 28 but her youth is eternal. JooHyun barely change since the last time Wendy saw her in university, except for she’s more mature and distant now. JooHyun still full of mystery that made her curious, pieces of puzzles that she really wanted to solve, and a piece of her life she looking for,

“It’s really old, I will be surprised if its still working”  Wendy said while laughing, JooHyun lift her eyebrows and point the camera to Wendy, ready to take a picture,

*Click*

A picture is taken before Wendy could react, with a few seconds the camera start printing the picture.

“Its still working, don’t underestimate the old guy” JooHyun said and show Wendy her work. Wendy look at the photo and laughing, her face is blank and look tired, but she’s smiling, ‘It’s been awhile since I smile like that’ Wendy thought and a weird warmth creep up inside her chest, the usual beautifl daffodils stop hurting her lungs, she’s happy..

“Can I keep it?” JooHyun asked, still holding the photo. The young girl noded and smile, slowly her eyes start to get teary. JooHyun keep the picture inside her pocket and look up, her smile turn into a frown when she saw Wendy, she’s speechless to see the younger girl in urge to cry, JooHyun know it’s her fault, she’s the one that made this beautiful angel cry. JooHyun wipe tears that starting to fall, her heart aches seeing the girl hurt when she’s the one who promised to protect her, she promised to not let anyone hurt her, but she’s the one who hurt her.. Her love of life, her angel, her Wendy..

“I’m sorry.. I-i can’t keep my promise, after this time.. I-“ Wendy said, but JooHyun shake her head,

“No.. I’m sorry.. I hurt you, when I want to protect you.. My pride and ambition get the best of me, make me lose you.. Please forgive me Wendy..” JooHyun said, she can’t say how much she want to apologize to Wendy, how she can’t keep her own promise not to hurt the girl, and they way she leave her then enter her life again, she feel like a jerk try to disturb Wendy’s peaceful life. Wendy noded her head and smile to the older girl,

“I can’t say that understand.. I can’t say that I forgive you, because I can’t.. You disappear without any trace, like you become a foam in the air.. Im looking every where for you and people might think I am crazy, but indeed I am.. You make me crazy, and after that I saw you at the news, getting married to Jung’s heir.. What do you think about my feeling at that time unnie?” Wendy said, her expression is flat but sad, JooHyun bow her head slightly, couldn’t bear to look at Wendy face,

“Sorry..” JooHyun whisper, almost talking to herself but Wendy could hear it,

“After so many years, I still can’t get rid of you, from my life, my head, everything I see make me think about you.. Even in have my marriage life, all I think is you, I’m a bad mother and wife for them.. I can’t even let them know me, dig deeper inside me, because I know that my soul, heart, and mind is taken from me, that I didn’t love Heechul, I tried but it failed miserably. And You know unnie, the saddest thing is.. I still love you the way I am..” Wendy expression become soft and she reach for JooHyun hand, the older girl look up with the same hurt expression as Wendy now,

“Im sorry.. I will do anything to make it up.. just tell me..” the only thing JooHyun could said, the brust of emotion is too much for her, its mixed and hurt. JooHyun hold back Wendy hand and smile for the young girl. Wendy sigh heavily and smile back, she feel like some of her burden is lifted up from her shoulder, it feels good to be able to talk to JooHyun about her feeling, even just a little bit of it..

“Are you sure?” Wendy asked with serious tone, she know the risk and could avoid it, but she’s crazy, already lost her rationality because of JooHyun, right now her greed is bigger than anything, she want JooHyun for herself and doesn’t care about anything, its wrong but why does she feel so right? Confusing right..

“I will do anything for you.. Anything..” JooHyun said, already drowning in Wendy’s warm stare,

“I want you..” Wendy whisper through JooHyun ear, made the older girl shiver at the sudden contact between her ear and Wendy lips,

“Sure..” JooHyun said, like being hipnotized with Wendy touch, the warm breath that tickle her ear, and the soft lips that only a few inch away from her ear.  JooHyun is trapped and she like it, how helpless she is in front of Wendy, yes.. only in front of Wendy.

“ This time, it’s different.. You know we are not single anymore,  the risk is higher this time.. Are you willing to fight? If you can’t its okay, it’s better to stop here. I can’t let myself blinded upon love anymore unnie, it’s too much to handle..” Wendy said, pulling herself away and looking for an answer in JooHyun blank stare, a sad lonely stare that tore Wendy’s soul,

“If I want to be honest, I will to win you over again, but what about your family? Your Jason? He need you the most at this time..” JooHyun said, remember the information she obtain at the dinner from Wendy. The young girl went silent at the moment make JooHyun caress Wendy soft cheek slowly,

“Unnie..” Wendy said, but JooHyun didn’t look at her,

“I can’t make you choose between me or your family, I will step back from your life.. I can’t ruin it.. Please don’t let me..” JooHyun said, couldn’t even look at Wendy,

“Oh yes you can.. you will make me choose between you and my family, and I will let you ruin me again just for the trade of yourself, this is my revenge at you for leaving me.. I really want to hate you right now, but I can’t.. because I love you too much that its slowly destroying me.. But I will let myself destroyed if its by you..” JooHyun eyes widenen after hearing Wendy words,

“And made me regret everything, for my entire life..” JooHyun answer looking at the river while smile sadly, then her hand creep up to caress the girl face. Wendy close her eyes for the soft gesture JooHyun made, she enjoying herself and craving for more, even it make her scared..

“ Let me become your weakness, dark secret, or anything people call it..” Wendy said, she grab JooHyun face and force the older girl to look at her. JooHyun is taken aback at Wendy’s rough action, but she’s drowining in the Wendy’s warm stare, full of passion, anger, and love, she like it..

“Let me become the perfect Mrs. Irene’s only weakness..” Wendy whisper and closing the distance between their lips, her hand release JooHyun face and travel down to the older girl milky neck. JooHyun gasped at the sudden contact, but Wendy kiss her before she could say anything, at that moment JooHyun know that Wendy is not her weakness but her biggest weakness, the only one that could destroy her, that will give her despair and strenght, everything.. The kiss is short but gentle, JooHyun and Wendy fall into dreamy stance after the kiss, looking into each other eyes,

“You already are..”JooHyun whisper, Wendy smile hearing the answer. Wendy try to kiss JooHyun again but the older girl back up and flicked Wendy’s forehead, make the young girl groan,

“It’s past midnight now, let’s go” JooHyun said, she get up from the bench and walk back to the restaurant parking lot, Wendy following her while pouting.

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The drive was quiet but comfortable, All Over Again by Justin Timberlake is played filling the ambient atmosphere inside JooHyun car. Wendy look outside the window still upset after arguing about her car with JooHyun, but finally decided that JooHyun going to drive Wendy home and she will tell someone to drive Wendy car back tomorrow morning. A victory smile still visible at JooHyun face, she