It's been long since my last update. Things have been overwhelming and i couldn't find the motivation to write. And i'm aware Jessica is going to release her own book Shine. Honestly, I am happy for her but at the same time, I am worried for the 8 others. Call me paranoid but I foresee another waves of news once the book is out. ppl who are dying to know what exactly cause 930 to happen will treat that book like a holy bible. things that happen in the book will be taken out of context and they will try to fit the characters to the members and things that happen in there will be regard as real. I know things have not happen and I am overworrying like this but I really hope I'm wrong. I started this story because of Jonghyun's passing and fews years down the road, we lost 2 more angels and even Taeyeon's dad. And they are close to the girls as well. It is so hard to imagine how and what they are going through. I really hope the SNS world can have more positivity for them. Whatever i wrote here is not the truth and will never be, I just want to preserve my memories of 9 dorks and faith in humanity.