Uncontrollable Tears
SILVER BLOOD"Why is he here?" Mrs. Lee asked in a high tone when Jinki closed the door behind himself. She was pissed off and Jinki honestly thought she was over reacting. "How many times have I told you he can't come here? Which part of that did you not understand?" She continued as Jinki continued staring at the ground.
Jinki could feel his tears rolling down his cheeks. He was the type of person to always take the fault on his own shoulders and get blamed. And even now he himself kept blaming his self for everything.. For letting Jonghyun get caught red handed.
"Lee Jinki? I'm asking you something.."
"Why can't he come here?" Jinki asked in a soft voice and everybody could tell he was broken inside. "Why is it only him? Why mom..?" He continued.
It was of course a heart breaking scene that everyone was seeing before them. Mrs. Lee too seemed to calm down by his son's reaction.
"Why mom? Why is it Jonghyun?" Mrs. Lee wiped off the river of tears that kept rolling down her son's cheeks and wrapped her arms around him holding him to her chest.
"Is it because he'd remember everything again mom?" Jinki whispered when he was wrapped in his mother's arms. The whole room was silent for few minutes with the younger's statement. Of course they didn't expect that to happen right then. It was supposed to be a secret that only the elders of the families knew.
"What did you.. just say Jinnie?" Jinki could hear the stuttering in his mom's voice. And a few seconds later he could see how his mom and grandma started wiping their uncontrollable tears.
"Since when did you know? How did you know?" She asked again as the boy didn't answer her.
"He was my best friend mom... How can I forget my best friend.." Jinki replied.
"Why didn't you tell me? And does he know that too?" Jinki didn't answer them. He was sad and at the same time he was angry. "Why do you even do this if you can remember everything? We're trying to keep him safe.. Why can't you help?" Mrs. Lee continued.
"Safe..?" It was sarcasm that filled his voice this time. "He's an ORPHAN mom. He lived 15 YEARS in that orphange thinking he had no one. No friends.. No family or anyone.. How many times do you think I've saved him from the bullies? How many times do you think I've healed his wounds mom? How many times do you think he had wiped off his tears before I see him.. Tell me.. How many times do you think mom? You guys broke him.. Do you think he can ever change now? I don't think mom.. I don't think he can start over again. I don't expect him to understand and forgive us either... Do you really think you guys are keeping him safe?" Jinki kept talking in a stuttering voice inbetween his tears.
" I'm gonna do whatever I can. I won't let him break over and over again.. You guys can do whatever you want. If you can.. just don't ask me to not to meet him again.. Please.." Jinki turned to leave the room.
"You don't know what happened. So you better stay away from this.." Mrs. Lee's voice was stern again.
"Maybe I don't know. But I know enough.. And I know Jonghyun is not someone who should live like that. He doesn't deserve to be treated like that.. And if anything, what did that little child do, for you guys to let him grow up alone in a strange place with NO memory?" Jinki closed the door with a loud thud before disappearing through the hallway.
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Jinki recalled Jonghyun's first day at school... They were in 7th grade and Jinki was the class president as always. Jinki saw Jonghyun for the first time in the school staff room. But Jinki was sure it wasn't the first time he was seeing the boy's face.
Jinki's first impression on Jonghyun was that, the boy was too small to be a kid of their age. He looked nervous and scared than an average transfer student, in Jinki's eyes. He kept looking down and never looked directly at the other person when he talked. He was more of a silent person. He didn't talk much and he was stuttering everytime he did. In Jinki's eyes Jonghyun was just a trapped deer.
Jinki knew something was not right ever since he saw the new kid. He kept feeling weird.. like he missed something.. obviously someone.. He didn't know the reason for anything.. To why he was feeling sad or to why he kept yearning for something. But he knew the new kid had somthing to do with it. He didn't hate Jonghyun or anything. It wasn't a bad vibe that he got from him.
Jonghyun being an orphan wasn't a secret to the whole school. And even the fact that he was good at studies. That was the sole reason why he could entered that school. That's when typical school life came into play. Like who'd just accept a nerdy orphan in a prestigious school in the town..? And that's how Jonghyun became the victim of a heartless group of bullies. Jonghyun couldn't even complete his first day without being a one.
Jonghyun's life was beyond the word miserable. On the first few days he just got teased, which just made him break from inside.. but when the days passed one by one, it was physical hurting. And not to mention he was continously bullied at his so called safe place, orphanage too.
That's when Jinki came into his life. He was the first person to reach Jonghyun as a friend.. A real one.. He was kind, caring and everything what Jonghyun wanted at that time. For some reason Jonghyun felt safe and happy when he was around Jinki. Onew's smile was so bright that it made Jonghyun forget everything that he was going through.. at least for few minutes. Jonghyun didn't feel the need to be scared or be sad when he was with him. He started opening upto his tutor and his only friend just in couple of weeks.. He wasn't scared to smile around him or be his self around Jinki. On the other hand even Onew enjoyed being with the younger. He was way too different from the person he was in public, in Onew's eyes.
Days passed.. It only got worse for Jonghyun. He was class's laughing stock when Jinki or Key wasn't around or was the puching bag everytime someone had a bad day. But despite of e
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