A/N: Bwah :( last chapter.. I'm really sad

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 Junhyung's POV:

*Ding-dong*
“Hi Jiyong” Hyunseung said and hugged him. “I'm leaving now! I'll be home before midnight”
My heart ached.

He really left.
Is this how it feels to be broken hearted?

I dumped down on the couch, looking at the TV without really watching.
“You ok Jun?” Doojoon asked from behind me.
I didn't dare to answer, afraid my voice would crack.
When Doojoon didn't get a response, he knew I wasn't ok.
He hugged me from behind and tears started rolling down my cheeks.

“It'll be ok Jun. It's not a real date, nothing will happen between them”
I wanted to believe him. I really did. But I couldn't.
The fact was; Hyunseung had met his ex-bestfriend and agreed to go on a date with him.

How can I be ok with that?

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The hours went by awfully slow and when Hyunseung returned 11:25 pm, I still sat on the couch.
My duvet was wrapped around me, and I were tired from all the crying.
“I'm home!” Hyunseung yelled from the hallway.
“Hey Jun, I have to tell you, Yongie did the funniest thing!”

Yongie? Oh please, no...
Please don't tell me about the date. I'll break down again.

“He-”
Before Hyunseung could say anything else, Doojoon and Dongwoon dragged him into the kitchen, were Yoseob and Kikwang was.
“What's wrong?”
“Leave him alone for now, he's broken hearted”
I could hear them trough the thin wall.
“Oh no! What happened?”
Doojoon hesitated and then sighed.
“The person he likes went on a date with another guy”
Hyunseung gasped and ran out of the kitchen, towards me.

Please don't tell me he figured out.

Hyunseung sat down in front of me, and took my hands in his.
“I'm sorry Jun. I'm so sorry to hear that!”
He looked so sad, but it only made my heart ache even more.
“Did she know about your feelings? Did you confess?”
I shook my head, still unable to speak.
“But if you do, maybe she'll come back for you!”

You have no idea how much it hurts when you say that..

“Maybe” I managed to whisper.

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 Anybody's POV:

Right after that Junhyung went to bed.

“Seungie, how was your date?” Yoseob asked, and everyone wanted to listen.
“It was great! We went to the cinema, and I laughed so hard I almost peed in my pants”
Upon thinking about the movie, Hyunseung started laughing.
“And then we went to the park and fed the ducks in the pond. Jiyong hasn't changed at all”
“Do you like him?” Dongwoon's question was straight forward as always.
“E-excause me?”
“Do you like him?”
“Y-yes, but as a friend, n-nothing more"

Why is he so serious? It's scary. It's like he's accusing me.

Upon hearing Hyunseung's answer, all four looked kind of relieved.
“I'll go check on Junhyung, maybe he wants to talk to someone”
Hyunseung left, and the other let him.

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 Hyunseung's POV:

I opened the bedroom's door carefully to not wake Junhyung up in case he was asleep.

So Junhyung already has someone he likes.

My heart ached, but this wasn't the time to think about me.
I couldn't see Junhyung on the bed.
“Jun, where are you?”
“Right here”
The voice came from behind, and I turned, just to get a hot breath in my face.
“Do you want to talk about it?”
His eyes was red, and his lips swollen.

It hurts to see you like this Jun.

Instead of answering, he pushed me onto the bed and sat down on my stomach, holding my wrists tight so I couldn't escape.
“Jun, please get off, I can't breathe”
But he didn't move an inch. He just sat there looking at me.
“Do you know how it feels when the person you like, likes someone else?” Junhyung asked with tears in his eyes.
I nodded.

I have that feeling right now.
It's awful.
It feels like your heart is broken into a million pieces, which you're not able to puzzle back together alone.

Junhyung leaned forward and laid his head on my chest.
“Your heart is beating fast”

That is normal when the person you like is sitting on top of you...

He took both of my wrists in one hand [A/N: Yes he's that strong]and laid them down above my head.
With his free hand, he started ing my shirt.
“Please don't do this Jun. I know why you do this, but it's wrong. You want love. You want someone to love, and you want that person to love you back”
Tears started threatening to fall.
“But you can't give up on her, before you have confessed”
“It's not a she hyung” 
My eyes widened

Does that mean I have a chance? If he likes guys I mean

“So? It doesn't make a difference. Love is love, and since Doojoon said he went on a date with another guy, I suppose he's gay too”
Junhyung's eyes widened, and his mouth opened and closed once.

He hadn't even thought about that?

Junhyung suddenly turned to me with a smirk
“You're right! He's gay!”

He actually hadn't thought about that?! WTH?

“Can you get off me now?”
“No, let me finish”
“What?! No! Jun, you'll regret this later, I promise you, it's a stupid idea! You're lonely, we can fix it some other way! You'll regret it if anything happens!”
But it didn't help. Instead he leaned forward and kissed me soft, but passionately on my lips.

! This is not good! If he continues I don't know if I'll be able to hold back.

Few seconds later the door opened and four curios heads peeked inside.
Junhyung broke the kiss and glared at them.
“Well, well, well, what do we have here?” Doojoon asked and fully opened the door.
“Thank god, please help me” I sent all four a begging look. “Please tell Junhyung he'll regret it if anything happens”
“Hmm..No. No, I wont tell him that” Doojoon answered after "thinking" for a while.
“WHAT? WHAT DO YOU MEAN NO?!”
I started panicking and twisted and kicked my legs all I could.
“Please tell him! If he does this he'll regret it and things will be awkward forever. I don't want that! I don't want to lose him!” I whispered the last sentence.
A tear rolled down my cheek.
“Please don't do this to me” My voice cracked and everyone could hear the pain.

I don't want to be the person he comes to when he's heartbroken.
I can't listen to that, I'll die inside. I love him to much.

“What's wrong hyung? Why are you crying?” Yoseob asked, and I could see he was suffering, wanting to run over to me at make it all good again.
“I can't be the person you come to when you're having problems with love Jun. I can't be the person who comfort you when you're heartbroken”
I started to tremble, and more tears rolled down my cheeks.
“Why?” Junhyung looked down at me.
“Because it hurts too much seeing you like this”
“Then why did you do this to me?”

“It's a he”, “The person he likes went on a date with another guy”, “I haven't confessed”.
The shock he got when I kissed Yoseob, the jealousy in his eyes when I said I liked the kiss, the disbelieve when I introduced my old friends, how silent he had been the whole time.
And off course, the kiss.

It all hit me as hard as a ton of rocks.
“I-I did t-this to you?”
I didn't know what to say, or even think. 
Hundreds of thoughts went trough my mind all at once.

I did this. I did it. It's my fault.
It's my fault he was crying.
It's my fault his eyes was red and his lips was swollen.
But worst of all: It's my fault he's heartbroken.

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 Junhhyung's POV:

I didn't know what to do or say.
Hyunseung laid totally still.
At one point he was so quiet I actually thought he was dead, but then he said:
“I-I did t-this to you?”
I couldn't do anything but nod.

Doojoon, Yoseob, Kikwang and Dongwoon was as shocked as Hyunseung.
They had never thought I would ever tell Hyunseung that this was his fault.
I hadn't planned to either, but I just blurted it out, and it was no way to take it back.

“How? Uhm, when?” Hyunseung talked again
“I don't know, and somewhere along our months together I guess”
“Then I understand why you won't regret this”
Even though Hyunseung was totally serious when he said that, I couldn't help but laugh.

“I think we'll leave the rest to you Jun” Doojoon said and walked out with the other three.
“What's so funny?”
“You're cute”
And finally it seemed like he was coming back to the real world.
“I love you Seungie. Please be the person who comforts me. Please be the person I can talk to when I'm sad. Please love me back”

I let go of his wrists, determined to let him go if he wanted to.
But instead he wrapped his arms around my neck and pulled me down into a kiss.
“ I already love you Junnie~”

Just the thought of kissing Hyunseung made my head light, so actually kissing him made me lose control of my common sense, and I went along with my longing.

“I want you Seungie. I want you so much right now!”
“Then make me yours Junnie”
I swear, if I had any control before he said that, I didn't any more.

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A/N: Buuhuuuuu, it's over :'( What am I supposed to do now? :/

well well, I have to think about the next fanfic I guess :)

If I was with my readers right now I would sqeeze all of you in a thight hug, but since I'm not, just pretend that I do ^^ Thank you all for reading and all your lovely comments that made this fic exciting to write<3

I've started a new fic with the paring Dooseob, so if you want to you can check it out below ;) The first chapter will be out really soon!

http://www.asianfanfics.com/story/view/131348/what-about-my-dream-dooseob-junseung-kiwoon-romance-

LAST PICTURE SPAM: (goodbye edition)

Kikwang so pretty *^*

Okay I just had to show this to you. I died o.O