He looked at her, his throat is dry and his heartbeats are loud, not knowing what to say. She smiled a small smile, not even feeling her hands from shaking, she squeezed her palms tightly and toke all the energy in her body so she won't stop in the middle and break down in tears saying "You don't have to pretend that you're heartbroken and disconsolate because the moment I leave you all you will think about is how relieving it is that you've finally let me go, it has completely ended and maybe how you will tell her that it is over and you are finally coming over without feeling guilty for the first time in your life, so please don't pretend, don't build up my hopes again, because you are the kind of guy to wreck every hope ever left."

-Excerpt from a book I'll never write #5