I feel like I'm lying to myself. I keep making up scenario's of meeting her. I can't keep up with her anymore.

She's been everywhere I usually go to. I'm surprised she hasn't noticed. Or maybe she has. Just ignoring the thought of me...

Aish! Me and my thoughts. Can't control them sometimes. Talking about control.

I went to a counselor, and met Taehyung. Such an alien. So weird and creative. Why is he here? He shouldn't be here, stuck with a therapist.

But again, my counselor is the most nicest person on earth. This is why I haven't complained about Mr. Kim Seokjin. Or as I call him, Jin.

Usually I think this stuff is fake and doesn't work but it does. It keeps me surviving each day. Hallucinations dont happen that much anymore. That's good.