Terms and condition
AddictionTerms and conditions
If anyone had walked into my room, they would have thought they had walked into a relentless staring contest with my phone.
The night after me and Y/N “meant” in the piano room, I hadn't seen her the whole day, although I did see her on weekly Idol. And there was one thing, one burning question that was bugging me the whole day.
Did she really understand what I was asking from her?
Granted, I barely understood what I was asking. I said it in the spur of the moment.
You need it you say? I suppose that what we have in common.
I thought real hard, thinking that maybe what I said could be misinterpreted in any other way.
That's how I feel about you.
Do you understand?
I told her I need her!
Since when have I become the guy that can't control the that come out of my mouth.
With how sensitive the situation and how our “Arrangement” is, I can't afford any miscommunication. And yet....
Yoongi- “I can’t ing texted her.”
Jin- “Text who?”
I quickly jumped at my phone as soon as he came through the door. Cause, of course he would come in at such a convenient moment.
Yoongi- “Nothing!”
Jin was taken back by my high pitch volume and bizarre behavior.
Jin- “Are you sure?”
Yoongi- “Positive.”
I sprung up from the small desk we shared and scurried into my bed.
Jin- “ok? Well I was going to bed, Is it ok if I turn out the light.”
Yoongi- “Yeah go for it, I think I’m going to do the same.”
With phone at hand I burrowed myself under the covers. Lowering the screen light down, hoping he wouldn't notice. I still felt Jin’s eyes a couple second after. Probably wondering about my uncharacteristic behavior but not too long after I could hear him also go under his covers.
Jin- “Not sure what you're doing under there yoongi, but please, no strange noises.”
I felt my ears turn red but didn't deny whatever his conclusion was. Strange as it may seem, it better that than what it really was.
As I did before and what I feel became a new bad habit, I typed out a text in the message box and hovered my thumb over the send button.
Yoongi (text)- Hey
It's a greeting, I haven't said anything stupid yet so why the hesitation. And even when I was ready to press it, I took a deep breath like I was preparing to dive into cold water
Send
Instant regret
Negative thoughts flooded my head.
What if she thinks I’m becoming a stalker?
Why did I use a close ended greeting?
What if she is sleeping?
Or worst, what if she ignores me?
Why wouldn't she, I basically forced her to sleep with me...twice. And the second time was basically a threat. Damn, what wrong with me.
Oh! She message back.
And with that my thoughts silence, only to return to the stress of not knowing to say.
Y/N (text)-Hey, You’re up late
Well at least her text seem friendly enough.
Yoongi (text)- Yeah, I want to talk to you.
Send
Damn....Again I regret sending that text. Something tells me whatever I would have said was going to cause this anxiety in me.
Y/N (text)- figured, you did text me.
....cheeky, aren't you.
Yoongi (text)- I didn't wake you up did I?
Y/N (Text)- not at all. What did you want to talk about?
Right to the point huh?
It exactly what I wanted to do but beating around the bush calm my nerves a little. Sensitive topics need to be handle carefully.
Yoongi (text)- About yesterday, I’m sorry
I typed it out but I knew that's not what I wanted to say. So I quickly revised.
Yoongi (text)- About yesterday, I’m not sure if I conveyed what I wanted to say properly to you.
Y/N (text)- You mean you're not in love with me?
That text caused a lump to form in my throat, I’m not sure why.
Yoongi (Text)- God, please don't say that.
But my text made it hurt worst.
Y/N (text)- I’m kidding silly. I think I understood what you were asking, you wanted to prolong our arrangement right?
Some sort of tension was release as I read the text. Although I never thought Y/N as dumb, she does seem to rather oblivious, so I was pretty impress she understood something I barely understood.
Yoongi (Text)- You never gave me an answer
Y/N (text)- You never gave me a chance
I did feel a tinge of guilt, but a five second flashback of that night made me feel something a little bit stronger.
No, no, Jin said no.
Yoongi (Text)- Yeah I apologize about that, I did act a little hastily.
Y/N (Text)- And I didn't stop you, so I suppose you have your answer.
Was she mocking me?
Do I really have room to complain though. I can't really backlash when she trying to say yes to me. Don't want to risk her changing her mind.
Y/N (text)- But I have conditions
She text real quick after her last. Which was good because I was debating whether or not to respond with “yeah we can secret buddies” with a smiley emoji
Yoongi (text)- as do I, you go first.
Y/N (Text)- Ok obviously there's the basic; don't tell anyone about this or the drugs.
Yoongi (text)- obviously
Y/N- Ok, also don't treat me any differently than your normally do in front of our members.
Kind of hard to do since everytime I see you I think of Y/N but I’ll try
Yoongi (Text)- That's it?
Y/N (text)- No, Just in the studio room, nowhere else. And you think someone suspects something between us, we need to stop.
Yoongi (text)- Ok, deal.
Y/N (text)- Your turn
Yoongi (text)- I have just one. Once we sleep with someone else, we have to break it off.
I said this with Hoseok in mind.
He said he had no intention on pursuing her, But if he did and she was ok with it, I know I have to let them be.
Y/N (text)- Of course
Somehow I didn't like these rules we made up. Perhaps it's just because I didn't want to feel restricted.
Y/N (Text)- Is there anything else, You’d like to ask me
Yoongi (Text)- Yeah about last night. The thing. Have you ever done that before?
I knew when I sent it that maybe I rather not know or maybe it was offensive to ask, but still I felt it was a fair question.
Y/N (text)- I only slept with one other guy in America and it was with a so you don't have to worry. In that aspect, you were my first.
Y/N (Text)- but we don't have to do it again if you don't approve
Yoongi (text) No, No just curious, I trust you.
And I very much approve.
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