"Have u see the websites Lee Soo Man have sent ? I hope you're fine. Text me when u free." 

Im fine B. Seriously, I didnt want to burden u much. U're pressuring yourself. Either me or you , one of us should budge. Ive just seen them . For now i need my time first. I walk to the kitchen, grab a mug and fill it with orange juice. Yup, im starving. Know what? Ive been crying in the room for 3 hours nonstop. Jeez. 

Tiffany on call!

Should i pick em up? Im sure she's gonna ask me about the news. Neh, my Fany always care much about me. "Hello, Taeyeon-ah. Are you ok? Ive been calling you for thousands times! Have you take your lunch and medicine? Dont make me worry, Taeng-ah." "Yah Fanyfany, Im fine. Just im sleeping before. Just wake up and having lunch now. How about your photoshoot? You wanna hang with Nickhun first or heading home after that?" "Em, yes. Ive just done half an hour ago. Maybe im going out with him first. Wanna order something? Jajang or Ddeobokki? I know youre starving Tae." "Haha, enjoy urself then. Its up to you. See u later. tc." 

the call ended there.Im so lucky to have Fany and SNSD member as my accompany.We know hardship that we have been carry for these 10 years.Morever, since there have been rumors about Jessica leave us. It feels like she have bring half of SNSD heart away. Im taking a bath. I think i wanna go out taking some fresh air. 

I wear black legging, blue jacket and use a cap with mask covering my face. This have should been easy if im not a celebrity. As  i am walking out from my door, ive got a text. 

"Have u got my message before ? I hope you're fine. i miss u. Lets meet."

What should i do with u,B. I do miss u and really really love u. But this relay wont go far. Ive being tired hiding. As i want to delete the message, someone grab my hand make me stunned. That hand drag me into my living room. "Tae-ah, I.. I'm so sorry. Really.. You hurt isn't? Ok, its fine. It's all on me.I'll tell them anything they wanna know. You just step aside from these.. I'll make it all clear.. ok Tae-ah?" Think Tae, think. One second, two second.. and it remain silent for couple of minutes. I want, i want to grab your hand. I want to cry on your shoulder, B. B hold my hand. Try to reassure me, try to grab me in his hug. I push.. push him as hard as i can. "Oh, really? You want to settle everything.. ? Wah, you are superb. Your fans must be so proud right. Then, what? People look down on me, call me coward? Not try to stand up and defense myself? I can't believe it. So, this is your game-ahh?" I smirk and look into his eyes. He smile to me. So beautiful and sweet like oreo. 

"I love u, Tae. Really really. I just want u to be mine .. all by myself. I just really want to have you. I can't let u go, I didn't want it too. But for now, please yeah.. for me, you and everyone. Let me make it clear." Its just to pain to hear the words. It stabbing my heart. I try to convince myself and let everything bygones be bygones. Suddenly, someone open the door.